SECRETS OF GONZALO'S LIFE
Gonzalo, recollecting that the blister had not been attended to which
had been put on him the previous day, rang the bell violently. He was
lying on his back in bed, gazing at the arabesques on the ceiling, the
room being well lighted by two windows. He was not in his own bedroom,
but in his sitting-room, where a bed was put up the first day he was
taken ill. Ventura had objected to leaving their room, and as they could
not both be there he had been the one to move. The illness had proved as
serious as it was sudden--it was erysipelas, causing inflammation in his
face, hands, and legs, which had nearly cost him his life.
It had been kept from his head by strong applications to his legs, and
the doctor put blisters on various parts of his body.
"What do you want, sir?" said the maid, half opening the door.
"Be so kind as to ask my wife to come."
At the end of a minute the servant reappeared, and said:
"She is coming directly."
The young man waited, and in ten minutes' time the fair head of his wife
appeared at the door.
"What do you want, my love?" she asked without coming in, and in a tone
too careless to accord with the tenderness of the words.
"Come in. It is eleven o'clock, and the blister has not been attended to
yet."
"I thought you would wait for the doctor to do it," she said as she
hesitatingly entered the room, resplendent in a magnificent blue silk
dress.
"He did not say he would come and take it off; besides, it hurts me very
much."
The girl approached the bed, and after a few moments' silence she put
her hand upon her husband's head and said:
"Won't it be better to wait for the doctor to do it?"
"No, no," he returned, now fairly cross; "it is hurting very much. Fetch
the lint and the ointment and a pair of sharp scissors."
Ventura left the room without replying, and soon returned with the
necessaries in her hand. She looked grave and seemed absent, while her
face betrayed her aversion to attendance at the sick-bed.
After she had put the things on the little table by the bedside, and
spread some ointment upon the lint with a knife, the young wife said
softly:
"Come along."
Gonzalo raised himself in bed, and, opening his shirt, he exposed his
herculean chest, on the right side of which there was the blister. The
wife leaned forward to raise the linen covering, and Gonzalo profited by
the occasion to kiss her forehead.
Nothing was said. The blister was large, and surrounded by a circle of
inflamed flesh. Ventura straightened herself and said, with her usual
want of feeling:
"Bah, bah, we had better wait for the doctor; he won't be late. If you
like we will send him a message."
"I have said no," returned the young man, frowning angrily. "Take the
scissors and snip the blister all round, then put the linen on the
wound, and it is done. You see, it is very easy."
Ventura did not answer. She took the scissors, and, bending over him
again, began to snip the blister.
"Does it hurt you?"
"It is nothing; go on."
But when the wound was disclosed to view the girl could not repress a
gesture of repugnance, which did not escape her husband's sight; so that
his eyes darkened and his forehead corrugated with angry lines.
"Look here, stop, stop. We will wait for the doctor to come," he said,
taking hold of her gently, but firmly, by the wrist.
Ventura looked at him in surprise.
"Why?"
"Never mind; go away, go away," he returned quickly, fastening his
shirt, and drawing up the bedclothes about him.
Ventura stood with the scissors in her hand and looked at him fixedly in
astonishment. Her husband lay with the frown still upon his forehead and
with his eyes fixed on the ceiling.
"But why? What have I done to you, boy?"
"Nothing, nothing, only go and let me be."
The girl stood looking at him a few more minutes, and then, flying into
a rage, she dashed the scissors on the floor and said in the angry,
haughty tone she knew so well how to give to her words when she liked:
"I am glad of it, for the spectacle was not very pleasant, especially
just before dinner."
Then, as she turned her steps toward the door, Gonzalo retorted, with a
sarcastic smile:
"And I am glad to have afforded you this pleasure."
When left alone the young man's eyes flamed with fury, his lips
trembled, he crumpled the sheet with twitching fingers, and he broke
into a torrent of awful interjections peculiar to the brief and terrible
rages of men of sanguine temperament.
Before he had completely got over his excitement he heard a soft tap at
the door, and, thinking it was his wife, he called out angrily:
"Who is it?"
The person who had knocked, alarmed doubtless by the tone of his voice,
waited a minute before replying. At last a soft voice said:
"It is I, Gonzalo."
"Ah, excuse me, Cecilia. Come in," he returned, suddenly mollified. His
sister-in-law opened the door, came in, and carefully shut it behind
her.
"I came to know how you are, and to tell you that if you want the
lemonade it is ready made."
"I am better, thank you. If I keep on like this I shall be able to get
up to-morrow or next day."
"Has the blister been taken off?"
"Ventura began doing it just now, but she did not finish," he replied,
as a frown again darkened his brow.
"Yes, I just met her in the passage, and she told me that you were cross
because you thought the task was repugnant to her," said Cecilia,
smiling kindly.
