goddess, whom I then believed in as I did in genuine pearls and real
gold, but whom I afterwards met again in Paris under different
circumstances; I was dreaming, and thus lost myself, or was led by my
guide, Chance, to a clearing which a band of gypsies had chosen for
their temporary encampment. A few small huts built of clay and
wickerwork in very archaic style, a fireplace over which an old dame
was roasting a stone-martin, deerskins and rags hanging on the branches
to dry--this was the picture which suddenly met my eye. The whole band
was away with the exception of the old witch, a few little babies who
rolled about in the sand in paradisiac nakedness, and one young girl of
about fifteen--"
The baron filled his glass and drank it at one gulp.
"Of about fifteen--perhaps she was older--it is difficult to determine
the age of gypsy girls. She was slender and agile like a deer, and her
dark eyes shone with such a magic, supernatural fire, that I was seized
by a rapture of delight as I looked deeper and deeper into them, while
she was telling me my fortune by reading the lines in my hand. My fate
could be read much more clearly in her eyes than in my hand. I was
delighted, enraptured, beside myself--the world had disappeared in an
instant. You must bear in mind that I was twenty years old, and
romantic as few men are, even at that early age; but I felt that to be
a gypsy, to feed upon stone-martins, and to sun one's self in the eyes
of a gypsy girl was the true and only purpose of life upon earth. I
stayed with the gypsies I know not how many days. My friends at the
chateau thought I had been torn by wolves. But one evening, when the
sun had already disappeared behind the mountain wall which protected
our encampment towards the north, and while the band were still away, I
was sitting with the Zingarella at the foot of an old oak-tree, and was
happy in my young love--when----
"I verily believe there is somebody coming"--the baron said,
interrupting himself--"was not that a strange voice?"
"I hope not," said Oswald.
The door opened; old Hermann looked in and said:--
"Baron Cloten wishes to present his respects, sir; are you at home?"
"Oh no!" replied Oldenburg; "but, to be sure, I cannot very well
decline seeing him; he comes to--hm, hm!"
"Do not let me prevent you from being hospitable," said Oswald, rising.
"I pray, stay!" said the baron; "I hope he will not remain long. He
comes in a certain affair in which he wants my advice. That is all.
Show him up stairs, Hermann."
A moment afterwards Baron Cloten entered. He wore a riding-coat and
top-boots, and seemed to have had a long ride. At least he looked very
much heated. Oswald's presence seemed to annoy or to embarrass him; at
least he spoke to him with striking formality, after having shaken
hands with the baron.
"Very warm to-day," he snarled, seating himself in the chair which the
baron had offered him; "Robin is covered with sweat,---told your groom
to rub him down with a wisp of straw. Keeps an animal marvellously
well. Pleasant wine--what is it?--famous wine--had some the other day
at Barnewitz--not half as good. Apropos Barnewitz--no bad effects,
baron? Left somewhat early--heat really abominable----"
"Won't you put down your hat, Cloten?"
"Thanks! Am going away directly. Only wanted to see--quite near
here--was at Grenwitz--everybody out there--came over here to see how
all were."
"But you surely have a few minutes?"
"Not a moment--'pon honor," said Cloten, emptying his glass and rising;
"call in to-morrow, perhaps. Good-by, baron."
Cloten again bowed very formally to Oswald and went to the door,
accompanied by the baron.
"I pray, don't trouble yourself," said Cloten.
"I just want to have a look at Robin," replied Oldenburg, and then to
Oswald; "excuse me a moment, doctor."
Oswald was alone. The remarkably cool manner of the young nobleman had
offended his pride, though he tried to convince himself that he
despised him. He walked up and down in the room, much excited. His
hatred of the nobility had been fanned into a flame; even Oldenburg's
manner seemed to him to have been less cordial while Cloten was there.
His eye fell upon the green silk curtain between the two bookcases,
which had struck him before.
"I wonder what this veiled image means? Perhaps a voluptuous Correggio.
At all events, a key to the better knowledge of this strange man.
You'll excuse my curiosity, _monsieur le baron_?"
Oswald pulled the silken cord of the curtain, and the youth at Sais,
who lifted the veil before the sacred image of Isis, could not have
been more startled than Oswald was when he saw, not a richly tinted
Italian painting, but in a niche, a bust of chaste white marble, which,
in spite of the antique hair-dress and a slight attempt to idealize,
was nothing else than a striking portrait of Melitta. There was her
rich waving hair; there her beautiful smooth brow, the straight,
delicate nose; there were the soft lips, looking dewy even in marble!
Before Oswald could recover from his amazement to find himself thus
face to face with his beloved one, the baron entered.
"Please excuse my indiscretion," said Oswald, who had not been able to
draw the curtain back again; "but why do you keep veiled images here
which belong in a sanctuary, and not in a common reception-room?"
"You are right," replied the baron, without a trace of confusion; "this
green veil is, like most veils, only a provocation; and, by the way, it
is very foolish to conceal the copy when the original can be seen at
any time by those who will take the trouble of going to Palermo and
asking for leave to see the villa Serra di Falco."
"Indeed?" said Oswald, annoyed by the imperturbable calmness with which
the baron tried to make him swallow his story. "Ah! in Palermo? I had
been tempted to look for the original nearer home."
"You mean in Berlin, at the Museum!" said the baron. "There is a Muse
there which looks very much like this bust, but if you examine it more
closely you will soon see the difference."
"Yes," replied Oswald; "the nose there is more decided, and the
carriage of the head is slightly different, and altogether the
resemblance with Frau von Berkow much less striking than in this bust."
"Do you think so?" said the baron, rising and going up to the bust.
"Really, you are right. There is really a slight resemblance between
this bust and Frau von Berkow. Well, that does not make me like the
work any less, as there are few ladies in the world whom I love more to
be reminded of than that amiable and clever lady."
The baron drew the curtain over the bust, as if he wished to end the
conversation.
"Come, doctor," he said, "sit down and try to forget that Cloten, this
cleverest of all young men, has ever been here."
"I believe it is high time for me to be gone," said Oswald; "the sun is
near setting--I should not like to get home too late, to-night
especially."
"As you like it," said the baron. "Welcome the coming and speed the
parting guest! I have a great mind to accompany you some distance. Are
you fond of riding?"
"Rather so."
"Then we'll go on horseback, if you like it I will take one of my
servants. Excuse me a moment--I must change my dress and give a few
orders."
