The month of November is, in all years, a season of clouds and vapors;
but at the time of which I write, the good weather vanished early in the
month, and all the clouds of the universe seemed to have collected in
North Carolina. From the second night after crossing the Catawba, I did
not see the north-star for the space of three weeks; and during all this
time, no progress was made in my journey; although I seldom remained two
days in the same place, but moved from one position to another, for the
purpose of eluding the observation of the people of the country, whose
attention might have been attracted by the continual appearance of the
smoke of my fires in one place.
There had, as yet, been no hard frost, and the leaves were still on the
oak trees, at the close of this cloudy weather; but the northwest wind
which dispelled the mist, also brought down nearly all the leaves of the
forest, except those of the evergreen trees; and the nights now became
clear, and the air keen with frost. Hitherto the oak woods had afforded
me the safest shelter, but now I was obliged to seek for groves of young
pines to retire to at dawn. Heretofore I had found a plentiful
subsistence in every corn-field and potato-lot, that fell in my way; but
now began to find some of the fields in which corn had grown, destitute
of the corn, and containing nothing but the stalks. The potatoes had all
been taken out of the lots where they grew, except in some few instances
where they had been buried in the field; and the means of subsistence
became every day more difficult to be obtained; but as I had fine
weather, I made the best use of those hours in which I dared to travel,
and was constantly moving from a short time after dark until daylight.
The toil that I underwent for the first half of the month of December
was excessive, and my sufferings for want of food were great. I was
obliged to carry with me a stock of corn, sufficient to supply me for
two or three days, for it frequently happened that I met with none in
the fields for a long time. In the course of this period I crossed
innumerable streams, the greater portion of which were of small size,
but some were of considerable magnitude; and in all of them the water
had become almost as cold as ice. Sometimes I was fortunate enough to
find boats or canoes tied at the side of the streams, and when this
happened, I always made free use of that which no one else was using at
the time; but this did not occur often, and I believe that in these two
weeks I swam over nine rivers, or streams, so deep that I could not ford
them. The number of creeks and rivulets through which I waded was far
greater, but I cannot now fix the number.
In one of these fine nights, passing near the house of a planter, I saw
several dry hides hanging on poles under a shed. One of these hides I
appropriated to myself, for the purpose of converting it into moccasins,
to supply the place of my boots, which were totally worthless. By
beating the dry hide with a stick it was made sufficiently pliable to
bear making it into moccasins; of which I made for myself three pair,
wearing one, and carrying the others on my back.
One day as I lay in a pine thicket, several pigs which appeared to be
wild, having no marks on their ears, came near me, and one of them
approached so close without seeing me, that I knocked it down with a
stone, and succeeded in killing it. This pig was very fat, and would
have weighed thirty if not forty pounds. Feeling now greatly exhausted
with the fatigues that I had lately undergone, and being in a very great
forest, far removed from white inhabitants, I resolved to remain a few
days in this place, to regale myself with the flesh of the pig, which I
preserved by hanging it up in the shade, after cutting it into pieces.
Fortune, so adverse to me heretofore, seemed to have been more kind to
me at this time, for the very night succeeding the day on which I killed
the pig, a storm of hail, snow, and sleet, came on, and continued
fifteen or sixteen hours. The snow lay on the ground four inches in
depth, and the whole country was covered with a crust almost hard enough
to bear a man. In this state of the weather I could not travel, and my
stock of pork was invaluable to me. The pork was frozen where it hung on
the branches of the trees, and was as well preserved as if it had been
buried in snow; but on the fourth day after the snow fell, the
atmosphere underwent a great change. The wind blew from the South, the
snow melted away, the air became warm, and the sun shone with the
brightness, and almost with the warmth of Spring. It was manifest that
my pork, which was now soft and oily, would not long be in a sound
state. If I remained here, my provisions would become putrid on my hands
in a short time, and compel me to quit my residence to avoid the
atmosphere of the place.