"It is not that, it is not that," returned the young man in an impatient
tone and somewhat shamefacedly.
"You must forgive her, for she is not accustomed to these things. She
is but a child. Besides, in her state of health she is easily upset."
"It is not that!" repeated the young man with increased impatience, and
slightly raising his head from the pillows. "I should be very stupid and
very selfish if I were to put myself out for something which, after all,
she can not help. That is a matter of temperament, and I am accustomed
to bear it in mind, especially as it is a question of my wife, and she
is not well. But it is more than that, and this is the last straw that
breaks the camel's back. I have now been in bed ten days and she has not
entered the room more than two or three times a day, and those occasions
were generally when I sent for her. Do you think that is how a husband
ought to be treated by a wife? If it had not been for you and for
mama--especially you--I should have been left to servants, like in a
hospital."
"Oh, no, Gonzalo."
"Yes, yes, Cecilia," he returned emphatically, and raising himself up,
"abandoned. My wife only appears when anybody comes to see me. Then,
yes, she comes sweeping in, redolent with perfumes and glazing with
colors. But as to bringing me tisanes, carrying out the doctor's orders,
or keeping me company a while by reading or talking--nothing of the
sort. Just now I begged her to take off the blister for me, and even as
I mentioned it her whole face changed. She began by making excuses to
avoid doing it, and it was only when I insisted on it that she made up
her mind to do it, but with such a bad grace and with such a cross face
that I felt inclined to tear the things out of her hand. I should not
have had a spark of dignity or self-respect if I had let her go on."
In his increasing excitement Gonzalo quite raised himself up in bed, and
Cecilia stood in the middle of the room listening to him in dismay and
distress, without knowing what to reply. She wanted to defend her
sister, but she had no arguments weighty enough to contravene those of
her brother-in-law.
"Gonzalo," she said at last, with a serene face and in a firm voice,
"the pain you have had has somewhat excited you, and prevented your
seeing things as they really are. It is possible that Ventura has been
rather neglectful of her duties, but be quite assured that it was not
from lack of will. I know her well, and I know that her character is not
one to lend itself to the consideration and care required by an invalid.
She is not fit for a sick nurse. Besides, we must recollect that her
present state of health excuses her from many things."
"But if it be so in everything, Cecilia; if it be so in everything?"
returned the young man, both crossly and quickly. "If she be an
empty-headed girl? The only thing of any importance in the world to her
is herself--her beauty, her dresses, her jewels; all the rest--father,
mother, brother, sister, and husband--all go for naught. I am certain
she has been more interested in her hat from Paris than in my illness."
"Oh, don't say that, for goodness' sake! You are mad."
"I am not mad, it is the simple truth."
And in rapid, stirring tones, frequently interrupted by the intensity of
his anger, he laid bare his troubles, seeming to take pleasure in
reopening the wounds he had received in his matrimonial life. Ventura
had a character diametrically opposed to his. It was not possible to get
on with her for more than an hour, because when there was peace, and no
cause for dispute, she did not rest until she had found one, doubtless
for the pleasure of making up the quarrel again. If he did anything to
give her any enjoyment, instead of thanking him she only acknowledged it
by some joke or sarcasm. Nothing seemed of any importance to her, and
his greatest sacrifices were of no account. It was impossible to make
her think of anything beyond her dresses, perfumes, and ribbons. What a
life she led him those three months she spent with him in Madrid! They
were continually visiting drapers, jewelers, and dressmakers. The
evenings were invariably spent at the play, and however much his head
ached, or however tired he was, he had to appear in some box at the
Royal or Prince's theatre.
The money they spent there amounted to a considerable sum. He thought he
had provided himself with sufficient funds, but he had been obliged to
send home three times for more. Then seeing that his income would not
suffice him for this style of living, especially if he had several
children, he thought of starting a brewery, and thus turn to account the
study he had given the subject. But Ventura firmly set her face against
such a proceeding, saying that she declined being "a brewer's wife."
He was certain that the bad state of his blood, which had brought on the
sudden attack of erysipelas, was due to the life he had led at Madrid
and subsequently in Sarrio. This was quite evident, for he required a
life of activity and work, an outdoor life with shooting and riding; his
plethoric temperament required exercise, and the sedentary life which
suited Ventura, with the eternal theatre and visits, and long evenings
without food, were death to him, and his blood became as thick as oil.
But what did all that signify to her? All she cared about was to please
herself once and for all. In Madrid she had learned to use rouge--an
atrocious thing, because she was naturally as white as milk; but
although he had impressed upon her several times the horror that he had
of the fashion, she paid no attention to him.
While Gonzalo unburdened himself in this uninterrupted torrent of words
his face successively expressed the indignation, sadness, anger, and
disappointment with which the recollection of his sufferings filled him.
