Dr Maurice came down next day. He was a man of very quiet manners, and
yet he was unable to conceal a certain excitement. He walked into the
Gatehouse with an air of abstraction, as if he did not quite know what
he was about.
'I have come to talk about business,' he said, but he did not send Norah
away. Probably had he not been so glad to see her once more, it would
have surprised him to see the child whom he had never beheld apart from
a book, standing up by her mother's chair, watching his face, taking in
every word. Norah's _rôle_ had changed since those old days. She had no
independent standing then; now she was her mother's companion, champion,
supporter. This changes as nothing else can do a child's life.
'Our case is to be heard for the first time,' he said. 'I believe they
are all very much startled. Golden was brought before the magistrate
yesterday; he has been admitted to bail, of course. If I could have had
the satisfaction of thinking that rascal was even one night in prison!
But that was too much to hope for. Mrs Drummond, can you guess who was
his bail?'
Helen shook her head, not understanding quite what he meant; but all the
same she knew what his answer would be. He brought it out with a certain
triumph--
'Why, Burton--your precious cousin! I knew it would be so. As sure as
that sun is shining, Burton is at the bottom of it all. I have seen it
from the first.'
'Dr Maurice,' said Helen, 'where have I seen, where have I read, "Burton
and Golden have done it"? The words seem to haunt me. It cannot be
fancy.'
Dr Maurice took out his pocket-book. He took a folded paper from an
inner pocket, and held it to her without a word. Poor Helen, in the
composure which she had attained so painfully, began to shake and
tremble; the sight of it moved her beyond her self-control. She could
not weep, but her strained nerves quivered, her teeth chattered, her
frame was convulsed by the shock. 'Ah!' she cried, as people do when
they receive a blow; and yet now she remembered it all--every word; it
seemed to be written on her heart.
The physician was alarmed. Human emotion has many ways of showing
itself, but none more alarming than this. He put the letter hastily away
again, and plunged into wild talk about the way she was living, the
house, and the neighbourhood.
'You are taking too little exercise. You are shutting yourself up too
much,' he said, with something of that petulance which so often veils
pity. He was not going to encourage her to break down by being sorry for
her; the other way, he thought, was the best. And then he himself was on
the very borders of emotion too, the sight of these words had brought
poor Robert so keenly to his mind. And they had brought to his mind also
his own hardships. Norah in her new place was very bewildering to him.
He had noted her closely while her mother was speaking, and with wonder
and trouble had seen a woman look at him through the girl's brown
eyes--a woman, a new creature, an independent being, whom he did not
know, whom he would have to treat upon a different footing. This
discovery, which he had not made at the first glance, filled him with
dismay and trouble. He had lost the child whom he loved.
'Norah, come and show me the house,' he said, with a certain despair;
and he went away, leaving Helen to recover herself. That was better than
going back upon the past, recalling to both the most painful moments of
their life.
He took Norah's hand, and walked through the open door into the garden,
which was the first outlet he saw.
'Come and tell me all about it,' he said. 'Norah, what have you been
doing to yourself? Have you grown up in these three months? You are not
the little girl I used to know.'
'Oh, Dr Maurice, do you think I have grown?' cried Norah, with her whole
heart in the demand.
And it would be impossible to describe what a comfort this eager
question was to him. He laughed, and looked down upon her, and began to
feel comfortable again.
'Do you know, I am afraid you have not grown,' he said, putting his
other hand fondly on her brown hair. 'Are you vexed, Norah? For my part,
I like you best as you are.'
'Well, it cannot be helped,' said Norah, with resignation. 'I did not
think I had; but for a moment I had just a little hope, you looked so
funny at me. Oh, Dr Maurice, I do so wish I was grown up!--for many
things. First, there is Mr Burton, who comes and bullies mamma. I hate
that man. I remember at home, in the old days, when you used to be
talking, and nobody thought I paid any attention----'
'What do you remember, Norah?'
