CHAPTER XXXIII. A SPECIMEN OF MY FOLLY.

THE incomprehensible submission of Scotchmen to the ecclesiastical

tyranny of their Established Church has produced--not unnaturally, as

I think--a very mistaken impression of the national character in the

popular mind.

Public opinion looks at the institution of “The Sabbath” in Scotland;

finds it unparalleled in Christendom for its senseless and savage

austerity; sees a nation content to be deprived by its priesthood of

every social privilege on one day in every week--forbidden to travel;

forbidden to telegraph; forbidden to eat a hot dinner; forbidden to

read a newspaper; in short, allowed the use of two liberties only,

the liberty of exhibiting one’s self at the Church and the liberty of

secluding one’s self over the bottle--public opinion sees this, and

arrives at the not unreasonable conclusion that the people who submit to

such social laws as these are the most stolid, stern and joyless people

on the face of the earth. Such are Scotchmen supposed to be, when viewed

at a distance. But how do Scotchmen appear when they are seen under a

closer light, and judged by the test of personal experience? There

are no people more cheerful, more companionable, more hospitable, more

liberal in their ideas, to be found on the face of the civilized globe

than the very people who submit to the Scotch Sunday! On the six days

of the week there is an atmosphere of quiet humor, a radiation of genial

common-sense, about Scotchmen in general, which is simply delightful

to feel. But on the seventh day these same men will hear one of their

ministers seriously tell them that he views taking a walk on the Sabbath

in the light of an act of profanity, and will be the only people in

existence who can let a man talk downright nonsense without laughing at

him.

I am not clever enough to be able to account for this anomaly in the

national character; I can only notice it by way of necessary preparation

for the appearance in my little narrative of a personage not frequently

seen in writing--a cheerful Scotchman.

In all other respects I found Mr. Playmore only negatively remarkable.

He was neither old nor young, neither handsome nor ugly; he was

personally not in the least like the popular idea of a lawyer; and he

spoke perfectly good English, touched with only the slightest possible

flavor of a Scotch accent.

“I have the honor to be an old friend of Mr. Macallan,” he said,

cordially shaking hands with me; “and I am honestly happy to become

acquainted with Mr. Macallan’s wife. Where will you sit? Near the light?

You are young enough not to be afraid of the daylight just yet. Is this

your first visit to Edinburgh? Pray let me make it as pleasant to you

as I can. I shall be delighted to present Mrs. Playmore to you. We are

staying in Edinburgh for a little while. The Italian opera is here, and

we have a box for to-night. Will you kindly waive all ceremony and dine

with us and go to the music afterward?”

“You are very kind,” I answered. “But I have some anxieties just now

which will make me a very poor companion for Mrs. Playmore at the opera.

My letter to you mentions, I think, that I have to ask your advice on

matters which are of very serious importance to me.”

“Does it?” he rejoined. “To tell you the truth, I have not read the

letter through. I saw your name in it, and I gathered from your message

that you wished to see me here. I sent my note to your hotel--and then

went on with something else. Pray pardon me. Is this a professional

consultation? For your own sake, I sincerely hope not!”

“It is hardly a professional consultation, Mr. Playmore. I find myself

in a very painful position; and I come to you to advise me, under very

unusual circumstances. I shall surprise you very much when you hear what

I have to say; and I am afraid I shall occupy more than my fair share of

your time.”

“I and my time are entirely at your disposal,” he said. “Tell me what I

can do for you--and tell it in your own way.”

The kindness of this language was more than matched by the kindness of

his manner. I spoke to him freely and fully--I told him my strange story

without the slightest reserve.

He showed the varying impressions that I produced on his mind without

the slightest concealment. My separation from Eustace distressed him.

My resolution to dispute the Scotch Verdict, and my unjust suspicions

of Mrs. Beauly, first amused, then surprised him. It was not, however,

until I had described my extraordinary interview with Miserrimus Dexter,

and my hardly less remarkable conversation with Lady Clarinda, that I

produced my greatest effect on the lawyer’s mind. I saw him change color

for the first time. He started, and muttered to himself, as if he

had completely forgotten me. “Good God!” I heard him say--“can it be

possible? Does the truth lie _that_ way after all?”

