SELF-RESPECT AND HONOR

Beethoven is said to have been the first musician who compelled

respect for his craft,--he who, prouder than Goethe, associated

with royalties, and said of himself, "I, too, am a king!" Mozart

rose from a dependent position which brought him most grievous

humiliations; he was looked upon as a servant of the Archbishop

of Salzburg, and treated accordingly. At the time composers

and musicians had no higher standing. Mozart feels the

intolerableness of his position and protests against it on every

opportunity; he is conscious of his worth and intellectual

superiority. When he endures the grossest indignities from his

tormentor, Archbishop Hieronymus, it is for the sake of his

father whom he would save from annoyance. In all things else

he follows the example of his father, but in the matter of

self-respect he admonishes and encourages his parent. Although

Beethoven rudely rejected the condescending good will of the

great which would have made Mozart happy, and demanded respect

as an equal, it must be confessed that the generally manly

conduct of Mozart was an excellent preparation of the Viennese

soil.

120. "I only wish that the Elector were here; he might hear

something to his advantage. He knows nothing about me, knows

nothing about my ability. What a pity that these grand gentlemen

take everybody's word and are unwilling to investigate for

themselves! It's always the way. I am willing to make a test; let

him summon all the composers in Munich, and even invite a few

from Italy, Germany, England and Spain; I will trust myself in a

competition with them all."

(Munich, October 2, 1777, to his father. Mozart had hoped to

secure an appointment in Munich, but was disappointed.)

121. "I could scarcely refrain from laughing when I was

introduced to the people. A few, who knew me par renommee, were

very polite and respectful; others who know nothing about me

stared at me as if they were a bit amused. They think that

because I am small and young that there can be nothing great and

old in me. But they shall soon find out."

(Mannheim, October 31, 1777, to his father.)

122. "We poor, common folk must not only take wives whom we love

and who love us, but we may, can and want to take such because we

are neither noble, well-born nor rich, but lowly, mean and poor.

Hence we do not need rich wives because our wealth dies with us,

being in our heads. Of this wealth no man can rob us unless he

cuts off our heads, in which case we should have need of nothing

more."

(Mannheim, February 7, 1778, to his father. Mozart had fallen in

love with Aloysia, daughter of the poor musician Weber.)

123. "I will gladly give lessons to oblige, particularly if I see

that a person has talent and a joyous desire to learn. But to go

to a house at a fixed hour, or wait at home for the arrival of

some one, that I can not do, no matter how much it might yield

me; I leave that to others who can do nothing else than play the

clavier,--for me it is impossible. I am a composer and was born

to be a chapelmaster. I dare not thus bury the talent for

composition which a kind God gave me in such generous measure (I

may say this without pride for I feel it now more than ever

before), and that is what I should do had I many pupils. Teaching

is a restless occupation and I would rather neglect clavier

playing than composition; the clavier is a side issue, though,

thank God, a strong one."

(Mannheim, February 7, 1778, to his father, who must have read

the words with sorrow, since he and his daughter Nannerl were

laboriously giving lessons and practicing economy to make

Mozart's journey possible and had to advance money to him.)

124. "I know of a certainty that the Emperor intends to establish

a German opera in Vienna, and is earnestly seeking a young

conductor who understands the German language, has genius and is

capable of giving the world something new. Benda of Gotha is

seeking the place and Schweitzer is also an applicant. I believe

this would be a good thing for me,--but with good pay, as a

matter of course. If the Emperor will give me a thousand florins,

I will write a German opera for him, and if then he does not wish

to retain me, all right. I beg of you, write to all the good

friends in Vienna whom you can think of that I would do honor to

the Emperor. If there is no other way let him try me with an

opera."

(Mannheim, January 10, 1778, to his father.)

125. "The greatest favor that Herr Grimm showed me was to lend me

15 Louis d'Or in driblets at the (life and) death of my blessed

mother. Is he fearful that the loan will not be returned? If so

he truly deserves a kick--for he shows distrust of my honesty

(the only thing that can throw me into a rage), and also of my

talent....In a word he belongs to the Italian party, is deceitful

and is seeking to oppress me."