* * * * *
"You sit your horse very well, doctor," said the baron, as they were
slowly riding along on the height of the bluff a quarter of an hour
later. "It is really remarkable what talents you have in these things.
I believe there is no branch of bodily skill in which you would not
quickly become a master."
"It is all the more remarkable, because my plebeian descent and my
modest education do not entitle me to any of these aristocratic gifts."
"What a pity my name is not Cloten," said the baron.
"Why?"
"Because then I would not suspect your irony in the most remote way,
and, on the contrary, be moved by your touching modesty to overcome an
antipathy amounting almost to hatred."
"Is that Baron Cloten's sentiment towards me?"
"Do you think any dandy likes to see another man surpass him in
pistol-shooting, dancing, courting, etc., if that is the pride of his
little soul? Women and weak men never forgive that superiority. I
amused myself royally that night at Barnewitz to watch the faces they
were making at you, of course behind your back, and unfortunately
enjoyed the malicious pleasure of doing everything to fan the flame of
their jealousy."
"Why unfortunately? I assure you I mind very little whether these
gentlemen think well of me or not."
"Oh, no doubt you do. But as long as you live in this neighborhood you
are compelled to meet these people, and it is a rule of the simplest
wisdom of the world not to offend your fellow-passengers by treading on
their corns.--Who on earth comes racing over there across the fields?"
This exclamation was caused by the mysterious horseman whom Oswald had
noticed at his arrival, and who was now trotting across the heath so as
to reach the road at a distance of perhaps six hundred yards ahead of
them.
Oswald told the baron his experience with the horseman.
"We must find that out," said the baron; "let us trot."
They had scarcely trotted a few yards when the man before them started
his horse also. It looked as if he were stealthily turning round now
and then, but as the twilight had come on it was not easy to be quite
sure of that.
"Let us try a gallop," said Oswald; "I see the mysterious man is
repeating his man[oe]uvres of the afternoon."
They were on a wide level plain, which sloped off gradually towards the
fishermen's village, following the stony and less level ground on which
Oldenburg's villa was built. The soil was nothing but a thin crust of
earth, covered with meagre heather, and spread directly over the rock
itself, so that the horses going faster and faster beat hard upon the
stony subsoil.
The mysterious man had no sooner heard the sound of their hoofs than he
had followed their example; he was now galloping before his pursuers,
keeping exactly the same distance.
"Stern chase is a long chase!" said Oldenburg, who seemed to take
pleasure in the matter. "That fellow must have a capital horse. Just
look how he flies, scarcely touching the ground! Don't you know,
Charles, who that can be?"
"No, sir," said the groom, who was now riding in a line with the two
gentlemen. "It cannot be anybody from the neighborhood, or we would
have overtaken him long since."
"Charles flatters himself with the idea, you see, that he commands the
best and the fastest horses far and near," observed the baron.
"He won't stand it long, sir!" said Charles.
"We must see that," replied the baron.
"Suppose we make an end of the matter by giving the reins to our
horses," said Oswald, a few minutes later. "We shall then soon see
whether we can overtake him or not."
"Very well," said Oldenburg, "_en avant!_"
The three riders gave the reins to their horses. The noble animals,
delighting in their freedom, and as if they knew that their reputation
as the best racers in the whole neighborhood was being tested, rushed
along with maddening speed, first breast to breast, till Oldenburg's
black horse took the lead and maintained it in spite of all efforts on
the part of the other two horses.
The mysterious man had allowed his pursuers to approach him to within
about four hundred yards. They thought already the chase was over and
the groom had saved his own honor and that of his horses, when suddenly
the man before them gave the spur to his thoroughbred, and, bending his
head low down upon the mane of the animal, shot off with a speed which
soon made even the incensed groom aware that it was useless to try to
overtake him.
"I believe it is the devil himself," he said, through his teeth.
Oldenburg laughed. "So do I," he said. "Let us give it up."
It took some time before the excited horses could calm down again. The
mysterious man was still riding at full speed, and in a few moments he
had disappeared in the lane which led down to the fishermen's village.
Half an hour afterwards they reached the gates of Grenwitz. Oswald got
off his horse and gave the reins to the groom, to shake hands with the
baron.
"If you were not too much bored," said the latter, "I hope we may
repeat the experiment soon again. Good-by!"
Oswald reached his room without having met a soul in the quiet
courtyard or in the silent house. As he was leaning out of the open
window and looked down into the darkening garden, he saw two persons
walking up and down in the avenue, whispering and laughing. They were
Albert and Marguerite. They had evidently improved the good opportunity
to advance in their conjugation of _aimer_.
CHAPTER X.
"DEAR SIR! To succeed in all undertakings equally well is not given to
any one, not even to the most favored knight. You will therefore, it is
hoped, understand why a person, who has watched with much astonishment
the process you have made in the favor of a certain lady, is anxious to
become personally acquainted with the magic charm you possess, and
therefore desires to see you. If you are disposed to afford him this
pleasure, you are requested to take a walk this evening, at eleven
o'clock, near the smaller Grenwitz gate. Under the old beech-tree on
the road to Berkow you will, if you consent, find a carriage to convey
you to the place of rendezvous. There you will find everything required
to begin a more intimate acquaintance.
"It need hardly be mentioned, that, of course, an affair of so much
delicacy has to be treated with the utmost secrecy. The coachman will
ask you '_Qui vive_,' and if you answer '_Moi_,' he will know that you
are the right person. _Au revoir, monsieur!_"
This was the text of a letter which the mail-carrier from the
neighboring town handed Oswald on the evening of the next day.
He read the odd note several times before he could recover from his
surprise. Who was the "person" who wished to make his personal
acquaintance? What "lady" was meant? Had the mystery of the forest
chapel fallen into indiscreet hands? Could Baron Cloten be the author
of the challenge? The peculiar, cool manner of the young nobleman at
their last meeting favored this presumption. Or was the meeting
accidental, and the mysterious rider the real writer? Was he, perhaps,
one of Cloten's spies? On the other hand, was not the conversation
which Baron Barnewitz had had with Oldenburg, and which Oswald had
heard as an unwilling listener, sufficient evidence that Cloten had
quite enough to do with his own difficulties?
