CHAPTER 46

1

Stephen’s book, which made its appearance that May, met with a very

sensational success in England and in the United States, an even more

marked success than _The Furrow_. Its sales were unexpectedly large

considering its outstanding literary merit; the critics of two countries

were loud in their praises, and old photographs of Stephen could be seen

in the papers, together with very flattering captions. In a word, she

woke up in Paris one morning to find herself, for the moment, quite

famous.

Valérie, Brockett, indeed all her friends were whole-hearted in their

congratulations; and David’s tail kept up a great wagging. He knew well

that something pleasant had happened: the whole atmosphere of the house

was enough to inform a sagacious person like David. Even Mary’s little

bright-coloured birds seemed to take a firmer hold on existence; while

out in the garden there was much ado on the part of the proudly parental

pigeons—fledglings with huge heads and bleary eyes had arrived to

contribute to the general celebration. Adèle went singing about her

work, for Jean had recently been promised promotion, which meant that

his savings, perhaps in a year, might have grown large enough for them

to marry.

Pierre bragged to his friend, the neighbouring baker, anent Stephen’s

great eminence as a writer, and even Pauline cheered up a little.

When Mary impressively ordered the meals, ordered this or that delicacy

for Stephen, Pauline would actually say with a smile: ‘Mais oui, un

grand génie doit nourrir le cerveau!’

Mademoiselle Duphot gained a passing importance in the eyes of her

pupils through having taught Stephen. She would nod her head and remark

very wisely: ‘I always declare she become a great author.’ Then because

she was truthful she would hastily add: ‘I mean that I knowed she was

someone unusual.’

Buisson admitted that perhaps, after all, it was well that Stephen had

stuck to her writing. The book had been bought for translation into

French, a fact which had deeply impressed Monsieur Buisson.

From Puddle came a long and triumphant letter: ‘What did I tell you? I

knew you’d do it! . . .’

Anna also wrote at some length to her daughter. And wonder of wonders,

from Violet Peacock there arrived an embarrassingly gushing epistle. She

would look Stephen up when next she was in Paris; she was longing, so

she said, to renew their old friendship—after all, they two had been

children together.

Gazing at Mary with very bright eyes, Stephen’s thoughts must rush

forward into the future. Puddle had been right, it was work that

counted—clever, hard-headed, understanding old Puddle!

Then putting an arm round Mary’s shoulder: ‘Nothing shall ever hurt

you,’ she would promise, feeling wonderfully self-sufficient and strong,

wonderfully capable of protecting.

2

That summer they drove into Italy with David sitting up proudly beside

Burton. David barked at the peasants and challenged the dogs and

generally assumed a grand air of importance. They decided to spend two

months on Lake Como, and went to the Hotel Florence at Bellagio. The

hotel gardens ran down to the lake—it was all very sunny and soothing

and peaceful. Their days were passed in making excursions, their

evenings in drifting about on the water in a little boat with a gaily

striped awning, which latter seemed a strange form of pleasure to David.

Many of the guests at the Florence were English, and not a few scraped

an acquaintance with Stephen, since nothing appears to succeed like

success in a world that is principally made up of failure. The sight of

her book left about in the lounge, or being devoured by some engrossed

reader, would make Stephen feel almost childishly happy; she would point

the phenomenon out to Mary.

‘Look,’ she would whisper, ‘that man’s reading my book!’ For the child

is never far to seek in the author.

Some of their acquaintances were country folk and she found that she was

in sympathy with them. Their quiet and painstaking outlook on life,

their love of the soil, their care for their homes, their traditions

were after all a part of herself, bequeathed to her by the founders of

Morton. It gave her a very deep sense of pleasure to see Mary accepted

and made to feel welcome by these grey-haired women and gentlemanly men;

very seemly and fitting it appeared to Stephen.

And now, since to each of us come moments of respite when the mind

refuses to face its problems, she resolutely thrust aside her

misgivings, those misgivings that whispered: ‘Supposing they knew—do

you think they’d be so friendly to Mary?’

