3. II. MISGIVINGS ON THE RE-EMBODIMENT

Pierston had been about to leave, but he sat down again on being asked

if he would stay and have a cup of tea. He hardly knew for a moment what

he did; a dim thought that Avice--the renewed Avice--might come into the

house made his reseating himself an act of spontaneity.

He forgot that twenty years earlier he had called the now Mrs. Pierston

an elf, a witch; and that lapse of time had probably not diminished the

subtleties implied by those epithets. He did not know that she had noted

every impression that her daughter had made upon him.

How he contrived to attenuate and disperse the rather tender

personalities he had opened up with the new Avice's mother, Pierston

never exactly defined. Perhaps she saw more than he thought she

saw--read something in his face--knew that about his nature which he

gave her no credit for knowing. Anyhow, the conversation took the form

of a friendly gossip from that minute, his remarks being often given

while his mind was turned elsewhere.

But a chill passed through Jocelyn when there had been time for

reflection. The renewed study of his art in Rome without any

counterbalancing practical pursuit had nourished and developed his

natural responsiveness to impressions; he now felt that his old trouble,

his doom--his curse, indeed, he had sometimes called it--was come

back again. His divinity was not yet propitiated for that original sin

against her image in the person of Avice the First, and now, at the age

of one-and-sixty, he was urged on and on like the Jew Ahasuerus--or, in

the phrase of the islanders themselves, like a blind ram.

The Goddess, an abstraction to the general, was a fairly real personage

to Pierston. He had watched the marble images of her which stood in his

working-room, under all changes of light and shade in the brightening

of morning, in the blackening of eve, in moonlight, in lamplight. Every

line and curve of her body none, naturally, knew better than he;

and, though not a belief, it was, as has been stated, a formula, a

superstition, that the three Avices were inter-penetrated with her

essence.

'And the next Avice--your daughter,' he said stumblingly; 'she is, you

say, a governess at the castle opposite?'

Mrs. Pierston reaffirmed the fact, adding that the girl often slept at

home because she, her mother, was so lonely. She often thought she would

like to keep her daughter at home altogether.

'She plays that instrument, I suppose?' said Pierston, regarding the

piano.

'Yes, she plays beautifully; she had the best instruction that masters

could give her. She was educated at Sandbourne.'

'Which room does she call hers when at home?' he asked curiously.

'The little one over this.'

It had been his own. 'Strange,' he murmured.

He finished tea, and sat after tea, but the youthful Avice did not

arrive. With the Avice present he conversed as the old friend--no more.

At last it grew dusk, and Pierston could not find an excuse for staying

longer.

'I hope to make the acquaintance--of your daughter,' he said in leaving,

knowing that he might have added with predestinate truth, 'of my new

tenderly-beloved.'

'I hope you will,' she answered. 'This evening she evidently has gone

for a walk instead of coming here.'

'And, by-the-bye, you have not told me what you especially wanted to see

me for?'

'Ah, no. I will put it off.'

'Very well. I don't pretend to guess.'

'I must tell you another time.'

'If it is any little business in connection with your late husband's

affairs, do command me. I'll do anything I can.'

'Thank you. And I shall see you again soon?'

'Certainly. Quite soon.'

When he was gone she looked reflectively at the spot where he had

been standing, and said: 'Best hold my tongue. It will work of itself,

without my telling.'

Jocelyn went from the house, but as the white road passed under his

feet he felt in no mood to get back to his lodgings in the town on the

mainland. He lingered about upon the rugged ground for a long while,

thinking of the extraordinary reproduction of the original girl in this

new form he had seen, and of himself as of a foolish dreamer in being so

suddenly fascinated by the renewed image in a personality not one-third

of his age. As a physical fact, no doubt, the preservation of the

likeness was no uncommon thing here, but it helped the dream.

Passing round the walls of the new castle he deviated from his homeward

track by turning down the familiar little lane which led to the ruined

castle of the Red King. It took him past the cottage in which the new

Avice was born, from whose precincts he had heard her first infantine

cry. Pausing he saw near the west behind him the new moon growing

distinct upon the glow.

He was subject to gigantic fantasies still. In spite of himself,

the sight of the new moon, as representing one who, by her so-called

inconstancy, acted up to his own idea of a migratory Well-Beloved, made

him feel as if his wraith in a changed sex had suddenly looked over the

horizon at him. In a crowd secretly, or in solitude boldly, he had

often bowed the knee three times to this sisterly divinity on her first

appearance monthly, and directed a kiss towards her shining shape. The

curse of his qualities (if it were not a blessing) was far from having

spent itself yet.

In the other direction the castle ruins rose square and dusky against

the sea. He went on towards these, around which he had played as a boy,

and stood by the walls at the edge of the cliff pondering. There was no

wind and but little tide, and he thought he could hear from years ago a

voice that he knew. It certainly was a voice, but it came from the rocks

beneath the castle ruin.

