It was pleasant to see Ruth looking happier and Hannah subdued a
sort of jealousy of Uncle Jim, whose advent had succeeded where her
own presence had failed, and she determined to be happy too. It was
pure wastefulness to spoil the present because the future might
hold trouble, and everything conspired to help her. Ruth was less
quarrelsome with Ethel, and Ethel, perhaps exhausted by her outburst,
seemed more peaceful and more enthusiastic about the club, though
Doris had definitely deserted it in favour of her young man. There
were Christmas festivities to be arranged, both there and at the
chapel and, when she chose, Ethel could be as thorough in her work as
in her grief. Hannah herself had more than enough to do with her own
preparations, but she found time for a visit to Mr. Samson, now and
then. That disreputable looking old gentleman, who seemed to have been
all over the world and to have tried all trades, who distrusted all men
and most women with a good-humoured cynicism, whose chief prejudice
was against parsons of every denomination and who had settled down in
Beresford Road as though in obedience to some unsuspected craving for
respectability, was the perfect antidote to Robert Corder. He was, in
fact, in many ways, what Hannah would have been if she had been a man,
and in his freedom from any received set of opinions, in his loose,
but not offensive, tongue, in the stories he told her and, above all,
in his appreciation of herself, she found a relief which, no doubt,
had its subtle effect on the Corder household. Her demon of mischief,
getting its exercise in talking to Mr. Samson and provoking his thick
chuckle of amusement, had a less persistent desire to tease Robert
Corder. It was impossible to resist puzzling him when the opportunity
came, but she did not go out of her way to do it, and she could feel
that he was inclining to think of her as the right woman in the right
place. This, in itself, was irritating, but the contrast between his
view and Mr. Samson's, between the careful face Robert Corder knew
and the one she could show Mr. Samson, between the self-conscious
propriety of the minister and the old man's lively disregard of it,
was a secret delight. If Mr. Samson's stories were true, he had known
many women intimately; he talked of marriage with knowledge, though he
did not mention a wife, and whatever his experiences had really been,
they had produced what, to Hannah, seemed a sane apprehension of the
relationship between men and women, giving due, and often humorous,
importance to its physical side, but accepting it as naturally as he
accepted food, and refusing to make a definite cleavage between male
and female, anywhere. Mr. Samson, clearly, had not deliberately thought
this out, nor did he express his opinions: like his red, puffy face and
his wicked old eyes, they were the fruit of life as he had lived it,
and though the fruit was ripe, it was not rotten. Ruth need have had no
fear of him; indeed, as Hannah discovered, she had every cause to trust
him, and Hannah herself could enjoy his approval of her remarkably neat
legs and feet without feeling obliged to assure him of her inherent
modesty. Hannah had no modesty in Robert Corder's sense which implied
a perpetual and restraining consciousness of her sex. She was not
anxious to forget it; she was as feminine as any one else and she had
suffered too much from being treated as a machine, but she was a human
being more abundantly than she was a woman, and this was what Mr.
Samson understood.
She had her superstitious moments when she feared she had too many
sources of happiness. She had the friendship of Wilfrid and Ruth and
Mr. Samson, she was looking forward to the arrival of Howard and Uncle
Jim, and she had Mr. Samson's stories to remember and her own to
concoct. These were a pleasant accompaniment to her household tasks.
