"But as we walked we turned aside
Into a narrow tortuous lane
Where baffling paths the roads divide
And jealous brambles prick to pain:
Then first I saw, with quick surprise,
The strange new look in friendship's eyes.
"And now, in one stupendous dream,
We wander through the purple glades,
Which love has tinted with the gleam
Of wonderful, enchanting shades:
But I--would give it all away
For those dear hours of friendship's day."
ELEANOR ESHER.
Mrs. Rebell had now been at Fletchings five days. It was Saturday
night--in three days more she would be back at Chancton.
Standing before her dressing-table, she found herself counting the last
hours of a holiday which had proved more enchanting than she had thought
possible. How sorry she would be to leave the curious pretty room in
which she found herself! This room, and that next door now turned into a
dressing-room, had been fitted up when the wonders of China were first
becoming known to the Western world. It was instinct with the strange
charm so often found in those old English country houses where
Christendom and Goblindom fight for mastery.
The greatest poet of his time had spent at Fletchings the honeymoon
which formed a beginning to the most disastrous of marriage tragedies;
and Septimus Daman, now Barbara's fellow guest, had managed to convey to
her his belief that the rooms which she now occupied had been those set
aside for the hapless pair. Was it here, so Barbara wondered--here, or
perhaps sitting at the lacquer table in the dressing-room--that the
bride had written the formal, yet wholly contented, letter to her
parents, with its concluding sentence: "I cannot tell you any more for
Lord Byron is looking over my shoulder!"--playful, intimate words,
written by the proud, headstrong girl who was to lead a later life of
such harsh bitterness.
Barbara felt a vague retrospective pity for the long-dead writer of
these words. How far superior is friendship to what people call love!
Every day she was proving the truth of this, her own, and--yes, her
friend's--discovery.
After those five perfect days, it seemed strange to remember that she
had wondered if she were acting rightly in accepting Miss Berwick's
invitation. There had not been much time for thought. The note had come
only two days after the ball at Halnakeham Castle, and, as she held it
in her hand, before telling any of those about her of its contents,
there had swept over Barbara Rebell a foreboding memory. Was she about
to expose herself to a repetition of what she had gone through during
those first hours at the ball? Was she to see Berwick avoiding her
company,--gazing at her, when he looked her way, with alien eyes?
But then Berwick himself had come, full of eagerness, and with his
abrupt first words--"Has Arabella written? That's right!--I think you
will like it. My uncle wants me to be over there in order to see
something of Daniel O'Flaherty, and we are also to have old Septimus
Daman; he always spends part of November at Fletchings"--her fears, her
scruples had vanished.
Just before leaving the Priory, Barbara's heart had again misgiven her.
Madame Sampiero, looking at her with the wide-open, dark-blue eyes which
could express so many shades of feeling, had murmured, "Do not be too
long away, child. Remember what befell the poor Beast when Beauty stayed
away too long!" How could she have had the heart to write, on the second
day of her visit, "They want me to stay on till Tuesday"?
And now it was Saturday night. In a few days she would again take up the
life which till so very lately had seemed to fulfil each aspiration, to
content every longing of her heart. Now, she found herself dreading her
god-mother's glances of uneasy, questioning tenderness; Mrs. Turke's
eager interest in Berwick's comings and goings; most of all, and for
reasons of which her mind avoided the analysis, Barbara shrank from the
return to the long mornings--they had become very long of late--spent by
Boringdon at the Priory.
In contrast to all that awaited Mrs. Rebell at Chancton, how happy these
few days at Fletchings had been! With the possible exception of Daniel
O'Flaherty--and, after all, both he and Arabella knew better--the six
people gathered there under Lord Bosworth's roof, were linked in close
bonds of old and new friendship, of old and new association.
