CHAPTER XII

On Monday morning he went up to town without seeing her again. Tuesday

he got that fateful telegram:

Stevens seen man hanging about house, shabby peering man. Questioned

cook. Sick with fear. Send back all my letters at once by special

messenger. In panic. On no account come down or near me but letters

urgent.

Stevens had told her in the evening whilst putting her to bed. Stevens

knew all about the case and was alert for possible complications. The

shabby man had been under the observation of cook and housemaid.

“And much satisfaction he got out of what they told him. Askin’

questions an’ peerin’ about! Cook told him off, said no one hadn’t been

stayin’ here, an’ if they had ’twas no business of his.”

Margaret, pale and stricken, asked if the man looked like ... like a

detective.

“Lawyer’s clerk more like, but I thought I’d best let you know.”

The news would have kept until the morning, but one could not expect a

servant to take into consideration the effect her stories might have on

Margaret’s sensitiveness. She had no sleep at all. Sleepless and shaken

she lay awake the whole night, conjuring up ghosts, chiefly the ghost or

vision of James, coarse-mouthed, cruel, vindictive. The bare idea of the

case being reopened made her shudder, she had been so tormented in

court, her modesties outraged. She knew she could never, would never

bear it again. If the dreadful choice were all that was left to her she

would give up Gabriel. At the thought of giving up Gabriel it seemed

there was nothing else for which she cared, nothing on earth.

She conjured up not only ghosts but absurdities. The shabby peering man

would go to Hampstead, question Gabriel’s silly sister, _be shown

letters_. This was more than she could bear. On the last occasion

letters of hers had been read in court; love letters to James! She

cringed in her bed at the remembrance of them. And what had she written

to Gabriel? Not one word came back to her of anything she had written.

At first she knew they had been laboured letters, laboured or literary.

But since she had been down here, and Peter Kennedy, by sheer force of

contrast, had taught her how much she could care for a really good and

clever man, she had written with entire unrestraint, freely.

She wrote that telegram to Gabriel Stanton at four o’clock in the

morning, going down to the drawing-room for a telegram form in

dressing-gown and slippers, her hair in two plaits, shivering with cold

and apprehension. The house was full of eerie sounds; she heard pursuing

feet. After she had secured the forms she rushed for the shelter of her

room and the warmth of her bed; cowering under the clothes, not able for

a long time to do the task she had set herself. When she became

sufficiently rested she took more time and care over the wording of her

telegram to Gabriel than she might have done over a sonnet. She wanted

to say just enough, not too much, not to bring him down, yet to make the

matter urgent. Stevens was rung for at six o’clock for tea and perhaps

sympathy.

“Get me a cup of tea as quickly as you can, I’ve been awake the whole

night. I want this telegram sent off as soon as the office opens, not

later anyway than eight o’clock. Keep the house as quiet as you can. I

shall try and sleep now.”

She slept until Gabriel’s telegram came back.

* * * * *

One of our own men coming with package by 3.15.

* * * * *

She met the train, looking pale and wretched. Stanton’s man wore the

familiar cap. She had been to the office two or three times about the

pottery book, and he recognised her easily.

“You have a parcel for me?”

“Mr. Gabriel said I was to tell you there was a letter inside.”

“A letter! But I thought ... oh, yes! Give it to me.”

“And I was to ask if there was an answer.”

“An answer, but I can’t write here!”

“He didn’t know you was meeting me. ‘Go up to the house,’ he said; ‘give

it to her in her own hands. Ask if there is any answer.’”

“Tell him ... tell him I’ll write,” she said vaguely.

But as yet she had not read. What would he say, what comfort send her?

For all her wired definiteness she wished he had come himself, had a

moment’s disloyalty to him, thought he should have disregarded her

wishes, rushed down, even if they had met only at the station. He need

not have been so punctilious!

She could not let the man go back until she had read and answered

Gabriel’s letter. She made him drive back with her to Carbies, seated on

the box beside the driver. She held the precious package tight, but did

not open it. For that she must be alone.

Stanton’s man was handed over to the household’s care for lunch or tea.