I resolved to pursue my journey, and prepared myself, by roasting before
the fire, all my pork that was left, wrapping it up carefully in green
pine leaves, and enveloping the whole in a sort of close basket, that I
made of small boughs of trees. Equipping myself for my journey with my
meat in my knapsack, I again took to the woods, with the stars for my
guide, keeping the north-star over my left eye.
The weather had now become exceedingly variable, and I was seldom able
to travel more than half of the night. The fields were muddy, the low
grounds in the woods were wet, and often covered with water, through
which I was obliged to wade--the air was damp and cold by day, the
nights were frosty, very often covering the water with ice an inch in
thickness. From the great degree of cold that prevailed, I inferred,
either that I was pretty far North, or that I had advanced too much to
the left, and was approaching the mountain country.
To satisfy myself as far as possible of my situation, one fair day, when
the sky was very clear, I climbed to the top of a pine tree that stood
on the summit of a hill, and took a wide survey of the region around me.
Eastward, I saw nothing but a vast continuation of plantations,
intervened by forests; on the South, the faint beams of a winter sun
shed a soft lustre over the woods, which were dotted at remote
distances, with the habitations of men, and the openings that they had
made in the green champaign of the endless pine-groves, that nature had
planted in the direction of the midday sun. On the North, at a great
distance, I saw a tract of low and flat country, which in my opinion
was the vale of some great river, and beyond this, at the farthest
stretch of vision, the eye was lost in the blue transparent vault, where
the extremity of the arch of the world touches the abode of perpetual
winter.--Turning westward, the view passed beyond the region of pine
trees, which was followed afar off by naked and leafless oaks,
hickories, and walnuts; and still beyond these rose high in air,
elevated tracts of country, clad in the white livery of snow, and
bearing the impress of mid-winter.
It was now apparent that I had borne too far westward, and was within a
few days' travel of the mountains. Descending from my observations, I
determined on the return of night to shape my course, for the future,
nearly due East, until I should at least be out of the mountains.
According to my calendar, it was the day before Christmas that I
ascended the pine-tree; and I believe I was at that time in the
north-western part of North Carolina, not far from the banks of the
Yadkin river. On the following night I traveled from dark until, as I
supposed, about three or four o'clock in the morning, when I came to a
road which led as I thought in an easterly direction. This road I
traveled until daylight, and encamped near it in an old field, overgrown
with young pines and holly-trees.
This was Christmas-day, and I celebrated it by breakfasting on fat
pork, without salt, and substituted parched corn for bread. In the
evening, the weather became cloudy and cold, and when night came it was
so dark that I found difficulty in keeping in the road, at some points
where it made short angles. Before midnight it began to snow, and at
break of day the snow lay more than a foot deep. This compelled me to
seek winter quarters; and fortunately, at about half a mile from the
road, I found, on the side of a steep hill, a shelving rock that formed
a dry covert, with a southern prospect.
Under this rock I took refuge, and kindling a fire of dry sticks,
considered myself happy to possess a few pounds of my roasted pork, and
more than half a gallon of corn that I carried in my pockets. The snow
continued falling, until it was full two feet deep around me, and the
danger of exposing myself to discovery by my tracks in the snow,
compelled me to keep close to my hiding place until the third day, when
I ventured to go back to the road, which I found broken by the passage
of numerous wagons, sleds and horses, and so much beaten that I could
travel it with ease at night, the snow affording good light.
Accordingly at night I again advanced on my way, which indeed I was
obliged to do, for my corn was quite gone, and not more than a pound of
my pork remained to me. I traveled hard through the night, and after
the morning star rose; came to a river; which I think must have been the
Yadkin. It appeared to be about two hundred yards wide, and the water
ran with great rapidity in it.
