She turned and half-smiled, merely murmuring, 'Yes, sir.'

Well he knew the arrangement of those white teeth. In the junction of

two of the upper ones there was a slight irregularity; no stranger would

have noticed it, nor would he, but that he knew of the same mark in

her mother's mouth, and looked for it here. Till Avice the Second had

revealed it this moment by her smile, he had never beheld that mark

since the parting from Avice the First, when she had smiled under his

kiss as the copy had done now.

Next morning, when dressing, he heard her through the ricketty floor of

the building engaged in conversation with the other servants. Having

by this time regularly installed herself as the exponent of the

Long-pursued--as one who, by no initiative of his own, had been chosen

by some superior Power as the vehicle of her next debut, she attracted

him by the cadences of her voice; she would suddenly drop it to a rich

whisper of roguishness, when the slight rural monotony of its narrative

speech disappeared, and soul and heart--or what seemed soul and

heart--resounded. The charm lay in the intervals, using that word in its

musical sense. She would say a few syllables in one note, and end her

sentence in a soft modulation upwards, then downwards, then into her

own note again. The curve of sound was as artistic as any line of beauty

ever struck by his pencil--as satisfying as the curves of her who was

the World's Desire.

The subject of her discourse he cared nothing about--it was no more his

interest than his concern. He took special pains that in catching her

voice he might not comprehend her words. To the tones he had a right,

none to the articulations. By degrees he could not exist long without

this sound.

On Sunday evening he found that she went to church. He followed behind

her over the open road, keeping his eye on the little hat with its

bunch of cock's feathers as on a star. When she had passed in Pierston

observed her position and took a seat behind her.

Engaged in the study of her ear and the nape of her white neck, he

suddenly became aware of the presence of a lady still further ahead in

the aisle, whose attire, though of black materials in the quietest form,

was of a cut which rather suggested London than this Ultima Thule. For

the minute he forgot, in his curiosity, that Avice intervened. The

lady turned her head somewhat, and, though she was veiled with unusual

thickness for the season, he seemed to recognize Nichola Pine-Avon in

the form.

Why should Mrs. Pine-Avon be there? Pierston asked himself, if it

should, indeed, be she.

The end of the service saw his attention again concentrated on Avice to

such a degree that at the critical moment of moving out he forgot the

mysterious lady in front of her, and found that she had left the church

by the side-door. Supposing it to have been Mrs. Pine-Avon, she

would probably be discovered staying at one of the hotels at the

watering-place over the bay, and to have come along the Pebble-bank

to the island as so many did, for an evening drive. For the present,

however, the explanation was not forthcoming; and he did not seek it.

When he emerged from the church the great placid eye of the lighthouse

at the Beal Point was open, and he moved thitherward a few steps to

escape Nichola, or her double, and the rest of the congregation.

Turning at length, he hastened homeward along the now deserted trackway,

intending to overtake the revitalized Avice. But he could see nothing of

her, and concluded that she had walked too fast for him. Arrived at his

own gate he paused a moment, and perceived that Avice's little freehold

was still in darkness. She had not come.

He retraced his steps, but could not find her, the only persons on the

road being a man and his wife, as he knew them to be though he could not

see them, from the words of the man--

'If you had not a'ready married me, you'd cut my acquaintance! That's a

pretty thing for a wife to say!'

The remark struck his ear unpleasantly, and by-and-by he went back

again. Avice's cottage was now lighted: she must have come round by the

other road. Satisfied that she was safely domiciled for the night he

opened the gate of Sylvania Castle and retired to his room also.

* * *

Eastward from the grounds the cliffs were rugged and the view of the

opposite coast picturesque in the extreme. A little door from the lawn

gave him immediate access to the rocks and shore on this side. Without

the door was a dip-well of pure water, which possibly had supplied the

inmates of the adjoining and now ruinous Red King's castle at the time

of its erection. On a sunny morning he was meditating here when he

discerned a figure on the shore below spreading white linen upon the

pebbly strand.

Jocelyn descended. Avice, as he had supposed, had now returned to her

own occupation. Her shapely pink arms, though slight, were plump enough

to show dimples at the elbows, and were set off by her purple cotton

print, which the shore-breeze licked and tantalized. He stood near,

without speaking. The wind dragged a shirt-sleeve from the 'popple' or

pebble which held it down. Pierston stooped and put a heavier one in its

place.