He was to go back by the 5.5. “Mr. Gabriel” had given him his

instructions.

Now she was at her writing-table and alone. The packet was sealed with

sealing-wax. Inside there were all her own letters, and a closed

envelope superscribed in the dear familiar handwriting. She tore it

open. After she had read her lover’s letter she had no more reproaches

for him, vague or otherwise.

_My Own, my Beloved:_—

Here are the letters. I could refuse you nothing, but to part from

these has overwhelmed me, weakened me. I have turned coward. For it

is all so unknown. I am in the dark, bewildered. Your wire was an

awful shock. I am haunted with terror, the harder to bear because it

came in the midst of all the sweet sacred thoughts and remembrances

of a wonderful week-end, of the things you said or allowed me to say

which filled me with high hopes, promise of joy and happiness I

dared hardly dwell upon. I don’t know what has happened. I only know

you must not be alone and have forbidden me to come to you. Rescind

your decision, I implore you. As I think and think with restless

brain and heart my great ache and anxiety are that you are in

trouble and that I am away and useless, just when I would give my

soul for the chance of standing by you and with you in any need and

for always. By all the remembrance of our happy hours, by all the

new and sweet happiness you have given me, by all I yearn for in the

future give me this chance. Let me come to you. To think of you

suffering alone is maddening. Trust me, give me your trust, solemnly

I swear not to fail you whatever may happen. It is of you only I am

thinking. I can be strong for _you_, wise for _you_, and should

thank God, both in pride and humbleness, for the chance to serve

you; to serve you with reverence and love. _Send for me._ Tell

me—let me share all and always.

Devotedly yours,

G. S.

She sat a long time with the letter in her hand, read it again and yet

again. She forgot the night terrors, began to question herself. Of what

had she been so frightened? What had Stevens told her? Only that a

shabby man had questioned cook about their visitors. Now she wanted to

analyse and sift the trouble, get to bedrock with it. She rang the bell

and sent for the maids. They had singularly little to tell her;

summarised it came to this: A shabby man had hung about Carbies all

Monday; cook had called him up to the back door and asked him what he

was after—“No good, I’ll be bound,” she told him. He had paid her a

compliment and said that “with her in the kitchen it was no wonder men

’ung about.” And after that they seemed to have had something of a

colloquy and cook had been asked if she walked out with anybody. “Like

his nasty impidence,” she commented, when telling the story to her

mistress. “I up and told him whether I walked out with anybody or not I

wasn’t for the likes of him.”

It was not without question and cross-question Margaret elicited that

this final snub was not given until after tea. Cook defended the

invitation.

“It’s ’ard if in an establishment like this you can’t offer a young man

a cup of tea.” She complained, not without waking a sympathetic echo in

Margaret’s own heart, that Pineland was that dull, not a bit o’ life in

it. Married men came round with the carts and a girl delivered the milk.

“‘E was pleasant company enough till ’e started arskin’ questions.”

Then it appeared it was Stevens who “gave him as good as he gave,”

asking him what it was he did want to know, and being satirical with

him. The housemaid had chimed in with Stevens; there may have been some

little feminine jealousy at the back of it. Cook was young and

frivolous, the two others more sedate. Stevens and the housemaid must

have set upon cook and her presumed admirer. In any case the young man

was given his congé immediately after tea, before he had established a

footing. Stevens’ report had been exaggerated, Margaret’s terror

excessive and unreasonable. She dismissed the erring cook now with the

mildest of rebukes, then set herself to write to Gabriel. The time was

limited, since the man was returning by the 5.5. She heard later, by the

way, that he quite replaced the stranger in the cook’s facile

affections. Stevens again was responsible for the statement that cook

was “that light and talked away to any man.” Contrasting with herself,

Stevens, who “didn’t ’old with making herself cheap.”

Margaret wrote slowly, even if it were only a letter. She had to recall

her mood, to analyse the panic. She was quite calm now. _His_ letter

seemed exaggerated beyond what the occasion or the telegram demanded.

