CHAPTER LXXVII.

He endeavours to Reconcile himself to his Mistress, and Expostulates

with the Uncle, who forbids him the House.

In this state of division, he went home to his own lodgings in a chair;

and while he deliberated with himself whether he should relinquish

the pursuit, and endeavour to banish her idea from his breast, or go

immediately and humble himself before his exasperated mistress, and

offer his hand as an atonement for his crime, his servant put in his

hand a packet, which had been delivered by a ticket porter at the

door. He no sooner perceived that the superscription was in Emilia's

handwriting, than he guessed the nature of the contents; and, opening

the seal with disordered eagerness, found the jewels he had given to her

enclosed in a billet, couched in these words:--

“That I may have no cause to reproach myself with having

retained the least memorial of a wretch whom I equally

despise and abhor, I take this opportunity of restoring

these ineffectual instruments of his infamous design upon

the honour of

“Emilia.”

His chagrin was so much galled and inflamed at the bitterness of this

contemptuous message, that he gnawed his fingers till the blood ran

over his nails, and even wept with vexation. Sometimes he vowed revenge

against her haughty virtue, and reviled himself for his precipitate

declaration, before his scheme was brought to maturity; then he would

consider her behaviour with reverence and regard, and bow before the

irresistible power of her attractions. In short, his breast was torn by

conflicting passions: love, shame, and remorse, contended with vanity,

ambition, and revenge; and the superiority was still doubtful when

headstrong desire interposed, and decided in favour of an attempt

towards a reconciliation with the offended fair.

Impelled by this motive, he set out in the afternoon for the house of

her uncle, not without hopes of that tender enjoyment, which never fails

to attend an accommodation betwixt two lovers of taste and sensibility.

Though the consciousness of his trespass encumbered him with an air of

awkward confusion, he was too confident of his own qualifications and

address to despair of forgiveness; and, by that time he arrived at the

citizen's gate, he had conned a very artful and pathetic harangue, which

he proposed to utter in his own behalf, laying the blame of his conduct

on the impetuosity of his passion, increased by the burgundy which he

had too liberally drunk; but he did not meet with an opportunity to

avail himself of this preparation. Emilia, suspecting that he would

take some step of this kind to retrieve her favour, had gone abroad

on pretence of visiting, after having signified to her kinsman her

resolution to avoid the company of Peregrine, on account of some

ambiguities which, she said, were last night remarkable in his demeanour

at the masquerade. She chose to insinuate her suspicion in these hints,

rather than give an explicit detail of the young man's dishonourable

contrivance, which might have kindled the resentment of the family to

some dangerous pitch of animosity and revenge.

Our adventurer, finding himself baffled in his expectation of seeing

her, inquired for the old gentleman, with whom he thought he had

influence enough to make his apology good, in case he should find

him prepossessed by the young lady's information. But here too he was

disappointed, the uncle having gone to dine in the country, and his wife

was indisposed; so that he had no pretext for staying in the house till

the return of his charmer. Being, however, fruitful of expedients, he

dismissed his chariot, and took possession of a room in a tavern, the

windows of which fronted the merchant's gate; and there he proposed to

watch until he should see her approach. This scheme he put in practice

with indefatigable patience, though it was not attended with the

expected success.

Emilia, whose caution was equally vigilant and commendable, foreseeing

that she might be exposed to the fertility of his invention, came home

by a private passage, and entered by a postern, which was altogether

unknown to her admirer; and her uncle did not arrive until it was so

late that he could not, with any decency, demand a conference.

Next morning, he did not fail to present himself at the door, and his

mistress being denied by her own express direction, insisted upon

seeing the master of the house, who received him with such coldness of

civility, as plainly gave him to understand that he was acquainted with

the displeasure of his niece. He, therefore, with an air of candour,

told the citizen, he could easily perceive by his behaviour that he was

the confidant of Miss Emily, of whom he was come to ask pardon for the

offence he had given; and did not doubt, if he could be admitted to her

presence, that he should be able to convince her that he had not erred

intentionally, or at least propose such reparation as would effectually

atone for his fault.

To this remonstrance the merchant, without any ceremony or

circumlocution, answered, that though he was ignorant of the nature of

his offence, he was very certain, that it must have been something

very flagrant that could irritate his niece to such a degree, against a

person for whom she had formerly a most particular regard. He owned, she

had declared her intention to renounce his acquaintance for ever, and,

doubtless, she had good reason for so doing; neither would he undertake

to promote an accommodation, unless he would give him full power to

treat on the score of matrimony, which he supposed would be the only

means of evincing his own sincerity, and obtaining Emilia's forgiveness.

Peregrine's pride was kindled by this blunt declaration, which he could

not help considering as the result of a scheme concerted betwixt the

young lady and her uncle, in order to take advantage of his heat. He

therefore replied, with manifest signs of disgust, that he did not

apprehend there was any occasion for a mediator to reconcile the

difference betwixt Emilia and him; and that all he desired was an

opportunity of pleading in his own behalf. The citizen frankly told

him, that, as his niece had expressed an earnest desire of avoiding his

company, he would not put the least constraint upon her inclination;

and, in the meantime, gave him to know, that he was particularly

engaged. Our hero, glowing with indignation at this supercilious

treatment, “I was in the wrong,” said he, “to look for good manners so

far on this side of Temple-bar; but you must give me leave to tell you,

sir, that unless I am favoured with an interview with Miss Gauntlet,

I shall conclude that you have actually laid a constraint upon her

inclination, for some sinister purposes of your own.”--“Sir,” replied

the old gentleman, “you are welcome to make what conclusions shall seem

good unto your own imagination; but pray be so good as to allow me

the privilege of being master in my own house.” So saying, he very

complaisantly showed him to the door; and our lover being diffident of

his own temper, as well as afraid of being used with greater indignity,

in a place where his personal prowess would only serve to heighten his

disgrace, quitted the house in a transport of rage, which he could not

wholly suppress, telling the landlord, that if his age did not protect

him, he would have chastised him for his insolent behaviour.

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