The next day after Mrs Burton's carriage had been seen at Helen's door a
great many people called on Mrs Drummond--all 'the nicest people'--some
who had known her or known about her in the old days, some who came
because she was Mr Burton's cousin, and some who took that means of
showing their sympathy. The door was besieged; and Susan, half-flattered
by the importance of her position, half-alarmed lest this might be a
commencement of the system of putting upon which she dreaded, brought in
the cards, gingerly holding them in a hand which she had wrapped up in
her apron, and giving a little sketch of the persons represented. There
was the doctor's wife, and the major's lady, and Mrs Ashurst from the
Row, and 'them London folks,' all of whom were sensible enough to make
their advances solely in this way. Mrs Dalton was the only person
admitted. Helen was too well brought up, she had too much sense of the
proprieties of her position, to shut her door against the clergyman's
wife--who brought her husband's card, and explained that he would have
come too but for the fear of intruding too early.
'But I hope you will let us see you,' the kind woman added. 'We are such
near neighbours. My eldest little girl is the same age as yours. I think
we should understand each other. And I have such a busy life--to be able
to run across and talk things over now and then would be such a comfort
to me.'
'You mean it would be a comfort to me,' said Helen, 'the sight of a kind
face.'
'And Norah will come and see my Mary. They can take their walks
together, and amuse each other. It is such a pleasure to me,' said Mrs
Dalton, 'to look across at these windows, and think that you are here.'
She had said so much with the amiable power of make-believe, not exactly
deception, which an affectionate temper and her position as clergy-woman
made natural to her--when she caught Helen's eye, and nature suddenly
had the mastery. 'Oh, Mrs Drummond, how I babble! I am so sorry, so
sorry!' she said, and her eyes ran over with tears, though Helen did
not weep. It is not easy to repel such a visitor. They grew friends at
that first interview, while Norah stood by and made her observations
too.
'May I go and see Mary?' she asked, when Mrs Dalton had gone. 'I think I
shall like her better than Clara Burton. How funny it must be to have so
many brothers and sisters, mamma; and I who never had either a brother
or a sister! I should like to have had just one--a little sister with
blue eyes. But, then, if you had been very fond of her, fonder than of
me, I should not have liked that. Perhaps, on the whole, a brother would
have been the best. A boy is a change--they are useless, and yet they
are nice--for a long walk, for instance. I wish I had had a big brother,
older than me--quite old--almost grown up. How funny it would have been!
I wonder what we should have called him. If he had been as big as--Mr
Rivers, for instance--that would have been nice for you too.'
Helen smiled, and let the child run on. It was the music to which her
life was set. Norah's monologue accompanied everything. Sometimes,
indeed, an answer was necessary, which interrupted the strain, but
generally a word, a smile, or a monosyllable was enough. She went on
weaving her big brother out of her imagination; it was more delightful
than speculating about Mary Dalton.
'I am sure it would have been nice for you too,' she said. 'He would
have given you his arm when you were tired, and looked after the
luggage, and locked all the doors at nights. The only thing is, it would
have been a great expense. When people are poor, I suppose they can't
afford to have boys. They want so many things. But yet he would have
been nice all the same. I hope he would have had a pretty name; not so
short as Ned, and not so common as Charlie. Charlie is the eldest of the
Daltons--such a big boy. Oh, I wonder what our boy's name would have
been? Do you like Oswald, mamma, or Eustace? Eustace sounds like a
priest or something dreadfully wise. I don't like solemn boys. So long
as he was big and strong, and not too clever. But oh, dear, dear, what
is the use of talking? We never can have a big boy, I suppose? I must be
content with other girls' brothers. I shall never have one of my very
own.'
'The less you have to do with other girls' brothers the better, Norah,'
said Helen, beguiled into a smile.
'I do not care for them, I am sure,' said Norah, with dignity; 'though I
don't dislike gentlemen, mamma--quite old gentlemen, like Dr Maurice and
Mr Haldane, are very nice. And I should like to have had--Mr Rivers, for
instance--for a big brother. I rather think, too, I like Ned Burton
better than Clara. It is more natural to hear a boy talk of ponies and
things. She never thinks of anything else--dogs, and horses, and
carriages, and the fine things she has. It is not polite to talk of such
things to people who have not got them. I told her I did not care for
ponies, nor grapes, nor hot-house flowers; and that I would rather live
in London than at the House. And, oh, so many--stories, mamma! Is it
wrong to tell a little fib when you don't mean any harm? Just a little
one, when people boast and make themselves disagreeable--and when you
don't mean any harm?'
'It is always wrong to tell fibs; and I don't know the difference
between big ones and little ones,' said Helen.