Barbara could tell herself in all honesty that she did not seem to see
very much of James Berwick, and yet, in truth, they were much together,
he encompassing her with a depth of voiceless tenderness, and a devotion
so unobtrusive that it seemed to lack every gross element of self. Then
again, her host had been especially kind. To Lord Bosworth she had been
"Barbara" from the first, and during that week he had talked much to her
of that wide world in which he himself had played so noted and agreeable
a part; of her own parents as they had been during the unshadowed years
of their life; of present politics which he had soon discovered
interested her in a singular degree. One day he had exclaimed--and had
been surprised to see the vivid blush his words called forth--"Why, we
shall make a politician of you yet!" During those days, however,--and
the omission pained her,--Lord Bosworth made no allusion to Madame
Sampiero.
Perhaps, of all those at Fletchings, the most contented of the party was
Septimus Daman. Because he seemed to each of the others the odd man out,
they were all particularly kind to him, and eager that he should not
feel himself neglected. The old man did not, however, burden his
fellow-guests with much on his company, for he was busily engaged in
writing his recollections, and he rarely made his appearance downstairs
before the afternoon.
* * * * *
To-day, quite suddenly and for no apparent reason, Berwick's mood had
changed. Arabella was the first to become aware of it; she knew of old
the danger signals. The day had been spent by him and by O'Flaherty at
Laxgrove, where Squire Laxton was as proud of his coverts as of his
hounds. The two men came in wet and tired, and Berwick, after a long
fruitless search for his sister and Mrs. Rebell, at last found them
sitting together where Arabella so seldom entertained a guest--in the
powder closet.
"I have been looking for you everywhere!" he exclaimed. "Daman is
wandering about downstairs, evidently afraid to pour himself out a cup
of tea and O'Flaherty has disappeared,--tealess,--to his room!"
While he was speaking, gazing at his sister and her friend with an
accusing glance, Barbara went out, and for a moment the other two stayed
on alone together.
Arabella rose and faced her brother. Her own nerves were not wholly
under control. Neither her conscience nor her heart was really at ease.
"I don't know, James, and I don't inquire, what your relations to Mrs.
Rebell may be! But this I do know--you will not advance your friendship
with her by being savage to me. Besides, it is so absurd! However
delightful she finds your company, she may yet prefer to be occasionally
with me. I have been doing--I am doing--all I can for you."
"What do you mean?"
Berwick's steady, angry gaze disconcerted his sister, but she was
mentally adroit, and determined not to fear him in his present mood.
"You know best what I ought to mean!" she cried. "You apparently take
pleasure in Mrs. Rebell's company, and it was to please you that I asked
her to come here. I mean nothing else. But I should like to add that,
now I know her, I have grown to like, and even to respect her."
Berwick's face softened, but again he looked at her in the way she
dreaded as she added, "I do not think you should act so as to make those
about you aware that you so greatly prefer her company to that of our
other guests. I am sure Mr. O'Flaherty has noticed it. Perhaps I ought
to add that I am speaking entirely for her sake."
* * * * *
On leaving Miss Berwick and her brother, Mrs. Rebell went up to her
room. There she sat down and fulfilled a neglected duty,--the writing of
a long letter to Grace Johnstone. She did not find the task an easy one.
She knew that her friend would expect to be told much of the occupants
of Chancton Cottage, and especially of Oliver. The writer was well aware
how letters were treasured at Santa Maria, and, till the last fortnight
she had written to the woman who had been so good a friend to her by
every mail. Suddenly she bethought herself of the ball. Why, here was a
subject all ready to her pen! But Barbara was no polite letter-writer,
and she found the description difficult; especially did her references
to Oliver and to his mother seem hypocritical. During those hours at
Halnakeham Castle she had been scarcely aware of the young man's
existence, while Mrs. Boringdon she actually disliked.
One reason why Barbara had been glad to come to Fletchings had been that
it meant escape from Boringdon's constant presence at the Priory, and
the daily morning walk with him to the home farm. She had come to resent
Oliver's assumption of--was it brotherly?--interest in what she did and
left undone. The thought that in three days she would again be subject
to his well-meant criticism and eager, intimate advice certainly added
another and a curiously acute touch of discomfort to her return to
Chancton.
