Much to the disgust of Hollis, who was in the habit of making the most
of his Sundays, Gabrielle left Overton by the early morning train while
Arthur slept undisturbed after his night of wonder, and Mrs. Payne rose
anxiously to face the certain embarrassments and the possible
bitterness of her victory. She had not slept at all, for though she
never for one moment dreamed of going back on the decision which her
conscience, amongst other things, had dictated, she was still in doubt
as to whether she had won her son or lost him for ever. She almost
regretted the burst of generosity in which she had refused to read
Gabrielle's letter of renunciation. For all she knew the wording might
be provocative and calculated to wreck her plans at the last moment.
The letter lay sealed upon her dressing-table. It speaks well for her
sense of honour in a bargain that this pathetic document remained
unopened. Meanwhile she only prayed that the hours might pass and her
fate be revealed. She could only rack her brains imagining some means
by which the severity of the blow might be tempered for Arthur.
Next morning he came down ten minutes late for breakfast. He missed
Gabrielle at once.
"Where's Mrs. Considine?" he said. "I called at her door as I came
down, but I don't think she's there."
"No," said Mrs. Payne. "She had to go back to Lapton by the first
train. An urgent call of some kind."
"A telegram? The old man isn't ill, is he?"
"She left a letter for you," said Mrs. Payne, handing him Gabrielle's
envelope.
"What a rotten shame," he said as he took it. "It's a splendid morning
for a ride. I hope it's not serious."
He opened the letter and read it. What Gabrielle had written Mrs.
Payne never knew, for even in later years he did not tell her. She had
expected a terrible and passionate outburst and prepared herself to
meet it with argument and consolation, but no outburst came. She saw
him go very red and then white. Then he steadied himself and said in a
curious voice: "Mother ... if you'll excuse me, I must go out."
She put out her hand to him but he pushed back his chair and went
quickly through the French window of the dining-room, into the garden.
She wanted to follow him, for she feared that on the impulse of the
moment he might do something terrible, but controlled herself in time.
She stood on the terrace, impotent, watching him as he crossed the lawn
and made for the fields. It was a terrible day for her. She felt that
she couldn't go to church in her usual way, but stayed at home tortured
by the most hopeless and tragic anticipations of evil. At lunch time
he had not returned. It was with difficulty that she restrained
herself from sending Hollis out over the hill with a search party, but
the curious fatalism that had settled on her when once her decision was
made, compelled her to patience. It was his own battle, she reflected,
and if he had wanted her help he would have come to her. Evidently, he
had decided to fight it out alone. She went to her own room and prayed
desperately for his salvation.
In the evening he returned, tired out with ceaseless wandering. He had
eaten nothing all day and looked very old and haggard. She had
expected a tender scene of confidence and was ready to overwhelm him
with the consolations of her love; but even now he said nothing to her,
and she dared not take the first step herself. From his silent misery
she gathered that Gabrielle had not told him that she knew of the
secret. Evidently, and very wisely, she had given him general and
conventional reasons for her renunciation, treating it as a matter that
concerned themselves and no one else, denying Mrs. Payne the privilege
and pain of sharing in Arthur's disillusionment. Therefore, his mother
judged it wiser to behave as though she knew nothing of what he was
suffering, though she saw by the steadiness of his demeanour that he
had taken the blow squarely, and come through.
The fact that he didn't break down miserably, as she had expected he
would, convinced her more than ever that he had become a man. She felt
certain now that she had been right in following her instinct and
facing the risk that her action involved. She believed that she had
triumphed. Certainly, the boy who faced her at the dinner-table in
suffering and awkward silence was very different from the Arthur of six
months before. There was a look of determination in his eyes that made
her confident. He kissed her good-night without the least tremor, and
she went to bed herself full of serene thankfulness. Nor did she
forget how much she owed to the girl who was breaking her heart in the
loneliness of Lapton. She wrote to Gabrielle that night. "I think it
is all right," she said. "Heaven only knows what I owe you for your
generosity ... what Arthur owes you."
He never mentioned Gabrielle's name to her again. Next morning, in a
calm and serious mood, he approached her on the subject of his return
to Lapton.
"Would you mind very much," he said, "if I don't go back to Devonshire?
I feel that I'm rather out of place there. You see, I'm older than the
others. Do you think it could be arranged?"
At first she feigned surprise--she could do nothing else--but in doing
so she cleverly contrived to make it easy for him.
"If you wish it I will write to Dr. Considine," she said. She didn't
suggest the elaborate falsehoods on which she would build her letter.
"I think you are old enough to decide," she told him. "What would you
like to do?"
"Is there any reason why I shouldn't travel?" he said. "I feel that I
want a change. I should like to see something of the world."
So, without further difficulty, it was arranged. She sent him round
the world with a new tutor, waiting placidly and happily at Overton for
his return. It was in these days that I became acquainted with her and
conceived the admiration for her that I still hold. She often spoke to
me in terms of the most utter devotion of her son. I imagined her an
ideal mother, as indeed she was.
After a year or more abroad Arthur returned, very much the man of the
world. At his own desire he went up to Oxford, where he passed a
perfectly normal three years and took a decent degree. In his last
term he fell in love with the daughter of a neighbouring parson, whom,
in due course, he married. The following year the young people went
out to New Zealand, a country to which Arthur had been attracted on his
travels, and that is all that I know of him.
During all this time Mrs. Payne corresponded regularly with Gabrielle.
Now that Arthur's safety was beyond question and even in the earlier
debatable period, she had not the least objection to sharing him with
her rival ... at a distance. She even sent her his letters from
abroad. In this way they arrived at a curious and altogether happy
intimacy. Gabrielle's letters became part of her life, and when, in
the autumn after Arthur's engagement was announced, they suddenly
stopped, Mrs. Payne felt that she had suffered a loss. She wrote two
or three times to Lapton, but received no reply, and it was only by the
chance meeting of a friend who had been staying in Devonshire that she
learned what had happened. It came to her as a piece of idle gossip,
but the shock of an extraordinary coincidence upset her for many days.
It appeared that Dr. Considine, by this time a well known figure in the
county, had gone out one evening rabbit-shooting with his wife. As
they were returning from their expedition down one of the steep slopes
above Lapton Manor, he had slipped in getting over a gate and fallen.
It was the usual type of shooting accident that no one could explain.
The gun had gone off and shot him dead. "He was terribly mutilated
about the head," said Mrs. Payne's informant. She did not know what
had happened to his widow. Probably she had gone to her cousins the
Halbertons. In any case the jury had completely exonerated her.