_Dearest_:—

How good you are, and safe. Your letter calmed and comforted me.

Panic! no other word describes my condition at four o’clock this

morning after a sleepless night. Servants’ gossip was at the bottom

of it. I have always wished for a dumb maid, but Stevens’ tongue is

hung on vibrating wires, never still. There _was_ a man, it seems

now he was a suitor of cook’s! He _did_ ask questions, but chiefly

as to her hours off duty, whether she was already “walking out,” an

expression for an engagement on probation, I understand. He was an

aspirant. I cannot write you a proper letter, my bad night has

turned me into a wreck, a “beautiful ruin” as you would say. No, you

wouldn’t, you are too polite. You must take it then that all is

well; except that your choice has fallen upon a woman easily

unnerved. Was I so foolish after all? James is capable of any

blackguardism, he would hate that I should be happy with you. He can

no longer excuse his conduct to me, or my resentment of it on the

plea that I am unlike other women. I know his mind so well! “Women

of genius have no sex,” he said among other things to account for

the failure of our married life. He can say so no longer. “Women of

genius have no sex!” _It isn’t true._ Do you see me reddening as I

write it? What about that little house in Westminster? Have you

written to all the agents? Are you searching? Sunday night I was so

happy. One large room there must be. Colour prints on the walls and

chintz on the big sofas, my Staffordshire everywhere, a shrine

somewhere, central place for the musicians; cushions of all shades

of roses, some a pale green. I can’t _see_ the carpets or curtains

yet. I incline to dark green for both. No, I am not frivolous, only

emotional. I think I shall alter when we are together, begin to

develop and grow uniform in the hothouse of your love, under the

forcing glass of your great regard. It is into that house, under

that glass I want to creep, to be warmed through, to blossom.

Picture me then as no longer unhappy or distressed, although all day

I have neither worked nor played. Your letter healed me; take thanks

for it therefore and come down Saturday as usual, with a plan of the

house that is to be. (By the way, I _must_ have dog stoves.) In a

few days now I, or you, will tell my father and stepmother. The days

crawl, each one emptier than the other, until the one that brings

you. _Arrivederci_.

She sent it, but not the old ones back. She wanted to read them again,

it would be an occupation for the evening. She would place them in

order, together with his answers. She saw a story there. “The Love Tale

of a Woman of Genius.” After all, both she and Gabriel were of

sufficient interest for the world to wish to read about them. (It was

not until a few days later, by the way, that the title was altered,

others tried, that the disingenuous diary began, the MS. started.)

She slept well that night and wrote him again in the morning, the most

passionate love-letter of any of the series. Then she sent for Peter

Kennedy. Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday had to be got through. And then

another week, and one other. And Safety, safety with Gabriel!

Peter came hot-foot like a starving animal. It was five days since he

had seen her, and he looked worn and cadaverous. She gave him an

intermittent pulse to count, told him she had had a sleepless night,

found herself restless, unnerved, told him no more. He was purely

professional at first, brusquely uneasy about her, blaming her for all

she had done and left undone, the tonic she had missed, the unrest to

which she admitted. After that they found little more to say to each

other, though Peter could not tear himself away.

She talked best to Peter through the piano, as he to her. Even in these

few weeks his playing had enormously improved. The whole man had

altered. She had had more and different effect upon him than would have

seemed possible at first. He had never been in love before, only known

vulgar intrigue, how to repel the glad-eye attentions of provincial

maidens to whom his size was an attraction, and his stupidity no

deterrent. This was something altogether different, and in a measure he

had grown to meet it, become more ambitious and less demonstrative,

perceptibly humbler. She knew he loved her but made light of it. He

filled up the hours until Gabriel would come again. That was all. But

less amusingly now that she had less difficulty in managing him. This

mutual attraction of music slurred over many weak places in their

intercourse.