'Oh, heaps of things. I can scarcely tell you. They would look at each
other--I mean Mr Golden and he. They would say things to each other. Oh,
I don't remember what the words were; how should I remember the words?
but things--just as you might look at me, and give a little nod, if we
had something that was a secret from mamma. I know they had secrets,
these two. If I were grown up, and could speak, I would tell him so. Dr
Maurice, can't we punish them? I cannot imagine,' cried Norah
passionately, 'what God can be thinking of to let them alone, and let
them be happy, after all they have done to--poor papa!'
'Norah, these are strange things for you to be thinking of,' said Dr
Maurice, once more disturbed by a development which he was not
acquainted with.
'Oh, no. If you knew how we live, you would not think them strange. I am
little; but what does that matter? There is mamma on one side, and there
is Mr Haldane. How different we all used to be! Dr Maurice, I remember
when poor Mr Haldane used to take me up, and set me on his shoulder; and
look at him now! Oh, how can any one see him, and bear it? But it does
no good to cry.'
'But, Norah, that is not Mr Burton's fault.'
'No, not that; but, oh, it is God's fault,' said Norah, sinking her
voice to a whisper, and ending with a burst of passionate tears.
'Hush, hush, hush!' He took her hand into both of his, and soothed her.
Thoughts like these might float through a man's mind involuntarily,
getting no utterance; but it horrified him to hear them from the lips of
a child. Was she a child? Dr Maurice said to himself once more, with an
inward groan, that his little Norah, his dream-child of the fairy tales,
was gone, and he should find her no more.
'And then it rather vexes one to be so little,' she said, suddenly
drying her eyes, 'because of Clara. Clara is not twelve yet, and she is
much bigger than I am. She can reach to these roses--look--while I can't
get near them; and they are the only roses we have now. But, after all,
though it may be nice to be tall, it doesn't matter very much, do you
think, for a woman? So mamma says; and girls are just as often little as
tall--in books.'
'For my part, I am fond of little women,' said Dr Maurice, and this time
he laughed within himself. She kept him between the two, changing from
childhood to womanhood without knowing it. 'But tell me, who is Clara? I
want to know about your new friends here.'
'Clara is Clara Burton, and very like him,' said Norah. 'I thought I
should be fond of her at first, because she is my cousin; but I am not
fond of her. Ned is her brother. I like him better. He is a horsey,
doggy sort of boy; but then he has always lived in the country, and he
knows no better. One can't blame him for that, do you think?'
'Oh, no,' said Dr Maurice, with great seriousness; 'one can't blame him
for that.' The man's heart grew glad over the child's talk. He could
have listened to her running on about her friends for ever.
'And then there was--some one else,' said Norah, instinctively drawing
herself up; 'not exactly a boy; a--gentleman. We saw him in town, and
then we saw him here; first with that horrible man, Mr Golden, and
another day with the Burtons. But you are not to think badly of him for
that. He was--on our side.'
'Who is this mysterious personage, I wonder?' said Dr Maurice smilingly;
but this time it was not a laugh or a groan, but a little shivering
sensation of pain that ran through him, he could not tell why.
'He was more like Fortunatus than any one,' said Norah. 'But he could
not be like Fortunatus in everything, for he said he was poor, like
us--though that might be only, as I say it myself, to spite Clara. Well,
he was grown up--taller than you are, Dr Maurice--with nice curling sort
of hair, all in little twists and rings, and beautiful eyes. They
flashed up so when mamma spoke. Mamma was very, very angry talking to
that horrible man at our own very door. Fancy, he had dared to go and
call and leave his horrid card. I tore it into twenty pieces, and
stamped upon it. It was silly, I suppose; but to think he should dare to
call--at our own very house----'
'I am getting dreadfully confused, Norah, between the beautiful eyes and
the horrible man. I don't know what I am about. Which was which?'
