CHAPTER XX

It was a lovely night, so warm that he threw his coat over his arm, and

did not even put his silk scarf round his throat. As he strolled home,

smoking his cigarette, two young men in evening dress passed him. He

heard one of them whisper to the other, "That is Dorian Gray." He

remembered how pleased he used to be when he was pointed out, or stared

at, or talked about. He was tired of hearing his own name now. Half the

charm of the little village where he had been so often lately was that

no one knew who he was. He had often told the girl whom he had lured to

love him that he was poor, and she had believed him. He had told her

once that he was wicked, and she had laughed at him, and answered that

wicked people were always very old and very ugly. What a laugh she

had!--just like a thrush singing. And how pretty she had been in her

cotton dresses and her large hats! She knew nothing, but she had

everything that he had lost.

When he reached home, he found his servant waiting up for him. He sent

him to bed, and threw himself down on the sofa in the library, and began

to think over some of the things that Lord Henry had said to him.

Was it really true that one could never change? He felt a wild longing

for the unstained purity of his boyhood--his rose-white boyhood, as Lord

Henry had once called it. He knew that he had tarnished himself, filled

his mind with corruption, and given horror to his fancy; that he had

been an evil influence to others, and had experienced a terrible joy in

being so; and that, of the lives that had crossed his own, it had been

the fairest and the most full of promise that he had brought to shame.

But was it all irretrievable? Was there no hope for him?

Ah! in what a monstrous moment of pride and passion he had prayed that

the portrait should bear the burden of his days, and he keep the

unsullied splendour of eternal youth! All his failure had been due to

that. Better for him that each sin of his life had brought its sure,

swift penalty along with it. There was purification in punishment. Not

"Forgive us our sins," but "Smite us for our iniquities" should be the

prayer of a man to a most just God.

The curiously carved mirror that Lord Henry had given to him, so many

years ago now, was standing on the table, and the white-limbed Cupids

laughed round it as of old. He took it up, as he had done on that night

of horror, when he had first noted the change in the fatal picture, and

with wild, tear-dimmed eyes looked into its polished shield. Once, some

one who had terribly loved him had written to him a mad letter, ending

with these idolatrous words: "The world is changed because you are made

of ivory and gold. The curves of your lips rewrite history." The phrases

came back to his memory, and he repeated them over and over to himself.

Then he loathed his own beauty, and, flinging the mirror on the floor,

crushed it into silver splinters beneath his heel. It was his beauty

that had ruined him, his beauty and the youth that he had prayed for.

But for those two things, his life might have been free from stain. His

beauty had been to him but a mask, his youth but a mockery. What was

youth at best? A green, an unripe time, a time of shallow moods and

sickly thoughts. Why had he worn its livery? Youth had spoiled him.

It was better not to think of the past. Nothing could alter that. It was

of himself, and of his own future, that he had to think. James Vane was

hidden in a nameless grave in Selby churchyard. Alan Campbell had shot

himself one night in his laboratory, but had not revealed the secret

that he had been forced to know. The excitement, such as it was, over

Basil Hallward's disappearance would soon pass away. It was already

waning. He was perfectly safe there. Nor, indeed, was it the death of

Basil Hallward that weighed most upon his mind. It was the living death

of his own soul that troubled him. Basil had painted the portrait that

had marred his life. He could not forgive him that. It was the portrait

that had done everything. Basil had said things to him that were

unbearable, and that he had yet borne with patience. The murder had been

simply the madness of a moment. As for Alan Campbell, his suicide had

been his own act. He had chosen to do it. It was nothing to him.

A new life! That was what he wanted. That was what he was waiting for.

Surely he had begun it already. He had spared one innocent thing, at any

rate. He would never again tempt innocence. He would be good.

As he thought of Hetty Merton, he began to wonder if the portrait in the

locked room had changed. Surely it was not still so horrible as it had

been? Perhaps if his life became pure, he would be able to expel every

sign of evil passion from the face. Perhaps the signs of evil had

already gone away. He would go and look.

He took the lamp from the table and crept upstairs. As he unbarred the

door a smile of joy flitted across his strangely young-looking face and

lingered for a moment about his lips. Yes, he would be good, and the

hideous thing that he had hidden away would no longer be a terror to

him. He felt as if the load had been lifted from him already.

