PART THREE, CHAPTER TWENTY TWO.

I RENEW OLD TIES OF FRIENDSHIP, AND SEEK NEW ONES OF LOVE--OBLIGED TO

TAKE MY FATHER TO TASK ONCE MORE--HE RECEIVES HIS LESSON WITH PROPER

OBEDIENCE.

I took the carriage the next day, and drove to Lord Windermear's. He

was at home, and I gave my name to the servant as Mr De Benyon. It was

the first time that I had made use of my own name. His lordship was

alone when I entered. He bowed, as if not recognising me, and waved his

hand to a chair.

"My lord, I have given my true name, and you treat me as a perfect

stranger. I will mention my _former_ name, and I trust you will honour

me with a recognition. I was Japhet Newland."

"My dear Mr Newland, you must accept my apology; but it is so long

since we met, and I did not expect to see you again."

"I thought, my lord, that Mr Masterton had informed you of what had

taken place."

"No; I have just come from a visit to my sisters in Westmoreland, and

have received no letters from him."

"I have, my lord, at last succeeded in finding out the object of my mad

search, as you were truly pleased to call it, in the Honourable General

De Benyon, lately arrived from the East Indies."

"Where his services are well known," added his lordship, "Mr De Benyon,

I congratulate you with all my heart. When you refused my offers of

assistance, and left us all in that mad way, I certainly despaired of

ever seeing you again. I am glad that you re-appear under such

fortunate auspices. Has your father any family?"

"None, my lord, but myself; and my mother died in the East Indies."

"Then, I presume, from what I know at the board of control, that you may

_now_ safely be introduced as a young gentleman of large fortune; allow

me, at least, to assist your father in placing you in your proper sphere

in society. Where is your father?"

"At present, my lord, he is staying at the Adelphi Hotel, confined to

his room by an accident; but I trust that in a few days he will be able

to come out."

"Will you offer my congratulations to him, and tell him, that if he will

allow me, I will have the honour of paying my respects to him. Will you

dine with me on Monday next?"

I returned my thanks, accepted the invitation, and took my leave, his

lordship saying, as he shook hands with me, "You don't know, how happy

this intelligence has made me. I trust that your father and I shall be

good friends."

When I returned to the carriage, as my father had desired me to take an

airing, I thought I might as well have a companion, so I directed them

to drive to Mr Cophagus's. The servant knocked, and I went in as soon

as the door was opened. Susannah and Mrs Cophagus were sitting in the

room.

"Susannah," said I, "I know you do not like to walk out, so I thought,

perhaps, you would have no objection to take an airing in the carriage:

my father has lent it to me. Will you come?--it will do you good."

"It is very kind of you, Japhet, to think of me; but--"

"But what?" replied Mrs Cophagus. "Surely thou wilt not refuse,

Susannah. It would savour much of ingratitude on thy part."

"I will not then be ungrateful," replied Susannah, leaving the room; and

in a short time she returned in a Leghorn bonnet and shawl like her

sister's. "Do not I prove that I am not ungrateful, Japhet, since to do

credit to thy carriage, I am content to depart from the rules of our

persuasion?" said Susannah, smiling.

"I feel the kindness and the sacrifice you are making to please me,

Susannah," replied I; "but let us lose no time."

I handed her down to the carriage, and we drove to the Park. It was a

beautiful day, and the Park was filled with pedestrians as well as

carriages. Susannah was much astonished, as well as pleased. "Now,

Susannah," said I, "if you were to call this Vanity Fair, you would not

be far wrong; but still, recollect that even all this is productive of

much good. Reflect how many industrious people find employment and

provision for their families by the building of these gay vehicles,

their painting and ornamenting. How many are employed at the loom, and

at the needle, in making these costly dresses. This vanity is the cause

of wealth not being hoarded, but finding its way through various

channels, so as to produce comfort and happiness to thousands."

"Your observations are just, Japhet, but you have lived in the world and

seen much of it. I am as one just burst from an egg-shell, all

amazement. I have been living in a little world of my own thoughts,

surrounded by a mist of ignorance, and not being able to penetrate

farther, have considered myself wise when I was not."

"My dear Susannah, this is a checkered world, but not a very bad one--

there is in it much of good as well as evil. The sect to which you

belong, avoid it--they know it not--and they are unjust towards it.

During the time that I lived at Reading, I will candidly state to you

that I met with many who called themselves of the persuasion, who were

wholly unworthy of it, but they made up in outward appearance and

hypocrisy what they wanted in their conduct to their fellow creatures.

Believe me, Susannah, there are pious and good, charitable and humane,

conscientious and strictly honourable people among those who now pass

before your view in such gay procession; but society requires that the

rich should spend their money in superfluities, that the poor may be

supported. Be not deceived, therefore, in future, by the outward

garments, which avail nothing."

"You have induced me much to alter my opinions already, Japhet; so has

that pleasant friend of thine, Mr Masterton, who has twice called since

we have been in London; but is it not time that we should return?"

"It is indeed later than I thought it was, Susannah," lied I, looking at

my watch, "and I am afraid that my father will be impatient for my

return. I will order them to drive home."

