FOOL-WISDOM
Fancy's approaching confinement aroused no apprehensions in the mind of
Mrs. Yellam. She took it for granted that nothing untoward would happen.
Probably, the doctor in attendance would make things appear more serious
than they were. Deep down in her heart lay the conviction that doctors,
in their own interests, pursed up lips and bent frowning brows over
sick-beds, because when their patients pulled through the greater credit
attached itself to them. Her own confinements had been reasonably easy,
so she told Fancy.
Both women wondered whether Alfred would get his Christmas leave and his
Christmas present at the same time. That double event, however, lay upon
the knees of the gods.
Leave or no leave, Mrs. Yellam told herself that Alfred was safe till
the Spring. Why this conviction came to her she did not explain. Had you
asked her, she would have replied, probably, that the wounded boys at
the Court affirmed nothing to be doing in mid-winter. The sight of
William Saint in khaki nearly made her break into song. The banns of his
approaching marriage to the young person behind the bar were called in
Nether-Applewhite Church, none too soon, according to Jane Mucklow.
Uncle was heard to whisper, "And sarve 'un right!" by neighbours in
adjoining pews. He assured his cronies that Mr. Sinner's punishment was
to come. Susan rejoiced, also, in the notable fact that
Nether-Applewhite harboured no conscientious objectors. Ocknell, the
next parish, was not so fortunate.
In fine, the first half of December glided by swiftly and pleasantly.
Alfred's business became firmly re-established, and, with Saint no
longer competing, more remunerative than ever. Mrs. Yellam said to
Fancy:
"Your child, seemin'ly, may be rich."
She refused to speak of the child as a son. But Fancy's conviction about
that remained impregnable.
"I ought to know, Mother."
"Maybe. But you don't. Nobody knows."
"Alfred wants him to be a girl."
"Do he? I wonders why."
"He said a little maid would traipse so nicely after you. I promised him
to call her Lizzie. She'll be the next."
"Lizzie! Ah-h-h! Alferd be a good son. Fancy his thinkin' o' that.
Lizzie----!"
She spoke the name almost under her breath. A moment later, she removed
her spectacles, and wiped them. The two women were sitting in the
kitchen by the hearth, after supper. A basket held the logs. The cradle
was upstairs in Mrs. Yellam's room. In that room, despite Fancy's
protests, Alfred's child would be born. In that room Susan Yellam's
first baby had wailed his regret at finding himself in a wicked world.
In that room her husband had died. Everything lay ready to hand; the
monthly nurse lived only a quarter of a mile away; the doctor had been
advised that he might be wanted at any minute.
Fancy loved to sit over the fire, listening to the wind talking to the
chimney, telling that stay-at-home the tale of many wanderings. She
liked to make-believe that the winds were real persons, although she had
never heard of Aeolus and his rebellious prisoners. She hated to pick
flowers because they must feel so unhappy out of their own garden. Of
course, they died of loneliness in mid-Victorian vases. She held
inviolate her faith in fairies, beneficent and malevolent. She assured
Mrs. Yellam that Solomon could see pixies dancing in their rings. How
else could you account for his stopping in the middle of a field and
barking?
Of her mother and the four Evangelists she said nothing.
Uncle and she became great friends.
Three days out of the week (as has been mentioned), from October to the
end of January, Uncle served as "beater" to Captain Davenant, when that
veteran went shooting in the New Forest. Returning home, about five,
Uncle liked to wander into Mrs. Yellam's cottage and drink a cup of tea
instead of marching up to the _Pomfret Arms_, where his supremacy as a
talker and man of the world might be disputed by certain bagmen in that
inn, which prided itself upon being "more class" than the _Sir John
Barleycorn_. Fancy paid homage to Uncle, as the favourite brother of
Mrs. Yellam, ministering to his love of creature comforts, making hot
buttered toast and putting cream into his tea, which he never got at
home. Whenever Jane happened to be "miffed" her husband tactically
retreated to what he now termed "Fancy's rest camp." He found her alone
there, because Mrs. Yellam was now on duty at Pomfret Court from two
till seven. Fancy and Uncle would sit by the fire and talk.