Waiting until the eastern horizon was tinged with the first rays of the
morning light, I entered the river at the ford, and waded until the
water was nearly three feet deep, when it felt as if it was cutting the
flesh from the bones of my limbs, and a large cake of ice floating
downward, forced me off my balance, and I was near falling. My courage
failed me, and I returned to the shore; but found the pain that already
tormented me greatly increased, when I was out of the water, and exposed
to the action of the open air. Returning to the river, I plunged into
the current to relieve me from the pinching frost, that gnawed every
part of my skin that had become wet; and rushing forward as fast as the
weight of the water, that pressed me downward, would permit, was soon up
to my chin in melted ice, when rising to the surface, I exerted my
utmost strength and skill to gain the opposite shore by swimming in the
shortest space of time. At every stroke of my arms and legs, they were
cut and bruised by cakes of solid ice, or weighed down by floating
masses of congealed snow.
It is impossible for human life to be long sustained in such an element
as that which encompassed me; and I had not been afloat five minutes
before I felt chilled in all my members, and in less than the double of
that time, my limbs felt numbed, and my hands became stiff, and almost
powerless.
When at the distance of thirty feet from the shore, my body was struck
by a violent current, produced by a projecting rock above me, and driven
with resistless violence down the stream. Wholly unable to contend with
the fury of the waves, and penetrated by the coldness of death, in my
inmost vitals, I gave myself up for lost, and was commending my soul to
God, whom I expected to be my immediate Judge, when I perceived the long
hanging branch of a large tree, sweeping to and fro, and undulating
backward and forward, as its extremities were washed by the surging
current of the river, just below me. In a moment I was in contact with
the tree, and making the effort of despair, seized one of its limbs.
Bowed down by the weight of my body, the branch yielded to the power of
the water, which rushing against my person, swept me round like the
quadrant of a circle, and dashed me against the shore, where clinging to
some roots that grew near the bank, the limb of the tree left me, and
springing with elastic force to its former position, again dipped its
slender branches in the mad stream.
Crawling out of the water, and being once more on dry land, I found my
circumstances little less desperate than when I was struggling with the
floating ice.--The morning was frosty, and icicles hung in long pendant
groups from the trees along the shore of the river and the hoar frost
glistened in sparkling radiance upon the polished surface of the smooth
snow, as it whitened all the plain before me, and spread its chill but
beautiful covering through the woods.
There were three alternatives before me, one of which I knew must
quickly be adopted. The one was to obtain a fire, by which I could dry
and warm my stiffened limbs; the second was to die, without the fire;
the third, to go to the first house, if I could reach one, and surrender
myself as a runaway slave.
Staggering, rather than walking forward, until I gained the cover of a
wood, at a short distance from the river, I turned into it, and found
that a field bordered the wood within less than twenty rods of the road.
Within a few yards of this fence I stopped, and taking out my fire
apparatus, to my unspeakable joy found them dry and in perfect safety.
With the aid of my punk, and some dry moss gathered from the fence, a
small flame was obtained, to which dry leaves being added from the
boughs of a white oak tree, that had fallen before the frost of the last
autumn had commenced, I soon had fire of sufficient intensity to consume
dry wood, with which I supplied it, partly from the fence and partly
from the branches of the fallen tree. Having raked away the snow from
about the fire, by the time the sun was up, my frozen clothes were
smoking before the coals--warming first one side and then the other--I
felt the glow of returning life once more invigorating my blood, and
giving animation to my frozen limbs.
The public road was near me on one hand, and an enclosed field was
before me on the other, but in my present condition it was impossible
for me to leave this place to-day, without danger of perishing in the
woods, or of being arrested on the road.
As evening came on, the air became much colder than it was in the
forenoon, and after night the wind rose high and blew from the
northwest, with intense keenness. My limbs were yet stiff from the
effects of my morning adventure, and to complete my distress I was
totally without provisions, having left a few ears of corn, that I had
in my pocket, on the other side of the river.
Leaving my fire in the night, and advancing into the field near me, I
discovered a house at some distance, and as there was no light, or sign
of fire about it, I determined to reconnoitre the premises, which turned
out to be a small barn, standing alone, with no other inhabitants about
it than a few cattle and a flock of sheep. After much trouble, I
succeeded in entering the barn by starting the nails that confined one
of the boards at the corner. Entering the house I found it nearly
filled with corn, in the husks, and some from which the husks had been
removed, was lying in a heap in one corner.
