XIV

That day, ere he started with Gaspare for the house of the priest,

Maurice made a promise to Maddalena. He pledged himself to go with her

and her father to the great fair of San Felice, which takes place

annually in the early days of June, when the throng of tourists has

departed, and the long heats of the summer have not yet fully set in. He

gave this promise in the presence of Salvatore and Gaspare, and while he

did so he was making up his mind to something. That day at the fair

should be the day of his farewell to Maddalena. Hermione must surely be

coming back in June. It was impossible that she could remain in Kairouan

later. The fury of the African summer would force her to leave the sacred

city, her mission of salvation either accomplished or rendered forever

futile by the death of her friend. And then, when Hermione came, within a

short time no doubt they would start for England, taking Gaspare with

them. For Maurice really meant to keep the boy in their service. After

the strange scene of the morning he felt as if Gaspare were one of the

family, a retainer with whose devoted protection he could never dispense.

Hermione, he was sure, would not object.

Hermione would not object. As he thought that, Maurice was conscious of a

feeling such as sometimes moves a child, upon whom a parent or guardian

has laid a gently restraining hand, violently to shrug his shoulders and

twist his body in the effort to get away and run wild in freedom. He knew

how utterly unreasonable and contemptible his sensation was, yet he had

it. The sun had bred in him not merely a passion for complete personal

liberty, but for something more, for lawlessness. For a moment he envied

Gaspare, the peasant boy, whose ardent youth was burdened with so few

duties to society, with so few obligations.

What was expected of Gaspare? Only a willing service, well paid, which he

could leave forever at any moment he pleased. To his family he must, no

doubt, give some of his earnings, but in return he was looked up to by

all, even by his father, as a little god. And in everything else was not

he free, wonderfully free in this island of the south, able to be

careless, unrestrained, wild as a young hawk, yet to remain uncondemned,

unwondered at?

And he--Maurice?

He thought of Hermione's ardent and tenderly observant eyes with a sort

of terror. If she could know or even suspect his feelings of the previous

night, what a tragedy he would be at once involved in! The very splendor

of Hermione's nature, the generous nobility of her character, would make

that tragedy the more poignant. She felt with such intensity, she thought

she had so much. Careless though his own nature was, doubly careless here

in Sicily, Maurice almost sickened at the idea of her ever suspecting the

truth, that he was capable of being strongly drawn towards a girl like

Maddalena, that he could feel as if a peasant who could neither read nor

write caught at something within him that was like the essence of his

life, like the core of that by which he enjoyed, suffered, desired.

But, of course, she would never suspect. And he laughed at himself, and

made the promise about the fair, and, having made it and his resolution

in regard to it, almost violently resolved to take no thought for the

morrow, but to live carelessly and with gayety the days that lay before

him, the few more days of his utter freedom in Sicily.

After all, he was doing no wrong. He had lived and was going to live

innocently. And now that he realized things, realized himself, he would

be reasonable. He would be careless, gay--yes, but not reckless, not

utterly reckless as he felt inclined to be.

"What day of June is the fair?" he asked, looking at Maddalena.

"The 11th of June, signore," said Salvatore. "There will be many donkeys

there--good donkeys."

Gaspare began to look fierce.

"I think of buying a donkey," added Salvatore, carelessly, with his

small, shrewd eyes fixed upon Maurice's face.

Gaspare muttered something unintelligible.

"How much do they cost?" said Maurice.

"For a hundred lire you can get a very good donkey. It would be useful to

Maddalena. She could go to the village sometimes then--she could go to

Marechiaro to gossip with the neighbors."

"Has Maddalena broken her legs--Madonna!" burst forth Gaspare.

"Come along, Gaspare!" said Maurice, hastily.

He bade good-bye to the fisherman and his daughter, and set off with

Gaspare through the trees.

"Be nice to Salvatore," said Maurice, as they went down towards the rocky

wall.

"But he wants to make you give him a donkey, signorino. You do not know

him. When he is with you at the fair he will--"

"Never mind. I say, Gaspare, I want--I want that day at the fair to be a

real festa. Don't let's have any row on that day."

Gaspare looked at him with surprised, inquiring eyes, as if struck by his

serious voice, by the insisting pressure in it.

"Why that day specially, signorino?" he asked, after a pause.

