CHAPTER XXXVII.

THE REAPER WHOSE NAME IS DEATH

“Matthew—Matthew—what is the matter? Matthew, are you sick?”

It was Marilla who spoke, alarm in every jerky word. Anne came through

the hall, her hands full of white narcissus,—it was long before Anne

could love the sight or odour of white narcissus again,—in time to hear

her and to see Matthew standing in the porch doorway, a folded paper in

his hand, and his face strangely drawn and gray. Anne dropped her

flowers and sprang across the kitchen to him at the same moment as

Marilla. They were both too late; before they could reach him Matthew

had fallen across the threshold.

“He’s fainted,” gasped Marilla. “Anne, run for Martin—quick, quick!

He’s at the barn.”

Martin, the hired man, who had just driven home from the post-office,

started at once for the doctor, calling at Orchard Slope on his way to

send Mr. and Mrs. Barry over. Mrs. Lynde, who was there on an errand,

came too. They found Anne and Marilla distractedly trying to restore

Matthew to consciousness.

Mrs. Lynde pushed them gently aside, tried his pulse, and then laid her

ear over his heart. She looked at their anxious faces sorrowfully and

the tears came into her eyes.

“Oh, Marilla,” she said gravely. “I don’t think—we can do anything for

him.”

“Mrs. Lynde, you don’t think—you can’t think Matthew is—is—” Anne could

not say the dreadful word; she turned sick and pallid.

“Child, yes, I’m afraid of it. Look at his face. When you’ve seen that

look as often as I have you’ll know what it means.”

Anne looked at the still face and there beheld the seal of the Great

Presence.

When the doctor came he said that death had been instantaneous and

probably painless, caused in all likelihood by some sudden shock. The

secret of the shock was discovered to be in the paper Matthew had held

and which Martin had brought from the office that morning. It contained

an account of the failure of the Abbey Bank.

The news spread quickly through Avonlea, and all day friends and

neighbours thronged Green Gables and came and went on errands of

kindness for the dead and living. For the first time shy, quiet Matthew

Cuthbert was a person of central importance; the white majesty of death

had fallen on him and set him apart as one crowned.

When the calm night came softly down over Green Gables the old house

was hushed and tranquil. In the parlour lay Matthew Cuthbert in his

coffin, his long gray hair framing his placid face on which there was a

little kindly smile as if he but slept, dreaming pleasant dreams. There

were flowers about him—sweet old-fashioned flowers which his mother had

planted in the homestead garden in her bridal days and for which

Matthew had always had a secret, wordless love. Anne had gathered them

and brought them to him, her anguished, tearless eyes burning in her

white face. It was the last thing she could do for him.

The Barrys and Mrs. Lynde stayed with them that night. Diana, going to

the east gable, where Anne was standing at her window, said gently:

“Anne dear, would you like to have me sleep with you to-night?”

“Thank you, Diana.” Anne looked earnestly into her friend’s face. “I

think you won’t misunderstand me when I say that I want to be alone.

I’m not afraid. I haven’t been alone one minute since it happened—and I

want to be. I want to be quite silent and quiet and try to realize it.

I _can’t_ realize it. Half the time it seems to me that Matthew can’t

be dead; and the other half it seems as if he must have been dead for a

long time and I’ve had this horrible dull ache ever since.”

Diana did not quite understand. Marilla’s impassioned grief, breaking

all the bounds of natural reserve and lifelong habit in its stormy

rush, she could comprehend better than Anne’s tearless agony. But she

went away kindly, leaving Anne alone to keep her first vigil with

sorrow.

Anne hoped that tears would come in solitude. It seemed to her a

terrible thing that she could not shed a tear for Matthew, whom she had

loved so much and who had been so kind to her, Matthew, who had walked

with her last evening at sunset and was now lying in the dim room below

with that awful peace on his brow. But no tears came at first, even

when she knelt by her window in the darkness and prayed, looking up to

the stars beyond the hills—no tears, only the same horrible dull ache

of misery that kept on aching until she fell asleep, worn out with the

day’s pain and excitement.

In the night she awakened, with the stillness and the darkness about

her, and the recollection of the day came over her like a wave of

sorrow. She could see Matthew’s face smiling at her as he had smiled

when they parted at the gate that last evening—she could hear his voice

saying, “My girl—my girl that I’m proud of.” Then the tears came and

Anne wept her heart out. Marilla heard her and crept in to comfort her.

“There—there—don’t cry so, dearie. It can’t bring him back. It—it—isn’t

right to cry so. I knew that to-day, but I couldn’t help it then. He’d

always been such a good, kind brother to me—but God knows best.”

“Oh, just let me cry, Marilla,” sobbed Anne. “The tears don’t hurt me

like that ache did. Stay here for a little while with me and keep your

arm round me—so. I couldn’t have Diana stay, she’s good and kind and

sweet—but it’s not her sorrow—she’s outside of it and she couldn’t come

close enough to my heart to help me. It’s our sorrow—yours and mine.

Oh, Marilla, what will we do without him?”

“We’ve got each other, Anne. I don’t know what I’d do if you weren’t

here—if you’d never come. Oh, Anne, I know I’ve been kind of strict and

harsh with you maybe—but you mustn’t think I didn’t love you as well as

Matthew did, for all that. I want to tell you now when I can. It’s

never been easy for me to say things out of my heart, but at times like

this it’s easier. I love you as dear as if you were my own flesh and

blood and you’ve been my joy and comfort ever since you came to Green

Gables.”