Into these husks I crawled, and covering myself deeply under them, soon
became warm, and fell into a profound sleep, from which I was awakened
by the noise of people walking about in the barn and talking of the
cattle and sheep, which it appeared they had come to feed, for they soon
commenced working in the corn husks with which I was covered, and
throwing them out to the cattle. I expected at every moment that they
would uncover me; but fortunately before they saw me, they ceased their
operations, and went to work, some husking corn, and throwing the husks
on the pile over me, while others were employed in loading the husked
corn into carts, as I learned by their conversation, and hauling it away
to the house. The people continued working in the barn all day, and in
the evening gave more husks to the cattle and went home.
Waiting two or three hours after my visiters were gone, I rose from the
pile of husks, and filling my pockets with ears of corn, issued from the
barn at the same place by which I had entered it, and returned to the
woods, where I kindled a fire in a pine thicket, and parched more than
half a gallon of corn. Before day I returned to the barn, and again
secreted myself in the corn husks. In the morning the people again
returned to their work, and husked corn until the evening. At night I
again repaired to the woods, and parched more corn. In this manner I
passed more than a month, lying in the barn all day, and going to the
woods at night; but at length the corn was all husked, and I watched
daily the progress that was made in feeding the cattle with the husks,
knowing that I must quit my winter retreat before the husks were
exhausted. Before the husked corn was removed from the barn, I had
conveyed several bushels of the ears into the husks, near my bed, and
concealed them for my winter's stock.
Whilst I lay in this barn there were frequent and great changes of
weather. The snow that covered the earth to the depth of two feet when I
came here, did not remain more than ten days, and was succeeded by more
than a week of warm rainy weather, which was in turn succeeded by
several days of dry weather, with cold high winds from the North. The
month of February was cloudy and damp, with several squalls of snow and
frequent rains. About the first of March, the atmosphere became clear
and dry, and the winds boisterous from the West.
On the third of this month, having filled my little bag and all my
pockets with parched corn, I quitted my winter quarters about ten
o'clock at night, and again proceeded on my way to the North, leaving a
large heap of corn husks still lying in the corner of the barn.
On leaving this place, I again pursued the road that had led me to it
for several nights; crossing many small streams in my way, all of which
I was able to pass without swimming, though several of them were so deep
that they wet me as high as my arm-pits.--This road led nearly
northeast, and was the only road that I had fallen in with, since I left
Georgia, that had maintained that direction for so great a distance.
Nothing extraordinary befell me until the twelfth of March, when
venturing to turn out earlier than usual in the evening, and proceeding
along the road, I found that my way led me down a hill, along the side
of which the road had been cut into the earth ten or twelve feet in
depth, having steep banks on each side, which were now so damp and
slippery that it was impossible for a man to ascend either the one or
the other.
Whilst in this narrow place, I heard the sound of horses proceeding up
the hill to meet me. Stopping to listen, in a moment almost two horsemen
were close before me, trotting up the road. To escape on either hand was
impossible, and to retreat backwards would have exposed me to certain
destruction. Only one means of salvation was left, and I embraced it.
Near the place where I stood, was a deep gully cut in one side of the
road, by the water which had run down here in time of rains. Into this
gully I threw myself, and lying down close to the ground, the horsemen
rode almost over me, and passed on. When they were gone I arose, and
descending the hill, found a river before me.
In crossing this stream I was compelled to swim at least two hundred
yards; and found the cold so oppressive, after coming out of the water,
that I was forced to stop at the first thick woods that I could find and
make a fire to dry myself. I did not move again until the next night;
and on the fourth night after this, came to a great river, which I
suppose was the Roanoke. I was obliged to swim this stream, and was
carried a great way down by the rapidity of the current. It must have
been more than an hour from the time that I entered the water, until I
reached the opposite shore, and as the rivers were yet very cold, I
suffered greatly at this place.