'Oh, mamma, but I do! A big story is--for instance. If I were to say
Susan had stolen your watch, that would be a wicked lie. But when I say
I don't care for grapes, and would not like to have a pony, it isn't
quite true, but then it makes Clara be quiet, and does nobody any harm.
I am sure there is a great difference. It would be very nice to have a
pony, you know. Only think, mamma, to go cantering away across the
common and on the turf! But I would not give in to say that I should
like to be Clara, or that she was better off than me!'
Norah's casuistry silenced her mother. She shook her head, but she did
not say anything. Something of the same feeling was, indeed, in her own
mind. She, too, would have liked to be contemptuous of the luxuries
which her neighbours dangled before her eyes. And Norah resumed her
monologue. The mother only partially heard it, waking up now and then to
give the necessary response, but carrying on all the time her own
separate thread of cogitation, which would not shape itself into words.
The old parlour, with its brown-grey curtains and all its spindle-legged
furniture, enclosed and seemed to watch the human creatures who
disturbed the silence. A room which has been long unoccupied, and which
is too large for its new inhabitants, has often this spectator look. The
pictures looked down from the walls and watched; up in the little round
mirror two people in a miniature interior, who were in reality
reflections of the two below, but looked quite different, glanced down
upon them, and watched also. The sky looked in through the five windows,
and the lime-trees in front kept tapping with their branches against the
panes to show that they were looking on. All the rest were clandestine,
but the lime-trees were honest in their scrutiny. And in the midst of it
the mother and daughter led their subdued lives. Norah's voice ran
through all like a brook or a bird. Helen was mostly silent, saying
little. They had a roof to shelter them, enough of daily bread, the
kindness of strangers outside, the rude but sympathetic kindness of
Susan within. This was more, a great deal more, than often falls to the
lot of human wrecks after a great shipwreck. Norah after a little while
accepted it as the natural rule of life, and forgot every other; and
Helen was silent, though she did not forget. The silence of the house,
however, by times oppressed the child. She lay awake in the great
bed-room up-stairs, afraid to go to sleep till her mother should come;
and even in the daylight there were moments when Norah was afraid of the
ghostly drawing-room, and could not but feel that weird aged women, the
Miss Pagets, whom her mother had known, or some of the old Harcourts,
were watching her from behind the doors, or from the shade of the
curtains. There was a deep china closet beside the fireplace with one
particular knot in the wood-work which fascinated Norah, and made her
feel that some mysterious eye was gazing at her from within. But all
these fancies dispersed the moment Mrs Drummond appeared. There was
protection in the soft rustle of her gown, the distant sound of her
voice. And so the routine of life--a new routine, but soon firmly
established, supporting them as upon props of use and wont, began again.
There were the lessons in the morning, and Norah's music, and a long
walk in the afternoon; and they went to bed early, glad to be done with
life and another day. Or at least Helen was glad to be done with it--not
Norah, to whom it was the opening of the story, and to whom once more
the sunshine began to look as sweet as ever, and each new morning was a
delight.
A few weeks after their arrival the Haldanes followed them. Miss Jane
had written beforehand begging for information about the house and the
journey; and it was only then that Helen learned, with a mortification
she could scarcely overcome, that the Gatehouse was to be their refuge
too. This fact so changed the character of her cousin's kindness to
her, that her pride was with difficulty subdued to silence; but she had
sufficient self-control to say nothing--pride itself coming to her aid.
'Perhaps you would be so good as to send me a line with a few
particulars,' Miss Jane wrote. 'I should like to know for myself and
mother if there is a good minister of our denomination, and if you would
mention the price of meat, and how much you are giving for the best
butter, I should be very much obliged. I should like to know if there is
a good room on the ground-floor that would do for Stephen, and if we
could have a Bath-chair to bring him down from the station, for I am
very distrustful of cabs. Also about a charwoman, which is very
important. I am active myself and always look after the washing, so that
one strong handy woman to come from six in the morning till two would do
all I should require.
Mrs Drummond made an effort and answered all these questions, and even
walked to the station to see them arrive. It was a mournful sight
enough. She stood and looked on with her heart aching, and saw the man
whom she had known so different lifted out of the carriage and put into
the invalid chair. She saw the look of dumb anguish and humiliation in
his eyes which showed how he felt this public exposure of his weakness.