His great athletic form moved convulsively on the bed, sometimes raising
itself and at other times throwing itself back, while his trembling,
clenched hands mechanically pulled up the bedclothes which his
excitement continually disarranged. Cecilia listened with her head bent
and her hands clasped, hoping that his temper would calm after the
disburdenment of his troubles. And so it was, for when he had thoroughly
exhausted himself he drew the sheet up to his eyes, and only gave vent
to a series of interminable groans mingled with a few incoherent
utterances.
Then Cecilia said, in a very soft voice:
"I don't know what to say to all this, Gonzalo. It is always very
dangerous to meddle with matrimonial disagreements; and if any one ought
to interfere about yours it is not for me, but for mama. But I have
always heard that all marriages have trials and troubles at the
beginning, until the characters become molded to each other. But such
troubles go by like clouds in summer; as long as the hearts are united
little differences are of little consequence. And fortunately there is
no fear about that in this case--you love Ventura."
"Oh, more and more every day!" he exclaimed, angry with himself. "I am
in love like an ass! Yes, yes, like an ass!"
A shade of sorrow, swift as lightning, passed over Cecilia's clear eyes,
but they instantly resumed their usual serene brightness.
"And she also loves you, don't doubt it. Her disposition is light,
perhaps somewhat capricious, because she has always been the spoiled
child of the house; she is incapable of bearing malice, but she acts
without thinking, on the impulse of the moment. Besides, Gonzalo," she
added, smiling, "recollect you owe her especial consideration just now,
and even additional tenderness, if it be possible."
Then the girl in delicate language touched upon the future child, the
bond that would indissolubly solder the union of their hearts. This
child, for which the whole house was now working, would dissipate with
its innocent smile the clouds that threatened to momentarily darken the
love of its parents. Once it is in the world, what time will Venturita
have for rouge! No; she will have enough to do to tend it, feed it, and
soothe it when fretful. And the father will be so taken up with it that
he will not have time to notice what dress his wife had donned, or
whether she was in a good or bad humor. Cecilia's voice, soft and
persuasive albeit somewhat hesitating, which gave a peculiarly touching
and humble effect to her tones, was enough to melt anybody's heart, and
her brother-in-law's was not proof against it.
He suddenly calmed down, and his face expanded with a smile as he
interrupted her by saying:
"Child, what a good barrister you would make!"
"It is because I am in the right," she replied, laughing.
"And if you were not, you would make yourself so. Well, well, it is over
now! My tempers don't last long, and particularly when you begin to
speak I am done for. No orator can come up to your way of accumulating
arguments on your own side. Fancy bringing in the child!"
Cecilia could not forbear laughing.
"Confess that you missed no point."
"I don't deny it."
And both laughed merrily, joking each other affectionately, in the
brotherly and sisterly way that delighted them.
At last Cecilia was about to take her departure. But before reaching the
door she turned and asked, with a timidity which betrayed her strong
concern on the subject:
"Would you like me to take off the blister? It must hurt you."
The young man hesitated an instant, fearful of offending his
sister-in-law's delicacy.
"If you like. There is no necessity. Perhaps it will be disagreeable to
you."
But Cecilia had already approached the bed and put the lint, ointment,
and scissors in order. She cut a fresh piece of lint and carefully
spread the ointment upon it. Gonzalo watched her somewhat shyly. She
kept silent in her heroic efforts to overcome the confusion which nearly
overwhelmed her. She was indeed repenting her suggestion, and she spent
some minutes passing the knife numberless times over the lint, with
downcast looks, feigning engrossing attention to the task. At last, with
a supreme effort she took up the lint, and, raising her eyes to her
brother-in-law, she said, with assumed indifference:
"Are you ready?"
Gonzalo with a hesitating hand pushed back the bedclothes, and proceeded
to unfasten his night-shirt slowly and shyly, until he had uncovered his
muscular chest.
"Nice sight before dinner!" he exclaimed shamefacedly, repeating the
remark expressed by his wife.
Cecilia did not reply, but proceeded to examine the wound still half
covered with the blister that Ventura did not finish removing. Then she
took the scissors, and with a firm hand she snipped away what remained
of it.
"Do I hurt you?" she asked.
"Not at all."
When the wound was laid bare, as large as the palm of one's hand, she
gently laid the lint upon it, passed her hand several times over it to
adjust it, put some linen over the lint, and without leaving off the
pressure with her left hand, she took a band from the little table to
keep the plaster in its place.
Then it was necessary to get the bandage round his back so as to tie it
in front.
"Can't you do it?" he said, laughing nervously.
She did not reply, for she wished by her gravity to overcome the
confusion to which she was a prey. She only betrayed her emotion by the
slight trembling of her lips. Her eyes, half closed, shone under her
long lashes with a real intense pleasure which the grave and quiet
expression of her face could not conceal.
