CHAPTER IV.

The place where the scene of this story is laid, I have said was a lone

village; it had no communication with other places by means of boats,

although its water privileges were abundant; and between it and

neighbouring towns intervened an extent of country, consisting of

pine-barrens, where no settlements could exist, or at least any that

deserved the name. There were those, however, who dwelt amid its dreary

solitudes, and called it home. Scattered here and there upon an area of

ten to fifteen miles square, might be seen, sometimes alone and

sometimes in clusters of three or four, a few miserable dwellings, made

principally of logs. A door, and one window without glass, were the only

openings to these abodes; and a rude chimney running up against the

outside, formed a receptacle for the pine logs, which blazed often

through the long winter nights, the only light they could afford, as

well as almost their only protection from the searching cold.

Poverty and wretchedness generally make sad havoc with the human frame;

the haggard countenance, the dry and skinny hands, the stoop, the

feeble, tottering gait, we expect and look for, when visiting abodes

that betoken destitution. But miserable as was the appearance of these

dwellings, the aspect of their inhabitants was generally that of health

and sufficiency; their swarthy complexions, and fine athletic forms,

almost compelled the traveller through these lonely regions to believe

that he had alighted upon a tribe of those sons of the forest who once

called our country all their own.

The moral character of this people was in keeping with the aspect of

their dwellings. Having no regular religious instruction, seldom hearing

the voice of a living teacher, with scarce a Bible to be found within

their gloomy houses, they were but little in advance of the heathen as

to religious knowledge, and far too near allied to them in many of their

vicious habits.

They earned their daily bread by laboring amid the lofty and dense

forests, in levelling the majestic pines, cutting them into lengths

suitable for transportation, and conveying them to the outskirts of the

barrens: their hire was but a pittance when considered as a remuneration

for their toil, but it enabled them to live; it procured for them food,

coarse indeed, but enough to satisfy their appetite, and the plain and

simple clothing which necessity demanded, or to which perhaps their

taste aspired.

The owners of these forests lived at some distance, and employed an

agent to attend to all the various labors of preparing the timber and

conveying it to market.

Cross, the individual employed for this business, had grown up amid

these solitudes, and labored with his axe for some years. Gifted by

nature with shrewdness, and not very particular on the score of

morality, he had managed to obtain the post he occupied, and with most

of the proprietors stood on good terms; he was active, prompt, and

efficient, and perhaps, for the business intrusted to him, did as well

as any one could. But he was, beyond measure, grasping and avaricious;

and as he could not well gain undue advantage from those who employed

him, being bound by contracts not easily evaded, he made up such

deficiency by 'grinding the faces' of the poor laborers.

Without any means of gaining a livelihood besides, they had become

entirely dependent on the good-will of Mr. Cross. He fixed their wages,

supplied them from his store with the necessaries of life at his own

price, and in that way managed to bring them, at the close of every

month, either without any surplus, or most generally a trifle in debt.

On the border of these barrens, and near the principal scene of our

story, lived the widow Mary Brown; her husband had been one of the

woodcutters, an intemperate man, who had caused her much trouble while

he lived, and when he died left her with two orphans. She had to

struggle hard to support herself and little ones. But as a light in a

dark place, so was this widow among these outcasts. She was generally

known throughout the region where she lived, and the wildest and most

abandoned never brought against her a railing accusation--they never

spoke lightly of her not her religion; for the garb of piety she wore

was so unassuming, the light that shone around her humble path was so

mild and unobtrusive:--

Like the soft fleecy cloud at the close of day,

That far in the west where the sun's last ray

Rests bright on its bosom--its mellow light

Steals to our heart, as we gaze in delight;

No glare to dazzle, we love to view

Its changing tints and its golden hue.

Having a very humbling view of herself, she felt great pity for the

deluded ones around her; she never chid them for their follies, but

would weep and pray in secret, and when called to watch at their dying

bed, she had such a quiet, happy way of holding up before the weak and

guilty spirit the Saviour in his love and pity, that many a poor

wanderer took courage from her message of mercy, and ere the spirit

fled, it was enabled to look in faith, and go its lone way in peace.

Wherever sorrow or sickness visited, there was she sent for, as one who

carried with her a charm that could neutralize their power.