Of all those who sought them out that summer, the most cordial were Lady

Massey and her daughter. Lady Massey was a delicate, elderly woman who,

in spite of poor health and encroaching years, was untiring in her

search for amusement—it amused her to make friends with celebrated

people. She was restless, self-indulgent and not over sincere, a

creature of whims and ephemeral fancies; yet for Stephen and Mary she

appeared to evince a liking which was more than just on the surface. She

would ask them up to her sitting-room, would want them to sit with her

in the garden, and would sometimes insist upon communal meals, inviting

them to dine at her table. Agnes, the daughter, a jolly, red-haired

girl, had taken an immediate fancy to Mary, and their friendship ripened

with celerity, as is often the way during idle summers. As for Lady

Massey she petted Mary, and mothered her as though she were a child, and

soon she was mothering Stephen also.

She would say: ‘I seem to have found two new children,’ and Stephen, who

was in the mood to feel touched, grew quite attached to this ageing

woman. Agnes was engaged to a Colonel Fitzmaurice who would probably

join them that autumn in Paris. If he did so they must all foregather at

once, she insisted—he greatly admired Stephen’s book and had written

that he was longing to meet her. But Lady Massey went further than this

in her enthusiastic proffers of friendship—Stephen and Mary must stay

with her in Cheshire; she was going to give a house party at Branscombe

Court for Christmas; they must certainly come to her for Christmas.

Mary, who seemed elated at the prospect, was for ever discussing this

visit with Stephen: ‘What sort of clothes shall I need, do you think?

Agnes says it’s going to be quite a big party. I suppose I’ll want a few

new evening dresses?’ And one day she inquired: ‘Stephen, when you were

younger, did you ever go to Ascot or Goodwood?’

Ascot and Goodwood, just names to Stephen; names that she had despised

in her youth, yet which now seemed not devoid of importance since they

stood for something beyond themselves—something that ought to belong to

Mary. She would pick up a copy of _The Tatler_ or _The Sketch_, which

Lady Massey received from England, and turning the pages would stare at

the pictures of securely established, self-satisfied people—Miss this

or that sitting on a shooting stick, and beside her the man she would

shortly marry; Lady so-and-so with her latest offspring; or perhaps some

group at a country house. And quite suddenly Stephen would feel less

assured because in her heart she must envy these people. Must envy these

commonplace men and women with their rather ridiculous shooting sticks;

their smiling fiancés; their husbands; their wives; their estates, and

their well cared for, placid children.

Mary would sometimes look over her shoulder with a new and perhaps

rather wistful interest. Then Stephen would close the paper abruptly:

‘Let’s go for a row on the lake,’ she might say, ‘it’s no good wasting

this glorious evening.’

But then she would remember the invitation to spend Christmas with Lady

Massey in Cheshire, and would suddenly start to build castles in the

air; supposing that she herself bought a small place near Branscombe

Court—near these kind new friends who seemed to have grown so fond of

Mary? Mary would also have her thoughts, would be thinking of girls like

Agnes Massey for whom life was tranquil, easy and secure; girls to whom

the world must seem blessedly friendly. And then, with a little stab of

pain, she would suddenly remember her own exile from Morton. After such

thoughts as these she must hold Stephen’s hand, must always sit very

close to Stephen.

3

That autumn they saw a good deal of the Masseys, who had taken their

usual suite at the Ritz, and who often asked Mary and Stephen to

luncheon. Lady Massey, Agnes and Colonel Fitzmaurice, a pleasant enough

man, came and dined several times at the quiet old house in the Rue

Jacob, and those evenings were always exceedingly friendly, Stephen

talking of books with Colonel Fitzmaurice, while Lady Massey enlarged

upon Branscombe and her plans for the coming Christmas party. Sometimes

Stephen and Mary sent flowers to the Ritz, hothouse plants or a large

box of special roses—Lady Massey liked to have her rooms full of

flowers sent by friends, it increased her sense of importance. By return

would come loving letters of thanks; she would write: ‘I do thank my two

very dear children.’

