She drew him into the garden with such true childlike joy!
Now behold them seated in the arbor--a perfect bower of sweets and
blossoms; the wilderness of roof-tops and spires stretching below,
broad and far; London seen dim and silent, as in a dream.
She took his hat from his brows gently, and looked him in the face
with tearful penetrating eyes.
She did not say, "You have changed."--She said, "Why, why did I leave
you?" and then turned away.
"Never mind me, Helen. I am man, and rudely born--speak of yourself.
This lady is kind to you, then?"
"Does she not let me see you? Oh! very kind--and look here."
Helen pointed to fruits and cakes set out on the table. "A feast,
brother."
And she began to press her hospitality with pretty winning ways, more
playful than was usual for her, and talking very fast, and with forced
but silvery laughter.
By degrees she stole him from his gloom and reserve; and, though he
could not reveal to her the cause of his bitterest sorrow, he owned
that he had suffered much. He would not have owned _that_ to another
living being. And then, quickly turning from this brief confession,
with assurances that the worst was over, he sought to amuse her by
speaking of his new acquaintance with the perch-fisher. But when he
spoke of this man with a kind of reluctant admiration, mixed with
compassionate yet gloomy interest, and drew a grotesque though subdued
sketch of the wild scene in which he had been spectator, Helen grew
alarmed and grave.
"Oh, brother, do not go there again--do not see more of this bad man."
"Bad!--no! Hopeless and unhappy, he has stooped to stimulants and
oblivion;--but you cannot understand these things, my pretty
preacher."
"Yes I do, Leonard. What is the difference between being good and bad?
The good do not yield to temptations, and the bad do."
The definition was so simple and so wise that Leonard was more struck
with it than he might have been by the most elaborate sermon by Parson
Dale.
"I have often murmured to myself since I lost you, 'Helen was my good
angel;'--say on. For my heart is dark to myself, and while you speak
light seems to dawn on it."
This praise so confused Helen that she was long before she could obey
the command annexed to it. But, by little and little, words came to
both more frankly. And then he told her the sad tale of Chatterton,
and waited, anxious to hear her comments.
"Well," he said, seeing that she remained silent, "how can _I_ hope,
when this mighty genius labored and despaired? What did he want, save
birth and fortune, and friends, and human justice."
"Did he pray to God?" said Helen, drying her tears.
Again Leonard was startled. In reading the life of Chatterton, he had
not much noted the scepticism, assumed or real, of the ill-fated
aspirer to earthly immortality. At Helen's question, that scepticism
struck him forcibly.
"Why do you ask that, Helen?"
"Because, when we pray often, we grow so very, very patient," answered
the child. "Perhaps, had he been patient a few months more all would
have been won by him, as it will be by you, brother; for you pray, and
you will be patient."
Leonard bowed his head in deep thought, and this time the thought was
not gloomy. Then out from that awful life there glowed another
passage, which before he had not heeded duly, but regarded rather as
one of the darkest mysteries in the fate of Chatterton.
At the very time the despairing poet had locked himself up in his
garret, to dismiss his soul from its earthly ordeal, his genius had
just found its way into the light of renown. Good and learned and
powerful men were preparing to serve and save him. Another year,--nay,
perchance, another month--and he might have stood acknowledged and
sublime in the foremost front of his age.
"Oh Helen!" cried Leonard, raising his brows from which the cloud had
passed,--"Why, indeed, did you leave me?"
Helen started in her turn as he repeated this regret, and in her turn
grew thoughtful. At length she asked him if he had written for the box
which had belonged to her father, and been left at the inn.
And Leonard, though a little chafed at what he thought a childish
interruption to themes of graver interest, owned with self-reproach
that he had forgotten to do so. Should he not write now to order the
box to be sent to her at Miss Starke's.
"No; let it be sent to you. Take care of it. I should like to know
that something of mine is with you; and perhaps I may not stay here
long."
"Not stay here? That you must, my dear Helen--at least as long as Miss
Starke will keep you, and is kind. By-and-by, (added Leonard, with
something of his former sanguine tone) I may yet make my way, and we
shall have our cottage to ourselves. But--Oh Helen!--I forgot--you
wounded me; you left your money with me. I only found it in my drawers
the other day. Fie!--I have brought it back."
"It was not mine--it is yours. We were to share together--you paid
all; and how can I want it here, too?"
But Leonard was obstinate; and as Helen mournfully received back all
that of fortune her father had bequeathed to her, a tall female figure
stood at the entrance of the harbor, and said, that scattered all
sentiment to the winds--"Young man, it is time to go."