Judging by the aspect of the country, I believed myself to be at this
time in Virginia; and was now reduced to the utmost extremity for want
of provisions. The corn that I had parched at the barn and brought with
me, was nearly exhausted, and no more was to be obtained in the fields
at this season of the year. For three or four days I allowed myself only
my two hands full of parched corn per day; and after this I traveled
three days without tasting food of any kind; but being nearly exhausted
with hunger, I one night entered an old stack-yard, hoping that I might
fall in with pigs, or poultry of some kind. I found, instead of these, a
stack of oats, which had not been threshed. From this stack I took as
much oats in the sheaf as I could carry, and going on a few miles,
stopped in a pine forest, made a large fire, and parched at least half a
gallon of oats, after rubbing the grain from the straw. After the grain
was parched, I again rubbed it in my hands, to separate it from the
husks, and spent the night in feasting on parched oats.
The weather was now becoming quite warm, though the water was cold in
the rivers; and I perceived the farmers had everywhere ploughed their
fields, preparatory to planting corn. Every night I saw people burning
brush in the new grounds that they were clearing of the wood and brush;
and when the day came, in the morning after I obtained the oats, I
perceived people planting corn in a field about half a mile from my
fire. According to my computation of time, it was on the night of the
last day of March that I obtained the oats; and the appearance of the
country satisfied me that I had not lost many days in my reckoning.
I lay in this pine-wood two days, for the purpose of recruiting my
strength, after my long fast; and when I again resumed my journey,
determined to seek some large road leading towards the North, and follow
it in future; the one that I had been pursuing of late, not appearing to
be a principal high-way of the country. For this purpose, striking off
across the fields, in an easterly direction, I traveled a few hours, and
was fortunate enough to come to a great road, which was manifestly much
traveled, leading towards the northeast.
My bag was now replenished with more than a gallon of parched oats, and
I had yet one pair of moccasins made of raw hide; but my shirt was
totally gone, and my last pair of trowsers was now in actual service. A
tolerable waistcoat still remained to me, and my great coat, though full
of honorable scars, was yet capable of much service.
Having resolved to pursue the road I was now in, it was necessary again
to resort to the utmost degree of caution to prevent surprise. Traveling
only after it was dark, and taking care to stop before the appearance of
day, my progress was not rapid, but my safety was preserved.
The acquisition of food had now become difficult, and when my oats began
to fail, I resorted to the dangerous expedient of attacking the
corn-crib of a planter that was near the road. The house was built of
round logs, and was covered with boards. One of these boards I
succeeded in removing, on the side of the crib opposite from the
dwelling, and by thrusting my arm downwards, was able to reach the
corn--of which I took as much as filled my bag, the pockets of my great
coat, and a large handkerchief that I had preserved through all the
vicissitudes of my journey. This opportune supply of corn furnished me
with food more than a week, and before it was consumed I reached the
Appomattox river, which I crossed in a canoe that I found tied at the
shore, a few miles above the town of Petersburg. Having approached
Petersburg in the night, I was afraid to attempt to pass through it,
lest the patrol should fall in with me; and turning to the left through
the country, reached the river, and crossed in safety.
The great road leading to Richmond is so distinguishingly marked above
the other ways in this part of Virginia, that there was no difficulty in
following it, and on the third night after passing Petersburg, I
obtained a sight of the capitol of Virginia. It was only a little after
midnight, when the city presented itself to my sight; but here, as well
as at Petersburg, I was afraid to attempt to go through the town, under
cover of the darkness, because of the patrol. Turning, therefore, back
into a forest, about two miles from the small town on the south-side of
the river, I lay there until after twelve o'clock in the day, when
loosening the package from my back, and taking it in my hand in the
form of a bundle, I advanced into the village, as if I had only come
from some plantation in the neighborhood.
This was on Sunday, I believe, though according to my computation it was
Monday; but it must have been Sunday, for the village was quiet, and in
passing it I only saw two or three persons, whom I passed as if I had
not seen them. No one spoke to me, and I gained the bridge in safety,
and crossed it without attracting the least attention.