(Paris, September 11, 1778, to his father, who was on a friendly

footing with the French encyclopaedist Grimm since the first

artistic tour made with little Wolfgang in 1763, when he owed

many favors to Grimm. Apparently Mozart here does an injustice to

his patron, who, it is true, thought highly of the Italian

Piccini.)

126. "On my honor, I can't help it; it's the kind of man I am.

Lately when he spoke to me rudely, foolishly and stupidly, I did

not dare to say to him that he need not worry about the 15 Louis

d'Or for fear that I might offend him. I did nothing but endure

and ask if he were ready; and then--your obedient servant."

(Paris, September 11, 1778, to his father, at whose request Baron

Grimm had received the young artist in Paris, but at the same

time had exercised a sort of artistic guardianship over him.

Wolfgang had written to his father as early as August 27: "If you

write to him do not be too humble in your thanks;--there are

reasons." On another occasion: "Grimm is able to assist children,

but not adults. Do not imagine that he is the man he was.")

127. "You know that I want nothing more than good employment,--

good in character and good in recompense, let it be where it will

if the place be but Catholic...; but if the Salzburgians want me

they must satisfy my desires or they will certainly not get me."

(Paris, July 3, 1778, to his father, who wished to see his son in

the service of the archiepiscopal court at Salzburg.)

128. "The Prince must have confidence either in you or me, and

give us complete control of everything relating to music;

otherwise all will be in vain. For in Salzburg everybody or

nobody has to do with music. If I were to undertake it I should

demand free hands. In matters musical the Head Court Chamberlain

should have nothing to say; a cavalier can not be a conductor,

but a conductor can well be a cavalier."

(Paris, July 9, 1778.)

129. "If the Archbishop were to entrust it to me I would soon

make his music famous, that's sure....But I have one request to

make at Salzburg, and that is that I shall not be placed among

the violins where I used to be; I'll never make a fiddler. I will

conduct at the clavier and accompany the arias. It would have

been a good thing if I had secured a written assurance of the

conductorship."

(Paris, September 11, 1778, to his father who had urged him to

return to Salzburg to receive an appointment to the

conductorship. Mozart seems to have a premonition of the

treatment which he received later from the Archbishop.)

130. "I must admit that I should reach Salzburg with a lighter

heart if I were not aware that I have taken service there; it is

only this thought that is intolerable. Put yourself in my place

and think it over. At Salzburg I do not know who or what I am; I

am everything and at times nothing. I do not demand too much or

too little;--only something, if I am something."

(Strassburg, October 15, 1778, to his father, while returning

from Paris filled with repugnance to the Archbishop. "For aside

from obeying a praiseworthy and beautiful motive" (he means

filial affection), "I am really committing the greatest folly in

the world," he writes in the same letter.)

131. "The Archbishop can not recompense me for the slavery in

Salzburg! As I have said I experience great pleasure when I think

of visiting you again, but nothing but vexation and fear at the

thought of seeing myself at that beggarly court again. The

Archbishop must not attempt to put on grand airs with me as he

used to; it is not impossible, it is even likely that I would put

my fingers to my nose,--and I know full well that you would enjoy

it as much as I."

(Mannheim, November 12, 1778, to his father.)

132. "At 11 o'clock in the forenoon, a little too early for me,

unfortunately, we already go to table; we dine together,--the two

temporal and spiritual valets, Mr. the Controller, Mr. Zetti, the

Confectioner, Messrs. the two cooks, Ceccarelli, Brunetti and my

insignificance. N.B. The two valets sit at the head of the table;

I have at least the honor of sitting above the cooks. Well, I

simply think I am at Salzburg. At dinner a great many coarse and

silly jokes are cracked, but not at me, because I do not speak a

word unless of necessity and then always with the utmost

seriousness. As soon as I have dined I go my way."

(Vienna, March 17, 1781, to his father. The Archbishop was

visiting Vienna and had brought with him his best musicians whom,

however, he treated shabbily. At length the rupture came; Mozart

was dismissed--literally with a kick.)

