CHAPTER XLVI.

NURSE'S PLAN.

GERTRUDE stood within the threshold.

She heard Conway's voice speaking in a hushed tone on the stairs, she

saw Mollie's skirts at the corner, and heard her reply In the same awed

way, and then both turned and saw her, and came quickly down to her.

"Miss Ashlyn!" Mollie whispered. "Mother has been so dreadfully ill all

the afternoon, and we have been obliged to send for the doctor. And now

he has come it is worse still, because he has seen Randall, and he says

he has the scarlet fever."

"What?" asked Gertrude in a startled tone, but she had heard well

enough.

"Yes," added Conway; "is it not dreadful? Father is not yet home, and

we are not to even tell mother, her heart is in such a weak state—and

Dr. Forde says either Randall must be taken somewhere to be nursed, or

we must all go away from home."

They had mechanically moved into the dining-room, and stood round the

end of the table looking at each other.

"Nurse says," pursued Ned, who was sitting with his lessons in his

hand, "that if she could leave mother, she would take him somewhere.

But then she cannot, or mother might die, and besides, we don't know of

any place. And it must be done in a hurry, that is the worst of it."

"Where is Randall?" asked Gertrude.

"He is in the nursery at the top. Nurse would not have him put to bed

till you came, because she wanted to consult you about a plan she has

thought of."

"I will go to her, then. Is she up there?"

"Yes—but do not go in, Miss Ashlyn; call nurse outside."

"Very well, but somebody must go in, you know."

She ran up-stairs, and tapped lightly at the closed door.

Nurse came out at once.

"Oh, Miss Ashlyn!" she said in a low voice. "We are in trouble, and no

mistake. If his mother could be asked—but the doctor absolutely forbids

that. I have thought of one way out of it, but I hardly dare ask such a

thing. Have you ever had it, miss?"

"When a child, I believe I did."

That was not the thing that nurse hardly dared ask.

"Miss Ashlyn—if we could find a house—a cottage—or an empty house near

where they would take him in, could you go with him there? I know his

parents would not hear of a hospital, and I have heard of such things

being done, if I only knew where—"

"You want me to find such a place and take him—to-night?"

"That is the only thing I could think of," apologized nurse. "I would

go in a minute, but I should never forgive myself if my doing so caused

his mother's death. The doctor says the slightest alarm might be fatal

in her present state."

Gertrude felt stunned, while nurse could do nothing but gaze anxiously

in her face. How little she knew all that was passing in her mind!

"May I have five minutes to consider it?" asked Gertrude, feeling as if

all the world were turning round.

She went to her room and shut the door.

Slowly, with her hands pressing her forehead till it ached with the

pressure, she knelt down by the side of her bed.

She could not pray; she could only think of the five minutes at her

disposal for her decision, and the numberless things which she must

decide.

Wednesday! Where would be her promise to Otto to come down to Gravesend

to bid him farewell? If she were established as sole nurse to little

Randall, she would not be able to leave him to go to Gravesend?

And even if she could leave him, how about carrying a chance of

infection to that out-bound vessel, which would contain so many

precious lives? How about carrying infection to that only boy whose

life was so infinitely precious to his parents? That boy whom Otto had

already undertaken to guard and cherish to the best of his ability?

And then, supposing she could undergo the sacrifice of not seeing Otto

again, for whom was this sacrifice to be made? For Randall, whom in

that moment of anguish she acknowledged as having almost regarded as

her enemy!

"I cannot do it," she moaned. "I cannot—it is too hard, too much. Oh,

how could nurse ask it?"

And then amidst her tears she bethought herself of praying.

"Lord, what wilt 'Thou' have me to do?" she whispered.

If she could have asked any one's advice! If Otto could be consulted!

If he should bid her do it, would she not gladly, cheerfully?

"Lord, what wilt 'Thou' have me to do?"

Then she gave up all her questioning, all her disappointment, all her

anxiety into His hands, and as she knelt, a wonderful peace stole over

her.

"If thine enemy—" Gertrude started at the word. Surely, surely, it

could not be that she was cherishing such a thought! "'If thine enemy

hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink.'"

"O my Lord," she whispered, "I will do whatever Thou dost point out!

Thou knowest best, only let me have Thee with me, whatever it is, and

wherever I am!"

She rose from her knees, and with the tears still wet on her face, she

went back to nurse.

At her soft knock nurse came back, looking intently in her face.

"If his father wishes it, I will do it. I believe I know a house to

which I could take him at once."

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