CHAPTER XXXVIII.--ON A KNOWLEDGE OF THE WORLD.

|SHORTLY after noon he was with her. He had left his rooms without

touching a morsel of breakfast, and it was plain that such sleep as

he had had could not have been of a soothing nature. He was pale and

haggard; and she seemed surprised--not frightened, however, for her

love was that which casteth out fear--at the way he came to her--with

outstretched hands which caught her own, as he said, “My beloved--my

beloved, I have a strange word for you--a strange proposal to make.

Dearest, can you trust me? Will you marry me--to-morrow--to-day?”

She scarcely gave a start. He was only conscious of her hands tightening

upon his own. She kept her eyes fixed upon his. The silence was long.

It was made the more impressive by the distinctness with which the

jocularity of the fishmonger’s hoy with the cook at the area railings,

was heard in the room.

“Harold,” she said, in a voice that had no trace of distrust, “Harold,

you are part of my life--all my life! When I said that I loved you,

I had given myself to you. I will marry you any time you

please--to-morrow--to-day--this moment!”

She was in his arms, sobbing.

His “God bless you, my darling!” sounded like a sob also.

In a few moments she was laughing through her tears.

He was not laughing.

“Now, tell me what you mean, my beloved,” said she, with a hand on each

of his shoulders.

“Tell me what you mean by coming to frighten me like this. What has

happened?”

“Nothing has happened, only I want to feel that you are my own--my own

beyond the possibility of being separated from me by any power on earth.

I do not want to take you away from your father’s house--I cannot offer

you any home. It may be years before we can live together as those who

love one another as we love, may live with the good will of heaven. I

only want you to become my wife in name, dearest. Our marriage must be

kept a secret.”

“But my own love,” said she, “why should you wish to go through this

ceremony? Are we not united by the true bond of love? Can we be more

closely united than we are now? The strength of the marriage bond

is only strong in proportion as the love which is the foundation of

marriage is strong. Now, why should you wish for the marriage rite

before we are prepared to live for ever under the same roof?”

“Why, why?” he cried passionately, as he looked into the depths of her

eyes.

He left her and went across the room to one of the windows and looked

out. (It was the greengrocer’s boy who was now jocular with the cook at

the area railings.)

“My Beatrice--” Harold had returned to her from his scrutiny of the

pavement. “My Beatrice, you have not seen all that I have seen in the

world. You do not know--you do not know me as I know myself. Why should

there come to me sometimes an unworthy thought--no, not a doubt--oh, I

have seen so much of the world, Beatrice, I feel that if anything should

come between us it would kill me. I must--I must feel that we are made

one--that there is a bond binding us together that nothing can sever.”

“But, my Harold--no, I will not interpose any buts. You would not ask

me to do this if you had not some good reason. You say that you know the

world. I admit that I do not know it. I only know you, and knowing

you and loving you with all my heart--with all my soul--I trust you

implicitly--without a question--without the shadow of a doubt.”

“God bless you, my love, my love! You will never have reason to regret

loving me--trusting me.”

“It is my life--it is my life, Harold.”

Once again he was standing at the window. This time he remained longer

with his eyes fixed upon the railings of the square enclosure.

“It must be to-morrow,” he said, returning to her. “I shall come here at

noon. A few words spoken in this room and nothing can part us. You will

still call yourself by your own name, dearest, God hasten the day when

you can come to me as my wife in the sight of all the world and call

yourself by my name.”

“I shall be here at noon to-morrow,” said she.

“Unless,” said he, returning to her after he had kissed her forehead and

had gone to the door. “Unless”--he framed her face with his hands,

and looked down into the depths of her eyes.--“Unless, when you have

thought over the whole matter, you feel that you cannot trust me.”

She laughed.

“Ah, my love, my love, you do not know the world,” said he.

He knew the world.

Another man who knew the world was Pontius Pilate.

This was why he asked “What is Truth?”

Harold Wynne was in Archie Brown’s room in Piccadilly within half an

hour.

Archie was at the Legitimate Theatre, Mr. Playdell said--Mr. Playdell

was seated at the dining-room table surrounded by papers. A trifling

difference of opinion had arisen between Mrs. Mowbray and her manager,

he added, and (with a smile) Archie had hurried to the theatre to set

matters right.

“It is kind of you to call, Mr. Wynne,” continued Mr. Playdell. “But I

hope it is not to tell me that you regret the suggestion that you made

yesterday--that you do not see your way to write to your sister to

invite Archie to her place.”

“I wrote to her the moment you left me,” said Harold. “Archie will

get his invitation this evening. It is not about him that I came here

to-day, Mr. Playdell. I came to see you. You asked me yesterday to

give you an opportunity of doing something for me. I can give you that

opportunity.”

“And I promise you that I shall embrace it with gladness, Mr. Wynne,”

said Playdell, rising from the table. “Tell me how I can serve you and

you will find how ready I am.”

“You still hold to your original principles regarding marriage, Mr.

Playdell?”

“How could I do otherwise than hold to them, Mr. Wynne? They are the

result of thought; they are not merely a fad to gain notoriety. Let me

prove the position that I take up on this matter.”

“You need not, Mr. Playdeil. I heard all your case when it was

published. I confess that I now think differently respecting you from

what I thought at that time. Will you perform the ceremony of marriage

between a lady who has promised to marry me and myself?”

“There is only one condition that I make, Mr. Wynne. You must take an

oath that you consider the rite, as I perform it, to be binding upon

you, and that you will never recognize a divorce.”

“I will take that oath willingly, Mr. Playdeil. I have promised my

_fiancée_ that we shall be with her at noon to-morrow. She will be

prepared for us. By the way, do you require a ring for the ceremony as

performed by you?”

Mr. Playdeil looked grave--almost scandalized.

“Mr. Wynne,” said he, “that question suggests to me a certain disbelief

on your part in the validity in the sight of heaven of the rite of

marriage as performed by a man with a full sense of his high office,

even though unfrocked by a Church that has always shown too great a

readiness to submit to secular guidance--secular restrictions in matters

that were originally, like marriage, purely spiritual. The Church

has not only submitted to civil restrictions in the matter of the

celebration of the holy rite of matrimony, but, while declaring at the

altar that God has joined them whom the Church has joined, and while

denying the authority of man to put them asunder, she recognizes the

validity of divorce. She will marry a man who has been divorced from

his wife, when he has duly paid the Archbishop a sum of money for

sanctioning what in the sight of God is adultery.”

“My dear Mr. Playdell,” said Harold, “I recollect very clearly the able

manner in which you defended your--your--principles, when they were

called in question. I do not desire to call them in question now. I

believe in your sincerity in this matter and in other matters. I

shall drive here for you at half past eleven o’clock to-morrow. I need

scarcely say that I mean my marriage to be kept a secret.”

“You may depend upon my good faith in that respect,” said Mr. Playdell.

“Mr. Wynne,” he added, impressively, “this land of ours will never be

a moral one so long as the Church is content to accept a Parliamentary

definition of morality. The Church ought certainly to know her own

business.”

“There I quite agree with you,” said Harold.

He refrained from asking Mr. Playdell if the Church, in dispensing with

his services as one of her priests, had not made an honest attempt to

vindicate her claims to know her own business. He merely said, “Half

past eleven to-morrow,” after shaking hands with Mr. Playdell, who

opened the door for him.

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