* * * * *
For the first time since Mrs. Rebell's stay at Fletchings, dinner,
served in a blue and white octagon room which seemed to have been
designed to serve as background to Miss Berwick's fair, delicate type of
beauty, passed almost silently and rather dully. Berwick and O'Flaherty,
tired after their long day in the open air, scarcely spoke; Mr. Daman
alone seemed entirely at ease, and he babbled away happily, trying to
extract material for his recollections from Lord Bosworth's better
garnished memory.
And so it was with a sense of relief that Barbara followed her hostess
out of the room. During the last few days the two women had become, in a
sense, intimate. Each liked the other better than either would have
thought possible a week before. They had one subject in common of which
neither ever tired, and yet how surprised they both would have been to
learn how constantly their talk drifted to the political past, the
uneventful present, the brilliant nebulous future, of James Berwick!
Arabella led the way up to the music gallery, and there, very soon, the
two younger men joined them.
Miss Berwick was sitting at an inlaid spinet, playing an old-fashioned,
jingling selection of Irish melodies, and O'Flaherty, taking up his
stand by the fire-place, was able to look down at the player without
seeming to do so.
Listening to the woman he had loved making music for him, Daniel
O'Flaherty's mind went back, setting out on a sentimental excursion,
dolorous as such are apt to be, into the past. No other woman's lips had
touched his since their last interview, thirteen years before; and yet,
standing there, his arm on the mantel-piece, his right hand concealing
his large rather stern mouth, he told himself that his love for Arabella
Berwick had burned itself out, and that he could now look at her quite
dispassionately.
Still, love may go, and interest,--even a certain kind of
sentiment,--may remain. What else had brought him to Fletchings? Above
all, what else had made him stay on there, as he was now doing?
O'Flaherty still felt an odd closeness of heart,--aye, even of body,--
Miss Berwick, to this woman whom others found so unapproachable. The
years which had gone by, the long separation, had not made them
strangers. After she had left him, as he thought so cruelly, he had made
up his mind to put away all thought of her. He had believed it certain
that she would marry--indeed, during that last interview she had told
him that she intended to do so--and thinking of this, to a man so
callous and incredible a statement, his heart had hardened, not only to
her, but in a sense to all women.
Then time had gone on, and Lord Bosworth's niece had remained
unmarried--wholly devoted, so said rumour, to her brother, but living
with her uncle instead of with James Berwick because of her filial
affection and gratitude to the older man. That O'Flaherty had known not
to be true, for no special tie bound Arabella to her uncle. The
arrangement was probably one of convenience on either side.
And now, during these last few days? O'Flaherty acknowledged that Miss
Berwick's manner to him had been perfect--courteous and kind, nay, even
deferential, and then sometimes a look, a word, would subtly acknowledge
his claim on her special attention, while putting forward none of her
own. How could he help being flattered? From where he now sat, he could
see, without seeming to observe too closely, the delicate, cameo-like
profile, the masses of flaxen hair, less bright in tint than when he had
first admired what was still Arabella's greatest beauty.
The barrister was under no illusion as to why he had received this
invitation to Lord Bosworth's country house. His present host, and of
course his hostess, wished him not merely to be on James Berwick's side
in the coming political struggle, for that he was already, but to ally
himself in a special sense with this future Cabinet-Minister, and to
join the inner circle of his friends and supporters. Neither of them yet
understood that in politics all O'Flaherty cared for supremely was his
own country, in spite of the fact that he had always sat for an English
constituency, and had never identified himself, in any direct sense,
with the Irish party. Whatever his future relations to Miss Berwick
might be, his attitude to her brother must be influenced by Berwick's
attitude to Ireland and Irish affairs. Perhaps it would be more honest,
so he told himself to-night, to let Arabella know this fact, for during
the last few days he had avoided any political discussion with his host
or his hostess.