"Oh, well--it will be my last day of--I mean that the signora will be

coming back from Africa by then, and we shall--"

"Si, signore?"

"We sha'n't be able to run quite so wild as we do now, you see. And,

besides, we shall be going to England very soon then."

Gaspare's face lighted up.

"Shall I see London, signorino?"

"Yes," said Maurice.

He felt a sickness at his heart.

"I should like to live in London always," said Gaspare, excitedly.

"In London! You don't know it. In London you will scarcely ever see the

sun."

"Aren't there theatres in London, signorino?"

"Theatres? Yes, of course. But there is no sea, Gaspare, there are no

mountains."

"Are there many soldiers? Are there beautiful women?"

"Oh, there are plenty of soldiers and women."

"I should like always to live in London," repeated Gaspare, firmly.

"Well--perhaps you will. But--remember--we are all to be happy at the

fair of San Felice."

"Si, signore. But be careful, or Salvatore will make you buy him a

donkey. He had a wine-shop once, long ago, in Marechiaro, and the

wine--Per Dio, it was always vino battezzato!"

"What do you mean?"

"Salvatore always put water in it. He is cattivo--and when he is angry--"

"I know. You told me. But it doesn't matter. We shall soon be going away,

and then we sha'n't see him any more."

"Signorino?"

"Well?"

"You--do you want to stay here always?"

"I like being here."

"Why do you want to stay?"

For once Maurice felt as if he could not meet the boy's great, steady

eyes frankly. He looked away.

"I like the sun," he answered. "I love it! I should like to live in the

sunshine forever."

"And I should like to live always in London," reiterated Gaspare. "You

want to live here because you have always been in London, and I want to

live in London because I have always been here. Ecco!"

Maurice tried to laugh.

"Perhaps that is it. We wish for what we can't have. Dio mio!"

He threw out his arms.

"But, anyhow, I've not done with Sicily yet! Come on, Gaspare! Now for

the rocks! Ciao! Ciao! Ciao! Morettina bella ciao!"

He burst out into a song, but his voice hardly rang true, and Gaspare

looked at him again with a keen inquiry.

* * * * *

Artois was not yet destined to die. He said that Hermione would not let

him die, that with her by his side it was useless for Death to approach

him, to desire him, to claim him. Perhaps her courage gave to him the

will to struggle against his enemy. The French doctor, deeply, almost

sentimentally interested in the ardent woman who spoke his language with

perfection and carried out such instructions of his as she considered

sensible, with delicate care and strong thoroughness, thought and said

so.

"But for madame," he said to Artois, "you would have died, monsieur. And

why? Because till she came you had not the will to live. And it is the

will to live that assists the doctor."

"I cannot be so ungallant as to die now," Artois replied, with a feeble

but not sad smile. "Were I to do so, madame would think me ungrateful.

No, I shall live. I feel now that I am going to live."

And, in fact, from the night of Maurice's visit with Gaspare to the house

of the sirens he began to get better. The inflammation abated, the

temperature fell till it was normal, the agony died away gradually from

the tormented body, and slowly, very slowly, the strength that had ebbed

began to return. One day, when the doctor said that there was no more

danger of any relapse, Artois called Hermione and told her that now she

must think no more of him, but of herself; that she must pack up her

trunk and go back to her husband.

"You have saved me, and I have killed your honeymoon," he said, rather

sadly. "That will always be a regret in my life. But, now go, my dear

friend, and try to assuage your husband's wrath against me. How he must

hate me!"

"Why, Emile?"

"Are you really a woman? Yes, I know that. No man could have tended me as

you have. Yet, being a woman, how can you ask that question?"

"Maurice understands. He is blessedly understanding."

"Don't try his blessed comprehension of you and of me too far. You must

go, indeed."

"I will go."

A shadow that he tried to keep back flitted across Artois's pale face,

over which the unkempt beard straggled in a way that would have appalled

his Parisian barber. Hermione saw it.

"I will go," she repeated, quietly, "when I can take you with me."

"But--"

"Hush! You are not to argue. Haven't you an utter contempt for those who

do things by halves? Well, I have. When you can travel we'll go

together."

"Where?"

"To Sicily. It will be hot there, but after this it will seem cool as the

Garden of Eden under those trees where--but you remember! And there is

always the breeze from the sea. And then from there, very soon, you can

get a ship from Messina and go back to France, to Marseilles. Don't talk,

Emile. I am writing to-night to tell Maurice."

