XV

In one respect only does the advance of age cast a shadow over my mind;

in most matters it is a pure gain. Even though a certain peculiar

quality of light-hearted happiness visits me more rarely--a happiness

like that of a lark that soars, beats her wings, and trills in the blue

sky--yet the loss is more than compensated for by the growth of an

equable tranquillity, neither rapturous nor sad, which abides with me

for long spaces.

But here is the secret wound--_clausum pectore volnus!_--I am or would

be an artist in words. Well, when I look round at the work of the

artists whose quality I envy and adore, I am struck by this alarming

fact, that in almost every case their earliest work is their best work.

This is almost invariably true in one particular domain, that of purely

imaginative poetical work. By which I do not mean poetry only, but

poetical prose like Pater's, poetical fiction like Charlotte Brontë's;

I think that a narrative writer, a humorous writer, a critical writer,

a biographical writer may continue to improve until his faculties begin

to decay. He may get a wider, a more penetrating, a more tolerant view

of life; his style gain lucidity, impressiveness, incisiveness,

pungency; but in the case of the poetical and the reflective writer it

seems to me that something evaporates--some quite peculiar freshness,

naïveté, indiscreetness, which, can never be recaptured. Take a few

typical instances. Coleridge lost the poetical gift altogether when he

left his youth behind; Wordsworth wrote all his best poetry in a few

early years; Milton lost his pure lyric gift. But the most salient

instance of all is Tennyson; in the two earliest volumes there is a

perfectly novel charm, a grace, a daring which he lost in later life.

He became solemn, mannerised, conscious of responsibility. Sometimes,

as in some of the lyrics of _Maud_, he had a flash of the old spirit.

But compare the _Idylls of the King_, for all their dignity and lavish

art, their sweet cadences, their mellifluous flow, with the early

fragment in the same manner, the _Morte d'Arthur_, and you become aware

that some exquisite haunted quality has slipped away from the later

work which made the _Morte d'Arthur_ one of the most perfect poems of

the century. The _Morte d'Arthur_ is seen, the _Idylls_ are laboriously

imagined. The _Idylls_, again, are full of an everyday morality--the

praise of civic virtues, the evolution of types--and how tiresome they

thus become! but in the _Morte d'Arthur_ there is only a prophetic

mysticism, which is all the more noble because it is so remote from

common things.

With Browning it is the same in a certain degree; there is a charm

about _Pauline_, for all its immaturity, which creates an

irrepressible, uncalculating mood of undefined longing, utterly absent

from his latest work. Perhaps one of the most remarkable instances is

that of Rossetti. In the course of the _House of Life_, the dark

curtain of the exotic mood, with its strange odours and glimpses, its

fallen light, its fevered sense, is raised at intervals upon a sonnet

of pure transparency and delicate sweetness, as though the weary,

voluptuous soul, in its restless passage among perfumed chambers,

looked out suddenly from a window upon some forest glade, full of cool

winds and winter sunshine, and stood silent awhile. These sonnets will

always be found to be the earlier writings transplanted into the new

setting.

I suppose it is to a certain extent a physical thing. It is the shadow

of experience, of familiarity, of weariness that creeps over the soul.

In youth the spirit expands like an opening rose, and things heard and

seen strike upon the senses with an incredible novelty and freshness,

hinting at all sorts of sweet surprises, joyful secrets, hopeful

mysteries. It is the subtle charm of youth that evaporates, the charm

that makes a young and eager boy on the threshold of manhood so

interesting, so delightful, even though he may be inarticulate and

immature and self-absorbed. Who does not remember friends of college

days, graceful and winning creatures, lost in the sense of their own

significance, who had nothing, it may be, particular to say, no great

intellectual grip, no suggestiveness, yet moving about in a mysterious

paradise of their own, full of dumb emotion, undefined longing, and

with a deep sense of the romantic possibilities of life. Alas, as the

days move on and the crisis delays, as life brings the need of labour,

the necessity of earning money, as love and friendship lose their rosy

glow and settle down into comfortable relations, the disillusionment

spreads and widens. I do not say that the nearer view of life is not

more just, more wholesome, more manly. It is but the working of some

strictly determined law. The dreams fade, become unreal and

unsubstantial; though not rarely, in some glimpse of retrospect, the

pilgrim turns, ascends a hillock by the road, and sees the far-off

lines, the quiet folds, of the blue heights from which he descended in

the blithe air of the morning, and knows that they were desirable.

Perhaps the happiest of all are those who, as the weary day advances,

can catch a sight of some no less beautiful hills ahead of him, their

hollows full of misty gold, where the long journey may end; and then,

however wearily the sun falls on the dusty road and the hedged fields

to left and right, he knows that the secrets of the earlier day are

beautiful secrets still, and that the fine wonder of youth has yet to

be satisfied. And yet the shadow does undoubtedly fall heavily on the

way for me and for such as me, whose one hope is that before they die

they may make some delicate thing of beauty and delight which may

remind those that come after that the first beauty of opening light and

the song of the awakening bird is a real and true thing, not a mere

effect of air and sun and buoyant spirit. Experience and fact and hard

truth have a beauty of their own, no doubt. Politics and commerce, the

growth of social liberty and law, civic duty and responsibility--dull

words for noble things--have their place, their value, their

significance. But to the poet they seem only the laborious organising

of his dreams, the slow and clumsy manufacture of what ought to be

instinctive and natural. If the world must grow upon these lines, if

men must toil in smoke-stained factories or wrangle in heated

Parliaments, then it is well that the framework of life should be made

as firm, as compact, as just as it can. But not here does his hope lie;

he looks forward to a far different regeneration than can be effected

by law and police. He looks forward to a time when the hearts of men

shall be so wise and tender and simple that they shall smile at the

thought that life needs all this organising and arranging. For those

who labour for social good lose sight too often of the end in the

means. They think of education as a business of delightful intricacy,

and forget that it is but an elaborate device for teaching men to love

quiet labour and to enjoy the delight of leisure. They lose themselves

in the dry delight of codifying law, and forget that law is only

necessary because men are born brutal and selfish. Morality may be

imposed from without, or grace may grow from within; and the poet is on

the side of the inner grace, because he thinks that if it can be

achieved it will outrun the other lightly and easily.

But as we journey through the world, as we become aware of the meanness

and selfishness of men, as we learn to fight for our own hand, the high

vision is apt to fade. Who then can be more sad than the man who has

felt in the depths of his soul the thrill of that opening light, and

the further that he journeys, finds more and more weary persons who

tell him insistently that it was nothing but a foolish incident of

youth, a trick of fancy, a passing mood, and that life must be given to

harder and more sordid things? It is well for him if he can resist

these ugly voices; if he can continue to discern what there is of

generous and pure in the hearts of those about him, if he can persevere

in believing that life does hold a holy and sweet mystery, and that it

is not a mere dreary struggle for a little comfort, a little respect, a

little pleasure by the way. It is upon a man's power of holding fast to

undimmed beauty that his inner hopefulness, his power of inspiring

others, depends. But though it is sad to see some artist who has tasted

of the morning dew, and whose heart has been filled with rapture,

trading and trafficking, in conventional expression and laborious

seriousness, with the memories of those bright visions, it is sadder

far to see a man turn his back cynically upon the first hope, and

declare his conviction that he has found the unreality of it all. The

artist must pray daily that his view may not grow clouded and soiled;

and he must be ready, too, if he finds the voice grow faint, to lay his

outworn music by, though he does it in utter sadness of soul, only glad

if he can continue sorrowful.