Daniel O'Flaherty had watched James Berwick's career with painful
interest. During his brief, passionate intimacy with the sister, the
young Irishman had disliked the brother intensely. He had despised him
for squandering,--as for a while Berwick had seemed to do,--his many
brilliant gifts. Perhaps O'Flaherty had also been jealous of those
advantages which came to the younger man by the mere fact of his name,
and of his relationship to Lord Bosworth.
Then, with the passing of years, the barrister had become, as the
successful are apt to do, more indulgent, perhaps more understanding, in
his view of the other's character and ambitions. Also nothing succeeds
like success, and James Berwick had himself by no means lagged behind.
To O'Flaherty there had been nothing untoward in Berwick's marriage. He
had regarded it as one of those strokes of amazing luck which seem to
pursue certain men; and though a trifling circumstance had made the
barrister vividly aware of the young politician's conditional tenure of
his dead wife's fortune, the man who had fought his way to eminence
naturally regarded the other as belonging to that class which seems in
this country sufficiently wealthy, with the garnered wealth of the past,
to consider the possession of a larger or of a lesser income as of
comparatively small account.
Daniel O'Flaherty was an Irishman, a lonely man, and a Roman
Catholic--thus traditionally interested in romance. And so, during these
days at Fletchings, he had become aware, almost in spite of himself, of
Berwick's evident attraction to Mrs. Rebell--to the gentle, intelligent
woman whom he, O'Flaherty, naturally regarded as Arabella's widowed
friend. It amused him to see the course of true love running smooth.
What amazing good fortune seemed to pursue James Berwick!
True, the shrewder half of O'Flaherty's mind warned him that Miss
Berwick's action in deliberately throwing her brother with so charming a
woman as Barbara was an odd, an almost unaccountable move on her part.
But there was no getting over the fact that she was doing this, and most
deliberately.
Well, all that money could do for Berwick had surely been accomplished.
The barrister, watching the two--this man and woman wandering in a
paradise of their own making--felt that Berwick was indeed to be envied,
even if he was on the eve of forfeiting the huge income which had for so
many years given him an almost unfair prestige and power among his
fellows. Still, now and again,--to-night for instance, when he became
aware that Berwick and Mrs. Rebell had retreated together to the further
end of the long, bare room,--he wondered if Arabella was acting
sentiently, if she really wished her brother to marry again.
* * * * *
Mrs. Rebell and the man she called her friend stood together, half
concealed by the organ which gave the gallery its name. They were
practically alone, for the long room was only lighted by the candles
which threw a wavering light on Arabella's music-book. For the first
time since she had arrived at Fletchings, Barbara felt ill at ease with
her companion. Twice during dinner she had looked up and seen Berwick's
eyes fixed on her, or so she thought, coldly and accusingly. What had
she done? For what must she ask forgiveness?
"Where were you before dinner?" he said at last, in a low
voice. "I looked for you everywhere. I found you, and then you
disappeared--utterly! We were close to the Priory to-day, and I went in
for a moment, thinking you would like to have news of Madame Sampiero.
By the way, McGregor gave me some letters for you."
He put two envelopes down on the ledge of a prie-dieu behind which
Barbara was standing, and which formed a slight barrier between them.
She took the letters in her hand, and then, partly because of the dim
light, put them back again on the prie-dieu. One note, unstamped, was
from Oliver Boringdon,--she knew the handwriting, and so did Berwick.
Barbara was to have gone back to-day; doubtless this note concerned
some village matter which the writer was unwilling to mention to
Doctor McKirdy. The other envelope bore the peculiar blue West Indian
stamp. Why had not McGregor kept these letters till Tuesday? For the
moment Barbara wanted to forget Boringdon and his rather morbid
susceptibilities--to forget, till her next letter to the Johnstones,
Santa Maria.
"Won't you read your letters?" Berwick was looking straight across at
her with a singular expression--was it of appeal or of command?--in his
eyes.