And she left the room with quick softness.

Artois did not protest. He told himself that he had not the strength to

struggle against the tenderness that surrounded him, that made it sweet

to return to life. But he wondered silently how Maurice would receive

him, how the dancing faun was bearing, would bear, this interference with

his new happiness.

"When I am in Sicily I shall see at once, I shall know," he thought. "But

till then--"

And he gave up the faint attempt to analyze the possible feelings of

another, and sank again into the curious peace of convalescence.

And Hermione wrote to her husband, telling him of her plan, calling upon

him with the fearless enthusiasm that was characteristic of her to

welcome it and to rejoice, with her, in Artois's returning health and

speedy presence in Sicily.

Maurice read this letter on the terrace alone. Gaspare had gone down on

the donkey to Marechiaro to buy a bottle of Marsala, which Lucrezia

demanded for the making of a zampaglione, and Lucrezia was upon the

mountain-side spreading linen to dry in the sun. It was nearly the end of

May now, and the trees in the ravine were thick with all their leaves.

The stream that ran down through the shadows towards the sea was a tiny

trickle of water, and the long, black snakes were coming boldly forth

from their winter hiding-places to sun themselves among the bowlders that

skirted the mountain tracks.

"I can't tell for certain," Hermione wrote, "how soon we shall arrive,

but Emile is picking up strength every day, and I think, I pray, it may

not be long. I dare to hope that we shall be with you about the second

week of June. Oh, Maurice, something in me is almost mad with joy, is

like Gaspare dancing the tarantella, when I think of coming up the

mountain-side again with you as I came that first day, that first day of

my real life. Tell Sebastiano he must play the 'Pastorale' to welcome me.

And you--but I seem to feel your dear welcome here, to feel your hands

holding mine, to see your eyes looking at me like Sicily. Isn't it

strange? I feel out here in Africa as if you were Sicily. But you are,

indeed, for me. You are Sicily, you are the sun, you are everything that

means joy to me, that means music, that means hope and peace. Buon

riposo, my dearest one. Can you feel--can you--how happy I am to-night?"

The second week in June! Maurice stood holding the letter in his hand.

The fair of San Felice would take place during the second week in June.

That was what he was thinking, not of Artois's convalescence, not of his

coming to Sicily. If Hermione arrived before June 11th, could he go to

the fair with Maddalena? He might go, of course. He might tell Hermione.

She would say "Go!" She believed in him and had never tried to curb his

freedom. A less suspicious woman than she was had surely never lived. But

if she were in Sicily, if he knew that she was there in the house of the

priest, waiting to welcome him at night when he came back from the fair,

it would--it would--He laid the letter down. There was a burning heat of

impatience, of anxiety, within him. Now that he had received this letter

he understood with what intensity he had been looking forward to this day

at the fair, to this last festa of his Sicilian life.

"Perhaps they will not come so soon!" he said to him self. "Perhaps they

will not be here."

And then he began to think of Artois, to realize the fact that he was

coming with Hermione, that he would be part of the final remnant of these

Sicilian days.

His feeling towards Artois in London had been sympathetic, even almost

reverential. He had looked at him as if through Hermione's eyes, had

regarded him with a sort of boyish reverence. Hermione had said that

Artois was a great man, and Maurice had felt that he was a great man, had

mentally sat at his feet. Perhaps in London he would be ready to sit at

his feet again. But was he ready to sit at his feet here in Sicily? As he

thought of Artois's penetrating eyes and cool, intellectual face, of his

air of authority, of his close intimacy with Hermione, he felt almost

afraid of him. He did not want Artois to come here to Sicily. He hated

his coming. He almost dreaded it as the coming of a spy. The presence of

Artois would surely take away all the savor of this wild, free life,

would import into it an element of the library, of the shut room, of that

intellectual existence which Maurice was learning to think of as almost

hateful.

And Hermione called upon him to rejoice with her over the fact that

Artois would be able to accompany her. How she misunderstood him! Good

God! how she misunderstood him! It seemed really as if she believed that

his mind was cast in precisely the same mould as her own, as if she

thought that because she and he were married they must think and feel

always alike. How absurd that was, and how impossible!