Entering the city of Richmond, I kept along the principal street,
walking at a slow pace, and turning my head from side to side, as if
much attracted by the objects around me. Few persons were in the street,
and I was careful to appear more attentive to the houses than to the
people. At the upper end of the city I saw a great crowd of ladies and
gentlemen, who were, I believe, returning from church. Whilst these
people were passing me, I stood in the street, on the outside of the
foot pavement, with my face turned to the opposite side of the street.
They all went by without taking any notice of me; and when they were
gone, I again resumed my leisure walk along the pavement, and reached
the utmost limit of the town without being accosted by any one. As soon
as I was clear of the city I quickened my pace, assumed the air of a
man in great haste, sometimes actually ran, and in less than an hour was
safely lodged in the thickest part of the woods that lay on the North of
Richmond, and full four miles from the river. This was the boldest
exploit that I had performed since leaving my mistress, except the visit
I paid to the gentleman in Georgia.
My corn was now failing, but as I had once entered a crib secretly, I
felt but little apprehension on account of future supplies. After this
time I never wanted corn, and did not again suffer by hunger, until I
reached the place of my nativity.
After leaving Richmond, I again kept along the great road by which I had
traveled on my way South, taking great care not to expose my person
unnecessarily. For several nights I saw no white people on the way, but
was often met by black ones, whom I avoided by turning out of the road;
but one moonlight night, five or six days after I left Richmond, a man
stepped out of the woods almost at my side, and accosting me in a
familiar manner, asked me which way I was traveling, how long I had been
on the road, and made many inquiries concerning the course of my late
journey. This man was a mulatto, and carried a heavy cane, or rather
club, in his hand. I did not like his appearance, and the idea of a
familiar conversation with any one seemed to terrify me. I determined to
watch my companion closely, and he appeared equally intent on observing
me; but at the same time that he talked with me, he was constantly
drawing closer to and following behind me. This conduct increased my
suspicion, and I began to wish to get rid of him, but could not at the
moment imagine how I should effect my purpose. To avoid him, I crossed
the road several times; but still he followed me closely. The moon,
which shone brightly upon our backs, cast his shadow far before me, and
enabled me to perceive his motions with the utmost accuracy, without
turning my head towards him. He carried his club under his left arm, and
at length raised his right hand gently, took the stick by the end, and
drawing it slowly over his head, was in the very act of striking a blow
at me, when springing backward, and raising my own staff at the same
moment, I brought him to the ground by a stroke on his forehead; and
when I had him down, beat him over the back and sides with my weapon,
until he roared for mercy, and begged me not to kill him. I left him in
no condition to pursue me, and hastened on my way, resolved to get as
far from him before day as my legs would carry me.
This man was undoubtedly one of those wretches who are employed by white
men to kidnap and betray such unfortunate people of color as may chance
to fall into their hands but for once the deceiver was deceived, and he
who intended to make prey of me, had well nigh fallen a sacrifice
himself.
The same night I crossed the Pammunky river, near the village of Hanover
by swimming, and secreted myself before day in a dense cedar thicket.
The next night, after I had traveled several miles, in ascending a hill
I saw the head of a man rise on the opposite side, without having heard
any noise. I instantly ran into the woods, and concealed myself behind a
large tree. The traveler was on horseback, and the road being sandy, and
his horse moving only at a walk, I had not heard his approach until I
saw him. He also saw me; for when he came opposite the place where I
stood, he stopped his horse in the road, and desired me to tell him how
far it was to some place, the name of which I have forgotten. As I made
no answer, he again repeated the inquiry; and then said, I need not be
afraid to speak, as he did not wish to hurt me; but no answer being
given him, he at last said I might as well speak, and rode on.