I took the liberty of interrupting him. I had no idea of allowing him to

keep his thoughts to himself.

“I seem to have surprised you?” I said.

He started at the sound of my voice.

“I beg ten thousand pardons!” he exclaimed. “You have not only

surprised me--you have opened an entirely new view to my mind. I see

a possibility, a really startling possibility, in connection with the

poisoning at Gleninch, which never occurred to me until the present

moment. This is a nice state of things,” he added, falling back again

into his ordinary humor. “Here is the client leading the lawyer. My dear

Mrs. Eustace, which is it--do you want my advice? or do I want yours?”

“May I hear the new idea?” I asked.

“Not just yet, if you will excuse me,” he answered. “Make allowances for

my professional caution. I don’t want to be professional with you--my

great anxiety is to avoid it. But the lawyer gets the better of the

man, and refuses to be suppressed. I really hesitate to realize what

is passing in my own mind without some further inquiry. Do me a great

favor. Let us go over a part of the ground again, and let me ask you

some questions as we proceed. Do you feel any objection to obliging me

in this matter?”

“Certainly not, Mr. Playmore. How far shall we go back?”

“To your visit to Dexter with your mother-in-law. When you first asked

him if he had any ideas of his own on the subject of Mrs. Eustace

Macallan’s death, did I understand you to say that he looked at you

suspiciously?”

“Very suspiciously.”

“And his face cleared up again when you told him that your question was

only suggested by what you had read in the Report of the Trial?”

“Yes.”

He drew a slip of paper out of the drawer in his desk, dipped his pen

in the ink, considered a little, and placed a chair for me close at his

side.

“The lawyer disappears,” he said, “and the man resumes his proper place.

There shall be no professional mysteries between you and me. As your

husband’s old friend, Mrs. Eustace, I feel no common interest in you. I

see a serious necessity for warning you before it is too late; and I can

only do so to any good purpose by running a risk on which few men in my

place would venture. Personally and professionally, I am going to trust

you--though I _am_ a Scotchman and a lawyer. Sit here, and look over my

shoulder while I make my notes. You will see what is passing in my mind

if you see what I write.”

I sat down by him, and looked over his shoulder, without the smallest

pretense of hesitation.

He began to write as follows:

“The poisoning at Gleninch. Queries: In what position does Miserrimus

Dexter stand toward the poisoning? And what does he (presumably) know

about that matter?

“He has ideas which are secrets. He suspects that he has betrayed them,

or that they have been discovered in some way inconceivable to himself.

He is palpably relieved when he finds that this is not the case.”

The pen stopped; and the questions went on.

“Let us advance to your second visit,” said Mr. Playmore, “when you

saw Dexter alone. Tell me again what he did, and how he looked when you

informed him that you were not satisfied with the Scotch Verdict.”

I repeated what I have already written in these pages. The pen went back

to the paper again, and added these lines:

“He hears nothing more remarkable than that a person visiting him, who

is interested in the case, refuses to accept the verdict at the Macallan

Trial as a final verdict, and proposes to reopen the inquiry. What does

he do upon that?

“He exhibits all the symptoms of a panic of terror; he sees himself in

some incomprehensible danger; he is frantic at one moment and servile

at the next; he must and will know what this disturbing person really

means. And when he is informed on that point, he first turns pale and

doubts the evidence of his own senses; and next, with nothing said to

justify it, gratuitously accuses his visitor of suspecting somebody.

Query here: When a small sum of money is missing in a household, and

the servants in general are called together to be informed of the

circumstance, what do we think of the one servant in particular who

speaks first, and who says, ‘Do you suspect _me?_’”

He laid down the pen again. “Is that right?” he asked.

I began to see the end to which the notes were drifting. Instead of

answering his question, I entreated him to enter into the explanations

that were still wanting to convince my own mind. He held up a warning

forefinger, and stopped me.

“Not yet,” he said. “Once again, am I right--so far?”

“Quite right.”

“Very well. Now tell me what happened next. Don’t mind repeating

yourself. Give me all the details, one after another, to the end.”

I mentioned all the details exactly as I remembered them. Mr. Playmore

returned to his writing for the third and last time. Thus the notes

ended:

“He is indirectly assured that he at least is not the person suspected.