133. "Believe me, best of fathers, that I must summon all my

manhood to write to you what reason commands. God knows how hard

it is for me to leave you; but if beggary were my lot I would no

longer serve such a master; for that I shall never forget as long

as I live,--and I beg of you, I beg of you for the sake of

everything in the world, encourage me in my determination instead

of trying to dissuade me. That would unfit me for what I must do.

For it is my desire and hope to win honor, fame and money, and I

hope to be of greater service to you in Vienna than in Salzburg."

(Vienna, May 12, 1781, to his father.)

134. "I did not know that I was a valet de chambre, and that

broke my neck. I ought to have wasted a few hours every forenoon

in the antechamber. I was often told that I should let myself be

seen, but I could not recall that this was my duty and came

punctually only when the Archbishop summoned me."

(Vienna, May 12, 1781.)

135. "To please you, best of fathers, I would sacrifice my

happiness, my health and my life; but my honor is my own, and

ought to be above all else to you. Let Count Arco and all

Salzburg read this letter."

(Vienna, May 19, 1781. It was Count Arco who had dismissed Mozart

with a kick. The father was thrown into consternation at the

maltreatment of his son and sought to persuade Mozart to return

to Salzburg. Mozart replied: "Best, dearest father, ask of me

anything you please but not that; the very thought makes me

tremble with rage.")

136. "You did not think when you wrote this that such a back-step

would stamp me as one of the most contemptible fellows in the

world. All Vienna knows that I have left the Archbishop, knows

why, knows that it is because of my injured honor, of an injury

inflicted three times,--and I am to make a public denial,

proclaim myself a cur and the Archbishop a noble prince? No man

could do the former, least of all I, and the second can only be

done by God if He should choose to enlighten him."

(Vienna, May 19, 1781, to his father, who had asked him to return

to the service of the Archbishop.)

137. "If it be happiness to be rid of a prince who never pays

one, but torments him to death, then I am happy. For if I had to

work from morning till night I would do it gladly rather than

live off the bounty of such a,--I do not dare to call him by the

name he deserves,--I was forced to take the step I did and I can

not swerve a hair's breadth from it; impossible."

(Vienna, May 19, 1781.)

138. "Salzburg is nothing now to me except it offer an

opportunity to give the Count a kick...even if it were in the

public street. I desire no satisfaction from the Archbishop, for

he is not in a position to offer me the kind that I want and must

have. Within a day or two I shall write to the Count telling him

what he can confidently expect to receive from me the first time

I meet him, be it where it may, except a place that commands my

respect."

(Vienna, June 13, 1781, to his father. Count Arco's offence has

been mentioned. On June 16 Mozart wrote: "The hungry ass shall

not escape my chastisement if I have to wait twenty years; for as

soon as I see him he shall come in contact with my foot, unless I

should be so unfortunate as to see him in the sanctuary." [The

reader will probably guess that the translator is resorting to

euphemisms in rendering Mozart's language. H.E.K.])

139. "It is the heart that confers the patent of nobility on man;

and although I am no count I probably have more honor within me

than many a count. Menial or count, whoever insults me is a cur.

I shall begin by representing to him, with complete gravity, how

badly he did his business, but at the end I shall have to assure

him in writing that he is to expect a kick...and a box on the

ear from me; for if a man insults me I have got to be revenged,

and if I give him no more than he gave me, it is mere retaliation

and not punishment. Besides I should thus put myself on a level

with him, and I am too proud to compare myself with such a stupid

gelding."

(Vienna, June 20, 1781, to his father. These expressions, called

out by the insulting treatment received from the Archbishop and

Count Arco, are in striking contrast to Mozart's habitual

amiability.)

140. "I can easily believe that the court parasites will look

askance at you, but why need you disturb yourself about such a

miserable pack? The more inimical such persons are to you the

greater the pride and contempt with which you should look down

upon them."

(Vienna, June 20, 1778, to his father, who fears that some of the

consequences of his son's step may be visited upon him.)

