"She hears old footsteps wandering slow
Through the lone chambers of her heart."
Lowell.
When Guy of Ashridge was fairly gone, Philippa felt at once relieved and
vexed to lose him. She had called in a new physician to prescribe for
her disease; and she was sure that he had administered a harmful
medicine, if he had not also given a wrong diagnosis. Instead of being
better, she felt worse; and she resolved to give herself the next dose,
in the form of a "retreat" into a convent, to pray and fast, and make
her peace with God. Various reasons induced her to select a convent at
a distance from home. After a period of indecision, she fixed upon the
Abbey of Shaftesbury, and obtained the necessary permission to reside
there for a time.
Lady Sergeaux arrived at Shaftesbury towards the close of August. She
found the Abbess and nuns kindly-disposed towards her; and her stay was
not disagreeable, except for the restless, dissatisfied feelings of her
own heart. But she found that her peace was not made, for all her
fastings, scourgings, vigils, and prayers. Guy's words came back to her
with every rite, "God strip you of your own goodness!" and she could not
wrap herself in its mantle as complacently as before.
In the Abbey of Shaftesbury was one nun who drew Philippa's attention
more than the others. This was a woman of about sixty years of age,
whom all the convent called Mother Joan. An upright, white-haired
woman, with some remnant of former comeliness; but Mother Joan was
blind. Philippa pitied her affliction, and liked her simple,
straightforward manner. She had many old memories and tales of
forgotten times, which she was ready enough to tell; and these Philippa,
as well as the nuns, always liked to hear.
"How old were you, Mother Joan, when you became a nun?" she asked her
one day during the recreation-hour.
"Younger than you, Lady," said Mother Joan. "I was but an hilding [see
Note 1] of twenty."
"And wherefore was it, Mother?" inquired a giddy young nun, whose name
was Laura. "Wert thou disappointed in love, or--"
The scorn exhibited on the blind woman's face stopped her.
"I never was such a fool," said Mother Joan, bluntly. "I became a nun
because my father had decreed it from my cradle, and my mother willed it
also. There were but two of us maids, and--ah, well! she would not have
more than one to suffer."
"Had thy sister, then, a woeful story?" asked Sister Laura, settling her
wimple, [see note 2], as she thought, becomingly.
"Never woman woefuller," sadly replied Mother Joan.
The next opportunity she had, Lady Sergeaux asked one of the more
discreet nuns who Mother Joan was.
"Eldest daughter of the great house of Le Despenser," replied Sister
Senicula; "of most excellent blood and lineage; daughter unto my noble
Lord of Gloucester that was, and the royal Lady Alianora de Clare, his
wife, the daughter of a daughter of King Edward. By Mary, Mother and
Maiden, she is the noblest nun in all these walls."
"And what hath been her history?" inquired Philippa.
"Her history, I think, was but little," replied Senicula; "your Ladyship
heard her say that she had been professed at twenty years. But I have
known her to speak of a sister of hers, who had a very sorrowful story.
I have often wished to know what it were, but she will never tell it."
The next recreation-time found Philippa, as usual, seated by Mother
Joan. The blind nun passed her hand softly over Philippa's dress.
"That is a damask," [the figured silk made at Damascus] she said. "I
used to like damask and baudekyn."
[Note: Baudekyn or baldekyn was the richest silk stuff then known, and
also of oriental manufacture.]
"I never wear baudekyn," answered Philippa. "I am but a knight's wife."
"What is the colour?" the blind woman wished to know.
"Red and black, in stripes," said Philippa.
"I remember," said Mother Joan, dreamily, "many years ago, seeing mine
aunt, the Lady of Gloucester, at the court of King Edward of Caernarvon,
arrayed in a fair baudekyn of rose colour and silver. It was the
loveliest stuff I ever saw. And I could see then."
Her voice fell so mournfully that Philippa tried to turn her attention
by asking her,--"Knew you King Edward of Westminster?" [See note 3.]
"Nay, Lady de Sergeaux, with what years do you credit me?" rejoined the
nun, laughing a little. "Edward of Westminster was dead ere I was born.