Oswald passed in his mind all the young nobles in review whose
acquaintance he had made at the ball, and his suspicion was finally
fixed upon young Count Grieben, that tall blonde youth who made such
amusing efforts to be brilliant, and to win favor with the coquettish
Emily--efforts in which he failed with equal success. He seemed to be
most likely to be the author of some of the phrases in the letter.
What was he to do? Should he expose himself to the perhaps very ignoble
vengeance of the young noblemen? Should he enter the lists without
knowing anything of the weapons, the witnesses, the place, or even his
adversaries? Could any fair-minded man blame him if he took no notice
of the challenge of an anonymous writer?
But he probably had not to deal with fair-minded men. Had he not
already found out, and seen it proved by his experience, that in these
privileged circles the pleasure of the individual stood for right, and
the most frivolous whim of the moment served as a motive for action?
Had he not found this to be so even in the two characters which were so
far above the common mass, in Melitta and Oldenburg?
And would they not charge him, if he declined the challenge, with want
of that delicate sense of honor of which these nobles were so proudly
boasting?
No, no; he must take up the gauntlet, however contemptible the hand
might be that had thrown it down in the dark. He must show these young
noblemen that he was not afraid to meet their revenge alone,
friendless, and unarmed.
His blood was boiling. He walked up and down in his room in great
excitement.
"Come on! Come on!" he hissed through his teeth. "I wish they would
place themselves one by one opposite to me; my hatred would give me
strength to overthrow them all. Quite right! Quite right! What have I
to do here among these wolves? To be torn or to tear. I ought to have
foreseen that."
Oswald felt how a new evil spirit rose from the deepest bottom of his
soul, which his eye had never yet fathomed. A wild passion, a burning
thirst for revenge, a mad desire to destroy seized upon him; it was the
intense, frantic hatred of the nobility which he had felt as a boy,
while he loaded the pistols for his father behind the city wall, when
the latter shot at the ace of spades and each time aimed at the heart
of a noble man; when he read at school, in Livy, of the haughty
arrogance of the Tarquins, or in his room, of the tearful story of
Emilia Galotti. And they were no fictions! Here, in this castle,
perhaps in these same rooms which he now occupied, a victim of the
cruelty of a nobleman had bled to death; here the poor, unhappy, and
beautiful Marie had paid with a thousand burning tears for her folly in
believing the word of a noble tempter.
She had been victimized because she was a frail woman, and because she
had no weapons but tears--tears which found no pity. Those tears had
never been atoned for. How if he should arise as her avenger--if he
should avenge those tears of a low-born maid in the blood of a
nobleman?
Such thoughts passed through Oswald's mind while he was making a few
hasty preparations for the case of an unlucky event--little as he
thought it likely to happen, for he saw himself only in the part of an
avenger. He burnt a few letters which he did not wish to fall into
strange hands; he arranged his other papers, and finally wrote a few
lines to Professor Berger; but he soon tore them up again and threw
them into the fire.
"_Tant de bruit pour une omelette_," he said, "the wretches do not
deserve that I should give myself so much trouble for their sake."
He awaited the appointed hour with impatience.
At last the great clock struck ten. He heard the servants going to bed;
even from Albert's room a light was shining down upon the dark garden.
It struck half-past ten. Oswald dressed himself carefully, took a rose
from a bouquet which he had gathered in the garden, and put it in his
button-hole.
Then he slipped noiselessly down the narrow steps on which Marie, on
that stormy night had escaped from the chateau into the garden, through
the garden and out at the gate which led into the courtyard, and from
which it was only a short distance to the little gate where he was told
he would find the carriage.
The night sky was covered with clouds, through which a few scattered
stars only pierced their way; it was so dark that Oswald had to walk
very slowly, until his eye had become accustomed to the darkness, if he
did not wish to risk falling into the ditch on either side of the road.
Suddenly a large dark object loomed up before him, and at the same
moment a rough, deep voice cried out: "_Qui vive?_"
"_Moi!_" answered Oswald.
He saw the outlines of a tall form which opened the door of the
carriage and let down the steps.
As soon as he had got in the door was closed after him, and the horses
started; he could not see whether the person had jumped upon the box,
or whether it was the coachman himself.
Coachman and horses must have known the road well, or be able to see as
well at night as in open daylight, for the carriage drove with a
swiftness to which even an impatient lover could have had no objection.
The road was in good order, and although now and then a stone was lying
in the track, the carriage was so well hung on excellent springs that
one hardly perceived the jolt.
Oswald leaned back in the swelling cushions. The soft velvet seemed to
exhale a perfume, which filled the narrow compartment like the boudoir
of a pretty woman. Oswald even fancied it was the same perfume which
Melitta ordinarily used. And suddenly he felt as if Melitta were
sitting by his side--as if her soft warm hand were touching his--as if
he felt her breath on his brow--as if her lips were lying lightly like
a zephyr on his own.
And this delicious dream effaced the reality. Oswald forgot what was
before him; he did not think of the future; he knew not where he
was--and only she, she herself filled his soul. The memory of her sweet
grace, her goodness, her intoxicating beauty overcame him like a
spring-tide of bliss. The precious images of those happy hours which he
had spent by her side, at her feet, rose before his mind's eyes with
marvellous clearness; he saw them all, from his first meeting on the
lawn behind the chateau at Grenwitz, to the moment when she turned from
him, tears in her eyes, in that night of hapless memory, when the demon
of jealousy struck its sharp claws into his wounded heart.
"Forgive me, Melitta! forgive me!" he groaned, burying his head in the
cushions.
Suddenly the carriage stopped. The door opened, the tall man who had
let down the steps before helped him get out, gave him his hand, led
him a few steps up to a large glass door, where, through the red
curtains, a faint light was bidding him welcome. The door opened, and
Oswald found himself in the garden-room in Melitta's chateau, and
Melitta wound her arms around his neck, and Melitta's voice whispered:
"Forgive me, Oswald! Forgive me!"
"You cruel man," said Melitta, after the first wild storm of delight,
with its showers of joyous tears, had passed away. "How could you shut
up your heart for so many days when you knew I was standing outside
knocking for admission? But I will not scold. You are here and all is
right again."
She leaned her head on his breast and looked up at him smiling through
her tears. "Is it not, darling? Is not all right again? Now Melitta is
again what she was before to you, what she will ever be to you, in
spite of all pretty girls of sixteen, be their name Emily or----"
"Melitta!"