'Thank you,' she said quietly. She turned up her hazel eyes, and seemed

gratified to perceive that her assistant was Pierston. She had

plainly been so wrapped in her own thoughts--gloomy thoughts, by their

signs--that she had not considered him till then.

The young girl continued to converse with him in friendly frankness,

showing neither ardour nor shyness. As for love--it was evidently

further from her mind than even death and dissolution.

When one of the sheets became intractable Jocelyn said, 'Do you hold it

down, and I'll put the popples.'

She acquiesced, and in placing a pebble his hand touched hers.

It was a young hand, rather long and thin, a little damp and coddled

from her slopping. In setting down the last stone he laid it, by a pure

accident, rather heavily on her fingers.

'I am very, very sorry!' Jocelyn exclaimed. 'O, I have bruised the skin,

Avice!' He seized her fingers to examine the damage done.

'No, sir, you haven't!' she cried luminously, allowing him to retain her

hand without the least objection. 'Why--that's where I scratched it this

morning with a pin. You didn't hurt me a bit with the popple-stone!'

Although her gown was purple, there was a little black crape bow upon

each arm. He knew what it meant, and it saddened him. 'Do you ever visit

your mother's grave?' he asked.

'Yes, sir, sometimes. I am going there tonight to water the daisies.'

She had now finished here, and they parted. That evening, when the sky

was red, he emerged by the garden-door and passed her house. The blinds

were not down, and he could see her sewing within. While he paused

she sprang up as if she had forgotten the hour, and tossed on her

hat. Jocelyn strode ahead and round the corner, and was halfway up the

straggling street before he discerned her little figure behind him.

He hastened past the lads and young women with clinking buckets who were

drawing water from the fountains by the wayside, and took the direction

of the church. With the disappearance of the sun the lighthouse had

again set up its flame against the sky, the dark church rising in the

foreground. Here he allowed her to overtake him.

'You loved your mother much?' said Jocelyn.

'I did, sir; of course I did,' said the girl, who tripped so lightly

that it seemed he might have carried her on his hand.

Pierston wished to say, 'So did I,' but did not like to disclose events

which she, apparently, never guessed. Avice fell into thought, and

continued--

'Mother had a very sad life for some time when she was about as old as

I. I should not like mine to be as hers. Her young man proved false to

her because she wouldn't agree to meet him one night, and it grieved

mother almost all her life. I wouldn't ha' fretted about him, if I'd

been she. She would never name his name, but I know he was a wicked,

cruel man; and I hate to think of him.'

After this he could not go into the churchyard with her, and walked

onward alone to the south of the isle. He was wretched for hours. Yet he

would not have stood where he did stand in the ranks of an imaginative

profession if he had not been at the mercy of every haunting of the

fancy that can beset man. It was in his weaknesses as a citizen and

a national-unit that his strength lay as an artist, and he felt it

childish to complain of susceptibilities not only innate but cultivated.

But he was paying dearly enough for his Liliths. He saw a terrible

vengeance ahead. What had he done to be tormented like this? The

Beloved, after flitting from Nichola Pine-Avon to the phantom of a dead

woman whom he never adored in her lifetime, had taken up her abode in

the living representative of the dead, with a permanence of hold which

the absolute indifference of that little brown-eyed representative only

seemed to intensify.

Did he really wish to proceed to marriage with this chit of a girl? He

did: the wish had come at last. It was true that as he studied her

he saw defects in addition to her social insufficiencies. Judgment,

hoodwinked as it was, told him that she was colder in nature, commoner

in character, than that well read, bright little woman Avice the First.

But twenty years make a difference in ideals, and the added demands of

middle-age in physical form are more than balanced by its concessions

as to the spiritual content. He looked at himself in the glass, and

felt glad at those inner deficiencies in Avice which formerly would have

impelled him to reject her.

There was a strange difference in his regard of his present folly and of

his love in his youthful time. Now he could be mad with method, knowing

it to be madness: then he was compelled to make believe his madness

wisdom. In those days any flash of reason upon his loved one's

imperfections was blurred over hastily and with fear. Such penetrative

vision now did not cool him. He knew he was the creature of a tendency;

and passively acquiesced.

To use a practical eye, it appeared that, as he had once thought, this

Caro family--though it might not for centuries, or ever, furbish up

an individual nature which would exactly, ideally, supplement his own

imperfect one and round with it the perfect whole--was yet the only

family he had ever met, or was likely to meet, which possessed the

materials for her making. It was as if the Caros had found the clay but

not the potter, while other families whose daughters might attract him

had found the potter but not the clay.

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