'Oh, Dr Maurice, how could you ask such a question? Are there two such
men in the world? It was _that_ Mr Golden whom I hate; and Mr
Rivers--Cyril Rivers--was with him, not knowing--but he says he will
never go with him again. I saw it in his eyes in a moment; he is on our
side.'
'You are young to read eyes in this way. I do not think I quite like it,
Norah,' said Dr Maurice, in a tone which she recognised at once.
'Why, you are angry. But how can I help it?' said Norah, growing a woman
again. 'If you were like me, Dr Maurice--if you felt your mamma had only
you--if you knew there was nobody else to stand by her, nobody to help
her, and you so little! I am obliged to think; I cannot help myself.
When I grow up, I shall have so much to do; and how can I know whether
people are on our side or against us, except by looking at their eyes?'
'Norah, my little Norah!' cried the man pitifully, 'don't leave your
innocence for such fancies as these. Your mother has friends to think
for her and you--many friends; I myself, for example. As long as I am
alive, do you require to go and look for people to be on your side? Why,
child, you forget _me_.'
Norah looked at him searchingly, penetrating, as he thought, to the
bottom of his heart.
'I did not forget you, Dr Maurice. You are fond of me and of--poor papa.
But I have to think of _her_. I don't think you love _her_. And she has
the most to bear.'
Dr Maurice did not make any reply. He did not love Helen; he even shrank
from the idea with a certain prudish sense of delicacy--an old
bachelor's bashfulness. Love Mrs Drummond! Why, it was out of the
question. The idea disconcerted him. He had been quite pained and
affected a moment before at the thought that his little Norah--the child
that he was so fond of--should want other champions. But now he was
disconcerted, and in front of the grave little face looking up at him,
he did not even dare to smile. Norah, however, was as ready to raise him
up as she had been to cast him down.
'Do you think Cyril is a pretty name, Dr Maurice?' she asked. 'I think
it sounds at first a little weak--too pretty for a boy. So is Cecil. I
like a rough, round sort of name--Ned, for instance. You never could
mistake Ned. One changes one's mind about names, don't you think? I used
to be all for Geralds and Cyrils and pretty sounds like that; now I like
the others best. Clara is pretty for a girl; but everybody thinks I
must be Irish, because I'm called Norah. Why was I called Norah, do you
know? Charlie Dalton calls me Norah Creina.'
'Here is some one quite fresh. Who is Charlie Dalton?' said Dr Maurice,
relieved.
'Oh, one of the Rectory boys. There are so many of them! What I never
can understand,' cried Norah suddenly, 'is the difference among people.
Mr Dalton has eight children, and mamma has only one; now why? To be
sure, it would have been very expensive to have had Charlie and all the
rest on so little money as we have now. I suppose we could not have done
it. And, to be sure, God must have known that, and arranged it on
purpose,' the child said, stopping short with a puzzled look. 'Oh, Dr
Maurice, when He knew it all, and could have helped it if He pleased,
why did He let them kill poor papa?'
'I do not know,' said Dr Maurice under his breath.
It was a relief to him when, a few minutes after, Helen appeared at the
garden door, having in the mean time overcome her own feelings. They
were all in a state of repression, the one hiding from the other all
that was strongest in them for the moment. Such a thing is easily done
at twelve years old. Norah ran along the garden path to meet her mother,
throwing off the shadow in a moment. But for the others it was not so
easy. They met, and they talked of the garden, what a nice old-fashioned
garden it was, full of flowers such as one rarely sees now-a-days. And
Dr Maurice told Norah the names of some of them, and asked if the trees
bore well, and commented upon the aspect, and how well those pears ought
to do upon that warm wall. These are the disguises with which people
hide themselves when that within does not bear speaking of. There was a
great deal more to be told still, and business to be discussed; but
first these perverse hearts had to be stilled somehow in their irregular
beating, and the tears which were too near the surface got rid of, and
the wistful, questioning thoughts silenced.