He sinks back in his chair; he draws a long breath; he asks to be left a

while by himself, under the pretense that the subject excites him.

When the visitor returns, Dexter has been drinking in the interval. The

visitor resumes the subject--not Dexter. The visitor is convinced that

Mrs. Eustace Macallan died by the hand of a poisoner, and openly says

so. Dexter sinks back in his chair like a man fainting. What is the

horror that has got possession of him? It is easy to understand if we

call it guilty horror; it is beyond all understanding if we call it

anything else. And how does it leave him? He flies from one extreme,

to another; he is indescribably delighted when he discovers that the

visitor’s suspicions are all fixed on an absent person. And then, and

then only, he takes refuge in the declaration that he has been of one

mind with his visitor, in the matter of suspicion, from the first. These

are facts. To what plain conclusion do they point?”

He shut up his notes, and, steadily watching my face, waited for me to

speak first.

“I understand you, Mr. Playmore,” I beg impetuously. “You believe that

Mr. Dexter--”

His warning forefinger stopped me there.

“Tell me,” he interposed, “what Dexter said to you when he was so good as

to confirm your opinion of poor Mrs. Beauly.”

“He said, ‘There isn’t a doubt about it. Mrs. Beauly poisoned her.’”

“I can’t do better than follow so good an example--with one trifling

difference. I say too, There isn’t a doubt about it. Dexter poisoned

her.

“Are you joking, Mr. Playmore?”

“I never was more in earnest in my life. Your rash visit to Dexter, and

your extraordinary imprudence in taking him into your confidence have

led to astonishing results. The light which the whole machinery of

the Law was unable to throw on the poisoning case at Gleninch has been

accidentally let in on it by a Lady who refuses to listen to reason and

who insists on having her own way. Quite incredible, and nevertheless

quite true.”

“Impossible!” I exclaimed.

“What is impossible?” he asked, coolly

“That Dexter poisoned my husband’s first wife.”

“And why is that impossible, if you please?” I began to be almost

enraged with Mr. Playmore.

“Can you ask the question?” I replied, indignantly. “I have told you

that I heard him speak of her in terms of respect and affection of

which any woman might be proud. He lives in the memory of her. I owe his

friendly reception of me to some resemblance which he fancies he sees

between my figure and hers. I have seen tears in his eyes, I have heard

his voice falter and fail him, when he spoke of her. He may be the

falsest of men in all besides, but he is true to _her_--he has not

misled me in that one thing. There are signs that never deceive a woman

when a man is talking to her of what is really near his heart: I saw

those signs. It is as true that I poisoned her as that he did. I am

ashamed to set my opinion against yours, Mr. Playmore; but I really

cannot help it. I declare I am almost angry with you.”

He seemed to be pleased, instead of offended by the bold manner in which

I expressed myself.

“My dear Mrs. Eustace, you have no reason to be angry with me. In one

respect, I entirely share your view--with this difference, that I go a

little further than you do.”

“I don’t understand you.”

“You will understand me directly. You describe Dexter’s feeling for the

late Mrs. Eustace as a happy mixture of respect and affection. I can

tell you it was a much warmer feeling toward her than that. I have

my information from the poor lady herself--who honored me with her

confidence and friendship for the best part of her life. Before she

married Mr. Macallan--she kept it a secret from him, and you had better

keep it a secret too--Miserrimus Dexter was in love with her. Miserrimus

Dexter asked her--deformed as he was, seriously asked her--to be his

wife.”

“And in the face of that,” I cried, “you say that he poisoned her!”

“I do. I see no other conclusion possible, after what happened during

your visit to him. You all but frightened him into a fainting fit. What

was he afraid of?”

I tried hard to find an answer to that. I even embarked on an answer

without quite knowing where my own words might lead me.

Mr. Dexter is an old and true friend of my husband, I began. “When he

heard me say I was not satisfied with the Verdict, he might have felt

alarmed--”

“He might have felt alarmed at the possible consequences to your husband

of reopening the inquiry,” said Mr. Playmore, ironically finishing

the sentence for me. “Rather far-fetched, Mrs. Eustace; and not very

consistent with your faith in your husband’s innocence. Clear your mind

of one mistake,” he continued, seriously, “which may fatally mislead you

if you persist in pursuing your present course. Miserrimus Dexter, you

may take my word for it, ceased to be your husband’s friend on the

day when your husband married his first wife. Dexter has kept up

appearances, I grant you, both in public and in private. His evidence

in his friend’s favor at the Trial was given with the deep feeling which

everybody expected from him. Nevertheless, I firmly believe, looking

under the surface, that Mr. Macallan has no bitterer enemy living than

Miserrimus Dexter.”