"Or Melitta! For there is but one Melitta, if thousands bore that name,
and that one am I! And how could you forget such a weighty matter! What
trouble you have caused old Baumann! I will say nothing of myself, for
joy follows grief and grief follows joy, and if two love each other
honestly, a few tears more or less, a few sleepless nights, a few
letters begun and torn to pieces again, matter, after all, very
little--but poor Baumann! Just imagine! The first day I was very calm,
for I thought: he will come soon enough, and fall down at your feet and
ask your pardon! But when you did not come, nor on the second, nor on
the third day, then my heart failed me, and I dare say I looked
wretched enough, for as I was sitting here, resting my head in my
hands, I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder, and when I looked up,
good old Baumann was standing before me, and said: Shall I go and see
why he is staying away so long?--Ah do, dear Baumann, I said. Then the
good soul went, without saying a word, and did not return till late at
night. Did you see him?--Yes, ma'am! He is well and hearty; I have had
a race with him."
"Then old Baumann was the mysterious horseman?"
"Of course, and he laughed in his quiet way when he told me that you
had been after him, as if he meant to say: The children! They thought
they could overtake me on Brownlock!"
"Then that was Brownlock, of whom Bruno has told me so much! Well, now
I can explain it all."
"Can you? Then you will also explain it, I hope, why Baumann sat down
and wrote that letter at my dictation. The old man refused, and said: A
duel is no child's play, and that is carrying the joke too far. But I
laughed and wept till he gave way; so he took Brownlock once more this
morning and rode to town to mail the letter."
"And if I had not accepted the challenge?"
"Baumann asked me the same question, and I answered: Fie, are you not
ashamed to say such a thing, Baumann?"
Oswald laughed. "Of course! we must always be ashamed when we say or do
something that does not suit the world, as it exists in your little
heads."
Melitta made no reply, and Oswald saw that a shadow flitted across her
face. He knelt down before her and said, seizing her hand as it hung by
her side:
"Have I offended you, Melitta?"
"No," she said, "but you would not have said so a week ago."
"How do you mean?"
"Come, get up! Let us go into the garden. It is hot in the house; I
long to breathe the cool night air!"
They went down into the garden and walked up and down, arm in arm, till
they came to the low terrace, where Oswald had found Melitta when he
called upon her that Sunday afternoon. They sat down under the
pine-tree, which spread its branches over them as if in protection. The
night was marvellously silent. The trees stood quiet, not a leaf
stirring, as if they were fast asleep; fragrant perfumes filled the
warm, dry air, and glow-worms were wandering through the night like
bright tiny stars.
"You did not answer my question, Melitta," said Oswald. "What is it the
last eight days have changed in me? Am I not the same I was; only that
the bitter regret at having hurt your feelings has made my love for you
deeper and warmer?"
Melitta made no reply; suddenly she said, speaking low and quick:
"Have you seen much of him since that Sunday at Barnewitz?"
"Of whom, Melitta?"
"Well, of--of Baron Oldenburg. God be thanked, I have said it. It is so
childish and foolish in me to have hesitated so long to speak of
Oldenburg, and to tell you what our relations have been,--and yet I
felt you had a right to know it, and I was bound to lift the veil from
my past, wherever it might appear dark to you. This feeling grew so
overwhelming in me, especially when I found that you had become
intimate with the baron, that I wanted to see you at any price, and
this suggested to me the foolish plan."
"I have no such right as you say," replied Oswald, "to be foolishly
curious. I have to be grateful for the love which you grant me, and I
am grateful for it, as for a sweet gift from on high. There was a time,
I confess, when my love still knew what doubt was, but that was not yet
true, genuine love. Now I cannot imagine that I could ever cease to
love you, or that you could ever do so. I feel even as if this love was
not only intended to be eternal, but had actually existed before, in
all eternity. I do not know if you ever loved before; it may be, but I
do not comprehend it, and would not comprehend it, even if you were to
say so expressly."
"And I assure you," said Melitta tenderly, coming closer to Oswald, "I
have never loved till I saw you; for what I before called love was only
unsatisfied longing after an ideal which I bore in my heart, which I
could find nowhere, and which I had long despaired of ever finding."
"And you fancy that I am this personified ideal? Poor Melitta! How soon
you will awake from this dream! Awake, Melitta! awake--it is time yet!"
"No, Oswald, it is too late. There is a love which is as strong as
death, and there is no awaking from it. No! No awaking. I feel it. I
know it. And if you were to turn your face from me, and if you were to
push me from you--with you I know not what offended love, what insulted
pride are--nothing but immeasurable, unfathomable, inexhaustible love.
Till now I only knew that I could love; how much I could love, you
first have taught me....
"And now also I can speak freely of the time when I did not yet know
you--for then my life was only apparent life and all I felt and thought
was only a vague dreaming without connection and sense. I know that
now--now since I have opened my eyes in the sunlight of your love, and
life lies clear and transparent before me, so that the deep night which
surrounds us looks to me brighter than formerly the brightest day. Now
I can speak of the Melitta of former days as of a strange person for
whose doings and sayings I am no longer responsible; now I can and will
tell you what that portrait in my album means--that detached leaf which
frightened you so, darling.--Yes, I saw it all; you changed color, and
you did not comprehend how I could ask your opinion of a man whom you
could not but think my lover. And yet Oldenburg never was my lover, or
there must be strange degrees in love, of which the lowest is as far
from the highest as the earth is from heaven.
"I knew Oldenburg from my childhood. My father's estate adjoined Cona,
where you were yesterday. My aunt, who undertook my education after my
mother's death, and Oldenburg's mother were warm friends, and met
almost daily. So did we children. Oldenburg was several years older
than I, but as girls are always ahead of boys in their development, we
did not feel the difference in age much; we played and worked together;
we were good comrades--ordinarily, for not unfrequently we fell out,
and then we had sharp words and quarrels and tears. I rarely gave cause
for them, for I was not obstinate, and always ready to give way, but
Adalbert was excessively sensitive, stubborn, and self-willed. The
double nature of his character, which he afterwards tried to harmonize
and to conceal from all but the most sharp-sighted, was then very
evident. It was impossible not to become interested in him, but I doubt
if anybody really loved him. This he felt, and this feeling, which he
bore about with him like a concealed wound, made him early a
hypochondriac and a misanthrope. It was of little use to him that
everybody admired his eminent talents, and that no one doubted his
courage, his love of the truth--his stubborn, self-willed ways repelled
all and offended all. Even his tall, ungraceful figure and his awkward
motions contributed to turn the hearts of men away from him. At least
it was so with me. I had from childhood up felt irresistibly attracted
towards all that was beautiful and graceful, and had a real horror of
what was ugly and ill-shapen. I could not love Adalbert, although he
was sincerely attached to me with great tenderness, which he carefully
hid under an appearance of coldness and rudeness. When his passionate
temper got the better of his attempted calmness, he would even reproach
me bitterly on account of my heartlessness and my fickleness.