He went in quietly, locking the door behind him, as was his custom, and

dragged the purple hanging from the portrait. A cry of pain and

indignation broke from him. He could see no change, save that in the

eyes there was a look of cunning, and in the mouth the curved wrinkle of

the hypocrite. The thing was still loathsome--more loathsome, if

possible, than before--and the scarlet dew that spotted the hand seemed

brighter, and more like blood newly spilt. Then he trembled. Had it been

merely vanity that had made him do his one good deed? Or the desire for

a new sensation, as Lord Henry had hinted, with his mocking laugh? Or

that passion to act a part that sometimes makes us do things finer than

we are ourselves? Or, perhaps, all these? And why was the red stain

larger than it had been? It seemed to have crept like a horrible disease

over the wrinkled fingers. There was blood on the painted feet, as

though the thing had dripped--blood even on the hand that had not held

the knife. Confess? Did it mean that he was to confess? To give himself

up, and be put to death? He laughed. He felt that the idea was

monstrous. Besides, even if he did confess, who would believe him? There

was no trace of the murdered man anywhere. Everything belonging to him

had been destroyed. He himself had burned what had been below-stairs.

The world would simply say that he was mad. They would shut him up if he

persisted in his story.... Yet it was his duty to confess, to suffer

public shame, and to make public atonement. There was a God who called

upon men to tell their sins to earth as well as to heaven. Nothing that

he could do would cleanse him till he had told his own sin. His sin? He

shrugged his shoulders. The death of Basil Hallward seemed very little

to him. He was thinking of Hetty Merton. For it was an unjust mirror,

this mirror of his soul that he was looking at. Vanity? Curiosity?

Hypocrisy? Had there been nothing more in his renunciation than that?

There had been something more. At least he thought so. But who could

tell?... No. There had been nothing more. Through vanity he had spared

her. In hypocrisy he had worn the mask of goodness. For curiosity's

sake he had tried the denial of self. He recognised that now.

But this murder--was it to dog him all his life? Was he always to be

burdened by his past? Was he really to confess? Never. There was only

one bit of evidence left against him. The picture itself--that was

evidence. He would destroy it. Why had he kept it so long? Once it had

given him pleasure to watch it changing and growing old. Of late he had

felt no such pleasure. It had kept him awake at night. When he had been

away, he had been filled with terror lest other eyes should look upon

it. It had brought melancholy across his passions. Its mere memory had

marred many moments of joy. It had been like conscience to him. Yes, it

had been conscience. He would destroy it.

He looked round, and saw the knife that had stabbed Basil Hallward. He

had cleaned it many times, till there was no stain left upon it. It was

bright, and glistened. As it had killed the painter, so it would kill

the painter's work, and all that that meant. It would kill the past, and

when that was dead he would be free. It would kill this monstrous

soul-life, and, without its hideous warnings, he would be at peace. He

seized the thing, and stabbed the picture with it.

There was a cry heard, and a crash. The cry was so horrible in its agony

that the frightened servants woke, and crept out of their rooms. Two

gentlemen, who were passing in the Square below, stopped, and looked up

at the great house. They walked on till they met a policeman, and

brought him back. The man rang the bell several times, but there was no

answer. Except for a light in one of the top windows, the house was all

dark. After a time, he went away and stood in an adjoining portico and

watched.

"Whose house is that, constable?" asked the elder of the two gentlemen.

"Mr. Dorian Gray's, sir," answered the policeman.

They looked at each other, as they walked away and sneered. One of them

was Sir Henry Ashton's uncle.

Inside, in the servants' part of the house, the half-clad domestics were

talking in low whispers to each other. Old Mrs. Leaf was crying and

wringing her hands. Francis was as pale as death.

After about a quarter of an hour, he got the coachman and one of the

footmen and crept upstairs. They knocked, but there was no reply. They

called out. Everything was still. Finally, after vainly trying to force

the door, they got on the roof, and dropped down on to the balcony. The

windows yielded easily; their bolts were old.

When they entered they found, hanging upon the wall, a splendid portrait

of their master as they had last seen him, in all the wonder of his

exquisite youth and beauty. Lying on the floor was a dead man, in

evening dress, with a knife in his heart. He was withered, wrinkled, and

loathsome of visage. It was not till they had examined the rings that

they recognised who it was.

THE END

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(II) A Preface to "Dorian Gray." _Fortnightly Review_, March 1, 1891.

London: Chapman & Hall. (_All rights reserved._)

(III) With the Preface and Seven additional chapters. London, New York,

and Melbourne: Ward, Lock & Co. (n. d.).

(Of this edition 250 copies were issued on L.P., _dated_ 1891.)

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(Published 1894 or 1895.) See Stuart Mason's "Art and Morality" (page

153).

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