Gonzalo tried to cross the strings behind him, but it was impossible,
and Cecilia came to his assistance. Her hand slightly trembled as it
touched the young man's form, but she did not shrink from the
performance of her task.
"A fine chest, eh?" he said with affected unconcern, to hide the
embarrassment from which they were both suffering.
"It is rather," returned Cecilia.
"Don't think it is quite natural. I got these arms and chest by rowing
on the Thames."
"Rowing?"
"Yes, rowing. The richest youths there don a sailor's vest or shirt, and
indeed it is considered fashionable to do so on the water. What trips
we had down that river! Then every now and then there was a regatta, and
the people flocked thither as they do to a bull-fight in Madrid. Fine
races were held; it is a delicious amusement. What an excitement there
was among us for days beforehand!"
He was quite elated at the recollection of those pleasant hours of
health and strength, when neither love nor any domestic cares disturbed
his merry life as a rich young athlete. Then seeing Cecilia's attention,
he gave minute descriptions of little incidents in his athletic career.
He told her of the races he won, those that he lost, and all the
particulars relating to them. He recounted his experiences before and
after the events, the kind of diet which he had to adopt to gain
strength and to lose fat; he described the costume that he wore, even to
the shape of the boots, and he dilated on the cries of the crowd on the
banks of the river.
"There were none there stronger than you," she said, her eyes eloquent
with admiration.
"Oh, yes, there were none bigger than I, but there were some stronger,"
he modestly replied.
The shyness of both had now vanished, and the old, pleasant sense of
familiarity had reasserted itself. As he lay upon the bed, with his arms
stretched out on the counterpane, he said that when he was quite himself
again he would go to Tejada, for he would have to change his mode of
life to avoid another illness; he thought of going in seriously for
sport, he would set up a gymnasium near the house--in short, he made up
his mind to be a different man altogether. Cecilia applauded his plans,
and promised to accompany him sometimes. She liked Tejada much better
than Sarrio; she was born for a country life, but her brother-in-law
derided these remarks.
"You don't know what it is going shooting down there. I daresay I should
have to carry you in my arms as I did Ventura."
"No fear; I am stronger than I look."
When the girl at last was leaving the room Gonzalo said timidly:
"Couldn't you read to me a little?"
Cecilia had thought of the idea herself, but as the young man had
complained of his wife not doing so, she thought it would put Ventura in
a bad position if she offered to do so.
"What would you like me to read?"
"Anything, as long as it is not one of those horrible novels that my
wife is so fond of."
"All right, I will read you 'The Christian Year.'"
"Oh, come!" he exclaimed, laughing.
So Cecilia then took from the shelf a volume of poems and began to read,
seated near the foot of the bed. In a quarter of an hour Gonzalo fell
into a delicious sleep as tranquil as a child. The girl stopped reading
and looked at him attentively, or rather fixed her loving eyes on him
for a long time.
Then, thinking she heard steps in the passage, and not wishing to be
found in that attitude, she jumped up quickly from her chair and left
the room on tiptoe. When Gonzalo was convalescent he carried out his
wish of going to Tejada, and all the family accompanied him with the
exception of Don Rosendo. It was the month of October, and instead of
the yellow foliage of other estates, Don Rosendo's place, full of firs,
presented a gloomy appearance not at all pleasing to the eye. The young
man carried out his program of a hygienic life. He rose early, took his
gun, called his dogs, and struck across the country, returning most days
with a few partridges in his bag, and as hungry as a cannibal. When his
expeditions were shorter Cecilia accompanied him, according to her
promise. Although on these occasions few partridges were shot, Gonzalo
enjoyed the society of such a sympathetic, agreeable companion. The girl
would never confess to being tired, but he always guessed it by her
faltering step, and made her sit down until she was rested, when the
time passed quickly in joking and talking.
But she had to struggle between her delight in these expeditions and the
promises she had made her sister to work at the wardrobe for the child.
When the time had come to think about it, Ventura was about to order it
from Madrid, but Cecilia said to her:
"If I have the patterns I will undertake to make the things as well as
if they came from the city."
Ventura demurred a little at first, but seeing that her sister was set
upon the task, she soon gave in, and Cecilia commenced the work with
such enthusiasm that she hardly gave herself time to eat and sleep.
Sometimes, when her brother-in-law wanted her to go out, she would say:
"No, you must let me work to-day; I have hardly done anything the last
three days."
And when he insisted and made light of her labors, she gave in, saying:
"Very well, it will be all the worse for you when you find that the
child has nothing to wear when it arrives."
"Don't trouble about that, dear," he returned, laughing. "I have
sufficient shirts for him and myself too, particularly if he is likely
to have a predilection for low collars."
By the end of the month the open air and sun had made Cecilia very much
stronger, and Gonzalo declared that she looked like a boy, a sailor boy,
so sunburnt was her face.