He was very patient; he smiled and thanked the people who moved him: yet
Helen, with her perceptions quickened by her own suffering, felt the
intolerable pain in the other's soul, and went away hurriedly, not to
afflict him further by her presence. What had he done? How had this man
sinned more than others? All the idlers that lounged about and watched
him, were they better or dearer to God than he was? Mrs Drummond was
half a Pagan, though she did not know it. She hurried away with a
miserable sense that it was past bearing. But Stephen set his lips tight
and bore it. He bore the looks of the village people who came out to
their doors to look at him as he passed. As for his mother and sister,
they scarcely remarked his silence. They were so happy that everything
had gone off so well, that he had borne it so easily.
'I don't think he looks a bit the worse,' said Miss Jane.
They were the tenderest, the most patient of nurses, but they had
accepted his illness long ago as a matter of course. From the moment he
was placed in the chair, and so off their mind, as it were, the luggage
came into the ascendant and took his place. They had a wonderful amount
of parcels, mostly done up in brown paper. Mrs Haldane herself carried
her pet canary in its cage, tied up in a blue-and-white handkerchief.
She was more anxious about this for the moment than about her son. The
procession was one which caught everybody's eye. First two wheelbarrows
with the luggage, the first of which was occupied by Stephen's bed and
chair, the other piled up with boxes, among the rest two portmanteaus of
his own, on which he could still read, on old labels which he had
preserved with pride, the names of Naples, Florence, and Rome. Had he
been actually there, he who was now little more than a piece of luggage
himself? Miss Jane divided her attentions between her brother and the
second wheelbarrow, on which the brown-paper parcels were tumbling and
nodding, ready to fall. His mother walked on the other side, holding
fast by the parcel in the blue-and-white handkerchief. Mrs Burton, who
was passing in her carriage, stopped to look after them. She, too, had
known Stephen in better days. She did not ask passionate questions as
Helen was doing; but she felt the shock in her way, and only comforted
herself by thinking that the feelings get blunted in such unfortunate
cases, and that no doubt other people felt more for him than he felt
for himself.
But notwithstanding the callousness which use had brought, there was no
indifference to Stephen's comfort in the minds of his attendants.
Everything was arranged for him that evening as if he had been
surrounded by a crowd of servants. When Helen went to see him he was
seated by the window with flowers upon his table and all his papers
arranged upon it. The flowers were not very choice; they were of Miss
Jane's selection, and marigolds and plumy variegated grass looked
beautiful in her eyes. Yet nothing but love could have put everything in
its place so soon, and metamorphosed all at once the dining-room of the
Gatehouse into Stephen's room, where everything bore a reference to him
and was arranged for his special comfort. Perhaps they did not always
feel for him, or even see what room there was for feeling. But this they
could do--and in it they never failed.
'Does not he look comfortable?' Miss Jane said with triumph. 'You would
think to see him he had never budged from his chair. And he got through
the journey very well. If you but knew how frightened I was when we set
out!'
Stephen looked at Mrs Drummond with a smile. There were some lines
about his mouth and a quiver in his upper lip which spoke to her more
clearly than to his sister. Helen had not been in the way of going out
of herself to sympathise with others; and it seemed to her as if she had
suddenly got a new pair of eyes, an additional sense. While they were
all talking she saw what the journey had really cost him in his smile.
'It is strange to see the world again after so long,' he said, 'and to
realise that once one walked about it quite carelessly like other
people, without thinking what a thing it was.'
'But, Stephen, I am sure you don't repine,' said his mother, 'you know
whose will it is, and you would not have it different? That is such a
comfort whatever we may have to suffer.'
'You would not have it different!'
Helen looked at him almost with tears in her eyes.
'That is a great deal to say, mother,' he answered with a suppressed
sigh; while she still went on asking herself passionately what had he
done? what had he done?
'I think the charwoman will suit very well,' said Miss Jane. 'She seems
clean, and that is the great thing. I am very well satisfied with
everything I have seen as yet. The kitchen garden is beautiful. I
suppose as there is no division, we are to have it between us--that and
the fruit? I have been thinking a few fowls would be very nice if you
have no objection. They cost little to keep, and to have your own eggs
is a great luxury. And meat seems reasonable. I am very well satisfied
with all I have seen.'
'If we only knew about the chapel,' said Mrs Haldane. 'So much of your
comfort depends on your minister. If he is a nice man he will be company
for Stephen. That is what I am most afraid of--that he will be dull in
the country. There was always some one coming in about the magazine or
some society or other when we were in town. I am afraid, Stephen, you
will feel quite lost here.'
'Not for want of the visitors, mother,' he said; 'especially if Mrs
Drummond will spare me Norah. She is better than any minister--not
meaning any slight to my brethren,' he added, in a half-apologetic,
half-laughing tone. He could laugh still, which was a thing Helen found
it very difficult to understand.