Her dwelling was a log hut like those in that vicinity, but it had an

air of comfort the others had not. Her plain door was white-washed, and

a little curtain hung across the window; and there was a box of flowers

by the step, and every useless thing was removed from around the house,

and the ground swept neatly, and beneath some of the large pines that

afforded a grateful shade to her lonely abode, were rude seats, as

though made for the wayfaring man, on which to rest and be refreshed.

Her children, though helpless little ones when their father died, had

now grown up to an age when each of them, in different ways, could

materially aid her. She felt no longer a dread of want, although often

sighing in secret that her son was compelled to labor with those whose

example could only lead astray, and that her daughter had no brighter

prospect than a residence among these uncultivated foresters. But she

had done what she could. Of worldly wisdom she knew nothing; but she had

a Bible, and could read it. Its requirements and its doctrines were all

plain to her, she loved them, and taught them to her children; they

learned passages from them on the long, still Sabbath days, and as she

sat in the shade of the large pines by her door, they would come and sit

near her, to hear and listen to some story she would tell them of those

whose names have been recorded, and their history handed down for the

benefit of every coming generation. But other influences have now begun

to exert a counteracting power; William is eighteen, a man in size and

strength, a hardy laborer, and much from home. He still brings all he

earns, or nearly all, to the common stock; he still reverences his

mother, and listens to her instructions, and treats with kindness his

only sister; but rumours have reached his home that his chosen

associates were some whose names had become by-words for rude and evil

doings, and any heart but a mother's would have given up his chance for

any future good.

'She had hope for William,' she said, 'although he might be led astray

by evil companions.'

And she had good cause for hoping--for she had fastened to his heart

that golden chain, each link of which a mother's prayers and gentle

teachings and untiring love had formed. He felt its power even in his

hours of revelling, and although he never met with an upbraiding word or

look from her, his conscience had no rest.

The daughter was all that her mother could ask; she had no desire to

depart from the beautiful precepts of the Bible--because she loved them.

Her mind was active, thoughtful, and discerning beyond her years; of

kind and generous disposition, ever ready for any work of love, and

cheerful and happy in the consciousness of good-will to all. Her moral

character was well matched with a beauty of person rarely found, even

under every advantage. Hettie had no ornaments to set off her beauty,

and no graces imparted by culture to heighten the natural ease of her

movements; her complexion, though dark, was brightened by the rich color

which adorned her cheeks, and her jet-black eyes were softened by the

long dark lashes that gave to their expression almost the languor of a

southern clime, while her dark hair dangled in luxuriant curls, very

much to her annoyance, for she often said:--

'She did wish her hair was straight like other girls; it was always

getting into such a tangle.'

As Mrs. Brown--or the Widow Brown, as she was universally called--lived

nearer to the open and more cultivated settlement than any of the other

inhabitants of the barrens, she was well known among the farmers'

families, although intimate with very few. Hettie had some associates

there, which her mother preferred for her to those in her own immediate

vicinity. Of these, the family of the Widow Andrews was one to which

they were peculiarly attached. They could sympathize with each other;

the mothers were both widows, and each had two children of about the

same age. They both loved good things; they could converse bout their

past trials, and present hopes and fears. But while many things in their

circumstances were similar, there were others in which they were very

unlike to each other; for the Widow Andrews was much under the power of

strong natural feelings, easily excited by joy or grief, and her

passions when aroused seemed at times to know no bounds: no sooner was a

chord struck that touched a tender point in her heart, than she would

begin to talk very rapidly and to weep freely; her words flowing faster

and faster, and louder and louder, until, between weeping and talking,

she would finally break into a flood of tears, and all was over.

The Widow Brown was aware of this weakness in her neighbor, and lamented

it, for she knew that at times it did real evil; but there were so many

things that she loved her for, this she considered as a mere weakness,

for which she should be pitied.

In reference to worldly goods, too, there was a dissimilarity. The Widow

Andrews had a much better house, although a very plain one; still it was

called a house, and not a log hut; and she had a few acres of land

attached to it, and a small barn, old and shackling to be sure, and a

few head of cattle, and had been enabled, hitherto, to make out to live

in a very frugal way from her own resources.

Mary, her daughter, was not pretty, like Hettie Brown, nor was she so

intelligent; but she had a kind heart, and was obedient to her mother,

and being about Hettie's age, the two girls became much attached.