"Such were our relations till Adalbert, at sixteen, went to college,
for he had persuaded his guardian--his mother had also died in the mean
time--to let him go to the city. Now he came but rarely to Cona, and
then only for a few days. Then I was for two years at boarding-school.
Thus it came about that we met only in passing, till he went to the
University at Heidelberg. When he returned from there, and from a long
journey, I had been married two years.
"He did not come to Berkow till a considerable time afterwards. Our
meeting was strange enough. He seemed to accept the changed state of
things only as a _fait accompli_, which we submit to because we cannot
help ourselves. He did not trouble me with questions; he asked for no
confidential communication, which the sole friend of my childhood and
early youth might well have demanded. He did not reproach me; he did
not tell me that he had loved me, that he had hoped to obtain my hand,
although I afterwards learned that that had been so, and that the news
of my marriage, which he received at Heidelberg, had nearly driven him
mad, and laid him for weeks and months upon the sick-bed. He tried by
silent observation to obtain a clear idea of my situation. I saw that
nothing escaped him, that not a word I uttered, not a gesture I made
remained unnoticed. This consciousness of being continually watched by
such sharp eyes was by no means agreeable, especially as there was much
that ought to have been very different from what it actually was. Soon
we were as we had been in childhood; only there occurred no violent
scenes, as our passions had subsided. As he then had brought me all the
pretty shells, and stones, and flowers which he found on the beach,
among the rocks, and in the garden, so he now told me all his
indefatigably active mind could discover in the field of science: now a
fine poem and now a deep thought--and he felt it not less deeply now,
if I treated his treasures as carelessly as I had done with the flowers
which I allowed to perish, and the stones and shells which I threw
away. I knew I had no better friend than he, and he knew that in all I
felt for him there was no love; all the more disinterested was his
friendship, and all the more unwarrantable the fickleness with which I
treated him.
"His friendship was soon to be proved. The melancholy into which Carlo
had fallen, soon after Julius' birth, assumed a more and more dangerous
form. Attacks of unexpected violence, the precursors of the last
fearful catastrophe, became more frequent. He would now admit no one
near him but Adalbert, although he, the _bon-vivant_ of former days,
had been in the habit of laughing ruthlessly at the baron, who was his
junior, and yet thoughtful and melancholy himself. How often had he
ridiculed him, how often called him contemptuously the Youth of Sais!
Now he accompanied him everywhere; now Oldenburg's voice was the only
one which could drive away the dark demons that fought for his mind, at
least for the moment. And the self-sacrificing spirit with which
Oldenburg performed this service of love cannot be sufficiently
praised, and I ought to thank him for it all my life long. Then came
the catastrophe. Oldenburg stood faithfully by me in those dark days,
or rather, he took all the burden and the responsibility upon himself,
and managed all and everything with such energy and sagacity that I had
only to consent.
"Carlo had been carried to an Asylum at the South, and I was left alone
here at Berkow, devoting myself entirely to the education of my Julius,
who was then five years old, and for whom I had secured Bemperlein as a
teacher and a friend, thanks to Oldenburg's recommendation. The baron
came less frequently than formerly, but still quite frequently, as I
thought. It seemed to me that a tender note mingled at times with his
friendship, and hardly had I noticed this than I thought it my duty to
point out to him, as gently as I could, that his visits were probably
too frequent. This was perhaps very ungrateful in me, but we women find
it very difficult to be grateful to those whom we do not love.
"Next day Oldenburg had left the country. No one knew where he was.
Somebody reported him, six months afterwards, in Paris; a year later he
was seen in London. He was here, and there, and everywhere, carried
about by his wild heart and his insatiable thirst for information.
"Thus four years had elapsed and little had changed in my position. I
thought but rarely of Oldenburg; I had nearly forgotten him. I yielded
then--now three years ago--to the persuasions of my cousin and his wife
to accompany them on a trip to Italy. One evening as we were in the
Coliseum Oldenburg suddenly stood before us. 'At last!' he said,
pressing my hand. He pretended to have met us quite accidentally; but
he confessed to me afterwards that he had heard in Paris, I know not
from whom, of our proposed journey, that he had followed us from Munich
and missed us everywhere, till at last he had overtaken us here. I must
confess I was heartily glad to meet him, and was a little gratified to
find that it was not quite accidental. Everything combined to give
Oldenburg a good reception. We easily become attached even to strangers
in travelling; how much more welcome is the friend of our youth whom we
unexpectedly meet with abroad? Oldenburg had travelled all over Italy,
and knew the painter of every altar-painting in every church and
convent. His instructive conversation contrasted most markedly with the
stupid talk of my relatives, and besides, Oldenburg had by this time
polished off the rough edges of his character in the intercourse with
good society. His manner was, in spite of his almost extreme abandon,
as you now see it, thoroughly aristocratic. In a word, he now impressed
me in a manner which I would have believed impossible before. It was
not love that I felt for him, but it was more than the cool friendship
which I had so far offered him alone. But, strange enough, the more I
felt my secret antipathy, which I had cherished from early childhood,
give way to an almost cordial attachment, the harsher and colder became
his manner towards me. When we were all together, he addressed his
conversation almost exclusively to my cousin, and treated me like a
spoilt child, who is only indulged to keep it from crying. This
offended my vanity; and this offended vanity, and the jealousy I began
to feel of my cousin, made me try in good earnest to win Oldenburg's
affection, which I feared I had lost by some unknown cause. This
produced an entire revolution in Oldenburg's manner. He overwhelmed me
with attentions; he seemed completely to forget Hortense, and whenever
we were alone he exhibited a passion which first made me wonder and
then frightened me. And yet he avoided any open declaration, and left
me continually in doubt whether this was one of the mad freaks in which
he still quite frequently indulged, or the expression of a deep-rooted
attachment. It was impossible not to admire Oldenburg at that time. His
genius unfolded its most brilliant powers. He was the soul of every
society; they vied with each other who was to have him, and as he spoke
French, English, Italian, and I know not how many languages, with
fluency, every nation seemed to be willing to admit him as one of their
own. And yet he made me the queen of every festivity, he compelled all
to do homage to me; he displayed the treasures of his richly stored
mind only to lay them at my feet;--what wonder that I could not long
remain indifferent, and that I soon fancied I loved him? Without openly
encouraging him, I let him go on, and permitted him, when we were
alone, to treat me with the familiarity of our childish years; when we
met in company, to show me all those attentions which we generally
accept only from a declared lover."