Before day I reached the Matapony river, and crossed it by wading; but
knowing that I was not far from Maryland, I fell into a great
indiscretion, and forgot the wariness and caution that had enabled me to
overcome obstacles apparently insurmountable. Anxious to get forward, I
neglected to conceal myself before day; but traveled until daybreak
before I sought a place of concealment, and unfortunately, when I
looked for a hiding place, none was at hand. This compelled me to keep
on the road, until gray twilight, for the purpose of reaching a wood
that was in view before me; but to gain this wood I was obliged to pass
a house that stood at the road side, and when only about fifty yards
beyond the house, a white man opened the door, and seeing me in the
road, called to me to stop. As this order was not obeyed, he set his dog
upon me. The dog was quickly vanquished by my stick, and setting off to
run at full speed, I at the same moment heard the report of a gun, and
received its contents in my legs, chiefly about, and in my hams. I fell
on the road, and was soon surrounded by several persons, who it appeared
were a party of patrollers, who had gathered together in this house.
They ordered me to cross my hands, which order not being immediately
obeyed, they beat me with sticks and stones until I was almost
senseless, and entirely unable to make resistance.--They then bound me
with cords, and dragged me by the feet back to the house, and threw me
into the kitchen, like a dead dog. One of my eyes was almost beaten out,
and the blood was running from my mouth, nose and ears; but in this
condition they refused to wash the blood from my face, or even to give
me a drink of water.
In a short time a justice of the peace arrived, and when he looked at
me, ordered me to be unbound, and to have water to wash myself, and also
some bread to eat. This man's heart appeared not to be altogether void
of sensibility, for he reprimanded in harsh terms those who had beaten
me; told them that their conduct was brutal, and that it would have been
more humane to kill me outright, than to bruise and mangle me in the
manner they had done.
He then interrogated me as to my name, place of abode, and place of
destination, and afterwards demanded the name of my master. To all these
inquiries I made no reply, except that I was going to Maryland, where I
lived. The justice told me it was his duty under the law to send me to
jail; and I was immediately put into a cart, and carried to a small
village called Bowling Green, which I reached before ten o'clock.
There I was locked up in the jail, and a doctor came to examine my legs,
and extract the shot from my wounds. In the course of the operation he
took out thirty-four buck shot, and after dressing my legs left me to my
own reflections. No fever followed in the train of my disasters, which I
attributed to the reduced state of my blood, by long fasting, and the
fatigues I had undergone.
In the afternoon, the jailer came to see me, and brought my daily
allowance of provisions, and a jug of water. The provisions consisted
of more than a pound of corn-bread and some boiled bacon. As my appetite
was good, I immediately devoured more than two-thirds of this food, but
reserved the rest for supper.
For several days I was not able to stand, and in this period found great
difficulty in performing the ordinary offices of life for myself, no one
coming to give me any aid; but I did not suffer for want of food, the
daily allowance of the jailer being quite sufficient to appease the
cravings of hunger. After I grew better, and was able to walk in the
jail, the jailer frequently called to see me, and endeavored to prevail
on me to tell where I came from; but in this undertaking he was no more
successful than the justice had been in the same business.
I remained in the jail more than a month, and in this time became quite
fat and strong, but saw no way by which I could escape. The jail was of
brick, the floors were of solid oak boards, and the door, of the same
material, was secured by iron bolts, let into its posts, and connected
together by a strong band of iron, reaching from the one to the other.
Every thing appeared sound and strong, and to add to my security, my
feet were chained together, from the time my wounds were healed. This
chain I acquired the knowledge of removing from my feet, by working out
of its socket a small iron pin that secured the bolt that held the chain
round one of my legs.
The jailer came to see me with great regularity, every morning and
evening, but remained only a few minutes when he came, leaving me
entirely alone at all other times.
When I had been in prison thirty-nine days, and had quite recovered from
the wounds that I had received, the jailer was late in coming to me with
my breakfast, and going to the door I began to beat against it with my
fist, for the purpose of making a noise. After beating some time against
the door I happened, by mere accident, to strike my fist against one of
the posts, which, to my surprise, I discovered by its sound, to be a
mere hollow shell, encrusted with a thin coat of sound timber, and as I
struck it, the rotten wood crumbled to pieces within. On a more careful
examination of this post, I became satisfied that I could easily split
it to pieces, by the aid of the iron bolt that confined my feet. The
jailer came with my breakfast, and reprimanded me for making a noise.
