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When he had lighted a cigarette and begun to smoke in her face it was as

if he had struck with the match the note of some queer clumsy ferment

of old professions, old scandals, old duties, a dim perception of what

he possessed in her and what, if everything had only--damn it!--been

totally different, she might still be able to give him. What she was

able to give him, however, as his blinking eyes seemed to make out

through the smoke, would be simply what he should be able to get from

her. To give something, to give here on the spot, was all her own

desire. Among the old things that came back was her little instinct of

keeping the peace; it made her wonder more sharply what particular thing

she could do or not do, what particular word she could speak or not

speak, what particular line she could take or not take, that might for

every one, even for the Countess, give a better turn to the crisis. She

was ready, in this interest, for an immense surrender, a surrender of

everything but Sir Claude, of everything but Mrs. Beale. The immensity

didn't include THEM; but if he had an idea at the back of his head

she had also one in a recess as deep, and for a time, while they sat

together, there was an extraordinary mute passage between her vision

of this vision of his, his vision of her vision, and her vision of his

vision of her vision. What there was no effective record of indeed

was the small strange pathos on the child's part of an innocence so

saturated with knowledge and so directed to diplomacy. What, further,

Beale finally laid hold of while he masked again with his fine presence

half the flounces of the fireplace was: "Do you know, my dear, I shall

soon be off to America?" It struck his daughter both as a short cut and

as the way he wouldn't have said it to his wife. But his wife figured

with a bright superficial assurance in her response.

"Do you mean with Mrs. Beale?"

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