"Hush, Melitta, I think I hear somebody in the garden."
"I heard nothing."
"Are we quite safe here?"
"Quite so. But let us go into the house; it seems to me the night dew
is beginning to fall."
They rose and went arm in arm towards the steps which led from the
terrace into the garden. As they came down the last step, a man
suddenly stood before them. The meeting was so unexpected to Oswald and
Melitta that they involuntarily started back. But it was impossible
to escape it, and besides, Mr. Bemperlein--for it was he, and no one
else--had already recognized them, as the stars had come out in full
splendor, and the light from the window of the garden-room fell
directly upon their faces.
"Great heavens, madam! what brings you here?" cried Mr. Bemperlein.
"And I ask that of you," said Melitta; and then to Oswald, whose arm
she was still holding, in a low voice: "Be calm, darling, he will not
betray us."
"Julius has not had an accident? Speak, Mr. Bemperlein, I have no
secrets for--Oswald."
Mr. Bemperlein seized Oswald's hand and pressed it, as if he wished to
say: Now I know all, you may rely on me.
"No," he said, "Julius is well and hearty. But I have received a letter
from Doctor Birkenhain, who says that Baron Berkow's condition is such
that they expect his end every day. It is not thought that he will
recover his consciousness before he dies; but Doctor Birkenhain thought
it his duty to let you know how matters stand. I presume at least that
this is what the enclosure means. I brought it myself, so that you may
dispose of me at once, if you should decide to go on. The carriage in
which I came is still at the door; I cut across the garden."
The three had reached the garden-room by this time. Melitta had drawn
her arm from Oswald's and gone up to the lamp to read the letter which
Bemperlein had brought. Oswald saw her turn very pale, and her hand
which held the letter tremble nervously. Bemperlein stood there,
turning his eyes from Oswald to Melitta, and back again from Melitta to
Oswald, like one who has been suddenly roused and cannot convince
himself whether what he sees is reality or a dream.
Melitta had read the letter. "There, Oswald," she said, "read and tell
me what I must do."
Oswald glanced at the letter, which summoned Melitta, as Bemperlein had
presumed, to start immediately for Birkenhain if she wished to see her
husband once more before his death.
"You must go, Melitta, beyond doubt," said Oswald, folding up the
letter. "You would never forgive yourself if you neglected this duty."
Melitta threw herself passionately into his arms: "I meant from the
beginning to go, but I wanted you to confirm my decision," she said. "I
shall start to-night, instantly. Will you go with me, Mr. Bemperlein?"
"That is what I came for," said Bemperlein. "We have prepared the whole
plan. If we start in an hour we shall reach the ferry by sunrise. On
the other side we can take post-horses to B----, and thence go by
railway. Thus we reach Birkenhain day after to-morrow, at the latest."
"You dear, good friend," said Melitta, taking both of Bemperlein's
hands in her own and pressing them cordially.
"Pray, pray, madam," cried Mr. Bemperlein, "quite on the contrary--I
mean--only my duty, nothing more."
"I will get ready at once," said Melitta, taking a candle. "You stay
here, Oswald. If any one should see you here, you will have come with
Bemperlein. But no one will see you."
Melitta had left the room. Soon the silent house awoke to the sound of
hurried steps, of doors which were hastily opened and closed, and of
low voices speaking anxiously one to another.
Of the two men, neither dared for a time to break the silence. Both
felt the strange nature of the position in which they suddenly found
themselves, especially Bemperlein, who had not yet been able to recover
from his surprise. Melitta stood so unattainably high in his eyes that
he found it absolutely impossible to comprehend how any mortal could
attain so high; and yet he was so accustomed to look upon everything
she did as undoubtedly right and good, that he dared not make an
exception of this case.
"We meet quite strangely again, Mr. Bemperlein," Oswald said at last.
"Yes indeed, yes indeed!" replied Mr. Bemperlein. "My coming here was
neither expected nor desired, I understand that perfectly. The poor
lady! But what courage! What decision! I have always said she is not
made of common clay. A real blessing that Doctor Birkenhain had the
good idea not to write to her directly. Thus I can do something, little
though it be, for her support."
"You happy man!" said Oswald "You can work for her and help her, while
I can do nothing but wish her a pleasant journey, and then fold my
hands idly in my lap."
"I really pity you with all my heart, really," said Mr. Bemperlein. "It
is a hard task which you are expected to perform; but where there is
much light there is also much shade. We will write diligently. You
shall hear of every step we take. And then, I hope, our journey will
not be long, and especially I trust we shall find Baron Berkow dead
when we get there."
"You hope that? And yet you seem to think it important to go there?"
"Assuredly!" said Mr. Bemperlein. "There are certain sad duties which
must be performed--not to please the world, which could, and might not,
blame us if we left them unfulfilled, nor for the sake of others whom
we could benefit by what we do, but because of the respect we owe to
ourselves. But you know all that, of course, much better than I do. You
have yourself advised this journey, although you lose most by it. It
must be a terrible sensation to be thus suddenly torn from one's
paradise! Strange, strange! The more I think of it, the more natural it
seems to me. Yes, yes; that you should love this glorious woman is
perfectly natural, is,--I might say, so logical that the contrary would
be sheer nonsense. Everybody must love her, and the nobler the soul is
that loves her the deeper the love. Your heart is a noble heart, your
soul harmonizes with all that is beautiful, hence you cannot but love,
love with all your heart and soul this best and most beautiful of all
women. And on the other side: Is she not free? If not before men,
certainly before the Judge who looks into the heart? Did she ever love
her husband? Could she love him, sold as she was by her own father to a
man who bought her with money, at a time when she was too young still,
and too innocent even to suspect such villany? Oh! it makes my blood
boil to think of it! I am so glad it has all come about in this way! I
congratulate you most heartily. I am a plain, insignificant man, and
would never have dared to lift up my eyes so high; but when I see
another man boldly and bravely stand on that eminence my heart fills
with admiration, which is perfectly free from envy, and once more I
wish you joy and all blessings with my whole heart!"