Two days afterwards they carried Matthew Cuthbert over his homestead

threshold and away from the fields he had tilled and the orchards he

had loved and the trees he had planted; and then Avonlea settled back

to its usual placidity and even at Green Gables affairs slipped into

their old groove and work was done and duties fulfilled with regularity

as before, although always with the aching sense of “loss in all

familiar things.” Anne, new to grief, thought it almost sad that it

could be so—that they _could_ go on in the old way without Matthew. She

felt something like shame and remorse when she discovered that the

sunrises behind the firs and the pale pink buds opening in the garden

gave her the old inrush of gladness when she saw them—that Diana’s

visits were pleasant to her and that Diana’s merry words and ways moved

her to laughter and smiles—that, in brief, the beautiful world of

blossom and love and friendship had lost none of its power to please

her fancy and thrill her heart, that life still called to her with many

insistent voices.

“It seems like disloyalty to Matthew, somehow, to find pleasure in

these things now that he has gone,” she said wistfully to Mrs. Allan

one evening when they were together in the manse garden. “I miss him so

much—all the time—and yet, Mrs. Allan, the world and life seem very

beautiful and interesting to me for all. To-day Diana said something

funny and I found myself laughing. I thought when it happened I could

never laugh again. And it somehow seems as if I oughtn’t to.”

“When Matthew was here he liked to hear you laugh and he liked to know

that you found pleasure in the pleasant things around you,” said Mrs.

Allan gently. “He is just away now; and he likes to know it just the

same. I am sure we should not shut our hearts against the healing

influences that nature offers us. But I understand your feeling. I

think we all experience the same thing. We resent the thought that

anything can please us when some one we love is no longer here to share

the pleasure with us, and we almost feel as if we were unfaithful to

our sorrow when we find our interest in life returning to us.”

“I was down to the graveyard to plant a rose-bush on Matthew’s grave

this afternoon,” said Anne dreamily. “I took a slip of the little white

Scotch rose-bush his mother brought out from Scotland long ago; Matthew

always liked those roses the best—they were so small and sweet on their

thorny stems. It made me feel glad that I could plant it by his

grave—as if I were doing something that must please him in taking it

there to be near him. I hope he has roses like them in heaven. Perhaps

the souls of all those little white roses that he has loved so many

summers were all there to meet him. I must go home now. Marilla is all

alone and she gets lonely at twilight.”

“She will be lonelier still, I fear, when you go away again to

college,” said Mrs. Allan.

Anne did not reply; she said good night and went slowly back to Green

Gables. Marilla was sitting on the front door-steps and Anne sat down

beside her. The door was open behind them, held back by a big pink

conch shell with hints of sea sunsets in its smooth inner convolutions.

Anne gathered some sprays of pale yellow honeysuckle and put them in

her hair. She liked the delicious hint of fragrance, as of some aerial

benediction, above her every time she moved.

“Doctor Spencer was here while you were away,” Marilla said. “He says

that the specialist will be in town to-morrow and he insists that I

must go in and have my eyes examined. I suppose I’d better go and have

it over. I’ll be more than thankful if the man can give me the right

kind of glasses to suit my eyes. You won’t mind staying here alone

while I’m away, will you? Martin will have to drive me in and there’s

ironing and baking to do.”

“I shall be all right. Diana will come over for company for me. I shall

attend to the ironing and baking beautifully—you needn’t fear that I’ll

starch the handkerchiefs or flavour the cake with liniment.”

Marilla laughed.

“What a girl you were for making mistakes in them days, Anne. You were

always getting into scrapes. I did use to think you were possessed. Do

you mind the time you dyed your hair?”

“Yes, indeed. I shall never forget it,” smiled Anne, touching the heavy

braid of hair that was wound about her shapely head. “I laugh a little

now sometimes when I think what a worry my hair used to be to me—but I

don’t laugh _much_, because it was a very real trouble then. I did

suffer terribly over my hair and my freckles. My freckles are really

gone; and people are nice enough to tell me my hair is auburn now—all

but Josie Pye. She informed me yesterday that she really thought it was

redder than ever, or at least my black dress made it look redder, and

she asked me if people who had red hair ever got used to having it.

Marilla, I’ve almost decided to give up trying to like Josie Pye. I’ve

made what I would once have called a heroic effort to like her, but

Josie Pye won’t _be_ liked.”

“Josie is a Pye,” said Marilla sharply, “so she can’t help being

disagreeable. I suppose people of that kind serve some useful purpose

in society, but I must say I don’t know what it is any more than I know

the use of thistles. Is Josie going to teach?”

“No, she is going back to Queen’s next year. So are Moody Spurgeon and

Charlie Sloane. Jane and Ruby are going to teach and they have both got

schools—Jane at Newbridge and Ruby at some place up west.”

“Gilbert Blythe is going to teach too, isn’t he?”

“Yes”—briefly.

“What a nice-looking young fellow he is,” said Marilla absently. “I saw

him in church last Sunday and he seemed so tall and manly. He looks a

lot like his father did at the same age. John Blythe was a nice boy. We

used to be real good friends, he and I. People called him my beau.”

Anne looked up with swift interest.

“Oh, Marilla—and what happened?—why didn’t you—”

“We had a quarrel. I wouldn’t forgive him when he asked me to. I meant

to, after awhile—but I was sulky and angry and I wanted to punish him

first. He never came back—the Blythes were all mighty independent. But

I always felt—rather sorry. I’ve always kind of wished I’d forgiven him

when I had the chance.”

“So you’ve had a bit of romance in your life, too,” said Anne softly.

“Yes, I suppose you might call it that. You wouldn’t think so to look

at me, would you? But you never can tell about people from their

outsides. Everybody has forgot about me and John. I’d forgotten myself.

But it all came back to me when I saw Gilbert last Sunday.”

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