'Norah is very nice, and I like dearly to see her,' said his mother;
'but, Stephen, I don't like to hear you talk like that. Mrs Drummond is
not to know that it is all your nonsense. You were always such a one for
a joke.'
'My jokes have not been very brilliant lately,' he said, with a smile.
Mrs Haldane rose at that moment to help her daughter with something she
was moving to the other end of the room, and Stephen, seizing the
opportunity, turned quickly round upon Helen, who was sitting by him.
'You are very sorry for me,' he said, with a mixture of gratitude and
impatience. 'Don't! it is better not!'
'How can I help it?' cried Helen. 'And why is it better not?'
'Because I cannot bear it,' he said, almost sternly.
This passed in a moment, while the unconscious women at the other end
had altered the position of a table. Never man had more tender nurses
than these two; but they had ceased to be sorry for him in look or word.
They had accepted their own fate and his; his helplessness was to them
like the daylight or the dark, a thing inevitable, the course of nature;
and the matter-of-fact way in which they had learned to treat it made
his life supportable. But it was difficult for a stranger to realise
such a fact.
'I never told you that we were disappointed about letting the house,'
said Miss Jane. 'A great many people came, but no one who was
satisfactory. It is a great loss. I have left a person in it to try for
a few months longer. People are very unprincipled, coming out of mere
curiosity, and turning over your blankets and counterpanes without a
thought.'
Here the conversation came to a pause, and Helen rose. She was standing
saying her farewells and making such offers of assistance as she could,
when the daily event with which she had grown familiar took place.
'There is some one coming,' said Stephen, from the window. 'It ought to
be the queen by the commotion it makes: but it is only Burton.'
And Mrs Haldane and Miss Jane both rushed forward to see. Helen withdrew
out of sight with a secret bitterness which she could not have put into
words. Mr Burton was driving home from the station in all his usual
importance. His horses were groomed to perfection, the mountings of his
harness sparkled in the sun. He half drew up as he passed, making his
bays prance and express their disapprobation, while he took off his hat
to the new arrivals. It was such a salutation as a jocund monarch might
have tossed at a humble worshipper, mock ceremony and conscious
condescension. The women looking out never thought of that. They ran
from one window to another to watch him entering the avenue, they talked
to each other of his fine horses, the neat groom beside him, and how
polite he was. Stephen had been looking on, too, with keen interest. A
smile was on his face, but the lines above his eyes were contracted, and
the eyes themselves gleamed with a sudden fire which startled Helen.
'I wonder what he thinks of it all,' he said to her under his breath,
'if he thinks at all. I wonder if he is comfortable when he reflects who
are living at his gates?'
The words were said so low that she had to stoop to hear; and with a
wondering thrill of half-comprehension she looked at him. What did he
mean? From whence came that tone which was almost fierce in its
self-restraint? It seemed to kindle a smouldering fire in her, of the
nature of which she was not quite aware. 'Burton and Golden' suddenly
flashed across her thoughts again. Where was it she had seen the names
linked together? What did it mean? and what did Stephen mean? She felt
as if she had almost found out something, which quickened her pulse and
made her heart beat--almost. But the last point of enlightenment was yet
to come.
'Now he has turned in at the gate,' said Miss Jane. 'Well, for my part,
I am glad to have seen him; and to think that a man could do all that by
his own exertions! If he had been a nobleman I should not have thought
half so much of it. I suppose, now, that could not be seen anywhere but
in England? You may smile, Stephen, and think me very vulgar-minded; but
I do think it is a very wonderful sight.'
And thus the second household settled down, and became a part of the
landscape which the family at Dura surveyed with complaisant
proprietorship, and through which Mr Burton drove every afternoon,
calling admiring spectators to all the windows. The rich man had never
enjoyed the commotion he made so much as he did now when he could see at
the Gatehouse those faces looking out. There was scarcely an evening but
Miss Jane or her mother would stand up to see him, gazing with
unconscious worship at this representative of wealth and strength, and
that practical power which sways the world; while Norah would clamber up
on a chair behind the blinds at the other end, and look out with her big
brown eyes full of serious observation. He thought Norah wondered and
worshipped too, not being able to understand the language of her eyes.
And sometimes he would see, or think he saw, her mother behind her. When
he did so he went home in high good-humour, and was more jocular than
usual; for nothing gave him such a sense of his own greatness, his
prosperity, and superiority to common flesh and blood, as the homage, or
supposed homage, paid to him by those lookers-on at the windows of the
Gatehouse.
