JIMMY'S APOLOGY

In the morning Jimmy leaned, rather moodily, against the terrace wall.

There was no garden, for the hotel occupied a narrow shelf on the

hillside, and from the terrace one looked down on the tops of dusky

pines. The building was new, and so far the guests were not numerous,

but the manager claimed that when the charm of the neighborhood was

known, summer tourists and mountaineers would have no use for Banff.

Perhaps his hopefulness was justified, for all round the hotel primeval

forest met untrodden snow, and at the head of the valley a glacier

dropped to a calm green lake. A few miles south was a small

flag-station, and sometimes one heard a heavy freight train rumble in

the woods. When the distant noise died away all was very quiet but for

the throb of falling water.

Jimmy had not enjoyed his breakfast, and when he lighted a cigarette the

tobacco did not taste good. He admitted that he had been carried away,

and now he was cool he reflected that his rashness had cost him a large

sum and he had given Stannard another note. He was young, and had for a

year or two indulged his youthful craving for excitement, but he began

to doubt if he could keep it up. After all, he had inherited more than

he knew from his sternly business-like and rather parsimonious

ancestors. Although the Leyland cotton mills were now famous in

Lancashire, Jimmy's grandfather had earned day wages at the spinning

frame.

Jimmy felt dull and thought a day on the rocks would brace him up. Since

his object for the Canadian excursion was to shoot a mountain-sheep and

climb a peak in the Rockies, he ought to get into trim. Stannard could

play cards all night and start fresh in the morning on an adventure that

tried one's nerve and muscle, but Jimmy admitted he could not. When he

loafed about hotel rotundas and consumed iced drinks he got soft.

After a time, Laura Stannard crossed the veranda and went along the

terrace. Her white dress was fashionable and she wore a big white hat.

Her hair and eyes were black, her figure was gracefully slender, and her

carriage was good. Jimmy thought her strangely attractive, but did not

altogether know if she was his friend, and admitted that he was not

Laura's sort. It was not that she was proud. Something about her

indicated that her proper background was an old-fashioned English

country house; Jimmy felt his was a Lancashire cotton mill. Laura did

not live with Stannard, but she joined him and Jimmy in Switzerland not

long before they started for Canada. Stannard was jealous about his

daughter and had indicated that his friends were not necessarily hers.

Jimmy had grounds to think Stannard's caution justified.

For a minute or two Jimmy left the girl alone. He imagined if Laura were

willing to talk to him she would let him know. She went to the end of

the terrace, and then turning opposite a bench, looked up and smiled.

Jimmy advanced and when he joined her leaned against the low wall. Laura

studied him quietly and he got embarrassed. Somehow he felt she

disapproved; he imagined he did not altogether look as if he had got up

after a night's refreshing sleep.

"You got breakfast early," she remarked.

"That is so," Jimmy agreed. "A fellow at my table argues about our

slowness in the Old Country and sometimes one would sooner be quiet.

Then I thought I'd go off and see if I could reach the ice-fall on the

glacier; after the sun gets hot the snow is treacherous. Anyhow, you

have come down as soon as me."

"I mean to go on the lake and try to catch a trout."

"Then, I hope you'll let me come. You'll want somebody to row the boat

and use the landing-net."

"The hotel guide will row and I doubt if we'll need the landing-net,"

Laura replied and gave him a level glance. "Besides, I shall return for

lunch and I rather think you ought to go for a long climb. When I came

out, you looked moody and slack."

Jimmy colored. Although he was embarrassed, to know Laura had bothered

to remark his moodiness was flattering; the strange thing was, when she

crossed the veranda he had not thought she saw him. Jimmy was raw, but

not altogether a fool. He knew Laura did not mean him to go with her to

the lake.

"Oh, well," he said. "When one loafs about, one does get slack."

"You are young and ought not to loaf."

"I imagine I'm a little older than you," Jimmy rejoined with a twinkle.

Laura let it go. As a rule, she did not take the obvious line, and

although she knew much Jimmy did not, she said, "Are you old enough to

play cards with Jackson and Deering?"

"One must pay for all one gets, and, in a sense, I get much from men

like that," Jimmy replied. "There's something one likes about Jackson,

and Deering's a very good sort."

"Are you ambitious to be Deering's sort?" Laura asked.

Jimmy pondered. It was obvious she knew the men were Stannard's friends,

and she, no doubt, knew Stannard was a keen gambler. The ground was

awkward and he must use some caution.

"Mr. Stannard's my model," he said.

Laura's glance was inscrutable. Since her mother died she had not lived

with Stannard and he puzzled her. Sometimes she was disturbed about him,

and sometimes she was jarred. When she joined him for a few weeks he was

kind, but he did not ask for her confidence and did not give her his.

"It looks as if my father's attraction for you was strong," she said

thoughtfully.

"That is so," Jimmy declared with a touch of enthusiasm Laura saw was

sincere. "Mr. Stannard has all the qualities I'd like to cultivate. My

habit, so to speak, is to shove along laboriously; he gets where he

wants without an effort. On the trains and steamers he gets for nothing

things another couldn't buy, and at the hotel the waiters serve him

first. People trust him and are keen about his society. He's urbane and

polished, but when you go with him on the rocks you note his steely

pluck. When I'm stuck and daunted he smiles, and somehow I get up the

awkward slab. Besides, he stands for much I wanted but couldn't get

until he helped."

"What did you want?"

