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_Monday, 2 January, 1895, 11 o’clock in the evening._
My Darling:
A new year is beginning. What has it in store for us? Let us hope that
it will be better than the year that is just ended. Should it be
otherwise, death would be preferable. In this calm, deep night which
surrounds me, I think of you all, of you, of our dear children. What a
fearful stroke of fate, undeserved and cruel!
Let me give way a little, weep without restraint in your arms. Do not
believe because I weep that my courage weakens. I have promised you to
live; I shall keep my word. But I must always feel your heart beating
close to mine. I must be sustained by your love.
We must have courage. We must have an almost superhuman energy. As for
me, I can only summon my whole strength to bear all the tortures which
await me.
Good-night and kisses.