"Why should I--now?" But a moment later she changed her mind, "Yes, of
course I will; Mr. Boringdon may have sent some message to my god-mother
which ought to be seen to at once----" She opened the note, glanced
through it, then put it down on the ledge of the prie-dieu.
Berwick had turned away while she read Boringdon's note, but now he was
again staring at her with those strange, appealing eyes which seemed to
shine in the dim light.
Reluctantly, as if in spite of herself, Barbara stretched out her hand
and took up the other letter. Yes, it was, as she thought, from Andrew
Johnstone--a bare word of kindly acknowledgment for the return of the
fifty pounds which he had lent her.
She looked round, still holding the letter in her hand, but they were
far from the fire--
Berwick's face became set. Ah! no, that should not be.
"Mrs. Rebell--?"
He had not called her so, to herself, since the drive back from
Halnakeham Castle, and she had not noticed his avoidance of her name;
but now, the formal mode of address fell strangely on her ears.
"Yes?"
"May I read these two letters?" He added, almost inaudibly, "You cannot
think more ill of me than I do of myself."
Barbara suddenly felt as if she were taking part in an unreal scene, a
dream colloquy, and yet she knew this was no dream. What had happened,
what evil magic had so transformed her friend? That maternal instinct
which slumbers lightly in the depths of every woman's heart, woke into
life; she did not stay to diagnose the disease of which this strange
request was a symptom: "Do read them," she said, and tried to speak
indifferently, "I do not think ill of you--far from it, as Doctor
McKirdy would say."
She put Johnstone's letter down by the other, but Berwick left them
lying there; he still looked at her with a probing, suspicious look, and
she began to be desperately afraid. At Santa Maria she had once met a
miserable white man, the overseer of a neighbouring plantation, who was
said to have suddenly gone "fantee"--so had that man looked at her, as
Berwick was doing now, dumbly. Was this what he had meant when he had
spoken to her in the carriage of ungovernable impulses--of actions of
which he had afterwards felt bitterly ashamed?
Very slowly, still looking at her, he at last took up the two letters.
Then, with a sudden movement, and without having looked at it, he put
Boringdon's back on the ledge of the prie-dieu. "No," he said roughly,
"not that one--I do not think he ought to write to you, but no matter!"
Barbara felt herself trembling. She was beginning to understand.
Berwick's hands fingered nervously the West Indian letter; at last he
held it out to her, still folded, in his hand. "Here it is--take it--I
won't read it!"
"Oh! but do," she said. "It is from Mr. Johnstone, saying that he has
received the money you so kindly arranged to send back for me."
But Barbara's words came too late.
"Mr. Johnstone?" Berwick repeated the name, then laughed harshly. "Fool
that I was not to think of him! But all to-day, since McGregor gave me
that letter, I have been in hell. Of course you know what I
believed"--Barbara's lips quivered, and her look of suffering ought to
have disarmed the man who was staring at her so insistently, but he
was still possessed by a jealous devil. "Tell me"--and, leaning over
the prie-dieu, he grasped her hands--"We may as well have it out now.
Do you hear from him--from your husband, I mean? Do you write to
him--sometimes?"
She shook her head, and Berwick, at last free to see the agony and
surrender in the face into which he was looking down, and to which he
suddenly felt his lips so near, was swept by an irresistible rush and
mingling of feelings--remorse and fierce relief, shame and exultant joy.
"I think we ought to go downstairs,"--Arabella's clear voice broke into
and echoed through the silent room.
Berwick straightened himself slowly. Before releasing Barbara's hands he
kissed first one and then the other. As he did so, passion seemed to
melt into tenderness. How fragile, how childish he had thought the
fingers resting on his arm that first evening of their acquaintance! He
remembered also the fluttering, the trembling of her ringless left hand
when for a moment he had covered it with his own during that drive from
Halnakeham to Chillingworth, when he had made so much--or was it so
little?--of his opportunity.