As we drove along, leaning against the back of the carriage, my hand

happened to touch that of Susannah, which lay beside her on the cushion,

I could not resist taking it in mine, and it was not withdrawn. What my

thoughts were, the reader may imagine: Susannah's I cannot acquaint him

with; but in that position we remained in silence until the carriage

stopped at Cophagus's door. I handed Susannah out of the carriage, and

went up stairs for a few moments. Mrs Cophagus and her husband were

out.

"Susannah, this is very kind of you, and I return you my thanks. I

never felt more happy than when seated with you in that carriage."

"I have received both amusement and instruction, Japhet, and ought to

thank you. Do you know what passed in my mind at one time?"

"No--tell me."

"When I first knew you, and you came among us, I was, as it were, the

guide, a presumptuous one perhaps to you, and you listened to me--now it

is reversed--now that we are removed and in the world, it is you that

are the guide, and it is I who listen and obey."

"Because, Susannah, when we first met I was much in error, and had

thought too little of serious things, and you were fit to be my guide:

now we are mixing in the world, with which I am better acquainted than

yourself. You then corrected me, when I was wrong: I now point out to

you where you are not rightly informed: but, Susannah, what you have

learnt of me is as nought compared with the valuable precepts which I

gained from your lips--precepts which, I trust, no collision with the

world will ever make me forget."

"Oh! I love to hear you say that; I was fearful that the world would

spoil you, Japhet; but it will not--will it?"

"Not so long as I have you still with me, Susannah: but if I am obliged

to mix again with the world, tell me, Susannah, will you reject me?--

will you desert me?--will you return to your own people and leave me so

exposed? Susannah, dearest, you must know how long, how dearly I have

loved you:--you know that, if I had not been sent for and obliged to

obey the message, I would have lived and died content with you. Will

you not listen to me now, or do you reject me?"

I put my arm round her waist, her head fell upon my shoulder, and she

burst into tears. "Speak, dearest, this suspense is torture to me,"

continued I.

"I do love you, Japhet," replied she at last, looking fondly at me

through her tears; "but I know not whether this earthly love may not

have weakened my affection towards Heaven. If so, may God pardon me,

for I cannot help it."

After this avowal, for a few minutes, which appeared seconds, we were in

each other's arms, when Susannah disengaged herself.

"Dearest Japhet, thy father will be much displeased."

"I cannot help it," replied I--"I shall submit to his displeasure."

"Nay, but, Japhet, why risk thy father's wrath?"

"Well, then," replied I, attempting to reach her lips, "I will go."

"Nay, nay--indeed, Japhet, you exact too much--it is not seemly."

"Then I won't go."

"Recollect about thy father."

"It is you who detain me, Susannah."

"I must not injure thee with thy father, Japhet, it were no proof of my

affection--but, indeed, you are self-willed."

"God bless you, Susannah," said I, as I gained the contested point, and

hastened to the carriage.

My father was a little out of humour when I returned, and questioned me

rather sharply as to where I had been. I half pacified him by

delivering lord Windermear's polite message; but he continued his

interrogations: and although I had pointed out to him that a De Benyon

would never be guilty of an untruth, I am afraid I told some half dozen,

on this occasion; but I consoled myself with the reflection that, in the

code of honour of a fashionable man, he is bound, if necessary, to tell

falsehoods where a lady is concerned; so I said I had driven through the

streets looking at the houses, and had twice stopped and had gone in to

examine them. My father supposed that I had been looking out for a

house for him, and was satisfied. Fortunately they were job horses; had

they been his own I should have been in a severe scrape. Horses are the

only part of an establishment for which the gentlemen have any

consideration, and on which ladies have no mercy.

I had promised the next day to dine with Mr Masterton. My father had

taken a great aversion to this old gentleman until I had narrated the

events of my life, in which he had played such a conspicuous and

friendly part. Then, to do my father justice, his heart warmed towards

him.

"My dear sir, I have promised to dine out to-day."

"With whom, Japhet?"

"Why, sir, to tell you the truth, with that `old thief of a lawyer.'"

"I am very much shocked at your using such an expression towards one who

has been such a sincere friend, Japhet; and you will oblige me, sir, by

not doing so again in my presence."

"I really beg your pardon, general," replied I, "but I thought to please

you."

"Please me! what do you think of me? please me, sir, by showing yourself

ungrateful!--I am ashamed of you, sir."

"My dear father, I borrowed the expression from you. You called Mr

Masterton `an old thief of a lawyer' to his face: he complained to me of

the language before I had the pleasure of meeting you. I feel, and

always shall feel, the highest respect, love, and gratitude towards him.

Have I your permission to go?"

"Yes, Japhet," replied my father, looking very grave, "and do me the

favour to apologise for me to Mr Masterton for my having used such an

expression in my unfortunate warmth of temper--I am ashamed of myself."

"My dearest father, no man need be ashamed who is so ready to make

honourable reparation:--we are all a little out of temper at times."

"You have been a kind friend to me, Japhet, as well as a good son,"

replied my father, with some emotion. "Don't forget the apology at all

events: I shall be unhappy until it be made."

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