Wednesday he sat through the afternoon, stayed on to dinner playing to

her and listening. Thursday he paid her a professional visit in the

morning, would have sounded her heart but that his stethoscope was

unsteady, and he heard his own heartbeats louder and more definitely

than hers. Thursday evening he ran up on his bicycle to see if she was

all right. There was more music, and for all his newly found

self-restraint a scene at parting, a scene that troubled her because she

could not hold herself guiltless in bringing it about, and Gabriel was

in her mind now to the exclusion of any other man. Gabriel had won

solidly that which at first was little more than an incitement, an

inclination.

Gabriel Stanton would not have made love to another man’s fiancée. His

standard was higher than her own, just as his scholarship was deeper and

more profound. She was proud that he loved her, simpler and more sincere

than she had ever been before.

Tonight, when Peter Kennedy broke down, and cried at her feet and told

her that his days were hell and all his nights sleepless, she was

ashamed and distressed, much more repelled than attracted. She told him

she would refuse to see him, that she would not have him at the house at

all if he could not learn to behave himself.

“You are a disgrace to your profession,” she said crossly, knowing she

was not blameless.

“You do not really think so, do you?” he asked. “I can’t help being in

love with you.”

“Yes, I do. You have given me a pain.”

When she said that and pressed both hands over her heart his whole

attitude changed. It was true that under the influence of his love his

skill had developed. Her lips grew pale and her eyes frightened. He made

her lie down, loosened her dress, gave her restoratives. The pain had

been but slight, and she recovered rapidly.

“It was entirely your fault,” she said when she was able to speak. “You

know I can’t bear any agitation or excitement.”

“The last you’ll have through me, I swear it. You can trust me.”

“Until the first time the spirit moves you.” She never had considered

his feelings and did not pause to do so now. “You’ve no self-control.

You dump your ungainly love upon me....”

“And you throw it back in my face with both hands, as if it were mud.

But you’ll never have another chance, never....”

She was a little sorry for him, and to show it reproached him more.

“Why do you do it, then? You know that, as far as I can be, I am engaged

to Gabriel Stanton, that the moment the decree is made absolute we shall

be married. Perhaps I ought not to have let you come so often....”

“I fell in love with you the very first moment I saw you. If I’d never

seen you again it would have been the same thing. And you’ve nothing to

reproach yourself with. You’ve made a different man of me. I play

better.”

“And your taste in music has improved.” He looked so forlorn standing up

and saying he played the piano better since he had known her, that she

regretted the cruelty of her words. He had relieved her pain not once

but many times. Instead of sending him away, as she had intended, she

kept him with her until quite late. She let him tell her about himself;

and what a change his love for her had brought into his life, and there

was nothing he would not do, nor sacrifice for her. He said, humbly

enough, that he knew she could never, never have cared for such a man as

himself.

“Stanton has been to a public school and university, is no end of a

swell at classics. I got what little education I have at St. Paul’s and

the London University, walked the hospitals and thought well of myself

for doing it, that I was coming up in the world. My father was a country

dentist. I’ve studied more, learnt more since you’ve been here than in

all my student days. You’ve opened a new world to me. I didn’t know

there were women like you. After the girls I’ve met! You were such a ...

lady, and all that. You are so clever too, and satirical, I don’t mind

you being down on me. It isn’t as if you were strong.”

She smiled and asked him whether her delicacy was an additional charm.

“Well, yes, in a way it is. I can always bring you round. I want you to

go on letting me be your doctor. You hardly had that pain a minute

tonight. It is angina, you know, genuine _angina pectoris_, and I can do

no end of things for it.”

“You don’t mean I must always have these pains, that they will grow

worse?” She grew pale and he saw he had made a mistake, hastening to

reassure her.

“You’ve only got to live quietly, take things easily.”

“Oh, that will be all right. When I am married everything will be easy,”

she said almost complacently. And then in plaintive explanation or

apology added, “I bear pain so badly.”

“And I may go on doctoring you?”

“I don’t suppose I shall send to Pineland if I should feel not quite

well,” she answered seriously. “We are going to live in London.”

“I’ll come up to London. There is no difficulty about that. I’ve started

reading for my M.D. I can get back to my old hospital.” She rallied him

a little and then sent him away.

“I shall expect to hear you are house physician when I return from my

honeymoon!”

