Cicely's Dream

I

The old woman stood at the back door of the cabin, shading her eyes with

her hand, and looking across the vegetable garden that ran up to the

very door. Beyond the garden she saw, bathed in the sunlight, a field of

corn, just in the ear, stretching for half a mile, its yellow,

pollen-laden tassels overtopping the dark green mass of broad glistening

blades; and in the distance, through the faint morning haze of

evaporating dew, the line of the woods, of a still darker green, meeting

the clear blue of the summer sky. Old Dinah saw, going down the path, a

tall, brown girl, in a homespun frock, swinging a slat-bonnet in one

hand and a splint basket in the other.

"Oh, Cicely!" she called.

The girl turned and answered in a resonant voice, vibrating with youth

and life,----

"Yes, granny!"

"Be sho' and pick a good mess er peas, chile, fer yo' gran'daddy's gwine

ter be home ter dinner ter-day."

The old woman stood a moment longer and then turned to go into the

house. What she had not seen was that the girl was not only young, but

lithe and shapely as a sculptor's model; that her bare feet seemed to

spurn the earth as they struck it; that though brown, she was not so

brown but that her cheek was darkly red with the blood of another race

than that which gave her her name and station in life; and the old woman

did not see that Cicely's face was as comely as her figure was superb,

and that her eyes were dreamy with vague yearnings.

Cicely climbed the low fence between the garden and the cornfield, and

started down one of the long rows leading directly away from the house.

Old Needham was a good ploughman, and straight as an arrow ran the

furrow between the rows of corn, until it vanished in the distant

perspective. The peas were planted beside alternate hills of corn, the

cornstalks serving as supports for the climbing pea-vines. The vines

nearest the house had been picked more or less clear of the long green

pods, and Cicely walked down the row for a quarter of a mile, to where

the peas were more plentiful. And as she walked she thought of her dream

of the night before.

She had dreamed a beautiful dream. The fact that it was a beautiful

dream, a delightful dream, her memory retained very vividly. She was

troubled because she could not remember just what her dream had been

about. Of one other fact she was certain, that in her dream she had

found something, and that her happiness had been bound up with the thing

she had found. As she walked down the corn-row she ran over in her mind

the various things with which she had always associated happiness. Had

she found a gold ring? No, it was not a gold ring--of that she felt

sure. Was it a soft, curly plume for her hat? She had seen town people

with them, and had indulged in day-dreams on the subject; but it was not

a feather. Was it a bright-colored silk dress? No; as much as she had

always wanted one, it was not a silk dress. For an instant, in a dream,

she had tasted some great and novel happiness, and when she awoke it was

dashed from her lips, and she could not even enjoy the memory of it,

except in a vague, indefinite, and tantalizing way.

Cicely was troubled, too, because dreams were serious things. Dreams had

certain meanings, most of them, and some dreams went by contraries. If

her dream had been a prophecy of some good thing, she had by forgetting

it lost the pleasure of anticipation. If her dream had been one of those

that go by contraries, the warning would be in vain, because she would

not know against what evil to provide. So, with a sigh, Cicely said to

herself that it was a troubled world, more or less; and having come to a

promising point, began to pick the tenderest pea-pods and throw them

into her basket.

By the time she had reached the end of the line the basket was nearly

full. Glancing toward the pine woods beyond the rail fence, she saw a

brier bush loaded with large, luscious blackberries. Cicely was fond of

blackberries, so she set her basket down, climbed the fence, and was

soon busily engaged in gathering the fruit, delicious even in its wild

state.

She had soon eaten all she cared for. But the berries were still

numerous, and it occurred to her that her granddaddy would like a

blackberry pudding for dinner. Catching up her apron, and using it as a

receptacle for the berries, she had gathered scarcely more than a

handful when she heard a groan.

Cicely was not timid, and her curiosity being aroused by the sound, she

stood erect, and remained in a listening attitude. In a moment the sound

was repeated, and, gauging the point from which it came, she plunged

resolutely into the thick underbrush of the forest. She had gone but a

few yards when she stopped short with an exclamation of surprise and

concern.

Upon the ground, under the shadow of the towering pines, a man lay at

full length,--a young man, several years under thirty, apparently, so

far as his age could be guessed from a face that wore a short soft

beard, and was so begrimed with dust and incrusted with blood that

little could be seen of the underlying integument. What was visible

showed a skin browned by nature or by exposure. His hands were of even a

darker brown, almost as dark as Cicely's own. A tangled mass of very

curly black hair, matted with burs, dank with dew, and clotted with

blood, fell partly over his forehead, on the edge of which, extending

back into the hair, an ugly scalp wound was gaping, and, though

apparently not just inflicted, was still bleeding slowly, as though

reluctant to stop, in spite of the coagulation that had almost closed

it.

Cicely with a glance took in all this and more. But, first of all, she

saw the man was wounded and bleeding, and the nurse latent in all

womankind awoke in her to the requirements of the situation. She knew

there was a spring a few rods away, and ran swiftly to it. There was

usually a gourd at the spring, but now it was gone. Pouring out the

blackberries in a little heap where they could be found again, she took

off her apron, dipped one end of it into the spring, and ran back to the

wounded man. The apron was clean, and she squeezed a little stream of

water from it into the man's mouth. He swallowed it with avidity. Cicely

then knelt by his side, and with the wet end of her apron washed the

blood from the wound lightly, and the dust from the man's face. Then she

looked at her apron a moment, debating whether she should tear it or

not.

"I 'm feared granny 'll be mad," she said to herself. "I reckon I 'll

jes' use de whole apron."

So she bound the apron around his head as well as she could, and then

sat down a moment on a fallen tree trunk, to think what she should do

next. The man already seemed more comfortable; he had ceased moaning,

and lay quiet, though breathing heavily.

"What shall I do with that man?" she reflected. "I don' know whether

he 's a w'ite man or a black man. Ef he 's a w'ite man, I oughter go an'

tell de w'ite folks up at de big house, an' dey 'd take keer of 'im. If

he 's a black man, I oughter go tell granny. He don' look lack a black

man somehow er nuther, an' yet he don' look lack a w'ite man; he 's too

dahk, an' his hair's too curly. But I mus' do somethin' wid 'im. He

can't be lef' here ter die in de woods all by hisse'f. Reckon I 'll go

an' tell granny."

She scaled the fence, caught up the basket of peas from where she had

left it, and ran, lightly and swiftly as a deer, toward the house. Her

short skirt did not impede her progress, and in a few minutes she had

covered the half mile and was at the cabin door, a slight heaving of her

full and yet youthful breast being the only sign of any unusual

exertion.

Her story was told in a moment. The old woman took down a black bottle

from a high shelf, and set out with Cicely across the cornfield, toward

the wounded man.

As they went through the corn Cicely recalled part of her dream. She had

dreamed that under some strange circumstances--what they had been was

still obscure--she had met a young man--a young man whiter than she and

yet not all white--and that he had loved her and courted her and married

her. Her dream had been all the sweeter because in it she had first

tasted the sweetness of love, and she had not recalled it before because

only in her dream had she known or thought of love as something

supremely desirable.

With the memory of her dream, however, her fears revived. Dreams were

solemn things. To Cicely the fabric of a vision was by no means

baseless. Her trouble arose from her not being able to recall, though

she was well versed in dream-lore, just what event was foreshadowed by a

dream of finding a wounded man. If the wounded man were of her own race,

her dream would thus far have been realized, and having met the young

man, the other joys might be expected to follow. If he should turn out

to be a white man, then her dream was clearly one of the kind that go by

contraries, and she could expect only sorrow and trouble and pain as the

proper sequences of this fateful discovery.

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