Mr. Bemperlein seized both of Oswald's hands and pressed them warmly.
His eyes filled with tears; he was deeply moved.
"And I thank you with all my heart," said Oswald, touched. "The good
opinion of a man whom I esteem is worth a thousand times more to me
than that of the whole stupid world. The world will condemn our love,
but the world knows nothing of justice."
"No," said Mr. Bemperlein, "and yet it does judge us, and we have to
submit to its sentence whether we choose or not. And this thought alone
casts a deep shadow on the sunny pictures of such pure, disinterested
love. But I will not make your head heavier at such a moment, when it
is no doubt heavy enough. Fortune favors the brave and the strong. You
are bold and strong; you are doubly so since you love, and faith is
said to be able to move mountains. What faith can, love surely will not
find impossible. But hush! there comes the baroness."
The door opened, and Melitta appeared in her travelling costume. Old
Baumann stood by her.
"I am ready, dear Mr. Bemperlein," she said, and then throwing herself
into Oswald's arms: "Farewell, darling, farewell!"
CHAPTER XI.
The Baroness Grenwitz had more than one good reason for not taking
Oswald with them on their projected trip to Heligoland, and during the
three days' visiting at all the neighbors, she had considered maturely
how she might manage this without compromising her dignity. She was
delighted therefore when Oswald, at her return,--the day after
Melitta's departure,--eagerly seized upon her question: If he would not
prefer using the time of their absence for his own recreation. She was
still more delighted when he went so far as to express his intention
not even to remain at the chateau, but to make an excursion, perhaps
over the island, which he had not yet seen, or perhaps to Berlin, where
he was expected by friends. Anna Maria was so enchanted with this
unexpected result that she did not trouble herself about the motives
that might have influenced Oswald, nor about his sombre, absent manner,
and the indifference with which he witnessed the preparations for their
journey, and with which he even took leave of Bruno on the day of their
departure. Perhaps he was angry because they did not invite him;
perhaps he did not know where he was to stay. At all events, he would
not remain at the chateau, and perhaps he might actually have his
knapsack on his back at one gate, while the family coach with the four
heavy bays and the silent coachman was grandly rolling out at the great
portal.
But Mr. Albert Timm was allowed to stay. He had no such absurd
pretensions as the haughty Dr. Stein; he was easily satisfied; and then
he could work so comfortably in the lonely house, and it was so
important to have the plats completed promptly. Mademoiselle had been
ordered to provide everything for Mr. Timm. Strangely enough, it had
never occurred to the baroness that it might not be considered quite
proper to leave a young girl of twenty and a young man of twenty-six in
a lonely chateau with only a handful of servants, who were under the
control of the young girl. The virtuous lady would have turned up her
nose, she would have thought it unpardonable, if she had been told that
young Count Grieben and Emily von Breesen had been left alone in a room
for five minutes, but the surveyor, Albert Timm, and the housekeeper,
Marguerite Hoger--good Heavens! what was the use troubling one's self
about such people? that would have been asking too much! And Marguerite
had not even a father or a mother to whom one might have been
answerable--she had no relations whatever--how can one be expected to
be responsible for a person who is standing quite alone in the world?
They had, however, asked Mrs. Jager to see from time to time that the
orders of the baroness were strictly carried out. Mrs. Jager was an
excellent lady, consequently Marguerite was under excellent
supervision.
Little Marguerite was under such excellent supervision that Albert
could not sufficiently praise the wise foresight of the baroness.
"I wish they would never return," he said to the pretty Genevese as
they promenaded in the garden arm in arm; "I wish they would capsize
between Heligoland and the Downs, where it is deepest and we could live
here, in clover, to the end of our lives. What do you think, little
Margerite, would you like to be the wife of Albert Timm, Esquire, owner
of Castle Grenwitz, etc.? Wouldn't it be famous? Then I would keep you
a carriage and horses, and even a housekeeper, which you could plague
as they plague you now."
"I am content with little if I can it share with you."
"Noble thought! But better is better, and--well, we'll see all that
when we are married."
"And you will marry me, really? Ah, I can it believe scarcely! Why
should a man, _comme vous_, to whom the whole world is open, marry a
poor girl who not even is handsome?"
"That is my business. And besides, you are richer than I am. Three
hundred dollars----"
"Three hundred twenty-five dollars," said Mademoiselle Marguerite.
"All the better--that is something to begin with. If I add my own
fortune"--Mr. Timm felt in his pocket and produced a few coins--"we
have three hundred and twenty-five dollars, seventeen silber-groschen
and eightpence. That is quite a capital."
"We shall buy for it a little house."
"Of course."
"I shall give lessons in French."
"Of course."
"And you will be industrious and work."
"_Comme un forcat_--oh, it is going to be a charming life," and Mr.
Timm seized the little Frenchwoman around the waist and waltzed her
around in the bower in which they were chatting.
"I must go in now, to give the servants their supper," said Marguerite,
withdrawing herself.
"Then run, you little monkey, and come back again as soon as you can,"
said Mr. Timm.
He looked after her as she ran away. "Stupid little woman," he said;
"really thinks I am going to marry her. What a fool I should be--for
three hundred dollars! Formerly I lost as much at play in a night. It
is grand, what these girls fancy; and yet this one is not as stupid as
she looks, and seems to have studied the great Goethe, in spite of her
horrible jargon, to some advantage: 'Yield to no thief, but with the
ring on your finger.' Hm, hm! I shall have to buy her a wedding-ring,
after all! The three hundred dollars would not be so bad! These
abominations of creditors! Not even here they leave me alone."
Mr. Timm felt in his breast pocket and drew from it several letters of
suspicious appearance, which he carefully unfolded and perused, after
having ensconced himself in the corner of the bench. His face,
generally merry enough, grew darker and darker. "Upon my word," he
growled, "these fellows are becoming insolent. If I could satisfy the
roaring lions with a couple of hundreds they might be silent, at least
for a while."