“May I come up in the morning? I want to hear that attack has not

recurred.”

“The morning is a long way off, the night has to be got through first.”

Suddenly she remembered her panic and had a faint recrudescence of fear.

“I’ve so many things on my mind. I wish you could ensure me a good

night.”

“But I can,” he said eagerly. “I can easily.”

“And without after-effects?”

“Without any bad after-effects.”

“The bromide! but it always makes me feel dull and stupid.”

“Veronal?”

“I am frightened of veronal.”

“Adolin, paraldehyde, trional, a small injection of morphia?”

“But it is so late. You would have to get anything from a chemist.”

“No, I shouldn’t. I’ve got my case.”

“Your case!”

“Yes.” He showed it to her, full of strange little bottles and unknown

drugs. She showed interest, asking what was this or the other, then

changing her mind suddenly:

“No, I won’t try any experiments. I’ll sleep, or I’ll stay awake.”

“You don’t trust me?”

“Indeed I do, but I distrust drugs. Unless I am in pain, then I would

take anything. Tell me, can you really always help me if I get into

pain? Would you? At any risk?”

“At any risk to myself, not at any risk to you. But we won’t talk of

pain, it mustn’t happen.”

“But if it did?” she persisted.

“Don’t fear, I couldn’t see you in pain.”

“Yet I’ve always heard and sometimes seen how callous doctors are.”

“But I’m not only a doctor....”

“Hush! I thought we had agreed you were. My very good and concerned

doctor. Now you really must go. Yes, you can come up in the morning.”

“You will take your bromide?”

“If I need it. Good-night!”

Margaret slept well. But she heard from Stevens again next morning over

her toilette that cook was not to be trusted, should be got rid of, that

she was deceitful, had been seen, after all, with the shabby man from

London.

“She took her oath that she’d never mentioned you to him, you nor your

visitors, only Dr. Kennedy who attends you. But I’d not believe her

oath. A hat with feathers she had on, and a ring on her finger when she

went out with him. Such goings-on are not fit for a respectable

Christian house, and so I told her.”

Margaret listened inattentively, and irritably. She did not want ever to

think again of that shabby man or her own unreasoned fears. She bade the

maid be silent, attend to her duties. Stevens sniffed and grumbled under

her breath. Afterwards she asked if the doctor were coming up again this

morning.

“Why?”

“He might want to sound you. You’d best have your Valenciennes slip.”

“Don’t be so absurd.”

Nevertheless the query set her thinking of Peter Kennedy and his love

for her. Desultory thinking connects itself naturally with a leisurely

toilette. She was sorry for Peter and composed phrases for him,

comforting noncommittal phrases. She thought it would do him good to get

to London, his ideas wanted expanding, his provincialisms brushed off.

She was under the impression she would do great things for Peter one

day, let him into her circle; that salon she and Gabriel would hold. Her

father should consult him, she would help him to build up a practice.

When he came up, later on, she told him something of her good

intentions. They did not interest him very much, it was not service he

wanted from her. He heard her night had been good, that she felt rested

and better this morning. He had not been told what had disturbed the

last one. They were sitting together in the drawing-room, doctor and

patient, when the parlourmaid came in with a card. Margaret looked at it

and laughed, passed it over to him.

“That’s Anne,” she said. “Anne evidently thinks I am a hopeful subject.”

The card bore the name of “Mrs. Roope, Christian Healer.”

“Stay and see her with me,” she said to Peter. “It will be almost like a

consultation, won’t it?... Yes,” she told the parlourmaid, “I will see

the lady. Let her come up. Now, Peter Kennedy, is opportunity to show

your quality, your tact. I expect to be amused, I want to be amused.”

Peter was not loath to stay, whatever the excuse.

Mrs. Roope, tall, and dressed something like a hospital nurse, in long

flowing cloak and bonnet with veil, was ushered in, but delayed a little

in her greeting, because that hysterical affection of the throat of

which Anne had spoken, caught and held her, and at first she could only

make uncanny noises, something between a hiccough and a bad stammer.