Between Uncle's house and the Yellam cottage stood a clump of firs, near
the river. Each year, during the annual migration, ospreys, probably
southward bound from Scotland, would roost for one night only in these
firs. Uncle had watched them many a time. They would circle three times
round the firs and then alight upon them. Always the young birds, that
year's nestlings, would come first. The parent birds followed, perhaps
two days later. The sense of direction, the triple circling round the
same trees, on the part of young birds, who preceded their parents,
filled Fancy with astonishment. Being urban, she delighted in Uncle's
Arcadian lore. She asked him to explain this amazing performance.
"Birds be wiser than we, my girl."
Alfred had made the same remark about water-rats.
"How do they find their way, Uncle?"
"Ah-h-h! How does a young hound find his way back to kennels, when he be
taken to a distant meet by train, to new country never seen afore? You
answer me that."
"I can't. Can you?"
"I thinks I can. 'Tis fool-wisdom. Wimmenfolk has it, because they be
nearer to the animals than we men."
Fancy wondered whether this was to be taken as a compliment. Uncle
continued:
"Fool-wisdom comes from God A'mighty. We be told that He don't forget
one sparrer. I never liked sparrers too well, because they interferes
crool wi' the house-martins, pore lil' dears. Yas--God A'mighty guides
they young ospreys. I've a notion that He'd guide us if so be as we
weren't so set on guiding ourselves. That be the main trouble wi' my
dear sister."
Fancy opened her eyes wide.
"What are you saying, Uncle?"
"I be fool-wise, my girl. I sees that you be mazed. Fool-wisdom be what
we read on in the Holy Book, the sart that God A'mighty gives to babes
and sucklings. My dear sister be full o' man's wisdom, just so clever as
a man can be. She takes credit to herself for every big onion in her
garden."
Fancy said slily:
"But, Uncle, you took credit for George getting the Victoria Cross."
"So I did. A sharp 'un you be, for sartain. 'Tis true. Where would pore
Garge be if I hadn't begotten 'un? And 'twas my brave will as sent 'un
to Salisbury to enlist. But I gives the Lard the credit for pickin' such
a man as I be for Garge's father. And Garge's valorous deed was a
marvellous miracle upsides wi' they young ospreys findin' their way to
our clump o' firs."
"You ought to be a preacher, Uncle."
"Ah-h-h! 'Tis easy for me to preach, allers was; but practisin' be the
devil. Me and Pa'son be o' the same mind about that. But how I be
wanderin' from my text! We was talkin' of fool-wisdom and your dear
mother-in-law."
"She's my mother now."
"Ay. And I bain't fit to black her boots when it comes to practisin'. I
knows that. But she ain't got fool-wisdom, as I calls it."
Fancy considered this attentively. Uncle puffed at his pipe, glancing at
Fancy's pensive face. He saw that he had puzzled her, and pulled himself
together for another effort.
"'Tis like this. Susan be proud because she thinks as she walks wi' God
A'mighty. She takes credit for that, pore soul! Now, I be proud and so
humble as a bee when the Lard sees fit to walk wi' me. That be my
fool-wisdom, Fancy."
"I see."
And she did. Uncle's naive remarks were illuminating. She
could look back, by the light of fool-wisdom, and sort out
innumerable, half-forgotten trifles, unconsidered at the time, which
corroborated, almost disconcertingly, this--what could she call it?
Yes--vaingloriousness on the part of Mrs. Yellam. Another word, in
every-day use amongst the "boys," bustled into her mind--"swank." She
smiled. It seemed a wicked word to apply to such a majestic woman, and
yet it was just right. Mrs. Yellam did "swank" whenever she talked of
herself or Alfred. She had won first prize for the best village garden
at the annual Flower Show, discontinued since the outbreak of war,
because, so she told Fancy, she tended her vegetables herself. Alfred's
robust health, his sobriety, his capacity for steady work, his
churchgoing, his pleasant manners with neighbours--all these were
feathers in Mrs. Yellam's cap, placed there by herself! She was set on
guiding herself and others, admittedly a leader. Uncle was right. His
dear sister did not walk humbly with the Lord. Hamlin's sermon had not
been forgotten by Fancy. His son's death had made it an imperishable
memory. And Mrs. Yellam, it will be recalled, had shrewdly suspected
that the Parson had aimed a shaft or two at her. Had he? Could it be
possible that this wonderful old woman's soul was lean? Naturally Fancy
shrank from such a conclusion.