This day appeared as long to me, as a week had done heretofore; but
night came at length, and as soon as the room in which I was confined,
had become quite dark, I disentangled myself from the irons with which I
was bound, and with the aid of the long bolt, easily wrenched from its
place the large staple that held one end of the bar, that lay across
the door. The hasps that held the lock in its place, were drawn away
almost without force, and the door swung open of its own weight.
I now walked out into the jail-yard, and found that all was quiet, and
that only a few lights were burning in the village windows. At first I
walked slowly along the road, but soon quickened my pace, and ran along
the high-way, until I was more than a mile from the jail, then taking to
the woods, I traveled all night, in a northern direction. At the
approach of day I concealed myself in a cedar thicket, where I lay until
the next evening, without any thing to eat.
On the second night after my escape, I crossed the Potomac, at Hoe's
ferry, in a small boat that I found tied at the side of the ferry flat;
and on the night following crossed the Patuxent, in a canoe, which I
found chained at the shore.
About one o'clock in the morning, I came to the door of my wife's cabin,
and stood there, I believe, more than five minutes, before I could
summon sufficient fortitude to knock. I at length rapped lightly on the
door, and was immediately asked, in the well-known voice of my wife,
"Who is there?"--I replied "Charles." She then came to the door, and
opening it slowly, said, "Who is this that speaks so much like my
husband?" I then rushed into the cabin and made myself known to her,
but it was some time before I could convince her, that I was really her
husband, returned from Georgia. The children were then called up, but
they had forgotten me.
When I attempted to take them in my arms, they fled from me, and took
refuge under the bed of their mother. My eldest boy, who was four years
old when I was carried away, still retained some recollections of once
having had a father, but could not believe that I was that father. My
wife, who at first was overcome by astonishment at seeing me again in
her cabin, and was incapable of giving credit to the fidelity of her own
vision, after I had been in the house a few minutes, seemed to awake
from a dream; and gathering all three of her children in her arms,
thrust them into my lap, as I sat in the corner, clapped her hands,
laughed, and cried by turns; and in her ecstasy forgot to give me any
supper, until I at length told her that I was hungry. Before I entered
the house I felt as if I could eat anything in the shape of food; but
now that I attempted to eat, my appetite had fled, and I sat up all
night with my wife and children.
When on my journey I thought of nothing but getting home, and never
reflected, that when at home, I might still be in danger; but now that
my toils were ended, I began to consider with myself how I could appear
in safety in Calvert county, where everybody must know that I was a
runaway slave. With my heart thrilling with joy, when I looked upon my
wife and children, who had not hoped ever to behold me again; yet
fearful of the coming of daylight, which must expose me to be arrested
as a fugitive slave, I passed the night between the happiness of the
present and the dread of the future. In all the toils, dangers, and
sufferings of my long journey, my courage had never forsaken me. The
hope of again seeing my wife and little ones, had borne me triumphantly
through perils, that even now I reflect upon as upon some extravagant
dream; but when I found myself at rest under the roof of my wife, the
object of my labors attained, and no motive to arouse my energies, or
give them the least impulse, that firmness of resolution which had so
long sustained me, suddenly vanished from my bosom; and I passed the
night, with my children around me, oppressed by a melancholy foreboding
of my future destiny. The idea that I was utterly unable to afford
protection and safeguard to my own family, and was myself even more
helpless than they, tormented my bosom with alternate throbs of
affection and fear, until the dawn broke in the East, and summoned me to
decide upon my future conduct.
In the morning I went to the great house and showed myself to my master
and mistress. They gave me a good breakfast, and advised me at first to
conceal myself, but afterwards to work in the neighborhood for wages.
For eight years, I lived in this region of country and experienced a
variety of fortune. At last I had saved near $400, and bought near
Baltimore twelve acres of land, a yoke of oxen, and two cows, and
attended the Baltimore market. I had the great misfortune to lose my
wife. I married in two years, and of my second wife had four children.
Ten years of happiness and comparative ease I enjoyed on my little farm,
and I had settled down into contentment, little fearing any more
trouble. But a sad fate was before me.