“I’ve come to see you,” she said not once but several times without

getting any further.

“Sit down,” Margaret said good-naturedly. “This is my doctor. I would

suggest you ask him to cure your affliction, only I understand you

prefer your own methods.”

“There is nothing the matter with me,” said the Christian Scientist with

an unavoidable contortion.

“So I see,” said Margaret, her eyes sparkling with humour.

“I would prefer that this interview should take place without

witnesses.”

Margaret found that a little surprising, but even then she was not

disturbed. There was no connection in her mind between Anne Stanton’s

healer and the shabby man who had wooed her cook.

“I have no secrets from this gentleman,” she answered, her eyes still

laughing. “He has no prejudice against you irregular practitioners. You

can decide together what is to be done for me. He is my present

physician.”

“I had thought he was”—bupp, bupp, explosion—“your co-respondent.”

When she said that Peter Kennedy looked up. He tingled all over and his

forehead flushed. He made a step forward and then stood still. His

instinct told him here was an enemy, an enemy of Margaret’s. He looked,

too, at Margaret.

“Your name is Gabriel Stanton.”

“My name is Peter Kennedy.”

Margaret’s quick mind leapt to the truth, saw, and foresaw what was

coming. She turned very pale, as if she had been struck. Peter Kennedy

moved nearer to her.

“Shall I turn her out?” he asked.

Mrs. Roope fanned herself with her bonnet strings as if she had said

nothing unusual.

“You had better see me alone,” she said, not menacingly but as if she

had established her point. To save repetition the rest of her

conversation can be recorded without the affliction that retarded it.

“No,” Margaret answered, her courage at low ebb. “Stay where you are,”

she said to Peter Kennedy.

“You don’t suppose I am going, do you?” he asked. Mrs. Roope, after a

glance, ignored him.

“Perhaps you are not aware that you have been under observation for some

time. My call on you is one of kindness, of kindness only. James Capel

is my husband’s cousin.”

At the name of James Capel Margaret gave a little low cry and Peter

Kennedy sat down by her side, abruptly.

“We heard you were being visited by Gabriel Stanton and a watch was set

upon you. Your decree is not yet made absolute. It never will be now, if

the King’s Proctor is informed. James, I know, does not wish for a

divorce from you.”

Margaret sat very still and speechless,—any movement, she knew, might

bring on that sickening pain. Peter too realised the position, although

he had so little to guide him.

“Answer her. Don’t let her think you are afraid. It’s blackmail she’s

after. I am sure of it,” he whispered to his patient. Thus strengthened

Margaret made an effort for self-control. Peter saw then that the fear

was not as new to her as it was to him.

“So it is you who have been having this house watched? Is it perhaps

your husband who has been making love to my cook?” Since Peter Kennedy

was here she would not show the cold fear at her heart. Mrs. Roope was

not offended. She had been kicked out of too many houses by irate

fathers, brothers, and husbands to be sensitive.

“No, that is not my husband. The gentleman who has been here is my

nephew. As for making love to your cook, I will not admit it. I

suggested your maid.”

“If she had only sent her husband instead of coming herself. One can

talk to a man.”

Peter might have been talking to himself. He had risen and now was

walking about the room on soft-balled feet like a captive panther.

“You don’t know our religion, our creed. We have the true Christian

spirit and desire to help others. The sensual cannot be made the

mouthpiece of the spiritual. Sensuality palsies the right hand and

causes the left to let go its divine grasp. That is why I interfere, for

your own good as we are enjoined. Uncleanliness must lead to the body’s

hurt, in so far as it can be hurt. But mind and matter being one, what

hurts the one will hurt the other.”

“You can cut the cackle and come to the horses,” Peter interrupted

rudely. He had summed up the situation and thought he might control it.

To him it was obvious the woman was a common blackmailer, although she

had formulated no terms. “You are making a great deal of the fact that

Mr. Stanton has been down here two or three times. I suppose you know he

is Mrs. Capel’s publisher.”

“Do not interfere, young man. You are a member of a mendacious

profession. I am not here to speak to you. I know Gabriel Stanton slept

in the house,” she said to Margaret.