She could read when she was in bed, and she read late into every night
at the expense of Robert Corder's candles, but while she stoned the
raisins for the Christmas puddings, dusted or darned, she was busy
with her own romances in which sometimes Robert Corder and his wife,
sometimes the bold buccaneer and herself were the chief actors or,
more often, Mr. Blenkinsop struggled with the puzzling emotions she
had created for him. She took most pleasure in the Blenkinsop story,
for she could make it either comic or pathetic, and Mr. Blenkinsop
was a subject to her taste. She could see the man who believed in
safety being drawn into those dangerous, dim regions of pity where,
as he groped his way, he would suddenly find himself on the frontier
of a world still more dangerous and more attractive. As Mrs. Gibson
said, he had a kind heart and it was touched by that spectacle of
a slip of a girl pretending she had no troubles. Hannah, too, felt
every admiration for Mrs. Ridding, but Mrs. Ridding had a baby, and
a neurotic husband was a price worth paying for it. For the sake of
one good baby, Hannah would have paid more than that and there were
times when she felt vexed with Mr. Blenkinsop. Because Mrs. Ridding
was the first woman of his acquaintance who had faced a difficult
situation bravely, he would naturally think she was the only one there
was and, flattered by the belief that he had made this discovery for
himself, he was ready to credit her with every other good quality, as
a man, finding a new continent, would refuse to see a fault in it. She
could now understand his resentment at the unnecessary preservation of
Mr. Ridding, yet--here was the vicious circle again--if Mr. Ridding
had been left to die, Mrs. Ridding would, in all likelihood, have
disappeared from Prince's Road or, if she had remained, Mr. Blenkinsop
would have considered her fortunate and taken no further interest in
her, and it seemed to Hannah that her own mistake in life, always had
been, and still was, her refusal to feel any sorrow for herself or
to suggest herself as a subject for sorrow in other people. In her
attempts to attract Mr. Blenkinsop's attention, with sprightliness,
intellect and ignorance, she had omitted the one method which would
have been successful. Then she caught sight of her image in the glass
and remembered that pathos without beauty is merely irritating, that
a woman with a long nose could not be touching in her sadness, and at
this point she neglected her stories for philosophical speculations
on the effect of noses on destiny. In women, the perfect nose, in
its appearance and its effects, was rather delicately cut, and very
delicately tilted, while the suspicion of a droop had a tendency to
produce tragedy unless its owner was a determined person, like herself.
She had no theories about men's noses. In the comparative unimportance
of a man's features, she reluctantly found proof of some sort of
superiority in the other sex, and when she tried to remember the
details of Mr. Blenkinsop's face, she could recall no more than a clear
skin, an impression of solid worth and a pair of spectacles.
She was as glad, then, as she was astonished, when, on another
Wednesday night, he gave her an opportunity to look at him. She was
alone in the house, for Ruth was at some school festivity and Hannah
was working at a party frock which was to be a surprise for her. One of
Ruth's objections to the Spenser-Smiths' parties was the inadequacy of
her clothes and the grandeur of Margery Spenser-Smith's, and Hannah,
who had known worse than inadequacy in her own, was determined that her
child should be as prettily dressed as Lilla's.
She frowned at the interruption when the bell rang, but she smiled when
she saw Mr. Blenkinsop. 'You have a very bad memory,' she told him.
'It's Wednesday night and Mr. Corder isn't in.'
'Is anyone else at home?' he enquired.
'Only me,' Hannah said. 'Would you like to leave a message?'
'I'd rather come in, unless I shall be in the way.'
'Not at all, and if you're handy with your needle, I can give you
plenty to do. But I expect,' she said, looking at him gravely, 'you
can't manage anything more complicated than buttons.'
'I haven't even got a needle. Mrs. Gibson makes that unnecessary.'
'Mrs. Gibson spoils people. You'll miss her when you leave her.'
In the act of following Hannah into the dining-room, Mr. Blenkinsop
stood still. 'Who said I was going to leave her?'
'There was a murmur about it, wasn't there? A kind of subterranean
growl? Come and sit down. And I thought you might have come to the
conclusion that it was the best thing to do. If I had a little capital,
I'd start a boarding house, for what they call single gentlemen, myself
and I'd look after you like a mother, Mr. Blenkinsop.'
'But I haven't the slightest intention of leaving Mrs. Gibson.'
'Oh, well, Mr. Blenkinsop, you're the best judge, of course,' she said
primly, picking up her sewing.
'Certainly I am,' he said stoutly. 'And as for starting a boarding
house, that would be a very silly thing to do.'
'Why? If I can manage this family,' Hannah said impressively, 'I should
make child's play of the single gents.'
'You're too young,' Mr. Blenkinsop said, frowning a little.
'Young!' Hannah's laughter, the sound which had silenced Wilfrid's
whistling as he came down the street, was like a mockery of her own
derision. 'Why, how old do you think I am?'
'About my own age, I suppose.'
Hannah shook her head. 'Centuries older, Mr. Blenkinsop. Perhaps only a
few years, as we count time, but while you've been behind your bars in
the bank I've been pushing my way into other people's houses and being
pushed out again. Great fun!' she added hastily. 'I'd rather be allowed
to run wild and pick up my living than be kept in your gilded cage. And
the only thing I don't like about Mr. Samson----'.