A sense of being near a prison door came upon him. He threw Hermione's

letter onto the writing-table, and went out into the sun.

When Gaspare returned that evening Maurice told him the news from Africa.

The boy's face lit up.

"Oh, then shall we go to London?" he said.

"Why not?" Maurice exclaimed, almost violently. "It will all be

different! Yes, we had better go to London!"

"Signorino."

"Well, what is it, Gaspare?"

"You do not like that signore to come here."

"I--why not? Yes, I--"

"No, signorino. I can see in your face that you do not like it. Your face

got quite black just now. But if you do not like it why do you let him

come? You are the padrone here."

"You don't understand. The signore is a friend of mine."

"But you said he was the friend of the signora."

"So he is. He is the friend of both of us."

Gaspare said nothing for a moment. His mind was working busily. At last

he said:

"Then Maddalena--when the signora comes will she be the friend of the

signora, as well as your friend?"

"Maddalena--that has nothing to do with it."

"But Maddalena is your friend!"

"That's quite different."

"I do not understand how it is in England," Gaspare said, gravely.

"But"--and he nodded his head wisely and spread out his hands--"I

understand many things, signorino, perhaps more than you think. You do

not want the signore to come. You are angry at his coming."

"He is a very kind signore," said Maurice, hastily. "And he can speak

dialetto."

Gaspare smiled and shook his head again. But he did not say anything

more. For a moment Maurice had an impulse to speak to him frankly, to

admit him into the intimacy of a friend. He was a Sicilian, although he

was only a boy. He was Sicilian and he would understand.

"Gaspare," he began.

"Si, signore."

"As you understand so much--"

"Si, signore?"

"Perhaps you--" He checked himself, realizing that he was on the edge of

doing an outrageous thing. "You must know that the friends of the signora

are my friends and that I am always glad to welcome them."

"Va bene, signorino! Va bene!"

The boy began to look glum, understanding at once that he was being

played with.

"I must go to give Tito his food."

And he stuck his hands in his pockets and went away round the corner of

the cottage, whistling the tune of the "Canzone di Marechiaro."

Maurice began to feel as if he were in the dark, but as if he were being

watched there. He wondered how clearly Gaspare read him, how much he

knew. And Artois? When he came, with his watchful eyes, there would be

another observer of the Sicilian change. He did not much mind Gaspare,

but he would hate Artois. He grew hot at the mere thought of Artois being

there with him, observing, analyzing, playing the literary man's part in

this out-door life of the mountains and of the sea.

"I'm not a specimen," he said to himself, "and I'm damned if I'll be

treated as one!"

It did not occur to him that he was anticipating that which might never

happen. He was as unreasonable as a boy who foresees possible

interference with his pleasures.

This decision of Hermione to bring with her to Sicily Artois, and its

communication to Maurice, pushed him on to the recklessness which he had

previously resolved to hold in check. Had Hermione been returning to him

alone he would have felt that a gay and thoughtless holiday time was

coming to an end, but he must have felt, too, that only tenderness and

strong affection were crossing the sea from Africa to bind him in chains

that already he had worn with happiness and peace. But the knowledge that

with Hermione was coming Artois gave to him a definite vision of

something that was like a cage. Without consciously saying it to himself,

he had in London been vaguely aware of Artois's coldness of feeling

towards him. Had any one spoken of it to him he would probably have

denied that this was so. There are hidden things in a man that he himself

does not say to himself that he knows of. But Maurice's vision of a cage

was conjured up by Artois's mental attitude towards him in London, the

attitude of the observer who might, in certain circumstances, be cruel,

who was secretly ready to be cruel. And, anticipating the unpleasant

probable, he threw himself with the greater violence into the enjoyment

of his few more days of complete liberty.

He wrote to Hermione, expressing as naturally as he could his ready

acquiescence in her project, and then gave himself up to the

light-heartedness that came with the flying moments of these last days of

emancipation in the sun. His mood was akin to the mood of the rich man,

"Let us eat and drink, for to-morrow we die." The music, he knew, must

presently fail. The tarantella must come to an end. Well, then he would

dance with his whole soul. He would not husband his breath nor save his

strength. He would be thoughtless because for a moment he had thought too

much, too much for his nature of the dancing faun who had been given for

a brief space of time his rightful heritage.