The son had promised fair to be a support to his mother, and a good

member of society, but a dark cloud had arisen upon all such

prospects--bad company had now begun to have attractions for him. He

neglected his work, disobeyed his mother, lost his ambition, and was in

a fair way to make a wreck of body and soul. His mother had been proud

of her William--of his good behavior, of his efficiency at work, of his

industrious habits; and not a little proud was she of his fine

appearance--it was a mother's weakness; but we will not judge her

harshly. He had, indeed, a very pleasant expression to his countenance;

his lively eye looked so kindly at you; there was such a play of

roguishness and good-nature about his mouth; and when he spoke, a

musical voice brought out the words so soft and clear--all tended to

interest both friends and strangers. But all the love which his mother

bore towards him, and all her pride in him, caused her to be more

violent in her rebukes. She poured out such a torrent of invective at

him, that much as he felt he deserved her displeasure, he could not

stand the violence of it. Every bad feeling of his heart was aroused; he

began to dread his home and his mother's voice, and sought refuge where,

alas! ruin alone could be the end thereof.

He was now eighteen years of age, and as my reader was first introduced

to him at Mr. Grizzle's store, we will follow him as he left that den of

evil. His conscience was troubled; there was something in the appearance

and behavior of Sam Oakum that morning, that revived the memory of what

he himself had once been. We saw how he watched Sam when he left the

store, as far his eye could follow him; how madly he poured down the

offered glass, and rushed from the scene of his shame.

Whither to direct his steps he knew not, but onward he went; he was glad

to be in the open air, it was so much better than the poisonous

atmosphere he had just left. Soon his attention was arrested by the

appearance of a dwelling and its precincts that he was about to pass. It

was a scene of desolation--the house and all its accompaniments; the

windows stuffed with every variety of color and substance to supply the

places of broken panes; the door hung sideways by one hinge, the boards

loose and flapping against the timbers of the house, the roof broken in,

and apparently ready to fall upon the inmates, and the inclosures around

the place lying prostrate or scattered about the grounds. A woman was

outside, picking up what rubbish she could meet with to replenish the

fire; sorrow was plainly marked upon her withered features; and as she

walked into the house with a few faggots in her hand, there was such a

deadness in her step, such a bowing down under the weight of some too

heavy burden--ambition, comfort, hope, all seemed to have departed, and

left her in her misery with a broken spirit.

William halted in his rapid course; he looked upon the scene and

considered it well.

This was the house of one of those whom he had just left; the one most

forward to complain of bad luck, and who joined most heartily in the

laugh which had been excited at his expense. He had been familiar with

this place; often had he seen it, just as it then appeared, but never

had its desolate condition affected him before;--a light from heaven

seemed pouring upon it, and singling it out from all other objects. He

could look at nothing else. 'It was the vineyard of the man void of

understanding, and the field of the slothful; the stone wall thereof was

broken down; it was all grown over with thorns, and nettles covered the

face thereof.'

William looked upon it, and received instruction: slowly and sadly he

passed along.

A little by-road now crossed the public highway. Instinctively almost,

he turned into it; the trees which lined it formed a grateful shade, and

seemed to invite him therein to cool his heated, feverish frame.

Near to this path, and not far from the highway he had left, was a pure,

bright, bubbling spring; it came up through the clean white sand, and

the green turf formed its only curb. On one side it had cleared an

opening, and meandered away through a little bed of fine gravel stones,

which sparkled in the sunbeams as they stole through the branches of the

willows which encircled the fountain. His throat parched with thirst,

and his mind and body in an excited condition, he threw himself upon the

velvet turf, and allayed his thirst from the pure stream. He tried to

think, but his thoughts ran wild into each other; he turned his head

towards the roots of one of the willows, and rested it there. It

throbbed against the cool green turf; its coolness was refreshing to

him, and there he slept.

Hettie Brown had that morning left her home in the barrens to do an

errand for her mother in Mr. Grizzle's store; she stopped at the Widow

Andrews', and found the mother and daughter in tears, and had to listen

to a long tale of William's delinquencies.

'And he's gone off to Grizzle's, now again, I _know_ he has; and there

he'll sit and drink, and he'll come home drunk yet one of these days,

and he'll be a drunkard and a vagabond.'