To lighten her mind, and with the intention of extracting more
fool-wisdom from Uncle, she said mischievously:
"Uncle----?"
"Yas, my dear----?"
"What takes a man to the ale-house? Fool-wisdom?"
Uncle threw back his handsome head and roared with laughter. But
fool-wisdom told him that this was the right way to tackle a backslider.
What a pity that Jane disdained indirect methods! He shook a long
forefinger in a smiling face.
"You lil' besom----! Now, if Alferd ever takes a notion to drink more
ale than be strictly needful to slake a pleasant thirst, you poke just
such fun at 'un, and smile at 'un, as you be smilin' at an old sinner
this minute. My wife be a good, faithful 'ooman, but vartue wi' her be
turned sourish, like that there clarety wine, the only liquor as never
did lie easy on my good stomach. Maybe I married her latish in life. And
cooks, from stewin' over fire, do seem to overbake their livers and
lights. Anyways, hard looks drive a man to ale-house; smiles keep 'un at
home. I admits to you, Fancy, but never a word to Jane, mind 'ee, that
ale be my weakness. 'Twould be blasphemious to say that the Lard ever
walked wi' me _to_ an ale-house, except on one very notable occasion,
but 'tis a fact that in His Marcy He have walked wi' me _from_ the _Sir
John Barleycorn_. And now you has it."
"Tell me about the notable exception."
"Ah-h-h! You knows. The Lard walked wi' me when I downscrambled Willum
Saint. I gives He the credit. He put the notion into my head o' flingin'
Willum's ale into Willum's face, and bashin' 'un wi' his own tankard. I
tell 'ee that notion come to me bang from Kingdom Come. My own notion
was different. I calkilated on a stand-up fight. Willum might ha' downed
me, being so young and strong a man. And I tells 'ee more, a lil'
secret, seein' as you has the trick o' squeezin' secrets out o' sinners:
the Lard walks wi' me when I comes here to see you. And I be drinkin'
less ale in consekence."
With that he kissed Fancy and took his leave.
Solomon jumped into the warm, cushioned arm-chair. But, instead of
curling himself up, he walked three times round the chair, and then sat
up, with his head on one side glancing interrogatively at Fancy, as much
as to say:
"If you want fool-wisdom, why not tap it at its source?"
Fancy eyed him reflectively. All day, the dog had behaved strangely. He
never left Fancy for a moment. But, till now, he had seemed disinclined
for conversation. And he had hardly touched his dinner. Again and again
he had walked round the kitchen, whining a little. Fancy, supposing that
he wished to go outside, had opened the door, but he remained with her,
staring up at her, as if he had some message to deliver. Finally, she
jumped to the conclusion that the dog must be feeling unwell, or,
possibly, cats lay heavy on his conscience.
"What is it, Solomon?"
He whined.
"Got a pain, Solly?"
He regarded her sorrowfully. Till that moment Fancy had been happy and
light-hearted. Uncle had cheered her up. And his parting remark was
uplifting and unmistakable. God had seen fit to use her, Fancy Yellam,
as a humble instrument whereby Uncle's thirst for ale became less
importunate. A warm glow suffused her small body.
And now, suddenly, she felt chilled, uneasy, unhappy, merely because a
dog gazed mournfully at her, as if he, the wicked little sinner, were
grieving for her. Did he know that pain was coming to her inexorably? As
the thought assailed her mind, so swiftly that she winced, Solomon's
tail flickered. Not in joyousness. She divined that. In some uncanny
fashion he was encouraging her to accept this thought of pain, to
confront it valiantly, not to shrink from it.
"Do you know, Sol?" she whispered.
His tail flickered again. He leaped into her lap, and laid his head upon
her bosom. She could feel his heart beating; her own heart beat with it.
Was this another amazing proof of fool-wisdom?