'Mrs. Atway!'

A silence followed, and nobody came. The voice spoke again; 'John

Stoney!'

Neither was this summons attended to. The cry continued, with more

entreaty: 'William Scribben!'

The voice was that of a Pierston--there could be no doubt of it--young

Avice's, surely? Something or other seemed to be detaining her down

there against her will. A sloping path beneath the beetling cliff and

the castle walls rising sheer from its summit, led down to the lower

level whence the voice proceeded. Pierston followed the pathway, and

soon beheld a girl in light clothing--the same he had seen through

the window--standing upon one of the rocks, apparently unable to move.

Pierston hastened across to her.

'O, thank you for coming!' she murmured with some timidity. 'I have met

with an awkward mishap. I live near here, and am not frightened really.

My foot has become jammed in a crevice of the rock, and I cannot get it

out, try how I will. What SHALL I do!'

Jocelyn stooped and examined the cause of discomfiture. 'I think if you

can take your boot off,' he said, 'your foot might slip out, leaving the

boot behind.'

She tried to act upon this advice, but could not do so effectually.

Pierston then experimented by slipping his hand into the crevice till he

could just reach the buttons of her boot, which, however, he could not

unfasten any more than she. Taking his penknife from his pocket he tried

again, and cut off the buttons one by one. The boot unfastened, and out

slipped the foot.

'O, how glad I am!' she cried joyfully. 'I was fearing I should have to

stay here all night. How can I thank you enough?'

He was tugging to withdraw the boot, but no skill that he could exercise

would move it without tearing. At last she said: 'Don't try any longer.

It is not far to the house. I can walk in my stocking.'

'I'll assist you in,' he said.

She said she did not want help, nevertheless allowed him to help her on

the unshod side. As they moved on she explained that she had come out

through the garden door; had been standing on the boulders to look at

something out at sea just discernible in the evening light as assisted

by the moon, and, in jumping down, had wedged her foot as he had found

it.

Whatever Pierston's years might have made him look by day, in the dusk

of evening he was fairly presentable as a pleasing man of no marked

antiquity, his outline differing but little from what it had been when

he was half his years. He was well preserved, still upright, trimly

shaven, agile in movement; wore a tightly buttoned suit which set off a

naturally slight figure; in brief, he might have been of any age as he

appeared to her at this moment. She talked to him with the co-equality

of one who assumed him to be not far ahead of her own generation; and,

as the growing darkness obscured him more and more, he adopted her

assumption of his age with increasing boldness of tone.

The flippant, harmless freedom of the watering-place Miss, which Avice

had plainly acquired during her sojourn at the Sandbourne school, helped

Pierston greatly in this role of jeune premier which he was not unready

to play. Not a word did he say about being a native of the island;

still more carefully did he conceal the fact of his having courted her

grandmother, and engaged himself to marry that attractive lady.

He found that she had come out upon the rocks through the same little

private door from the lawn of the modern castle which had frequently

afforded him egress to the same spot in years long past. Pierston

accompanied her across the grounds almost to the entrance of the

mansion--the place being now far better kept and planted than when he

had rented it as a lonely tenant; almost, indeed, restored to the order

and neatness which had characterized it when he was a boy.

Like her granny she was too inexperienced to be reserved, and during

this little climb, leaning upon his arm, there was time for a great deal

of confidence. When he had bidden her farewell, and she had entered,

leaving him in the dark, a rush of sadness through Pierston's soul swept

down all the temporary pleasure he had found in the charming girl's

company. Had Mephistopheles sprung from the ground there and then with

an offer to Jocelyn of restoration to youth on the usual terms of his

firm, the sculptor might have consented to sell a part of himself which

he felt less immediate need of than of a ruddy lip and cheek and an

unploughed brow.

But what could only have been treated as a folly by outsiders was almost

a sorrow for him. Why was he born with such a temperament? And this

concatenated interest could hardly have arisen, even with Pierston, but

for a conflux of circumstances only possible here. The three Avices, the

second something like the first, the third a glorification of the first,

at all events externally, were the outcome of the immemorial island

customs of intermarriage and of prenuptial union, under which conditions

the type of feature was almost uniform from parent to child through

generations: so that, till quite latterly, to have seen one native man

and woman was to have seen the whole population of that isolated rock,

so nearly cut off from the mainland. His own predisposition and the

sense of his early faithlessness did all the rest.

He turned gloomily away, and let himself out of the precincts. Before

walking along the couple of miles of road which would conduct him to the

little station on the shore, he redescended to the rocks whereon he had

found her, and searched about for the fissure which had made a prisoner

of this terribly belated edition of the Beloved. Kneeling down beside

the spot he inserted his hand, and ultimately, by much wriggling,

withdrew the pretty boot. He mused over it for a moment, put it in his

pocket, and followed the stony route to the Street of Wells.

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