But I have heard of him from them that did remember him well. He was a
goodly man, of lofty stature, and royal presence: a wise man, and a
cunning [clever]--saving only that he opposed our holy Father the Pope."
"Did he so?" responded Philippa.
"Did he so!" ironically repeated Mother Joan. "Did he not command that
no Bull should ever be brought into England? and hanged he not the Prior
of Saint John of Jerusalem for reading one to his monks? I can tell
you, to brave Edward of Westminster was no laughing matter. He never
cared what his anger cost. His own children had need to think twice ere
they aroused his ire. Why, on the day of his daughter the Lady
Elizabeth's marriage with my noble Lord of Hereford, he, being angered
by some word of the bride, snatched her coronet from off her head, and
flung it behind the fire. Ay, and a jewel or twain was lost therefrom
ere the Lady's Grace had it back."
"And his son, King Edward of Caernarvon--what like was he?" asked
Philippa, smiling.
Mother Joan did not answer immediately. At last she said,--"The blessed
Virgin grant that they which have reviled him be no worse than he! He
had some strange notions--so had other men, whom I at least am bound to
hold in honour. God grant all peace!"
Philippa wondered who the other men were, and whether Mother Joan
alluded to her own ancestors. She knew nothing of the Despensers,
except the remembrance that she had never heard them alluded to at
Arundel but in a tone of bitter scorn and loathing.
"Maybe," continued the blind woman, in a softer voice, "he was no worse
for his strange opinions. Some were not. 'Tis a marvellous matter,
surely, that there be that can lead lives of angels, and yet hold views
that holy Church condemneth as utterly to be abhorred."
"Whom mean you, Mother?"
"I mean, child," replied the nun, speaking slowly and painfully, "one
whom I hope is gone to God. One to whom, and for whom, this world was
an ill place; and, therefore, I trust she hath found her rest in a
better. God knoweth how and when she died--if she be dead. We never
knew."
Mother Joan made the sign of the cross, and a very mournful expression
came over her face.
"Ah, holy Virgin!" she said, lifting her sightless eyes, "why is it that
such things are permitted? The wicked dwell in peace, and increase
their goods; the holy dwell hardly and die poor. Couldst not thou
change the lots? There is at this moment one man in the world, clad in
cloth of gold, dwelling gloriously, than whom the foul fiend himself is
scarcely worse; and there was one woman, like the angels, whose Queen
thou art, and only God and thou know what became of her. Blessed Mary
must such things always be? I cannot understand it. I suppose thou
canst."
It was the old perplexity--as old as Asaph; but he understood it when he
went into the sanctuary of God, and Mother Joan had never followed him
there.
"Lady de Sergeaux," resumed the blind nun, "there is at times a tone in
your voice, which mindeth me strangely of hers--hers, of whom I spake
but now. If I offend not in asking it, I pray you tell me who were your
elders?"
Philippa gave her such information as she had to give. "I am a daughter
of my Lord of Arundel."
"Which Lord?" exclaimed Mother Joan, in a voice as of deep interest
suddenly awakened.
"They call him," answered Philippa, "Earl Richard the Copped-Hat." [See
Note 4.]
"Ah!" answered Mother Joan, in that deep bass tone which sounds almost
like an execration. "That was the man. Like Dives, clad in purple and
fine linen, and faring sumptuously every day; and his portion shall be
with Dives at the last. Your pardon, Dame; I forgat for the nonce that
I spake to his daughter. Yet I said but truth."
"That may be," responded Philippa under her breath.
"Then you have not found him a saint?" replied the blind nun, with a
bitter little laugh. "Well, I might have guessed that. And you, then,
are a daughter of that proud jade Alianora of Lancaster, for whose
indwelling the fiend swept the Castle of Arundel clean of God's angels?
I do not think she made up for it."
Philippa's own interest was painfully aroused now. Surely Mother Joan
knows something of that mysterious history which hitherto she had failed
so sadly to discover.
"I cry you mercy, Mother," she said. "But I am not the daughter of the
Lady Alianora."