Peace came back to her. Humbly, she committed herself to the keeping of
Omnipotence, thinking intently of her mother. Solomon never moved. She
was intimately sensible that this dumb creature comforted her. She
glanced into the shadows of the kitchen. Had her mother's face and
figure formed themselves out of those shadows, she would not have been
surprised or frightened. She expected to see her. The conviction stole
slowly upon her that the mother stood near her, invisible, but a
powerful protector. And from her would radiate hope and faith and love.
She would be with her in her travailings....
Presently, another thought stole upon her. As Mrs. Yellam said, Fancy
had never seen her mother in the flesh. It seemed so cruel that she
should have been taken at a moment when tiny lips were wailing for what
she alone could give. From a child she had wanted her mother. To-night,
for the first time, it flashed into her mind that, perhaps, her mother
had wanted her--desperately. Just as she wanted her child. How bitter a
disappointment it must be to forego the tender ministrations, the sweet
services which only women know, and which, in their fool-wisdom, they
count dearer than anything the world can bestow.
If--if anything went wrong, she would join her mother....
Solomon lay motionless, but his heart went on throbbing.
Why?
A last thought, the greatest, seemed to float direct from her mother's
mind to hers. Alfred was facing death, daily, with a laugh, facing, too,
the possibility of grinding pain. As a soldier's wife, she must try to
be brave, like him....
Solomon moved restlessly, and then sprang to the floor. He wagged his
tail briskly, as he took up a commanding position near the door. Mrs.
Yellam was approaching the cottage. If Fancy opened the door and looked
out, she would not see her because it was dark. But she would not hear
her, either. And if she called, Mrs. Yellam would not answer, being, as
yet, too far away.
But Solomon knew.
Within five minutes, Susan Yellam entered, bringing with her an
exhilarating atmosphere of keen, fresh air. Her cheeks were red; her
eyes sparkled.
"Frost be coming, and maybe snow. I likes to see God A'mighty's world
white and clean come Christmastide."
The old woman bustled about cheerfully, commanding Fancy to sit still.
She had brought with her a fat hen-pheasant, a gift from the Squire to
Alfred's wife.
"Folks are very kind," said Fancy.
"Ah, well, 'tis easy to be kind when we be happy. Captain Pomfret walked
wi' one crutch to-day. And they be drinking champagne for dinner. 'Tis
the work o' that Lunnon doctor, so they say, a very wonnerful chap wi'
electrics, bridlin' the lightnin', so to speak. And they perfarms
miracles wi' men's faces, manufacturin' noses and what-not just so easy
as pats o' butter. Such fellers must be proud o' theirselves."
"Maybe Mr. Hamlin'll return thanks in church, next Sunday."
"More'n likely. I never thought o' that."
"I wonder," said Fancy, "how it all comes to them, inventions, such as
wireless and--and chloroform as takes away pain."
Mrs. Yellam chided her, very pleasantly:
"Now, don't 'ee flustrate yourself wi' thoughts o' chloryform. I allows
that I can answer your question. Inventions comes to they as works hard
for 'un. 'Tis hard work, and nothing else."
"Uncle would call it--fool-wisdom."
"Fool-wisdom?"
Fancy explained. Mrs. Yellam listened attentively, shaking her head from
time to time. Uncle's position, to-day, would be as financially sound as
her own, had he worked hard at his calling, and spent less time on
crack-brained speculations and less good money on ale. She said as much,
derisively. Fancy said:
"How does Solly know when you turn the corner by the mill?"
"Dog's instinct."
"Maybe 'tis the same thing."
"Fiddle!"
Fancy refrained from pressing the point, but something told her that
Uncle was right, and his clever, practical sister wrong. One thing was
delightfully certain. Happiness had made Mrs. Yellam kind. And it filled
her with piety. She walked proudly with the Lord, carrying a high head.
She had forgiven William Saint his trespasses, and expressed a trenchant
conviction that Satan had removed his headquarters from
Nether-Applewhite to Ocknell. And she was equally sure that Alfred would
be home for Christmas, because her troubles had come in battalions at
midsummer.
"Turn and turn about be only fair," she told Fancy.
Fancy said hesitatingly:
"The cards told true before, didn't they?"
"Ah-h-h! I don't pin my faith to they, child. I be weather-wise, not
fool-wise. We has spells o' wet and spells o' dry. It be dry now, and
likely to remain so, I reckons."
