Sister Helene, after having left the empty church, turned to the left to
reach her cell. A row of little windows, constructed at different
heights, illuminated the darkness here and there, and were reflected in
the pools of water formed by the last rain-fall. A pavement formed of
planks ran along the length of these little dwellings; there was no
uniformity in their design, but some of them were picturesque; by
daylight the convent presented an original aspect. None of these
dwellings resembled each other; some were two stories, others a story
and a half high. In these lived the sisters who were well-to-do. They
were painted different colours--grey, rose, white, etc. In summer lime
trees and birches sheltered them from the sun. To-day the wind whistled
through the naked branches.
Helene had not yet reached her door, when she saw approaching her, like
a red point in the darkness, some one carrying a lantern.
"Who comes there?" she asked.
"Is it you, Sister?" answered a youthful voice whose musical tones
sounded strange in the blackness of the night.
"What! Is it you? You come to meet me?"
"Yes, I have prepared the samovar (tea-urn). As you did not come, I
feared something had happened, and here I am."
"I had forgotten in the church how time passed, and Sister Seraphine
made me come out."
"It was time; it has struck seven."
"And you--what have you been doing? I have not seen you the whole day."
"I have been painting; then I tried to read, but my head felt heavy. I
think my John the Baptist is not a success."
"Why?"
"I cannot give him the aspect of an ascetic; his eyes, his smile are too
sweet; the desert sun had bronzed him, his features must have been
harsher."
"Paint him as God inspires you. This evening, during vespers, I looked
at your Holy Virgin the whole time."
"You think it good."
"It is perfect. Her sad eyes, her inspired face seem to say that she
knows her divine Son will suffer for humanity."
"Well, but Sister Seraphine is not pleased with it."
"What does she say?" asked Helene with a smile.
"That it is hardly befitting to have beautiful pictures in convents,
that the eyes of nuns ought not to dwell on the works of sinners."
"God bless her! She grumbles, but she is good at bottom. When I was ill,
before you came, she hardly ever left me. Here we are at my door."
Helene and the novice Olia rapidly ascended the steps of the staircase,
shaking the water from their cloaks. When they reached her well-warmed
room, Helene took off her short black pelisse and the cap which
concealed her hair. Her dwelling had two stages; Olia, her guest, lodged
and worked on the ground floor; Helene occupied the upper one. The
furniture was very simple--a table of white wood, a small very hard sofa
covered with brown holland, two old arm-chairs and straw-bottomed chairs
ranged along the wall. Above the sofa hung the portrait of some unknown
nun with dark eyes shadowed by a black veil and pale wrinkled lips. In
one corner, a lamp burned before an icon in a gold frame.
Helene was not yet thirty years old; her face, pale and thin, had
already assumed the monastic expression, but her refined features were
still beautiful; her large proud eyes recalled by their sadness and
their passionate expression Carlo Dolce's martyrs. One could guess that
in this soul which had already long suffered, the sacrifice was not yet
consummated, and the struggle still continued. In those dark eyes there
often came also the poignant look of physical suffering; her face showed
signs of sleepless nights, suppressed tears and sobs choked down.
Olia, with her sharp ear, heard her sometimes leap from her bed, run to
the window, open it and fall on her knees in prayer. It was not the
conventual life which weighed on Helene, but that which she had left
outside the walls. Her life in the convent was pleasant and easy; the
inmates had for her the regard which a sister deserves who brings a
considerable fortune, and who was, moreover, highly cultured, a fact
which lent peculiar distinction to the community. When illustrious
benefactresses visited the convent, Sister Helene was immediately sent
for in order to talk French; these ladies departed delighted, and in
aristocratic circles talked of "our convent," in order to distinguish it
from the other at the opposite end of the town, which was humble and
poverty-stricken, without cultured nuns and unvisited by grand ladies.
This time also, scarcely had Helene sat down to her tea than she was
sent for by the abbess.
"May I come in?" said a voice behind the door.
"Certainly," answered Helene. "Ah, it is you, Sister Athanasia."
"Peace be with you, and God bless you; will you come to our Mother
Varlaama."
"What is it?"
"Nothing; only a note for you, and they are waiting."
The abbess was a stout, heavy woman, with a plain but honest face such
as is often seen in tradesmen's widows who have lived a quiet life with
a sober and affectionate husband. She received Helene with a tender
kiss:
"General Khlobestovsky's lady asks me to let you go to her this evening;
she is particularly anxious about it and has sent the carriage."
"But it was just this evening that I did not want to go out."
"And why, may I ask? She is one of your old school-fellows, and what is
more, rich and a fine lady. Go then for our sakes. Yesterday again her
husband has sent us from the country two carts full of meal, flour and
oil. We cannot refuse anything to such benefactors; he would regard it
as a want of respect and would become indifferent to us. Make this
sacrifice, Sister Helene, for the great advantage of us all. Finally I
exact it as an act of obedience, as part of your conventual service. Go!
Go!"
So saying, she embraced and dismissed her.