Each day now he went down to the sea.

"How hot it is!" he would say to Gaspare. "If I don't have a bath I shall

be suffocated."

"Si, signore. At what time shall we go?"

"After the siesta. It will be glorious in the sea to-day."

"Si, signore, it is good to be in the sea."

The boy smiled, at last would sometimes laugh. He loved his padrona, but

he was a male and a Sicilian. And the signora had gone across the sea to

her friend. These visits to the sea seemed to him very natural. He would

have done the same as his padrone in similar circumstances with a light

heart, with no sense of doing wrong. Only sometimes he raised a warning

voice.

"Signorino," he would say, "do not forget what I have told you."

"What, Gaspare?"

"Salvatore is birbante. You think he likes you."

"Why shouldn't he like me?"

"You are a forestiere. To him you are as nothing. But he likes your

money."

"Well, then? I don't care whether he likes me or not. What does it

matter?"

"Be careful, signorino. The Sicilian has a long hand. Every one knows

that. Even the Napoletano knows that. I have a friend who was a soldier

at Naples, and--"

"Come, now, Gaspare! What reason will there ever be for Salvatore to turn

against me?"

"Va bene, signorino, va bene! But Salvatore is a bad man when he thinks

any one has tried to do him a wrong. He has blood in his eyes then, and

when we Sicilians see through blood we do not care what we do--no, not if

all the world is looking at us."

"I shall do no wrong to Salvatore. What do you mean?"

"Niente, signorino, niente!"

"Stick the cloth on Tito, and put something in the pannier. Al mare! Al

mare!"

The boy's warning rang in deaf ears. For Maurice really meant what he

said. He was reckless, perhaps, but he was going to wrong no one, neither

Salvatore, nor Hermione, nor Maddalena. The coming of Artois drove him

into the arms of pleasure, but it would never drive him into the arms of

sin. For it was surely no sin to make a little love in this land of the

sun, to touch a girl's hand, to snatch a kiss sometimes from the soft

lips of a girl, from whom he would never ask anything more, whatever

leaping desire might prompt him.

And Salvatore was always at hand. He seldom put to sea in these days

unless Maurice went with him in the boat. His greedy eyes shone with a

light of satisfaction when he saw Tito coming along the dusty white road

from Isola Bella, and at night, when he crossed himself superstitiously

before Maria Addolorata, he murmured a prayer that more strangers might

be wafted to his "Paese," many strangers with money in their pockets and

folly in their hearts. Then let the sea be empty of fish and the wind of

the storm break up his boat--it would not matter. He would still live

well. He might even at the last have money in the bank at Marechiaro,

houses in the village, a larger wine-shop than Oreste in the Corso.

But he kept his small eyes wide open and seldom let Maddalena be long

alone with the forestiere, and this supervision began to irritate

Maurice, to make him at last feel hostile to Salvatore. He remembered

Gaspare's words about the fisherman--"To him you are as nothing. But he

likes your money"--and a longing to trick this fox of the sea, who wanted

to take all and make no return, came to him.

"Why can one never be free in this world?" he thought, almost angrily.

"Why must there always be some one on the watch to see what one is doing,

to interfere with one's pleasure?"

He began presently almost to hate Salvatore, who evidently thought that

Maurice was ready to wrong him, and who, nevertheless, grasped greedily

at every soldo that came from the stranger's pocket, and touted

perpetually for more.

His attitude was hideous. Maurice pretended not to notice it, and was

careful to keep on the most friendly possible terms with him. But, while

they acted their parts, the secret sense of enmity grew steadily in the

two men, as things grow in the sun. When Maurice saw the fisherman, with

a smiling, bird's face, coming to meet him as he climbed up through the

trees to the sirens' house, he sometimes longed to strike him. And when

Maurice went away with Gaspare in the night towards the white road where

Tito, tied to a stake, was waiting to carry the empty pannier that had

contained a supper up the mountain to the house of the priest, Salvatore

stood handling his money, and murmuring:

"Maledetto straniero! Madonna! Ma io sono più birbante di Lei, mille

volte più birbante, Dio mio!"

And he laughed as he went towards the sirens' house. It amused him to

think that a stranger, an "Inglese," fancied that he could play with a

Sicilian, who had never been "worsted," even by one of his own

countrymen.

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