In November she and Agnes returned to England, but the friendship was

kept up by correspondence, for Lady Massey was prolific with her pen,

indeed she was never more happy than when writing. And now Mary bought

the new evening dresses, and she dragged Stephen off to choose some new

ties. As the visit to Branscombe Court drew near it was seldom out of

their thoughts for a moment—to Stephen it appeared like the first

fruits of toil; to Mary like the gateway into an existence that must be

very safe and reassuring.

4

Stephen never knew what enemy had prepared the blow that was struck by

Lady Massey. Perhaps it had been Colonel Fitzmaurice who might all the

time have been hiding his suspicions; he must certainly have known a

good deal about Stephen—he had friends who lived in the vicinity of

Morton. Perhaps it had merely been unkind gossip connected with Brockett

or Valérie Seymour, with the people whom Mary and Stephen knew,

although, as it happened, Lady Massey had not met them. But after all,

it mattered so little; what did it matter how the thing had come about?

By comparison with the insult itself, its origin seemed very

unimportant.

It was in December that the letter arrived, just a week before they were

leaving for England. A long, rambling, pitifully tactless letter, full

of awkward and deeply wounding excuses:

‘If I hadn’t grown so fond of you both,’ wrote Lady Massey, ‘this would

be much less painful—as it is the whole thing has made me quite ill,

but I must consider my position in the county. You see, the county looks

to me for a lead—above all I must consider my daughter. The rumours

that have reached me about you and Mary—certain things that I don’t

want to enter into—have simply forced me to break off our friendship

and to say that I must ask you not to come here for Christmas. Of course

a woman of my position with all eyes upon her has to be extra careful.

It’s too terribly upsetting and sad for me; if I hadn’t been so fond of

you both—but you know how attached I had grown to Mary . . .’ and so it

went on; a kind of wail full of self-importance combined with self-pity.

As Stephen read she went white to the lips, and Mary sprang up. ‘What’s

that letter you’re reading?’

‘It’s from Lady Massey. It’s about . . . it’s about . . .’ Her voice

failed.

‘Show it to me,’ persisted Mary.

Stephen shook her head: ‘No—I’d rather not.’

Then Mary asked: ‘Is it about our visit?’

Stephen nodded: ‘We’re not going to spend Christmas at Branscombe.

Darling, it’s all right—don’t look like that . . .’

‘But I want to know why we’re not going to Branscombe.’ And Mary reached

out and snatched the letter.

She read it through to the very last word, then she sat down abruptly

and burst out crying. She cried with the long, doleful sobs of a child

whom some one has struck without rhyme or reason: ‘Oh . . . and I

thought they were fond of us . . .’ she sobbed, ‘I thought that perhaps

. . . they understood, Stephen.’

Then it seemed to Stephen that all the pain that had so far been thrust

upon her by existence, was as nothing to the unendurable pain which she

must now bear to hear that sobbing, to see Mary thus wounded and utterly

crushed, thus shamed and humbled for the sake of her love, thus bereft

of all dignity and protection.

She felt strangely helpless: ‘Don’t—don’t,’ she implored; while tears

of pity blurred her own eyes and went trickling slowly down her scarred

face. She had lost for the moment all sense of proportion, of

perspective, seeing in a vain, tactless woman a kind of gigantic

destroying angel; a kind of scourge laid upon her and Mary. Surely never

before had Lady Massey loomed so large as she did in that hour to

Stephen.

Mary’s sobs gradually died away. She lay back in her chair, a small,

desolate figure, catching her breath from time to time, until Stephen

went to her and found her hand which she stroked with cold and trembling

fingers—but she could not find words of consolation.

5

That night Stephen took the girl roughly in her arms.

‘I love you—I love you so much . . .’ she stammered; and she kissed

Mary many times on the mouth, but cruelly so that her kisses were

pain—the pain in her heart leapt out through her lips: ‘God! It’s too

terrible to love like this—it’s hell—there are times when I can’t

endure it!’

She was in the grip of strong nervous excitation; nothing seemed able

any more to appease her. She seemed to be striving to obliterate, not

only herself, but the whole hostile world through some strange and

agonized merging with Mary. It was terrible indeed, very like unto

death, and it left them both completely exhausted.

The world had achieved its first real victory.

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