Chapter 45

While the worst passions of the worst men were thus working in the dark,

and the mantle of religion, assumed to cover the ugliest deformities,

threatened to become the shroud of all that was good and peaceful in

society, a circumstance occurred which once more altered the position of

two persons from whom this history has long been separated, and to whom

it must now return.

In a small English country town, the inhabitants of which supported

themselves by the labour of their hands in plaiting and preparing straw

for those who made bonnets and other articles of dress and ornament from

that material,--concealed under an assumed name, and living in a quiet

poverty which knew no change, no pleasures, and few cares but that

of struggling on from day to day in one great toil for bread,--dwelt

Barnaby and his mother. Their poor cottage had known no stranger’s foot

since they sought the shelter of its roof five years before; nor had

they in all that time held any commerce or communication with the old

world from which they had fled. To labour in peace, and devote her

labour and her life to her poor son, was all the widow sought. If

happiness can be said at any time to be the lot of one on whom a secret

sorrow preys, she was happy now. Tranquillity, resignation, and her

strong love of him who needed it so much, formed the small circle of her

quiet joys; and while that remained unbroken, she was contented.

For Barnaby himself, the time which had flown by, had passed him like

the wind. The daily suns of years had shed no brighter gleam of reason

on his mind; no dawn had broken on his long, dark night. He would sit

sometimes--often for days together on a low seat by the fire or by the

cottage door, busy at work (for he had learnt the art his mother plied),

and listening, God help him, to the tales she would repeat, as a lure

to keep him in her sight. He had no recollection of these little

narratives; the tale of yesterday was new to him upon the morrow; but

he liked them at the moment; and when the humour held him, would remain

patiently within doors, hearing her stories like a little child, and

working cheerfully from sunrise until it was too dark to see.

At other times,--and then their scanty earnings were barely sufficient

to furnish them with food, though of the coarsest sort,--he would wander

abroad from dawn of day until the twilight deepened into night. Few

in that place, even of the children, could be idle, and he had no

companions of his own kind. Indeed there were not many who could have

kept up with him in his rambles, had there been a legion. But there were

a score of vagabond dogs belonging to the neighbours, who served his

purpose quite as well. With two or three of these, or sometimes with a

full half-dozen barking at his heels, he would sally forth on some

long expedition that consumed the day; and though, on their return at

nightfall, the dogs would come home limping and sore-footed, and almost

spent with their fatigue, Barnaby was up and off again at sunrise with

some new attendants of the same class, with whom he would return in like

manner. On all these travels, Grip, in his little basket at his master’s

back, was a constant member of the party, and when they set off in fine

weather and in high spirits, no dog barked louder than the raven.

Their pleasures on these excursions were simple enough. A crust of bread

and scrap of meat, with water from the brook or spring, sufficed for

their repast. Barnaby’s enjoyments were, to walk, and run, and leap,

till he was tired; then to lie down in the long grass, or by the growing

corn, or in the shade of some tall tree, looking upward at the light

clouds as they floated over the blue surface of the sky, and

listening to the lark as she poured out her brilliant song. There were

wild-flowers to pluck--the bright red poppy, the gentle harebell, the

cowslip, and the rose. There were birds to watch; fish; ants; worms;

hares or rabbits, as they darted across the distant pathway in the wood

and so were gone: millions of living things to have an interest in, and

lie in wait for, and clap hands and shout in memory of, when they had

disappeared. In default of these, or when they wearied, there was the

merry sunlight to hunt out, as it crept in aslant through leaves and

boughs of trees, and hid far down--deep, deep, in hollow places--like

a silver pool, where nodding branches seemed to bathe and sport; sweet

scents of summer air breathing over fields of beans or clover; the

perfume of wet leaves or moss; the life of waving trees, and shadows

always changing. When these or any of them tired, or in excess of

pleasing tempted him to shut his eyes, there was slumber in the midst

of all these soft delights, with the gentle wind murmuring like music in

his ears, and everything around melting into one delicious dream.

Their hut--for it was little more--stood on the outskirts of the town,

at a short distance from the high road, but in a secluded place, where

few chance passengers strayed at any season of the year. It had a plot

of garden-ground attached, which Barnaby, in fits and starts of working,

trimmed, and kept in order. Within doors and without, his mother

laboured for their common good; and hail, rain, snow, or sunshine, found

no difference in her.

Though so far removed from the scenes of her past life, and with so

little thought or hope of ever visiting them again, she seemed to have

a strange desire to know what happened in the busy world. Any old

newspaper, or scrap of intelligence from London, she caught at with

avidity. The excitement it produced was not of a pleasurable kind, for

her manner at such times expressed the keenest anxiety and dread; but it

never faded in the least degree. Then, and in stormy winter nights, when

the wind blew loud and strong, the old expression came into her face,

and she would be seized with a fit of trembling, like one who had an

ague. But Barnaby noted little of this; and putting a great constraint

upon herself, she usually recovered her accustomed manner before the

change had caught his observation.

