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Every single thing he had prophesied came so true that it was after all

no more than fair to expect quite as much for what he had as good as

promised. His pledges they could verify to the letter, down to his very

guarantee that a way would be found with Miss Ash. Roused in the summer

dawn and vehemently squeezed by that interesting exile, Maisie fell back

upon her couch with a renewed appreciation of his policy, a memento of

which, when she rose later on to dress, glittered at her from the carpet

in the shape of a sixpence that had overflowed from Susan's pride of

possession. Sixpences really, for the forty-eight hours that followed,

seemed to abound in her life; she fancifully computed the number of them

represented by such a period of "larks." The number was not kept down,

she presently noticed, by any scheme of revenge for Sir Claude's flight

which should take on Mrs. Wix's part the form of a refusal to avail

herself of the facilities he had so bravely ordered. It was in fact

impossible to escape them; it was in the good lady's own phrase

ridiculous to go on foot when you had a carriage prancing at the door.

Everything about them pranced: the very waiters even as they presented

the dishes to which, from a similar sense of the absurdity of

perversity, Mrs. Wix helped herself with a freedom that spoke to Maisie

quite as much of her depletion as of her logic. Her appetite was a sign

to her companion of a great many things and testified no less on the

whole to her general than to her particular condition. She had arrears

of dinner to make up, and it was touching that in a dinnerless state

her moral passion should have burned so clear. She partook largely as

a refuge from depression, and yet the opportunity to partake was just

a mark of the sinister symptoms that depressed her. The affair was

in short a combat, in which the baser element triumphed, between her

refusal to be bought off and her consent to be clothed and fed. It was

not at any rate to be gainsaid that there was comfort for her in the

developments of France; comfort so great as to leave Maisie free to take

with her all the security for granted and brush all the danger aside.

That was the way to carry out in detail Sir Claude's injunction to be

"nice"; that was the way, as well, to look, with her, in a survey of the

pleasures of life abroad, straight over the head of any doubt.

They shrank at last, all doubts, as the weather cleared up: it had an

immense effect on them and became quite as lovely as Sir Claude had

engaged. This seemed to have put him so into the secret of things, and

the joy of the world so waylaid the steps of his friends, that little by

little the spirit of hope filled the air and finally took possession of

the scene. To drive on the long cliff was splendid, but it was perhaps

better still to creep in the shade--for the sun was strong--along the

many-coloured and many-odoured port and through the streets in which, to

English eyes, everything that was the same was a mystery and everything

that was different a joke. Best of all was to continue the creep up the

long Grand' Rue to the gate of the _haute ville_ and, passing beneath

it, mount to the quaint and crooked rampart, with its rows of trees,

its quiet corners and friendly benches where brown old women in such

white-frilled caps and such long gold earrings sat and knitted or

snoozed, its little yellow-faced houses that looked like the homes of

misers or of priests and its dark château where small soldiers lounged

on the bridge that stretched across an empty moat and military washing

hung from the windows of towers. This was a part of the place that could

lead Maisie to enquire if it didn't just meet one's idea of the middle

ages; and since it was rather a satisfaction than a shock to perceive,

and not for the first time, the limits in Mrs. Wix's mind of the

historic imagination, that only added one more to the variety of kinds

of insight that she felt it her own present mission to show. They sat

together on the old grey bastion; they looked down on the little new

town which seemed to them quite as old, and across at the great dome and

the high gilt Virgin of the church that, as they gathered, was famous

and that pleased them by its unlikeness to any place in which they

had worshipped. They wandered in this temple afterwards and Mrs. Wix

confessed that for herself she had probably made a fatal mistake early

in life in not being a Catholic. Her confession in its turn caused

Maisie to wonder rather interestedly what degree of lateness it was

that shut the door against an escape from such an error. They went back

to the rampart on the second morning--the spot on which they appeared

to have come furthest in the journey that was to separate them from

everything objectionable in the past: it gave them afresh the impression

that had most to do with their having worked round to a confidence that

on Maisie's part was determined and that she could see to be on her

companion's desperate. She had had for many hours the sense of showing

Mrs. Wix so much that she was comparatively slow to become conscious

of being at the same time the subject of a like aim. The business went

the faster, however, from the moment she got her glimpse of it; it then

fell into its place in her general, her habitual view of the particular

phenomenon that, had she felt the need of words for it, she might have

called her personal relation to her knowledge. This relation had never

been so lively as during the time she waited with her old governess for

Sir Claude's reappearance, and what made it so was exactly that Mrs. Wix

struck her as having a new suspicion of it. Mrs. Wix had never yet had a

suspicion--this was certain--so calculated to throw her pupil, in spite

of the closer union of such adventurous hours, upon the deep defensive.

Her pupil made out indeed as many marvels as she had made out on the

rush to Folkestone; and if in Sir Claude's company on that occasion Mrs.

Wix was the constant implication, so in Mrs. Wix's, during these hours,

Sir Claude was--and most of all through long pauses--the perpetual, the

insurmountable theme. It all took them back to the first flush of his

marriage and to the place he held in the schoolroom at that crisis of

love and pain; only he had himself blown to a much bigger balloon the

large consciousness he then filled out.