And the good woman went off into another hard crying spell. Hettie made

no reply; she was not in the habit of talking much, nor did she shed any

tears--she was not given to that either. A few expressions of sympathy

she dropped as she parted from Mary, telling her to hope for the best,

and making a short call, went on her way to the store.

She was anxious to see William, and therefore she hastened her steps.

She seemed to feel a consciousness of power to lead him away from the

path of ruin. He had been her playmate when a little child; nor had he

ever, by word or deed, done aught to offend her. The intimacy of

childhood had indeed passed away--her wise mother had cautioned her on

matters referring especially to William, and of late she had seldom seen

him; but she felt that she possessed an influence over him, and she

meant now to exert it.

As she crossed the by-path we have already mentioned, she thought of the

little spring, and how refreshing it would be to drink of its cool

water. She turned, and followed the path towards the willows which

marked the spot.

When William Andrews awoke, it was from a troubled dream, and the quiet

which surrounded him was grateful to his spirits. He arose and drank

freely from the spring--the birds were singing sweetly in the hedges and

on the trees; there was no sound beside, but the rippling of the little

rill that stole gently away from the fountain where he had slaked his

thirst. His feelings, late so hurried and disturbed, were calm--the

storm had lulled, a dark and dreadful gulf seemed to have been passed,

and now he was upon a path where all above and around him combined to

make it light and pleasant. This change, however, was but the effect of

that rest which sleep had given to his frame; 'twas the pure fresh

feeling which the soul enjoys when waked by morning's dawn, before the

hopes and fears, the business and the cares of life, have time to urge

their claims. Scarce had he quenched his thirst, and fully awaked to a

consciousness of his situation, ere the scenes of the morning rushed

back upon him. As the tumult of his thoughts arose, he stood and leaned

against one of the willows, and cast his eye down at the little

fountain, bubbling up so incessantly and with so little disturbance,

that it came to the surface with no alloy of earth about it; and he saw

how fresh and rank was the greensward all along its course--it not only

gave from its little receptacle a full supply for all who needed, but

virtue seemed to emanate throughout its meanderings, and to bless

wherever it flowed.

'This spring,' said he, 'is like the life of one that is good--pure at

the fountain, and the whole life a blessing, making things better and

happier all around him; but _my_ life--oh, what has it been?' And his

cheek flushed, and tears of anguish fell fast, while with hands firmly

clasped, and still leaning against the tree, he looked down at the

bubbling water.

'Why William!'

He started at the well-knows voice.

'Oh, Hettie, is this _you_? how glad I am to see you.'

She extended her hand towards him, but there was something in the sight

of Hettie that caused the cup, already full, to overflow; he did not

take the offered hand, but covering his face, gave way to a passionate

burst of weeping.

Hettie was much surprised, but she attempted not to interfere; nor did

she weep with him, but waited silently until the violence of the storm

had passed, and he was sufficiently composed to address her.

'I am very unhappy, Hettie, and have been so for a long time.'

'I have thought so, William, and I am very glad of an opportunity to say

something to you about it. I was certain that you must be unhappy. There

can be no peace for us when we have left the path of duty, until we

return from our crooked ways: it would not be best for us that we should

be happy when our doings are not right.'

'Well, mine are not right, and I am afraid they will never be any

better.'

'Why not, William? are you willing still to be unhappy, and to break

your mother's heart, and fill the minds of all your friends with

sorrow?'

'I have been far astray, Hettie. I have sunk myself very low, and have

struggled hard at times to break the charm that was leading me to ruin;

but I feel now as I have not felt before; and if you will only not

despise me, if you will let me hope that a new course of life may yet

gain your respect, it will be a helper to me--a great helper to me. And

oh! Hettie, you cannot tell how much I need your aid.'

Hettie was wise perhaps beyond her years. She felt much interest for the

youth who had grown with her from childhood.

'I fear, William, that the struggle you will be compelled to encounter

will need help greater than a creature can give. You must look to Him

who made you, and relying on his strength, resolve to do your duty, cost

what it may. All that I can promise is my feeble prayer; and whenever I

offer it for myself, I will offer it for you too, William. And now I

must leave you, for I have an errand to the store, and mother will be

uneasy at my absence.'

And the happy girl, smiling a pleasant good-by, went on her way. William

watched her until she turned into the public road, and then, with one

strong cry to Heaven for help, turned towards his home, a happier person

than he had been for many long months.

_He had resolved to do right._

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