He turned me cold. I felt that here, at least, he was right. My husband

had wooed and won the woman who had refused Dexter’s offer of marriage.

Was Dexter the man to forgive that? My own experience answered me, and

said, No. “Bear in mind what I have told you,” Mr. Playmore proceeded.

“And now let us get on to your own position in this matter, and to the

interests that you have at stake. Try to adopt my point of view for the

moment; and let us inquire what chance we have of making any further

advance toward a discovery of the truth. It is one thing to be morally

convinced (as I am) that Miserrimus Dexter is the man who ought to have

been tried for the murder at Gleninch; and it is another thing, at this

distance of time, to lay our hands on the plain evidence which can alone

justify anything like a public assertion of his guilt. There, as I see

it, is the insuperable difficulty in the case. Unless I am completely

mistaken, the question is now narrowed to this plain issue: The public

assertion of your husband’s innocence depends entirely on the public

assertion of Dexter’s guilt. How are you to arrive at that result? There

is not a particle of evidence against him. You can only convict Dexter

on Dexter’s own confession. Are you listening to me?”

I was listening, most unwillingly. If he were right, things had indeed

come to that terrible pass. But I could not--with all my respect for his

superior knowledge and experience--I could not persuade myself that he

_was_ right. And I owned it, with the humility which I really felt.

He smiled good-humoredly.

“At any rate,” he said, “you will admit that Dexter has not freely

opened his mind to you thus far? He is still keeping something from your

knowledge which you are interested in discovering?”

“Yes. I admit that.”

“Very good. What applies to your view of the case applies to mine. I

say, he is keeping from you the confession of his guilt. You say, he is

keeping from you information which may fasten the guilt on some other

person. Let us start from that point. Confession, or information, how

are you to get at what he is now withholding from you? What influence

can you bring to bear on him when you see him again?”

“Surely I might persuade him?”

“Certainly. And if persuasion fail--what then? Do you think you can

entrap him into speaking out? or terrify him into speaking out?”

“If you will look at your notes, Mr. Playmore, you will see that I have

already succeeded in terrifying him--though I am only a woman and though

I didn’t mean to do it.”

“Very well answered. You mark the trick. What you have done once

you think you can do again. Well, as you are determined to try the

experiment, it can do you no harm to know a little more of Dexter’s

character and temperament than you know now. Suppose we apply for

information to somebody who can help us?”

I started, and looked round the room. He made me do it--he spoke as if

the person who was to help us was close at our elbows.

“Don’t be alarmed,” he said. “The oracle is silent; and the oracle is

here.”

He unlocked one of the drawers of his desk; produced a bundle of

letters, and picked out one.

“When we were arranging your husband’s defense,” he said, “we felt some

difficulty about including Miserrimus Dexter among our witnesses. We had

not the slightest suspicion of him, I need hardly tell you. But we were

all afraid of his eccentricity; and some among us even feared that the

excitement of appearing at the Trial might drive him completely out of

his mind. In this emergency we applied to a doctor to help us. Under

some pretext, which I forget now, we introduced him to Dexter. And in

due course of time we received his report. Here it is.”

He opened the letter, and marking a certain passage in it with a pencil,

handed it to me.

“Read the lines which I have marked,” he said; “they will be quite

sufficient for our purpose.”

I read these words:

“Summing up the results of my observation, I may give it as my opinion

that there is undoubtedly latent insanity in this case, but that no

active symptoms of madness have presented themselves as yet. You may,

I think, produce him at the Trial, without fear of consequences. He

may say and do all sorts of odd things; but he has his mind under the

control of his will, and you may trust his self-esteem to exhibit him in

the character of a substantially intelligent witness.

“As to the future, I am, of course, not able to speak positively. I can

only state my views.