"Whose, then? Quick!" cried Mother Joan, in accents of passionate
earnestness.
"Who was my mother," answered Philippa, "I cannot tell you, for I was
never told myself. All that I know of her I had but from a poor
lavender, that spake well of her, and she called her the Lady Isabel."
"Isabel! Isabel!"
Philippa was deeply touched; for the name, twice repeated, broke in a
wail of tender, mournful love, from the lips of the blind nun.
"Mother," she pleaded, "if you know anything of her, for the holy
Virgin's love tell it to me, her child. I have missed her and longed
for her all my life. Surely I have a right to know her story who gave
me that life!"
"Thou shalt know," responded Mother Joan in a choked voice. "But,
child, name me Mother Joan no longer. Call me what I am to thee--Aunt.
Thy mother was my sister."
And then Philippa knew that she stood upon the threshold of all her
long-nursed hopes.
"But tell me first," pursued the nun, "how that upstart treated thee--
Alianora."
"She was not unkind to me," answered Philippa hesitatingly. "She did
not give me precedence over her daughters, but then she is of the blood
royal, and I am not. But--"
"Not royal!" exclaimed Mother Joan in extremely treble tones. "Have
they brought thee up so ignorantly as that? Not of the blood royal,
quotha! Child, by our Lady's hosen, thou art fifty-three steps nearer
the throne than she! We were daughters of Alianora, whose mother was
Joan of Acon, [Acre, where Joan was born], daughter of King Edward of
Westminster; and she is but the daughter of Henry, the son of Edmund,
son of Henry of Winchester." [Henry the Third.]
Philippa was silent from astonishment.
"Go on," said the nun. "What did she to thee?"
"She did little," said Philippa in a low voice. "She only left undone."
"Ah!" replied Mother Joan. "The one half of the _Confiteor_. The other
commonly marcheth apace behind."
"Then," said Philippa, "my mother was--"
"Isabel La Despenser, younger daughter of the Lord Hugh Le Despenser the
younger, Earl of Gloucester, and grand-daughter of Hugh the elder, Earl
of Winchester. Thou knowest their names well, if not hers."
"I know nothing about them," replied Philippa, shaking her head. "None
ever told me. I only remember to have heard them named at Arundel as
very wicked persons, and rebels against the King."
"Holy Virgin!" cried Mother Joan. "Rebels!--against which King?"
"I do not know," answered Philippa.
"But I do!" exclaimed the blind woman, bitterly. "Rebels against a
rebel! Traitors to a traitress! God reward Isabelle of France for all
the shame and ruin that she brought on England! Was the crown that she
carried with her worth the price which she cost that carried it? Well,
she is dead now--gone before God to answer all that long and black
account of hers. Methinks it took some answering. Child, my father did
some ill things, and my grandfather did more; but did either ever
anything to merit the shame and agony of those two gibbets at Hereford
and Bristol? Gibbets for them, that had sat in the King's council, and
aided him to rule the realm,--and one of them a white-haired man over
sixty years! [See Note 5.] And what had they done save to anger the
tigress? God help us all! We be all poor sinners; but there be some,
at the least in men's eyes, a deal blacker than others. But thou
wouldst know her story, not theirs: yet theirs is the half of hers, and
the tale were unfinished if I told it not."
"What was she like?" asked Philippa.
Mother Joan passed her hand slowly over the features of her niece.
"Like, and not like," she said. "Thy features are sharper cut than
hers; and though in thy voice there is a sound of hers, it is less soft
and low. Hers was like the wind among the strings of an harp hanging on
the wall. Thy colouring I cannot see. But if thou be like her, thine
hair is glossy, and of chestnut hue; and thine eyes are dark and
mournful."
"Tell me about her, Aunt, I pray you," said Philippa.
Joan La Despenser smoothed down her monastic habit, and leaned her head
back against the wall. There was evidently some picture of memory's
bringing before her sightless eyes, and her voice itself had a lower and
softer tone as she spoke of the dead sister. But her first words were
not of her.