'Who's Mr. Samson?'
'Nobody seems to know Mr. Samson and he's an extraordinary character.
I really think I like him as well as Robert Corder,' Hannah said
thoughtfully. 'But he keeps birds in cages, and you know about the
robin redbreast in a cage, don't you, Mr. Blenkinsop? He puts all
Heaven in a rage and that's how I feel when I think of you in the
bank. From the first moment I saw you, looking through the kitchen
window--I'm sorry, I didn't mean to refer to that again--you reminded
me of a bird. My favourite bird,' she said, but she would not tell
him what that was and, as she looked at him, she decided that he was
not so owlish as she had thought. The spectacles gave him most of his
solemnity, his firmly shut mouth seemed to mark his determination to
support them, and Hannah wished she dared ask him to take them off.
'You talk a lot of nonsense, don't you?' he asked patiently. 'Does Mr.
Corder understand it?'
'I shouldn't think of trying to find out,' she replied. 'Mr. Corder's
mind moves in different spheres from mine and I just accept the fact.'
She smiled trustfully at Mr. Blenkinsop, who said, 'I should hope it
does.'
'So does Mr. Corder,' Miss Mole said demurely and, to her great
surprise, Mr. Blenkinsop let out a modest burst of laughter.
'I didn't know you could do it,' she said.
'What? Mr. Blenkinsop asked, preparing to be affronted.
'I didn't know you could laugh and I don't know why you did.'
'Because you meant me to,' he said mournfully, 'and I haven't had many
chances.'
'You should make them.'
'And I'm worried.'
'Ah!' Hannah said. 'Can't you balance the cash properly, or whatever it
is you do in a bank?'
'I can't balance Mr. Corder's religious views with my own.'
'Is that all? Who could? I shouldn't worry about that. I doubt whether
he knows what his are.'
'But I'm a member of his church.'
'You can retire, I suppose?'
'I'm going to,' said Mr. Blenkinsop. 'When my mother was alive, I let
things drift. It didn't seem worth while to upset her, but lately I've
come to the conclusion that I'm not honest. The last sermon I heard him
preach, on the subject of marriage, well, to put it plainly, it made me
sick.'
'Too lax?' Hannah suggested.
'Too idiotic,' Mr. Blenkinsop said resignedly, and Hannah, taking a
long time over her next stitch, asked carefully, 'When was it? I must
have missed that one.'
'Oh, one evening, a few weeks ago.'
'I see,' Hannah said, and she paused in her work to connect Mr.
Blenkinsop's views on marriage with the complicated love affair of
which she suspected him. 'And you've come to-night to tell him what you
think.'
'No. I don't want to lose my temper. I'm going to write to him.
Argument would be a waste of time.'
'Well, I'm glad you've warned me. It will be a stormy day, I'm afraid.'
'Will it really? I'm sorry. But don't you think I ought to do it?'
'I don't feel so keenly as you do about marriage, Mr. Blenkinsop.'
'I didn't say I felt particularly keenly.'
'No, you didn't say so,' Hannah said, with an irritating smile.
'That simply happened to be the subject that brought things to a head.
I differ fundamentally from Mr. Corder and the doctrines he has to
teach.'
'Exactly,' Hannah said, 'so you'd better declare your independence as
quickly as possible. You'll feel more comfortable, won't you? How's the
chess getting on?'
'I knew you'd ask that, sooner or later,' he said, trying not to smile.
'And the country walks?' Hannah persisted, 'You want to hide your light
under a bushel, but Mrs. Gibson brings it out. You're doing good by
stealth and blushing to have it known.'
'No,' said Mr. Blenkinsop with an effort, 'I'm afraid my motives are
not altogether unselfish,' and he looked as if he would have said more
if he had not heard someone entering the hall.
Hannah hastily put away her sewing and wished she could do the same
with Mr. Blenkinsop. 'Every room,' she said, looking at him with
twinkling eyes, 'ought to have two doors. If this is Mr. Corder, what
are you going to do?'
'I shall say good evening and walk out.'
'And what about me?'
'You?'
'He won't approve of finding a young spinster like me alone in the
house with a single gent.'
'Then he'll have to put up with it,' Mr. Blenkinsop said, and Hannah
was telling him that so bold a spirit was wasted on a bank when Robert
Corder opened the door.