Fancy nodded, quite willing to believe that the Yellam barometer would
stay, for a long spell, at "Set Fair."
After supper, when the kitchen was in perfect order, Mrs. Yellam sat
knitting beside Fancy. Solomon lay at the feet of his mistress. The logs
burned briskly, another evidence of coming frost. Sparks burst out of
them, dazzling scintillations, miniature fireworks. Mrs. Yellam was
impressed by this pyrotechnic display.
"It minds me of when Master Lionel come of age. I hopes they logs'll
burn like that when Alferd is sittin' here, wi' a baby on his knee."
Mrs. Yellam appeared so satisfied with life in general that Fancy
hesitated to disturb the peace, but impulse was too strong for her.
"Solly acted very queer all day."
"Did he now?"
"Hardly touched his nice dinner."
"Well, well, times he takes a notion to scrummage in dustheaps, the lil'
scavenger! 'Tis the male in him, I reckons. And far-seein'. He do take a
squint into the future, seemin'ly."
Fancy stared at Mrs. Yellam, slightly startled.
"He buries bones and beastliness all over my garden. I caught 'un wi' a
cod's head, and cuffed his, I did."
"I took the notion that he was worrying about--about me."
"Did 'ee, now? Natural enough. You bide so ca'm as I be. Worry brings
peevish children into this world. You sing a hymn, if you think it'll
hearten you up. 'Onward, Christian Soldiers,' be my fav'rite."
"I do love 'Abide with Me.'"
"You sing what you've a mind to. You be near your time, and must please
yourself. Singin' helped me, but it druv my pore man to the ale-house.
So I quit hymns, for his sake."
"Was Mr. Yellam with you when your first baby was born?"
"My, no! What a queer lil' thing you be! He was carrier, wi' business to
attend to. Men bain't wanted at such times."
"I should like to have Alfred."
"No, you wouldn't. Take that from me. I've a mind to give 'ee a sip o'
currant wine."
Fancy declined this, with many thanks. The talk became desultory, and
died down. Fancy dozed off quietly. Mrs. Yellam laid down her knitting
and gazed keenly at the pale face bent upon the thin bosom. _Spindlin'!_
Her own word came back to her. She saw that a faint smile curved the
girl's lips. Evidently she was dreaming happily. Of what? Solomon rose,
stretched himself, and stood beside his mistress. He whined a little.
Mrs. Yellam recalled what Fancy had said about his "acting queer."
"She bain't too strong," she muttered.
Solomon whined again and lay down.
Mrs. Yellam's face hardened. The same thought that had assailed Fancy
attacked her, burying fangs in her heart.
If things went wrong----?
Resolutely, she put this thought from her. God's ways might be
mysterious, but surely, surely He would stand by this frail creature,
and temper the wind to her. Even to ask Him to do so seemed impertinent.
Prayer came to her lips and fluttered away. She closed them tightly. All
would go well, because of those four graves in the churchyard. She had
visited them on the previous Sunday. They were certainly a credit to
her. She washed the marble cross upon Lizzie's grave twice a year, and
planted flowers on each plot. Coming out of church, strangers would
pause to look at the Yellam reservation. If they read the
carefully-selected inscriptions, Mrs. Yellam would feel much uplifted.
In her square, brass-cornered desk, lay a sealed paper containing
instructions concerning her own funeral. A plain slab would tell other
strangers the date of her birth and death, her name, and her
destination. "Gone Home" was to be chiselled upon grey granite, and
filled in with leaded letters. Death had never dismayed her. When her
work was done, she would be called.
Fancy woke up, still smiling.
"You had a nice doze, dear. Pleasant dreams, too."
"Yes," said Fancy. But she couldn't remember her dreams.
As she got out of her chair to go upstairs, she said:
"This has been a happy day, Mother. I must remember it. What is the day
of the month?"
Mrs. Yellam answered promptly:
"It be the fifteenth of December. Only ten days to Christmas."
Mrs. Yellam never forgot this date. Word came to her some days later. On
the fifteenth of December, a night attack was made upon German trenches,
an affair of small importance, not even mentioned in the papers. When
the men returned to their dug-outs, Sergeant Yellam was
reported--_Missing_.