"Excitement, adventure, and the friendship of clever people; something

like that," said Jimmy awkwardly. "To begin with, I'd better tell you

about my life in Lancashire, but I expect you're bored----"

Laura was not bored; in fact, her curiosity was excited. Stannard's

young friends were numerous, but when he opened his London flat to them

she stopped with her aunts. Now she wondered whether it was important he

had allowed her to join his Canadian excursion.

"I am not at all bored," she said.

"Very well. My father died long since and I went to my uncle's house.

I'd like to draw Ardshaw for you, but I cannot. Inside, it's overcrowded

by clumsy Victorian furniture; outside is a desolation of industrial

ugliness. Smoky fields, fenced by old colliery ropes, a black canal, and

coalpit winding towers. I went to school on board a steam tram, along a

road bordered all the way by miners' cottages."

"The picture's not attractive," Laura remarked. "Was your uncle

satisfied with his house?"

Jimmy smiled. "I think he was altogether satisfied. The Leylands are a

utilitarian lot, and rather like ugliness. Our interests are business,

and religion of a stern Puritanical sort. From my relations' point of

view, grace and beauty are snares. Besides, Dick Leyland got Ardshaw

cheap and I expect this accounts for much. When he went there the

Leyland mills were small; my grandfather had not long started on his

lucky speculation."

"But after a time you went away to school--a public school?"

"I did not. I imagined it was obvious," said Jimmy with a touch of

dryness. "I went to the mill office and sat under a gas-lamp, writing

entries in the stock-books, from nine o'clock until six. Dick Leyland

had no use for university cultivation and my aunt was persuaded Oxford

was a haunt of profligates. Well, because I was forced, I held out until

I was twenty-one. Then I'd had enough and I went to London."

"Were your relations willing for you to go?"

"They were not at all willing, but I inherit a third-part of the Leyland

mills. For all that, unless my trustees approve, I cannot, for another

two or three years, use control, and the sum I may spend is fixed.

Well, perhaps you can picture my launching out in town. I had no rules

to go by; I wore the stamp of the cotton mill and a second-class school.

For five years I'd earned a small clerk's pay, and now, by contrast, I

was rich."

Laura could picture it. The boy's reaction from his uncle's firm and

parsimonious guardianship was natural, and she studied him with fresh

curiosity. He was tall but rather loosely built, and his look was

apologetic, as if he had not yet got a man's strength and confidence.

One noted the stamp of the cotton mill. As a rule Jimmy was generous and

extravagant; but sometimes he was strangely business-like.

"Were you satisfied with your experiment?" she asked.

"I expect you're tired. If you were not kind, you'd have sent me off."

"Not at all," said Laura. "I like to study people, and your story has a

human touch. In a way, it's the revolt of youth."

"Oh, well; I expect one does not often get all one thinks to get. I

wanted the cultivation Oxford might have given me; I wanted to know

people of your sort, who don't bother about business, but hunt and fish

and shoot. Well, I can throw a dry-fly and hold a gun straight; but

after all I'm Jimmy Leyland, from the mills in Lancashire."

Laura liked his honesty, but his voice was now not apologetic. She

rather thought it proud.

"You met my father in Switzerland?" she said.

"At Chamonix, about a year ago. When I met Mr. Stannard my luck was

good. I'd got into the wrong lot; they used me and laughed. Well, your

father showed me where I was going and sent the others off. Perhaps you

know how he does things like that? He's urban, but very firm. Anyhow,

the others went and I've had numerous grounds to trust Mr. Stannard

since."

Jimmy lighted a cigarette. Perhaps he ought to go, but Laura's interest

was flattering and she had not allowed him to talk like this before. In

fact, he rather wondered why she had done so. In the meantime Laura

pondered his artless narrative. His liking her father was not strange,

for Stannard's charm was strong, but Laura imagined to enjoy his society

cost his young friends something. Perhaps it had cost Jimmy something,

for he had stated that one must pay for all one got. He was obviously

willing to pay, but Laura was puzzled. If his uncle's portrait was

accurate, she imagined the sum Jimmy was allowed to spend was not large.

"One ought to have an object and know where one means to go," she

remarked. "When you look ahead, are you satisfied?"

"In the meantime, I'll let Mr. Stannard indicate the way," said Jimmy

with a smile. "On the whole, I expect Dick Leyland would sooner I didn't

meddle at the office, but after a year or two I'll probably go back.

You see, Dick has no children and Jim's not married. To carry on

Leyland's is my job."

"Who is Jim?"

"Sir James Leyland, knight. In Lancashire we have not much use for

titles; the head of the house is Jim and I'm Jimmy. Perhaps the

diminutive is important."

"But suppose your uncles did not approve your carrying on the house?"

"Then, I imagine they could, for a time, force me to leave the mills

alone. However, although Dick is very like a machine, I've some grounds

to think Jim human. All the same, I hardly know him. He's at Bombay; the

house transacts much business in India. But I must have bored you and

you haven't got breakfast. I suppose you really won't let me row the

boat?"

Laura pondered. Her curiosity was not altogether satisfied and she now

was willing for Jimmy to join her on the lake. Yet she had refused, and

after his frank statement, she had better not agree.

"I have engaged the hotel guide, Miss Grant is going, and the boat is

small," she said. "Besides, when one means to catch trout one must

concentrate."

Jimmy went off and Laura knitted her brows. She knew Jimmy's habit was

not to boast, and if she had understood him properly, he would by and by

control the fortunes of the famous manufacturing house. Her father's

plan was rather obvious, and the blood came to Laura's skin. She knew

something about poverty and admitted that when she married her marriage

must be good, but she was not an adventuress. Yet Jimmy was rather a

handsome fellow and had some attractive qualities.

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