SCENE V. _changes to a prison._

_BEVERLEY is discovered sitting. After a short pause, he starts up,

and comes forward._

_Bev._ Why, there's an end then. I have judged deliberately, and the

result is death. How the self-murderer's account may stand, I know

not. But this I know; the load of hateful life oppresses me too

much. The horrors of my soul are more than I can bear--(_Offers to

kneel_) Father of mercy!--I cannot pray--Despair has laid his iron

hand upon me, and sealed me for perdition--Conscience! conscience!

thy clamours are too loud--Here's that shall silence them. (_Takes a

vial out of his pocket, and looks at it._) Thou art most friendly to

the miserable. Come then, thou cordial for sick minds! come to my

heart! (_Drinks_) O, that the grave would bury memory as well as

body! For if the soul sees and feels the sufferings of those dear

ones it leaves behind, the EVERLASTING has no vengeance to torment

it deeper--I'll think no more on't--Reflection comes too late. Once

there was a time for't--but now 'tis past--Who's there?

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