After a while Dr Maurice went to pay Stephen Haldane a visit. He, too,
was concerned in the business which brought the doctor here. The two men
went into it with more understanding than Helen could have had. She
wanted only that Golden should be punished, and her husband's name
vindicated--a thing which it seemed to her so easy to do. But they knew
that proof was wanted--proof which was not forthcoming. Dr Maurice told
Haldane what Helen gave him no opportunity to tell her--that the lawyers
were not sanguine. The books which had disappeared were the only
evidence upon which Golden's guilt and Drummond's innocence could be
either proved or disproved. And all the people about the office, from
the lowest to the highest, had been summoned to tell what they knew
about those books. Nobody, it appeared, had seen them removed; nobody
had seen the painter carry them away; there was this negative evidence
in his favour, if no other. But there was nothing to prove that Golden
had done it, or any other person involved, and, so far as this was
concerned, obscurity reigned over the whole matter--an obscurity not
pierced as yet by any ray of light.
'At all events, we shall fight it out,' said Dr Maurice. 'The only thing
to be risked now is a little money more or less, and that, I suppose, a
man ought to be willing to risk for the sake of justice--myself
especially, who have neither chick nor child.'
He said this in so dreary a way that poor Stephen smiled. The man who
was removed from any such delights--who could never improve his own
position in any way, nor procure for himself any of the joys of life,
looked at the man who thus announced himself with a mixture of gentle
ridicule and pity.
'That at least must be your own fault,' he said; and then he thought of
himself, and sighed.
No one knew what dreams might have been in Stephen Haldane's mind before
he became the wreck he was. Probably no one ever would know. He smiled
at the other, but for himself he could not restrain a sigh.
'I don't see how it can be said to be my own fault,' said Dr Maurice
with whimsical petulance. 'There are preliminary steps, of course, which
one might take--but not necessarily with success--not by any means
certainly with success. I tell you what, though, Haldane,' he added
hastily, after a pause, 'I'd like to adopt Norah Drummond. That is what
I should like to do. I'd be very good to her; she should have everything
she could set her face to. To start a strange child from the beginning,
even if it were one's own, is always like putting into a lottery. A baby
is no better than a speculation. How do you know what it may turn out?
whereas a creature like Norah----Ah, that is what I should like, to
adopt such a child as that!'
'To adopt--Norah?' Stephen grew pale. 'What! to take her from her
mother! to carry away the one little gleam of light!'
'She would be a gleam of light to me too,' said Dr Maurice, 'and I could
do her justice. I could provide for her. Her mother, if she cared for
the child's interest, ought not to stand in the way. There! you need not
look so horror-stricken. I don't mean to attempt it. I only say that is
what I should like to do.'
But the proposal, even when so lightly made, took away Stephen's breath.
He did not recover himself for some time. He muttered, 'Adopt--Norah!'
under his breath, while his friend talked on other subjects. He could
not forget it. He even made Dr Maurice a little speech when he rose to
go away. He put out his hand and grasped the other's arm in the
earnestness of his interest.
'Look here, Maurice,' he said, 'wealth has its temptations as well as
poverty; because you have plenty of money, if you think you could make
such a proposition----'
'What proposition?'
'To take Norah from her mother. If you were to tempt Mrs Drummond for
the child's sake to give up the child, by promising to provide for her,
or whatever you might say--if you were to do that, God forgive you,
Maurice--I know I never could!'
'Of course I shall not do it,' said Maurice hastily. And he went away
with the feeling in his mind that this man, too, was his rival, and his
successful rival. The child was as good as Stephen's child, though so
far removed from himself. Dr Maurice was so far wrong that it was Helen
Stephen was thinking of, and not Norah. The child would be a loss to
him; but the loss of her mother would be so much greater that the very
thought of it oppressed his soul. He had grown to be Helen's friend in
the truest sense; he had felt her sympathy to be almost too touching to
him, almost too sweet; and he could not bear the possibility of seeing
her deprived of her one solace. He sat alone after Maurice had gone away
(for his mother and sister had left them to have their conversation
unfettered by listeners), and pondered over the possible fate of the
mother and child. The child would grow up; in a very few years she would
be a woman; she would marry, in all likelihood, and go away, and belong
to them no more; and Helen would be left to bear her lot alone. She
would be left in the middle of her days to carry her burden as she
might, deserted by every love that had once belonged to her. What a lot
would that be!--worse, even, than his own, who, amid all his pains, had
two hearts devoted to him never to be disjoined from him but by death.