Grip was by no means an idle or unprofitable member of the humble

household. Partly by dint of Barnaby’s tuition, and partly by pursuing a

species of self-instruction common to his tribe, and exerting his powers

of observation to the utmost, he had acquired a degree of sagacity

which rendered him famous for miles round. His conversational powers and

surprising performances were the universal theme: and as many

persons came to see the wonderful raven, and none left his exertions

unrewarded--when he condescended to exhibit, which was not always,

for genius is capricious--his earnings formed an important item in the

common stock. Indeed, the bird himself appeared to know his value well;

for though he was perfectly free and unrestrained in the presence of

Barnaby and his mother, he maintained in public an amazing gravity,

and never stooped to any other gratuitous performances than biting

the ankles of vagabond boys (an exercise in which he much delighted),

killing a fowl or two occasionally, and swallowing the dinners of

various neighbouring dogs, of whom the boldest held him in great awe and

dread.

Time had glided on in this way, and nothing had happened to disturb or

change their mode of life, when, one summer’s night in June, they were

in their little garden, resting from the labours of the day. The widow’s

work was yet upon her knee, and strewn upon the ground about her; and

Barnaby stood leaning on his spade, gazing at the brightness in the

west, and singing softly to himself.

‘A brave evening, mother! If we had, chinking in our pockets, but a few

specks of that gold which is piled up yonder in the sky, we should be

rich for life.’

‘We are better as we are,’ returned the widow with a quiet smile. ‘Let

us be contented, and we do not want and need not care to have it, though

it lay shining at our feet.’

‘Ay!’ said Barnaby, resting with crossed arms on his spade, and looking

wistfully at the sunset, ‘that’s well enough, mother; but gold’s a good

thing to have. I wish that I knew where to find it. Grip and I could do

much with gold, be sure of that.’

‘What would you do?’ she asked.

‘What! A world of things. We’d dress finely--you and I, I mean; not

Grip--keep horses, dogs, wear bright colours and feathers, do no more

work, live delicately and at our ease. Oh, we’d find uses for it,

mother, and uses that would do us good. I would I knew where gold was

buried. How hard I’d work to dig it up!’

‘You do not know,’ said his mother, rising from her seat and laying her

hand upon his shoulder, ‘what men have done to win it, and how they have

found, too late, that it glitters brightest at a distance, and turns

quite dim and dull when handled.’

‘Ay, ay; so you say; so you think,’ he answered, still looking eagerly

in the same direction. ‘For all that, mother, I should like to try.’

‘Do you not see,’ she said, ‘how red it is? Nothing bears so many stains

of blood, as gold. Avoid it. None have such cause to hate its name as

we have. Do not so much as think of it, dear love. It has brought such

misery and suffering on your head and mine as few have known, and God

grant few may have to undergo. I would rather we were dead and laid down

in our graves, than you should ever come to love it.’

For a moment Barnaby withdrew his eyes and looked at her with wonder.

Then, glancing from the redness in the sky to the mark upon his wrist

as if he would compare the two, he seemed about to question her with

earnestness, when a new object caught his wandering attention, and made

him quite forgetful of his purpose.

This was a man with dusty feet and garments, who stood, bare-headed,

behind the hedge that divided their patch of garden from the pathway,

and leant meekly forward as if he sought to mingle with their

conversation, and waited for his time to speak. His face was turned

towards the brightness, too, but the light that fell upon it showed that

he was blind, and saw it not.

‘A blessing on those voices!’ said the wayfarer. ‘I feel the beauty of

the night more keenly, when I hear them. They are like eyes to me. Will

they speak again, and cheer the heart of a poor traveller?’

‘Have you no guide?’ asked the widow, after a moment’s pause.

‘None but that,’ he answered, pointing with his staff towards the sun;

‘and sometimes a milder one at night, but she is idle now.’

‘Have you travelled far?’

‘A weary way and long,’ rejoined the traveller as he shook his head. ‘A

weary, weary, way. I struck my stick just now upon the bucket of your

well--be pleased to let me have a draught of water, lady.’

‘Why do you call me lady?’ she returned. ‘I am as poor as you.’

‘Your speech is soft and gentle, and I judge by that,’ replied the man.

‘The coarsest stuffs and finest silks, are--apart from the sense of

touch--alike to me. I cannot judge you by your dress.’

‘Come round this way,’ said Barnaby, who had passed out at the

garden-gate and now stood close beside him. ‘Put your hand in mine.

You’re blind and always in the dark, eh? Are you frightened in the dark?

Do you see great crowds of faces, now? Do they grin and chatter?’

‘Alas!’ returned the other, ‘I see nothing. Waking or sleeping,

nothing.’

