For awhile, as Joan sat, her lover's arm around her, all about them so
bright--the pretty boudoir, decked with dainty gifts of her uncle's and
aunt's, gay with flowers and sunshine--she was infected by his radiant
happiness. A faint hope stole timidly up in her crushed heart--a vague
idea of "misadventure"--"the visitation of God"--as the real cause of
Victor Mercier's death, she only the unhappy instrument. The idea
reigned--it was the melody to the accompaniment of his joyous talk.
Then her uncle came in, and without ado Vansittart asked his blessing.
Sir Thomas had hardly kissed and congratulated his niece, beaming upon
her in his huge satisfaction, when Lady Thorne entered, and stopping
short, placidly surveyed the trio.
"No, I am not surprised," she answered, in a superior tone, to her
husband's inquiry, after he had announced the engagement. "Or at least,
if I am, it is because you two young people have taken so long to make
up your minds. I never saw two people so fitted for each other."
There was an air of subdued gaiety about the four at the luncheon table.
Joan held her thoughts and emotions in check with a tremendous effort of
will. In the afternoon the lovers rode out into the country, and she
enjoyed an almost wild ride. She had an idea that bodily fatigue might
weaken her power of thought. If only she could tire herself into
physical exhaustion, she fancied she might forget. Oh! only to ignore,
to be able to ignore the past--for a few brief hours!
Vansittart was too madly in love to take exception to any desire or even
whim of his darling's. He cantered and galloped, raced and tore at her
side, although at last his favourite horse was reeking with sweat, and
he told himself that he had not felt so "pumped out" for a long while.
The fact that Joan did not seem to feel fatigue hardly reassured him.
He determined to ask Sir Thomas to influence her to consent to an early
marriage, that he might take her on a sea voyage. After they had dined,
a pleasant _partie quarree_, and he and his future uncle-in-law were
alone, he broached the subject.
"I hope, Sir Thomas, you will not think me impatient if I suggest that
there should not be a prolonged engagement," he began, taking the bull
by the horns almost as soon as they had lighted up and their first glass
of Mouton was still untasted before them. "But, to tell you the truth, I
am not happy about my loved one's health, and I fancy that some
yachting--say in or about Norway--might brace her a little."
"Great wits jump, they say! My dear boy, you have almost taken the very
words out of my mouth!" replied Sir Thomas, confidentially. "Honestly, I
have been uneasy about Joan for a long time. I told you months ago
about the family tendency to phthisis! Well, I am not exactly anxious
about her lungs, the medical men say they are perfectly sound, so far.
But tubercular disease has other ways of showing itself, and there is a
feverishness, a tendency almost amounting to delirium about the dear
girl, which at times makes me uneasy. I intended to suggest a speedy
marriage, and a sea voyage, knowing of your delightful yacht. I repeat,
you have taken the words out of my mouth!"
Joan was winding wool for Lady Thorne's work for her special _proteges_,
the "deep sea fishermen"--winding it with an almost fiery energy, as the
two conspirators entered the drawing-room. Her eyes met Vansittart's
with the old hunted, desperate look--his heart sank as he felt how
impotent and futile his efforts to balance the disturbing influence,
whatever it was, had been.
Sir Thomas had determined to "strike the iron while it was hot." So, as
soon as coffee had been served, he broached the subject of an almost
immediate marriage.
"My dear, it is the only thing to be done!" exclaimed his wife
emphatically. "It ought to be a function, Joan's marriage! And if it
is not as soon as I can arrange matters, it will have to be postponed
till next season, when every one will be sick and tired of the subject.
You are our only chick and child, Joan, and I will have you married
properly, with _eclat_."
Joan made no objection. She gave her lover one tender, confiding
glance, then resumed her wool-winding, and allowed her elders to settle
her affairs for her. Perhaps, she thought, when she was left alone with
the awful facts of her life in her own room--perhaps she might learn to
live in something less akin to utter and complete despair than her
present humour, when she was alone with Vansittart, skimming the ocean
in his yacht.
The necessary shopping and dressmaker-interviewing, too, might distract
her from the terrible, gnawing anxiety of the coming inquest.
Each morning and evening the papers had some little paragraph about the
affair. They hinted at the identity of "Victor a'Court" being a
disputed one. But until the day fixed for the inquest there had been no
definite allusion in print.
The night before the inquest was one of feverish anxiety for Joan. "If
only I were not so strong--if only some dreadful illness would attack
me!" she told herself, as the hours lagged and dragged. She could not
face her world while that awful inquiry which might mean a shameful
death to her was going forward; yet she dared not shut herself into her
room to await the evening papers as she best could.
Her aunt was, fortunately for Joan, a "little out of sorts," as she
herself termed it. So, her uncle being out--and having, indeed, almost
entirely relaxed his barely-veiled supervision of her doings now that in
three weeks time she would be Lady Vansittart and freed from his
jurisdiction for always, she donned a hat and walking dress and wandered
out, unseen--for the hall was empty.
Why she was attracted towards the scene of her "accidental crime"--that
was her name for her administration of the drugged brandy to Victor
Mercier--she could not imagine. But she was.
She had intended to stroll about in the leafy seclusion of Kensington
Gardens, dodging her kind. But no sooner was she in the Park than she
wandered almost unconsciously nearer and nearer to the place where she
had done her former lover to death.
Oh, for some cool, dark refuge in which to grovel and hide during the
awful hours of dreadful suspense! The light of day seemed too
garish--every cheerful sound made her shrink and wince--every voice
seemed to thrill each overstrung nerve in her aching body.
As she was pausing, miserably, under a tree, stopping her ears that she
might not hear the glad voices and laughter of some children gaily at
play, she happened to glance skyward where the towers of the great
cathedral stood, solemn and noble, against the sky.
"I will go in there and wait!" she told herself. She felt unable to
return home and face the evening papers in her uncle's house. She would
wait for them there.
She almost fled along, across the road, into the cathedral, as a guilty,
hunted creature seeking sanctuary. She halted when she had closed the
door. There was a calm, a rest, in the sacred fane which was as the
presence of the Creator Himself. She slunk into a corner, and crouching
down, clung for support to the rail of the bench in front of her and
waited.
Waited, half-dazed and stupified, hardly knowing where she was, mind and
brain confused as if too paralysed to think, to act. Hour after hour
passed. Afternoon service proceeded in the choir. Almost grovelling in
her corner, she listened. She could not pray--she was past that.
Then, as there was a movement of the congregation to the doors, she
forced herself to rise and pass out among them. For she knew the
evening papers would be out.
She hurried from the Abbey into the street, bought one from the first
urchin she met shouting "Special Edeetion!" fled across one street and
along another, into the Park. There she found an empty bench, and, well
hidden from passers-by by a clump of shrubs, opened her paper with
trembling fingers. Yes! There it was!
"INQUEST THIS DAY. STRANGE REVELATIONS."