141. "I do not ask of you that you make a disturbance or enter

the least complaint, but the Archbishop and the whole pack must

fear to speak to you about this matter, for you (if compelled)

can without the slightest alarm say frankly that you would be

ashamed to have reared a son who would have accepted abuse from

such an infamous cur as Arco; and you may assure all that if I

had the good luck to meet him today I should treat him as he

deserves, and that he would have occasion to remember me the

rest of his life. All that I want is that everybody shall see

in your bearing that you have nothing to fear. Keep quiet; but

if necessary, speak, and then to some purpose."

(Vienna, July 4, 1781, to his father.)

142. "I may say that because of Vogler, Winter was always my

greatest enemy. But because he is a beast in his mode of life,

and in all other matters a child, I would be ashamed to set down

a single word on his account; he deserves the contempt of all

honorable men. I will, therefore, not tell infamous truths rather

than infamous lies about him."

(Vienna, December 22, 1781, to his father, to whose ears Peter

Winter, a composer, had brought slanderous reports concerning

Mozart and his Constanze. Winter was a pupil of Abbe Vogler. See

No. 66.)

143. "He is a nice fellow and a good friend of mine; I might

often dine with him, but it is a custom with me never to take pay

for my favors; nor would a dish of soup pay them. Yet such people

have wonderful notions of what they accomplish with one....I am

fond of doing favors for people but they must not plague me. She

(the daughter) is not satisfied if I spend two hours every day

with her, but wants me to loll about the whole day; yet she tries

to play the well behaved one."

(Vienna, August 22, 1781, to his father. Mozart is writing about

a landlord and his daughter concerning whom favorable reports had

reached the ears of the father. Mozart explains matters and soon

thereafter announces a change of lodgings.)

144. "I beg of you that when you write to me about something in

my conduct which is displeasing to you, and I in turn give you my

views, let it always be a matter between father and son, and

therefore a secret not to be divulged to others. Let our letters

suffice and do not address yourself to others, for, by heaven, I

will not give a finger's length of accounting concerning my

doings or omissions to others, not even to the Emperor himself. I

have cares and anxieties of my own and have no use for petulant

letters."

(Vienna, September 5, 1781, to his father, who lent a willing ear

to gossips and was never chary of his reproaches. Mozart was

already twenty-five years old.)

145. "If I were Wiedmer I would demand the following satisfaction

from the Emperor: he should endure 50 strokes at the same place

in my presence and then he should pay me 6,000 ducats. If I could

not obtain this satisfaction I should take none, but thrust a

dagger through his heart at the first opportunity. N.B. He has

already had an offer of 3,000 ducats on condition that he does

not come to Vienna, but permits the matter to drop. The people of

Innsbruck say of Wiedmer: he who was scourged for our sake will

also redeem us."

(Vienna, August 8, 1781, to his father. Herr von Wiedmer was a

nobleman and theatre director, who, without cause, had been

sentenced to a whipping by the president, Count Wolkenstein, on

the complaint of another nobleman. [Mozart's bloodthirstiness was

probably due to memories of Arco's kick still rankling in his

heart. It was only after long solicitation from his father that

he abandoned his plan to send Arco the threatened letter.

H.E.K.])

146. "You perhaps already know that the musico Marquesi--

Marquesius di Milano--was poisoned in Naples; but how! He was

in love with a duchess and her real amant grew jealous and sent

three or four bravos to Marquesi and left him the choice of

drinking poison or being massacred. He chose the poison. Being a

timid Italian he died alone and left his gentlemen murderers to

live in rest and peace. Had they come into my room, I would have

taken a few of them with me into the other world, as long as some

one had to die. Pity for so excellent a singer!"

(Munich, December 30, 1780, to his father. Mozart, on the whole,

was one of the most peaceable men on earth, but he was not

wanting in personal courage, and he could fly into transports of

rage.)

147. "If you were to write also to Prince Zeil I should be glad.

But short and good. Do not by any means crawl! That I can not

endure."

(Mannheim, December 10, 1777, to his father. Count Ferdinand von

Zeil was Prince Bishop of Chimsee and favorably disposed towards

Mozart, who was hoping for an appointment in Munich. "If he wants

to do something he can; all Munich told me that." Nothing came of

it.)

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