“That he will end in madness (if he live), I entertain little or no

doubt. The question of _when_ the madness will show itself depends

entirely on the state of his health. His nervous system is highly

sensitive, and there are signs that his way of life has already damaged

it. If he conquer the bad habits to which I have alluded in an earlier

part of my report, and if he pass many hours of every day quietly in the

open air, he may last as a sane man for years to come. If he persist in

his present way of life--or, in other words, if further mischief

occur to that sensitive nervous system--his lapse into insanity must

infallibly take place when the mischief has reached its culminating

point. Without warning to himself or to others, the whole mental

structure will give way; and, at a moment’s notice, while he is acting

as quietly or speaking as intelligently as at his best time, the man

will drop (if I may use the expression) into madness or idiocy. In

either case, when the catastrophe has happened, it is only due to his

friends to add that they can (as I believe) entertain no hope of his

cure. The balance once lost, will be lost for life.”

There it ended. Mr. Playmore put the letter back in his drawer.

“You have just read the opinion of one of our highest living

authorities,” he said. “Does Dexter strike you as a likely man to give

his nervous system a chance of recovery? Do you see no obstacles and no

perils in your way?”

My silence answered him.

“Suppose you go back to Dexter,” he proceeded. “And suppose that the

doctor’s opinion exaggerates the peril in his case. What are you to do?

The last time you saw him, you had the immense advantage of taking him

by surprise. Those sensitive nerves of his gave way, and he betrayed the

fear that you aroused in him. Can you take him by surprise again? Not

you! He is prepared for you now; and he will be on his guard. If you

encounter nothing worse, you will have his cunning to deal with

next. Are you his match at that? But for Lady Clarinda he would have

hopelessly misled you on the subject of Mrs. Beauly.”

There was no answering this, either. I was foolish enough to try to

answer it, for all that.

“He told me the truth so far as he knew it,” I rejoined. “He really saw

what he said he saw in the corridor at Gleninch.”

“He told you the truth,” returned Mr. Playmore, “because he was

cunning enough to see that the truth would help him in irritating your

suspicions. You don’t really believe that he shared your suspicions?”

“Why not?” I said. “He was as ignorant of what Mrs. Beauly was really

doing on that night as I was--until I met Lady Clarinda. It remains to

be seen whether he will not be as much astonished as I was when I tell

him what Lady Clarinda told me.”

This smart reply produced an effect which I had not anticipated.

To my surprise, Mr. Playmore abruptly dropped all further discussion

on his side. He appeared to despair of convincing me, and he owned it

indirectly in his next words.

“Will nothing that I can say to you,” he asked, “induce you to think as

I think in this matter?”

“I have not your ability or your experience,” I answered. “I am sorry to

say I can’t think as you think.”

“And you are really determined to see Miserrimus Dexter again?”

“I have engaged myself to see him again.”

He waited a little, and thought over it.

“You have honored me by asking for my advice,” he said. “I earnestly

advise you, Mrs. Eustace, to break your engagement. I go even further

than that--I _entreat_ you not to see Dexter again.”

Just what my mother-in-law had said! just what Benjamin and Major

Fitz-David had said! They were all against me. And still I held out.

I wonder, when I look back at it, at my own obstinacy. I am almost

ashamed to relate that I made Mr. Playmore no reply. He waited, still

looking at me. I felt irritated by that fixed look. I arose, and stood

before him with my eyes on the floor.

He arose in his turn. He understood that the conference was over.

“Well, well,” he said, with a kind of sad good-humor, “I suppose it is

unreasonable of me to expect that a young woman like you should share

any opinion with an old lawyer like me. Let me only remind you that our

conversation must remain strictly confidential for the present; and then

let us change the subject. Is there anything that I can do for you? Are

you alone in Edinburgh?”

“No. I am traveling with an old friend of mine, who has known me from

childhood.”

“And do you stay here to-morrow?”

“I think so.”

“Will you do me one favor? Will you think over what has passed between

us, and will you come back to me in the morning?”

“Willingly, Mr. Playmore, if it is only to thank you again for your

kindness.”

On that understanding we parted. He sighed--the cheerful man sighed, as

he opened the door for me. Women are contradictory creatures. That sigh

affected me more than all his arguments. I felt myself blush for my own

head-strong resistance to him as I took my leave and turned away into

the street.

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