"Holy Virgin!" she said, "when thou didst create the world, wherefore
didst thou make women? For women have but two fates: either they are
black-souled, like the tigress Isabelle, and then they prosper and
thrive, as she did; or else they are white snowdrops, like our dead
darling, and then they are martyrs. A few die in the cradle--those whom
thou lovest best; and what fools are we to weep for them! Ah me! things
be mostly crooked in this world. Is there another, me wondereth, where
they grow straight?--where the black-souled die on the gibbets, and the
white-souled wear the crowns? I would like to die, and change to that
Golden Land, if there be. Methinks it is far off."
It was a Land "very far off." And over the eyes of Joan La Despenser
the blinding film of earth remained; for she had not drunk of the Living
Water.
"The founder of our house,"--thus Mother Joan began her narrative,--"was
my grandfather's father, slain, above an hundred years ago, at the
battle of Evesham. He left an infant son, not four years old when he
died. This was my grandfather, Hugh Le Despenser, Earl of Winchester,
who at the age of twenty-five advanced the fortunes of his house by
wedding a daughter of Warwick, Isabel, the young widow of the Lord de
Chaworth, and the mother's mother of Alianora of Lancaster. Thou and
thy father's wife, therefore, are near akin. This Isabel (after whom
thy mother was named) was a famed beauty, and brought moreover a very
rich dower. My grandfather and she had many children, but I need only
speak of one--my hapless father.
"King Edward of Caernarvon loved my father dearly. In truth, so did
Edward of Westminster, who bestowed on him, ere he was fully ten years
old, the hand of his grand-daughter, my mother, Alianora de Clare, who
brought him in dower the mighty earldom of Gloucester. The eldest of us
was Hugh my brother; then came I; next followed my other brothers,
Edward, Gilbert, and Philip; and last of all, eight years after me, came
Isabel thy mother.
"From her birth this child was mine especial care. I was alway a
thoughtful, quiet maiden, more meet for cloister than court; and I well
remember, though 'tis fifty years ago, the morrow when my baby-sister
was put into mine arms, and I was bidden to have a care of her. Have a
care of her! Had she never passed into any worse care than mine--
well-a-day! Yet, could I have looked forward into the future, and have
read Isabel's coming history, I might have thought that the wisest and
kindest course I could take would be to smother her in her cradle.
"Before she was three years old, she passed from me. My Lord of
Arundel--Earl Edmund that then was--was very friendly with my father;
and he desired that their families should be drawn closer together by
the marriage of Richard Fitzalan, his son and heir--a boy of twelve
years--with one of my father's daughters. My father, thus appealed
unto, gave him our snowdrop.
"`Not Joan,' said he; `Joan is God's. She shall be the spouse of Christ
in Shaftesbury Abbey.'
"So it came that ere my darling was three years old, they twined the
bride-wreath for her hair, and let it all down flowing, soft and
shining, from beneath her golden fillet. Ah holy Virgin! had it been
thy pleasure to give me that cup of gall they mixed that day for her,
and to her the draught of pure fresh water thou hast held to me!
Perchance I could have drunk it with less pain than she did; and at
least it would have saved the pain to her.
"That was in the fourteenth year of Edward of Caernarvon. [1320.] So
long as Earl Edmund of Arundel lived, there was little to fear. He, as
I said, loved my father, and was a father to Isabel. The Lady of
Arundel likewise was then living, and was careful over her as a mother.
Knowest thou that the Lady Griselda, of such fame for her patient
endurance, was an ancestress of thy father? It should have been of thy
mother. Hers was a like story; only that to her came no reward, no
happy close.
"But ere I proceed, I must speak of one woeful matter, which I do
believe to have been the ruin of my father. He was never loved by the
people--partly, I think, because he gave counsel to the King to rule, as
they thought, with too stern a hand; partly because my grandfather loved
money too well, nor was he over careful how he came thereby; partly
because the Queen hated him, and she was popular; but far above all
these for another reason, which was the occasion of his fall, and the
ruin of all who loved him.