Barnaby looked curiously at his eyes, and touching them with his

fingers, as an inquisitive child might, led him towards the house.

‘You have come a long distance,’ said the widow, meeting him at the

door. ‘How have you found your way so far?’

‘Use and necessity are good teachers, as I have heard--the best of any,’

said the blind man, sitting down upon the chair to which Barnaby had

led him, and putting his hat and stick upon the red-tiled floor. ‘May

neither you nor your son ever learn under them. They are rough masters.’

‘You have wandered from the road, too,’ said the widow, in a tone of

pity.

‘Maybe, maybe,’ returned the blind man with a sigh, and yet with

something of a smile upon his face, ‘that’s likely. Handposts and

milestones are dumb, indeed, to me. Thank you the more for this rest,

and this refreshing drink!’

As he spoke, he raised the mug of water to his mouth. It was clear, and

cold, and sparkling, but not to his taste nevertheless, or his thirst

was not very great, for he only wetted his lips and put it down again.

He wore, hanging with a long strap round his neck, a kind of scrip or

wallet, in which to carry food. The widow set some bread and cheese

before him, but he thanked her, and said that through the kindness of

the charitable he had broken his fast once since morning, and was not

hungry. When he had made her this reply, he opened his wallet, and took

out a few pence, which was all it appeared to contain.

‘Might I make bold to ask,’ he said, turning towards where Barnaby stood

looking on, ‘that one who has the gift of sight, would lay this out for

me in bread to keep me on my way? Heaven’s blessing on the young feet

that will bestir themselves in aid of one so helpless as a sightless

man!’

Barnaby looked at his mother, who nodded assent; in another moment he

was gone upon his charitable errand. The blind man sat listening with an

attentive face, until long after the sound of his retreating footsteps

was inaudible to the widow, and then said, suddenly, and in a very

altered tone:

‘There are various degrees and kinds of blindness, widow. There is the

connubial blindness, ma’am, which perhaps you may have observed in

the course of your own experience, and which is a kind of wilful and

self-bandaging blindness. There is the blindness of party, ma’am, and

public men, which is the blindness of a mad bull in the midst of a

regiment of soldiers clothed in red. There is the blind confidence of

youth, which is the blindness of young kittens, whose eyes have not yet

opened on the world; and there is that physical blindness, ma’am, of

which I am, contrairy to my own desire, a most illustrious example.

Added to these, ma’am, is that blindness of the intellect, of which we

have a specimen in your interesting son, and which, having sometimes

glimmerings and dawnings of the light, is scarcely to be trusted as a

total darkness. Therefore, ma’am, I have taken the liberty to get him

out of the way for a short time, while you and I confer together, and

this precaution arising out of the delicacy of my sentiments towards

yourself, you will excuse me, ma’am, I know.’

Having delivered himself of this speech with many flourishes of manner,

he drew from beneath his coat a flat stone bottle, and holding the cork

between his teeth, qualified his mug of water with a plentiful infusion

of the liquor it contained. He politely drained the bumper to her

health, and the ladies, and setting it down empty, smacked his lips with

infinite relish.

‘I am a citizen of the world, ma’am,’ said the blind man, corking his

bottle, ‘and if I seem to conduct myself with freedom, it is therefore.

You wonder who I am, ma’am, and what has brought me here. Such

experience of human nature as I have, leads me to that conclusion,

without the aid of eyes by which to read the movements of your soul

as depicted in your feminine features. I will satisfy your curiosity

immediately, ma’am; immediately.’ With that he slapped his bottle on its

broad back, and having put it under his garment as before, crossed his

legs and folded his hands, and settled himself in his chair, previous to

proceeding any further.

The change in his manner was so unexpected, the craft and wickedness

of his deportment were so much aggravated by his condition--for we are

accustomed to see in those who have lost a human sense, something in its

place almost divine--and this alteration bred so many fears in her whom

he addressed, that she could not pronounce one word. After waiting, as

it seemed, for some remark or answer, and waiting in vain, the visitor

resumed:

‘Madam, my name is Stagg. A friend of mine who has desired the honour of

meeting with you any time these five years past, has commissioned me to

call upon you. I should be glad to whisper that gentleman’s name in your

ear.--Zounds, ma’am, are you deaf? Do you hear me say that I should be

glad to whisper my friend’s name in your ear?’

‘You need not repeat it,’ said the widow, with a stifled groan; ‘I see

too well from whom you come.’

‘But as a man of honour, ma’am,’ said the blind man, striking himself on

the breast, ‘whose credentials must not be disputed, I take leave to say

that I WILL mention that gentleman’s name. Ay, ay,’ he added, seeming

to catch with his quick ear the very motion of her hand, ‘but not aloud.

With your leave, ma’am, I desire the favour of a whisper.’