The two walked down the gallery, towards O'Flaherty, who was still
standing by the wood fire, and Arabella, who was putting out the candles
with the rather disdainful thoroughness and care she gave to small
household matters. Lord Bosworth's servants were old, like himself, and
grew unmindful of their duties.
Berwick suddenly left Mrs. Rebell's side, but not till he had reached
the door did he turn round and say, "I am not coming down, for I have
work to do, so good-night!" A moment after, he was gone, with no more
formal leave-taking.
* * * * *
That night Barbara cried herself to sleep, but to her tears brought no
relief--rather an added shame for the weakness which made them flow so
bitterly. She felt overwhelmed by a great calamity--face to face with a
situation out of which she must herself, unaided, find an issue.
She had asked so little of the shattered broken life which remained to
her--only quietude and the placid enjoyment of a friendship which had
come to her unsought, and in which there could be no danger, whatever
Madame Sampiero or Mrs. Turke might think. Did not the feeling which
bound her to James Berwick enjoy the tacit approval of such a woman as
was Arabella Berwick? What else had made Miss Berwick say to her, as she
had done, that her brother could never marry? Surely the words had been
uttered with intention, to show Mrs. Rebell how desirable it was that he
should have--friends?
Till to-night, love, to Barbara Rebell, had borne but two faces. The
one, that of the radiant shadow-like figure, half cupid half angel, of
her childhood and girlhood, was he who had played his happy part in the
love affair of her father and mother, binding them the one to the other
as she, Barbara, had seen them bound. It was this love--noble, selfless,
unmaterial in its essence, or so she had thought--that lighted up Madame
Sampiero's face when she spoke, as she sometimes did speak, in the same
quivering breath, of Lord Bosworth and her little Julia.
Love's other face, that which she shuddered to know existed, had been
revealed to her by Pedro Rebell. It was base, sensual, cunning,
volatile, inconstant in its very essence, and yet, as Barbara knew, love
after all--capable, for a fleeting moment, of ennobling those under its
influence. Such, for instance, was love as understood by the coloured
people, among whom she had spent these last years of her life, and with
whose elementary joys and sorrows she had perforce sympathised.
Now, to-night, she realised that love could come in yet a third
guise--nay, for the first time she saw that perhaps this was the only
true love of them all, and that her first vision of the passion had been
but its shadow. Some such feeling as that which now, she felt with
terror, possessed her body as well as her soul, must have made her
mother cling as she had clung, in no joyless way, to sombre, disgraced
Richard Rebell.
Love again--warm, tender, passionate love--had linked together Lord
Bosworth and Barbara Sampiero for so many years, and had found
expression in their child. Thinking of those last two, Barbara lay and
trembled. Bitter words of condemnation uttered by her father leapt from
the storehouse of memory, as did the fact that her mother had once
implied to her that but for Madame Sampiero, but for something--was it
something wrong, or merely selfish and unwise which she had
done?--Barbara's father might have returned in time to England and made
some attempt to rehabilitate himself.
* * * * *
The maid who brought in her cup of tea in the morning laid a parcel down
on Barbara's bed. It was a book wrapped in brown paper, and fully
addressed to her with the superscription:--
"DEAR MRS. REBELL,--Here is the book I promised to send you.
"Yours truly,
"JAMES BERWICK."
Some instinct made her wait till she was alone. Then, opening
the parcel, she saw that, with the volume of Jacobite songs
Berwick had indeed promised to give her, was a large envelope
marked "private." From it she drew out slowly some twenty sheets
or more, closely covered with the as yet unfamiliar writing of
the man she loved. To the end of her life Barbara could have
repeated portions of this, her first love letter, by heart, and
yet, before going downstairs, she burnt each separate sheet.
Over the last she hesitated. Indeed, she cut out the three
words, "my heart's darling." But the little gilt scissors had
belonged to her mother--how would her mother have judged what
she was now doing?--and the slip of paper went into the fire
with the rest.