"Hast thou ever heard of the Boni-Homines? They have other names--
Albigenses, Waldenses, Cathari, Men of the Valleys. They are a sect of
heretics, dwelling originally in the dominions of the Marquis of
Monferrato, toward the borders betwixt France, Italy, and Spain: men
condemned by the Church, and holding certain evil opinions touching the
holy doctrine of grace of condignity, and free-will, and the like. Yet
some of them, I must confess, lead not unholy lives."
Philippa merely answered that she had heard of these heretics.
"Well," resumed the blind woman, "my father became entangled with these
men. How or wherefore I know not. He might have known that their
doctrines had been condemned by the holy Council of Lumbars two hundred
years back. But when the Friars Predicants were first set up by the
blessed Dominic, under leave of our holy Father the Pope, many of these
sectaries crept in among them. A company went forth from Ashridge, and
another from Edingdon--the two houses of this brood of serpents. And
one of them, named Giles de Edingdon, fell in with my father, and taught
him the evil doctrines of these wretches, whom Earl Edmund of Cornwall
(of the blood royal), that wedded a daughter of our house, had in his
unwisdom brought into this land; for he was a wicked man and an ill
liver. [See Note 6.] King Edward of Caernarvon likewise listened to
these men, and did but too often according to their counsels.
"Against my grandfather and others, but especially against these men of
Edingdon and Ashridge, Dame Isabelle the Queen set herself up. King
Edward had himself sent her away on a certain mission touching the
homage due to the King of France for Guienne; for he might not adventure
to leave the realm at that time. But now this wicked woman gathered
together an army, and with Prince Edward, and the King's brother the
Earl of Kent, who were deluded by her enchantments, she came back and
landed at Orewell, and thence marched with flying colours to Bristol,
men gathering everywhere to her standard as she came.
"We were in Bristol on that awful day. My mother, the King had left in
charge of the Tower of London; but in Bristol, with the King, were my
grandfather and father my Lord and Lady of Arundel, their son Richard,
and Isabel, and myself. I was then a maiden of sixteen years. When
Dame Isabelle's banners floated over the gates of the city, and her
trumpets summoned the citizens to surrender, King Edward, who was a
timid man, flung himself into the castle for safety, and with him all of
us, saving my grandfather, and my Lord of Arundel, who remained without,
directing the defence.
"The citizens of Bristol, thus besieged (for she had surrounded the
town), sent to ask Dame Isabelle her will, offering to surrender the
city on condition that she would spare their lives and property. But
she answered by her trumpeter, that she would agree to nothing unless
they would first surrender the Earls of Winchester and Arundel; `for,'
saith she, `I am come purposely to destroy them.' Then the citizens
consulted together, and determined to save their lives and property by
the sacrifice of the noblest blood in England, and (as it was shown
afterwards) of the blood royal. They opened their gates, and yielded up
my grandfather and thine to her will."
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Note 1. Hilding: a word derived from the Anglo-Saxon, and used
indiscriminately to denote a young person of either sex.
Note 2. Wimple: the covering for the neck, worn by secular women as
well as nuns, and either with or without a veil or hood. It had been in
fashion for two centuries or thereabouts, but was now beginning to be
generally discarded.
Note 3. In accordance with the custom of the time, by which persons
were commonly named from their birth-places, Edward the First, the
Second, and the Third are respectively designated Edward of Westminster,
of Caernarvon, and of Windsor.
Note 4. The copped-hat was the high-crowned brimless hat then
fashionable, the parent of the modern one. An instance of it will be
found in the figure of Bolingbroke, plate xvi. of the illustrations to
Cretan's History of Richard the Second, Archaeologia, vol. xx.
Note 5. One historian after another has copied Froissart's assertion
that Hugh Le Despenser the elder at his death was an old man of ninety,
and none ever took the trouble to verify the statement; yet the
_post-mortem_ inquisition of his father is extant, certifying that he
was born in the first week in March 1261; so that on October 8, 1326,
the day of his execution, he was only sixty-five.
Note 6. It will be understood that this was the light in which the
monks regarded Earl Edmund.