She moved towards him, and stooped down. He muttered a word in her

ear; and, wringing her hands, she paced up and down the room like one

distracted. The blind man, with perfect composure, produced his bottle

again, mixed another glassful; put it up as before; and, drinking from

time to time, followed her with his face in silence.

‘You are slow in conversation, widow,’ he said after a time, pausing in

his draught. ‘We shall have to talk before your son.’

‘What would you have me do?’ she answered. ‘What do you want?’

‘We are poor, widow, we are poor,’ he retorted, stretching out his right

hand, and rubbing his thumb upon its palm.

‘Poor!’ she cried. ‘And what am I?’

‘Comparisons are odious,’ said the blind man. ‘I don’t know, I don’t

care. I say that we are poor. My friend’s circumstances are indifferent,

and so are mine. We must have our rights, widow, or we must be bought

off. But you know that, as well as I, so where is the use of talking?’

She still walked wildly to and fro. At length, stopping abruptly before

him, she said:

‘Is he near here?’

‘He is. Close at hand.’

‘Then I am lost!’

‘Not lost, widow,’ said the blind man, calmly; ‘only found. Shall I call

him?’

‘Not for the world,’ she answered, with a shudder.

‘Very good,’ he replied, crossing his legs again, for he had made as

though he would rise and walk to the door. ‘As you please, widow. His

presence is not necessary that I know of. But both he and I must live;

to live, we must eat and drink; to eat and drink, we must have money:--I

say no more.’

‘Do you know how pinched and destitute I am?’ she retorted. ‘I do not

think you do, or can. If you had eyes, and could look around you on this

poor place, you would have pity on me. Oh! let your heart be softened by

your own affliction, friend, and have some sympathy with mine.’

The blind man snapped his fingers as he answered:

‘--Beside the question, ma’am, beside the question. I have the softest

heart in the world, but I can’t live upon it. Many a gentleman lives

well upon a soft head, who would find a heart of the same quality a very

great drawback. Listen to me. This is a matter of business, with which

sympathies and sentiments have nothing to do. As a mutual friend, I wish

to arrange it in a satisfactory manner, if possible; and thus the

case stands.--If you are very poor now, it’s your own choice. You have

friends who, in case of need, are always ready to help you. My friend is

in a more destitute and desolate situation than most men, and, you and

he being linked together in a common cause, he naturally looks to you to

assist him. He has boarded and lodged with me a long time (for as I

said just now, I am very soft-hearted), and I quite approve of his

entertaining this opinion. You have always had a roof over your head; he

has always been an outcast. You have your son to comfort and assist you;

he has nobody at all. The advantages must not be all one side. You are

in the same boat, and we must divide the ballast a little more equally.’

She was about to speak, but he checked her, and went on.

‘The only way of doing this, is by making up a little purse now and then

for my friend; and that’s what I advise. He bears you no malice that I

know of, ma’am: so little, that although you have treated him harshly

more than once, and driven him, I may say, out of doors, he has that

regard for you that I believe even if you disappointed him now, he would

consent to take charge of your son, and to make a man of him.’

He laid a great stress on these latter words, and paused as if to find

out what effect they had produced. She only answered by her tears.

‘He is a likely lad,’ said the blind man, thoughtfully, ‘for many

purposes, and not ill-disposed to try his fortune in a little change

and bustle, if I may judge from what I heard of his talk with you

to-night.--Come. In a word, my friend has pressing necessity for twenty

pounds. You, who can give up an annuity, can get that sum for him. It’s

a pity you should be troubled. You seem very comfortable here, and

it’s worth that much to remain so. Twenty pounds, widow, is a

moderate demand. You know where to apply for it; a post will bring it

you.--Twenty pounds!’

She was about to answer him again, but again he stopped her.

‘Don’t say anything hastily; you might be sorry for it. Think of it a

little while. Twenty pounds--of other people’s money--how easy! Turn it

over in your mind. I’m in no hurry. Night’s coming on, and if I don’t

sleep here, I shall not go far. Twenty pounds! Consider of it, ma’am,

for twenty minutes; give each pound a minute; that’s a fair allowance.

I’ll enjoy the air the while, which is very mild and pleasant in these

parts.’

With these words he groped his way to the door, carrying his chair with

him. Then seating himself, under a spreading honeysuckle, and stretching

his legs across the threshold so that no person could pass in or out

without his knowledge, he took from his pocket a pipe, flint, steel and

tinder-box, and began to smoke. It was a lovely evening, of that gentle

kind, and at that time of year, when the twilight is most beautiful.

Pausing now and then to let his smoke curl slowly off, and to sniff the

grateful fragrance of the flowers, he sat there at his ease--as though

the cottage were his proper dwelling, and he had held undisputed

possession of it all his life--waiting for the widow’s answer and for

Barnaby’s return.

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