“What then? Show us your foul mind, if you dare.”

“There is no mind....”

“Oh! damn your jargon. What have you come here for? What do you want?”

He stopped opposite to her in his restless walking. There shot a gleam

of avarice into her dull eye.

“Is he your mouthpiece?” she asked Margaret, who nodded her assent. “I

want nothing for myself.”

“For whom, then?”

“The labourer is worthy of his hire.... Our Church....”

“You call it a church, do you? And you are short of cash. There are not

enough silly women, half-witted men. You want money....”

“For the promulgation of our tenets.” She interrupted. “Yes, we need

money for that, for the regeneration of the world.”

“And to keep your own house going.”

“Your insults do not touch me. I am uplifted from them. Nothing touches

the true believer.”

Margaret called him over to her and whispered:

“Find out whether James knows anything of this or whether she is acting

on her own; what she really wants. I can’t talk to her.”

Mrs. Roope went on talking and spluttering out texts.

“Cannot you see that Mrs. Capel is ill?” he said angrily.

The Christian Healer was quick to take the opening he gave her.

“Sickness is a growth of error, springing from man’s ignorance of

Christian Science.”

“Oh! more rot—rot—rot, _rot_! Shut it! What we want to know is if there

is any one in this but yourself. We don’t admit a word of truth in your

allegations. They are lies, and we have no doubt you know they are

lies.”

“Mrs. Capel will make her own deductions. What have you to do with it,

young man?”

“I’ll tell you what I have to do with it. I am here to protect this

lady.”

“Mr. Capel and his lawyer will understand.”

“That isn’t what you came down here to say.”

“I knew that I should be guided. I prayed about it with my husband.”

“A pretty sight! ‘The Blackmailers’ Prayer!’ How it must have stank to

Heaven! And this fellow here?”

“My nephew. An honourable young man, one of the believers.”

“He would be. What’s the proverb? _Bon sang ne peut pas mentir._ Well,

for the whole lot of you, your prayerful husband, your honourable

nephew, and yourself?”

“What is it you are asking me?”

“As you are here and not with James Capel it is fair to presume you’ve

got your price. Mrs. Capel does not wish to argue or defend herself, she

wants to be left alone. You don’t know anything because there is nothing

to know. But I daresay you could make mischief. What are you asking to

keep your venomous mouth shut? There is no good beating about the bush

or talking Christian Science. Come to the point. How much?”

“A thousand pounds!” They were both startled, but Peter spoke first.

“That be damned for a tale.” A most unedifying dialogue ensued. Then

Peter said, after a short whispered colloquy with Margaret:

“She will give you a hundred pounds, no more and no less. Come, close,

or leave it alone. A hundred pounds! Take it or leave it.”

Margaret would have interrupted. “I said double,” she whispered. He

translated it quickly:

“Not a farthing more, she says. She has made up her mind. Either that or

clear out and do your damnedest.”

Sarah Roope stood out for her price until she nearly exhausted his

patience, would have exhausted it but that Margaret, terrified, kept

urging and soothing him. Before the end Mrs. Roope said a word that

justified him—and he put his two hands on her shoulders. He made no

point now of her being a woman. There are times when a man’s brutality

stands him in good stead, and this was one of such occasions.

“Get out of that chair,” he jerked it away from her. “Out of her

presence. You’ll deal with me, or not at all.”

He slid his hands from her shoulders to under her elbows: the noises she

made in her throat were indescribable, but her actual resistance was

small.

“You are not to sit down in her presence.”

“I prefer to stand.”

“Nor stand either. Outside....” he bundled her towards the door, she

tried to hold her ground, but he forced her along. “We’ve had nearly

enough of you, very nearly enough. You wait outside that door. I’ll have

a word with Mrs. Capel and give you your last chance.” She bup—ped out

her remonstrance.

“I came here to do her a service. As Mrs. Eddy writes: ‘Light and

darkness cannot mingle.’ I must do as I am guided, and I said from the

first we should go to James Capel. Husband and wife should never

separate if there is no Christian demand for it.”