Mr Burton's satisfaction came to a climax when his father-in-law came to
pay his next visit, which happened not very long after the arrival of
the Haldanes. Mr Baldwin, as we have said, was a Dissenter, and
something like a lay bishop in his denomination. He was very rich, and
lived very plainly at Clapham with his two sisters, Mrs Everett and Miss
Louisa. They were all very good people in their way. There was not a man
in England who subscribed to more societies or presided at a greater
number of meetings. He spent half his income in this way; he 'promoted'
charities as his son-in-law promoted joint-stock companies; and prided
himself on the simplicity of his living and his tastes, notwithstanding
his wealth. When he and his sisters came to pay a visit at Dura they
walked from the station, leaving their servants and their boxes to
follow in a fly. 'We have the use of our limbs, I am thankful to
Providence,' one of the sisters would say; 'why should we have a
carriage for a little bit of road like that?' They walked in a little
procession, the gentleman in advance, like a triumphant cock in front of
his harem, the two ladies a little behind. Mr Baldwin wore his hat on
the back of his head, and a white tie, like one of his favourite
ministers; he had a round, chubby face, without any whiskers, and a
complexion almost as clear as little Clara's. The two ladies were like
him, except that Mrs Everett, who was a widow, was large and stout, and
Miss Louisa pale and thin. They walked along with a natural feeling of
benevolent supremacy, making their remarks on everybody and everything
with distinct voices. When they got to the Gatehouse they paused and
inspected it, though the windows were all open.
'I think Reginald was wrong to give such a house as this to those poor
people,' said the married sister in front of the door. 'It is a handsome
house. He might have found some little cottage for them, and let this to
a family.'
'But, Martha, he gave what he had, and it is that that is always
accepted,' said Miss Louisa.
The brother drowned her plaintive little voice with a more decided
reply--
'I am very glad Haldane has such good quarters. As for the lady, I
suppose she was not to blame; but when a man flies in the face of
Providence I would not reward him by providing for his wife and family.
I agree with Martha. It is a waste of the gifts of God to give this
house to poor people who cannot enjoy it; but still Burton is right on
the whole. If you cannot do better with your property, why should not
you use it to make friends of the mammon of unrighteousness? I approve
of his charity on the whole.'
Inside the recipients of the charity sat and heard all through the open
windows. But what then? Mr Baldwin and his sisters were not responsible
for that. They went on to the avenue making the same candid and audible
remarks all along the road. It was not necessary that they should
exercise self-restraint. They were in the dominions of their relation.
They were absolute over all foolish sentiment and false pride. They said
it loud out, frankly, whatever they might have to say. The arrival of
these visitors always made a certain commotion at Dura. It moved Mr
Burton a great deal more than it did his wife. Indeed, if there was
anything which vexed him in her exemplary behaviour, it was that she
would not make temporarily the changes which he thought were 'only
respectful' to suit the tastes of her father and aunts. 'You know your
father likes only plain roast and boiled,' he would say to her,
half-indignantly, adding, with a laugh, 'and minister sauce.' This last
was one of his favourite jokes, though it did not strike his wife as
particularly brilliant. But the minister sauce was the only thing which
Mrs Burton provided for her father. She held fast by her _menu_, though
he disapproved of it. She dressed herself tranquilly for dinner, though
her aunts held up their hands, and asked her solemnly if she knew what
all this extravagance must come to? In these matters Clara would not
give way; but she asked the minister of the chapel in the village to
dinner, and it was in the presence of this functionary that Mr Baldwin
filled up the measure of his son-in-law's content.
'I see you have been very generous to poor Haldane,' he said. 'I am very
much obliged to you, Burton. He is my own man; I should have been
compelled to do something for him if you had not taken him up; and my
hands are always so full! You will find I do not forget it. But it was
a great waste to put him into such a handsome house.'
'I am delighted to have pleased you,' said Mr Burton. 'It was an empty
house; and I have put my cousin, Mrs Drummond, in the other end, whom I
was obliged to take care of. It was the cheapest way of doing it. I am
most happy to think I have relieved you, even of so little as that.'
'Oh yes, you have relieved me,' said Mr Baldwin. 'I sha'n't forget it.
It will be an encouragement to Mr Truston and to many of the brethren to
see that a sick friend is never abandoned. I don't mean to say that you
want any inducement--but, still, when you can see that even in the case
of failing strength----'
'Oh yes. I am sure it is most encouraging,' the poor minister faltered.
Encouraging to think of Stephen Haldane, who was thus provided for! The
two rich men went on with their talk over their wine, while some
confused speculation as to the ways of Providence went through the head
of their companion. He was young, and he felt ill at ease, and he did
not like to interfere much. Had it been Mr Dalton he would have been
less easily silenced. Thus Mr Burton found his benevolence in one
particular at least attended with the most perfect success.