Poor Stephen, you would have supposed, was himself in the lowest depths
of human suffering and solitude; but yet he looked down upon a lower
still, and his heart bled for Helen, who, it might be, would have to
descend into that abyss in all the fulness of her life and strength.
What a sin would that man's be, he thought, who arbitrarily,
unnaturally, should try to hasten on that separation by a single day!
Dr Maurice went back to the other side of the house, and had his talk
out quietly with Mrs Drummond; he told her what he had told Haldane,
while Norah looked at him over her mother's chair, and listened to every
word. To her he said that it was the lawyers' opinion that they might do
good even though they proved nothing--they would stir up public opinion;
they might open the way for further information. And with this, perhaps,
it might be necessary to be content.
'There is one way in which something might be possible,' he said. 'All
the people about the office have been found and called as witnesses,
except one. That was the night-porter, who might be an important
witness; but I hear he lives in the country, and has been lost sight of.
He might know something; without that we have no proof whatever. I for
my own part should as soon think the sun had come out of the skies, but
Drummond, for some reason we know nothing of, might have taken those
books----'
'Are you forsaking him too?' cried Helen in her haste.
'I am not in the least forsaking him,' said Dr Maurice; 'but how can we
tell what had been said to him--what last resource he had been driven
to? If we could find that porter there might be something done. He would
know when they were taken away.'
Helen made no answer; she did not take the interest she might have done
in the evidence. She said softly, as if repeating to herself--
'Burton and Golden, Burton and Golden!' Could it be? What communication
could they have had? how could they have been together? This thought
confused her, and yet she believed in it as if it were gospel. She
turned it over and over like a strange weapon of which she did not know
the use.
'Yes, something may come out of that. We may discover some connection
between them when everything is raked up in this way. Norah thinks so
too. Norah feels that they are linked together somehow. Will you come
with me to the station, Norah, and see me away?'
'We are both going,' said Helen. And they put on their bonnets and
walked to the railway with him through the early twilight. The lights
were shining out in the village windows as they passed, and in the
shops, which made an illumination here and there. The train was coming
from town--men coming from their work, ladies returning, who had been
shopping in London, meeting their children, who went to carry home the
parcels in pleasant groups. The road was full of a dozen little domestic
scenes, such as are to be seen only in the neighbourhood of London. A
certain envy was in the thoughts of all three as they passed on. Norah
looked at the boys and girls with a little sigh, wondering how it would
feel to have brothers and sisters, to be one of a merry happy family.
And Helen looked at them with a different feeling, remembering the time
when she, too, had gone to meet her own people who were coming home. As
for Dr Maurice, of course it was his own fault. He had chosen to have
nobody belonging to him, to shut himself off from the comfort of wife
and child. Yet he was more impatient of all the cheerful groups than
either of the others.
'Talk of the country being quiet! it is more noisy than town,' he said;
he had just been quietly pushed off the pavement by a girl like Norah,
who was running to meet her father. That should have been nothing to
him, surely, but he felt injured. 'I wish you would come with me and
keep my house for me, Norah,' he said, with a vain harping on his one
string; and Norah laughed with gay freedom at the thought.
'Good night, Dr Maurice; come back soon,' she said, waving her hand to
him, then turned away with her mother, and did not even look back. He
was quite sure about this, as he settled himself in the corner of the
carriage. So fond as he was of the child; so much as he would have liked
to have done for her! And she never so much as looked back!