“Oh! go to hell!”

He shut the door in her face and came back to Margaret.

“You’d better let me get rid of her for you. I shouldn’t pay her a brass

farthing.”

“I’d pay her anything, anything, rather than go through again what I

went through before.” She burst into tears.

“Oh! if that’s the case ...” he said indecisively.

“Pay her what she wants.”

“I can get her down a good bit.” He had no definite idea but to stop her

tears, carry out her wishes. In a measure he acted cleverly, going

backward and forward between dining and drawing-room negotiating terms.

Mrs. Roope said she had no wish to expose Mrs. Capel, and repeated, “I

came here to do her a kindness.”

In the end two hundred and fifty pounds was agreed upon, a hundred down

and a hundred and fifty when the decree was made absolute, this latter

represented by a post-dated cheque. Peter had to write the cheques

himself, it was as much as Margaret could do to sign them. Her hands

were shaking and her eyelids red, the sight swept away all his

conventions.

“You’ve got to go to bed and stay there,” he told her when he came back

to her finally. He forgot everything but that she looked terribly ill

and exhausted, and that he was her physician. “You need not have a

minute’s more anxiety. I know the type. She has gone. She won’t bother

you again. She’s taken her hundred pounds. That’s a lot to the woman who

makes her money by shillings. That absent treatment business is a pound

a week at the outside. There’s a limited number of fools who pay for

isolated visits. Did you see her boots? They didn’t look like affluence!

and her cotton gloves! She will have another hundred and fifty if

nothing comes out, if she keeps her mouth shut until the 30th of May.

You are quite safe. Don’t look so woebegone. I ... I can’t bear it.”

He turned his back to her.

“What will Gabriel say?”

“The most priggish thing he can think of,” he answered roughly.

“He doesn’t look at things in the same way you do.”

“Do you think I don’t know his superiority?”

“Now you are angry, offended.”

“You’ve done the right thing. You are not in the health for any big

annoyance.”

She was holding her side with both hands.

“I believe the pain is coming on again.”

“Oh; no, it isn’t.” But he moved nearer to her. No contradiction or

denial warded off the attack. She bore it badly too, pulse and colour

evidencing her collapse. Hurriedly and perhaps without sufficient

thought he rang for Stevens, called for hot water, gave her her first

injection of morphia.

Stevens knew or guessed what had been going on, and took a gloomy view.

Every one in the house knew of Mrs. Roope’s visit.

“It will be the death of her.”

“No, it won’t,” he said savagely. “You do what you are told.”

“I ’ope I know my duty,” she replied primly.

“I’m sure you do, but not the effect of a morphia injection,” he

retorted.

He said Stevens knew nothing of the effect of a morphia injection, but

he was not quite sure of it himself in those days and with such a

patient. The immediate effect was instantaneous. Margaret grew easier,

she smiled at him with her pale lips:

“How wonderful,” she said. He made her stay as she was for half an hour,

then helped to carry her to bed. Stevens said she required no help in

undressing her.

“You are not to let her do a thing for herself, not to let her move.

Give her iced milk, or milk and soda....”

The afternoon was not so satisfactory, there were disquieting symptoms,

and not the sleep for which he hoped. He suggested Dr. Lansdowne, but

she would not hear of him being sent for. When night fell he found it

impossible to leave her.

He walked up and down outside the house for a long time, only desisting

when Margaret herself sent down a message that she heard his footsteps

on the gravel and they disturbed her. The rest of the night he spent on

the drawing-room sofa, running upstairs to listen outside her bedroom

door, now and then, to reassure himself. Tomorrow he knew Gabriel would

be there and he would not be needed. But tonight she had no one but

himself. Wild thoughts came to him in the dawn. What if Gabriel Stanton

were not such a good fellow after all? What if he were put off by the

thought of a scandal and figuring as a co-respondent? He, Peter, would

stick to her through thick and thin. She might turn to him, get to care.

But he had not an ounce of real hope. He was as humble as Gabriel by

now, and the nearer to being a true lover.

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