They went through it all again, and indeed while the interval dragged

by the very weight of its charm they went, in spite of defences and

suspicions, through everything. Their intensified clutch of the future

throbbed like a clock ticking seconds; but this was a timepiece that

inevitably, as well, at the best, rang occasionally a portentous hour.

Oh there were several of these, and two or three of the worst on the old

city-wall where everything else so made for peace. There was nothing

in the world Maisie more wanted than to be as nice to Mrs. Wix as Sir

Claude had desired; but it was exactly because this fell in with her

inveterate instinct of keeping the peace that the instinct itself

was quickened. From the moment it was quickened, however, it found

other work, and that was how, to begin with, she produced the very

complication she most sought to avert. What she had essentially done,

these days, had been to read the unspoken into the spoken; so that thus,

with accumulations, it had become more definite to her that the unspoken

was, unspeakably, the completeness of the sacrifice of Mrs. Beale. There

were times when every minute that Sir Claude stayed away was like a nail

in Mrs. Beale's coffin. That brought back to Maisie--it was a roundabout

way--the beauty and antiquity of her connexion with the flower of the

Overmores as well as that lady's own grace and charm, her peculiar

prettiness and cleverness and even her peculiar tribulations. A hundred

things hummed at the back of her head, but two of these were simple

enough. Mrs. Beale was by the way, after all, just her stepmother

and her relative. She was just--and partly for that very reason--Sir

Claude's greatest intimate ("lady-intimate" was Maisie's term) so that

what together they were on Mrs. Wix's prescription to give up and break

short off with was for one of them his particular favourite and for the

other her father's wife. Strangely, indescribably her perception of

reasons kept pace with her sense of trouble; but there was something in

her that, without a supreme effort not to be shabby, couldn't take the

reasons for granted. What it comes to perhaps for ourselves is that,

disinherited and denuded as we have seen her, there still lingered in

her life an echo of parental influence--she was still reminiscent of

one of the sacred lessons of home. It was the only one she retained,

but luckily she retained it with force. She enjoyed in a word an

ineffaceable view of the fact that there were things papa called mamma

and mamma called papa a low sneak for doing or for not doing. Now this

rich memory gave her a name that she dreaded to invite to the lips of

Mrs. Beale: she should personally wince so just to hear it. The very

sweetness of the foreign life she was steeped in added with each hour

of Sir Claude's absence to the possibility of such pangs. She watched

beside Mrs. Wix the great golden Madonna, and one of the ear-ringed old

women who had been sitting at the end of their bench got up and pottered

away. "Adieu mesdames!" said the old woman in a little cracked civil

voice--a demonstration by which our friends were so affected that they

bobbed up and almost curtseyed to her. They subsided again, and it was

shortly after, in a summer hum of French insects and a phase of almost

somnolent reverie, that Maisie most had the vision of what it was to

shut out from such a perspective so appealing a participant. It had not

yet appeared so vast as at that moment, this prospect of statues shining

in the blue and of courtesy in romantic forms.

"Why after all should we have to choose between you? Why shouldn't we

be four?" she finally demanded.

Mrs. Wix gave the jerk of a sleeper awakened or the start even of one

who hears a bullet whiz at the flag of truce. Her stupefaction at

such a breach of the peace delayed for a moment her answer. "Four

improprieties, do you mean? Because two of us happen to be decent

people! Do I gather you to wish that I should stay on with you even

if that woman IS capable--?"

Maisie took her up before she could further phrase Mrs. Beale's

capability. "Stay on as MY companion--yes. Stay on as just what you

were at mamma's. Mrs. Beale WOULD let you!" the child said.

Mrs. Wix had by this time fairly sprung to her arms. "And who, I'd like

to know, would let Mrs. Beale? Do you mean, little unfortunate, that YOU

would?"

"Why not, if now she's free?"

"Free? Are you imitating HIM? Well, if Sir Claude's old enough to know

better, upon my word I think it's right to treat you as if you also

were. You'll have to, at any rate--to know better--if that's the line

you're proposing to take." Mrs. Wix had never been so harsh; but on the

other hand Maisie could guess that she herself had never appeared so

wanton. What was underlying, however, rather overawed than angered her;

she felt she could still insist--not for contradiction, but for ultimate

calm. Her wantonness meanwhile continued to work upon her friend, who

caught again, on the rebound, the sound of deepest provocation. "Free,

free, free? If she's as free as YOU are, my dear, she's free enough, to

be sure!"

"As I am?"--Maisie, after reflexion and despite whatever of portentous

this seemed to convey, risked a critical echo.

"Well," said Mrs. Wix, "nobody, you know, is free to commit a crime."

"A crime!" The word had come out in a way that made the child sound it

again.

"You'd commit as great a one as their own--and so should I--if we were

to condone their immorality by our presence."

Maisie waited a little; this seemed so fiercely conclusive. "Why is it

immorality?" she nevertheless presently enquired.

Her companion now turned upon her with a reproach softer because it was

somehow deeper. "You're too unspeakable! Do you know what we're talking

about?"

In the interest of ultimate calm Maisie felt that she must be above all

clear. "Certainly; about their taking advantage of their freedom."

"Well, to do what?"

"Why, to live with us."

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