"Hm, hm! The three hundred dollars which little Marguerite has in the
Savings Bank would be very convenient. It would, after all, be better
for her to be poor. For, of course, every sensible man can see that I
am not going to fulfil my promise to marry her unless I am forced to do
so. If I am under moral obligations only, I fear I am not quite safe to
her; but if I should be under pecuniary obligations to her, her chances
are decidedly better. I can make her believe I will invest her money
where she can obtain a better interest, or some such thing. When the
stupid little things are in love they'll believe anything. And can she
invest her money better than in the purchase of a handsome fellow for
her husband, who would otherwise not think of marrying her? _Me
Herculem!_ I feel quite raised in my estimation by the thought, to
become a benefactor of the poor little girl. I must see at once what I
can do with her. If she refuses, I shall have to respect her for her
wisdom, but I won't be able to love her any more."
Albert rose and slowly walked up to the chateau, his hands folded
behind his back, as was his habit when his ingenious brain was busy
with the solution of a problem. Marguerite was busy in the lower
regions near the kitchen, and Albert went up to his room, in order to
give a few more moments undisturbed to his great purpose.
He bent over the paper which was stretched out on his drawing-board,
and on which he had done nothing since the departure of the family,
that is, for a whole week.
"If that goes on so, Anna Maria will marvel at the progress I have
made," he said; "it is really amazing what a superb talent for idleness
I have, or, to express it more elegantly, for the _dolce far niente_.
There are evidently in life enchanted lazzaroni, as there are enchanted
princes, and I am unmistakably such an enchanted son of sunny Naples,
who has been changed into a surveyor, compelled to eat his bread in the
sweat of his face. But how did it come about, I wonder, that I have
thus given way to my natural disposition for a whole week? Is little
Marguerite alone to blame for it? Hardly! Oh yes! Now I remember! I
want a map from the archive-room, and asked for the key a week ago. I
must go and get that map, or, by my burning love for little Marguerite,
this unfinished plat will remain a fragment for all eternity."
Albert went into the archive-room, a large apartment on the ground
floor of the old castle. The walls were covered, from the ceiling to
the floor, with receptacles full of old yellow documents and papers of
every kind, many of which were extremely old and would have been of
very great interest to the antiquarian. While he was looking among
these archives for the old map, a small bundle of letters fell into his
hand, which he would have hurled back, in all probability, into its
ancient home, like so many others, if his curiosity had not been
excited by the address on the outside: "For Baron Harald Grenwitz, at
Grenwitz." As excessive discretion was by no means one of Mr. Timm's
most prominent qualities, he broke unceremoniously the red tape with
which the letters had been bound together, and began to read one after
another--an occupation which proved so deeply interesting that he
forgot everything else, and did not even hear a carriage, which stopped
at the great portal, and caused no small sensation in the chateau.
CHAPTER XII.
Oswald had spent the week which had elapsed since the departure of the
family in the solitude of a fisherman's village, not far from Berkow,
where he had been entirely cut off from all intercourse with the world.
How he had got there he hardly knew himself.
Since Melitta had been so suddenly snatched away from him, he had been
seized with boundless indifference for everything that was not in some
way connected with her. She filled his whole soul. In this apathy he
had parted even with Bruno quite easily. He acceded to the wishes of
the baroness all the more readily, as he longed for solitude in his
present frame of mind. Thus he said yes to everything, and when he saw
the carriage start with the family inside, he felt as if he had been
relieved of a heavy burden. He hurriedly said good-by to Mr. Timm and
Marguerite, who remained at home, and flinging a light knapsack, which
dated still from his university years, upon his back, he wandered gayly
out at the door, like the hero in a fairy tale, without knowing where
he was going, or where he was to rest his weary head that night.
The sun was burning hot; Oswald remembered that it would be fresh and
cool in the forest. He turned off the road, and soon the pine-trees
were rustling overhead. The low whispering of the thousand green leaves
lulled him into sweet reveries. Dreamily he wandered on till he
suddenly came out upon the clearing where Melitta's chapel stood, under
the shelter of a broad, branching beech-tree that counted many hundred
years.
The door of the cottage was locked, the green blinds were closed, the
steps and the veranda carefully swept, as directed by the strict
regulations of old Baumann, who was now ruling supreme. He sat down
outside, lost in thought and resting his head in his hand. In the
branches of the beech-tree overhead, a little bird was twittering his
monotonous song in ever-repeated melancholy.... How lonely he felt--how
lonely and forsaken! Like a child which on its way back to beloved
parents has lost its way on the great heath. Here, at this very place,
he had been seated, the night before the party, with Melitta; she had
rested her head on his shoulder and her lips had whispered the
sweetest, most precious words of love. Now all was silent--so silent
that he could hear the beating of his own heart. Longing thoughts of
the absent one passed through his soul, as birds in their flight to the
South pass through the blue ether.
A ray of the sun, which made its way, hot and piercing, through the
foliage, admonished him that it was time to go on. He was not in a
hurry, it is true. It was an early hour of the afternoon, and he was
likely to find some place or other where he might stay over night. Thus
he sauntered through the forest on a path which he had not trod before,
and which led him, before he was aware of it, down to the beach. Now he
followed the strand, sometimes high up on a bluff, if the sea washed
the foot of the chalk cliffs so as to leave no path; at other times on
the clean shingle of the narrow beach. Here and there a brook came
rushing out from the interior of the island, breaking its way through
the tall ramparts, and covering by its moisture the whole dell with an
almost Southern vegetation. But, with the exception of these few green
oases, the eye saw nothing but bare rocks, sterile sand, the monstrous
blue ocean, and here and there a white summer-cloud immovable on the
blue sky, while below a lonely sail would dot the wide expanse. And
with this monotonous view harmonized the monotonous music of the
breakers, interrupted at times by the cry of a gull or the melancholy
piping of a sandpiper.
The monotony of these lines, these hues, these sounds, would have been
intolerable for a heavy, fresh mind, but it suited Oswald's state of
mind. There are hours when we welcome rainy weather or a dismal
landscape as old friends, on whose faces we can read their sympathy
with our sorrow; hours when sunshine and birds' songs and the merry
purling of a lively brook appear to us like an insult. Oswald's
melancholy mood harmonized with this sober mood of nature that seemed
to ignore happiness and joy, but knew all the more of the sorrows and
sufferings of life. Did not the sudden cry, the shrill piping of the
seamen sound like plaintive notes? Did it not sound as if the sea was
perpetually murmuring the confused riddle of life in half insane tones,
as the waves were breaking unceasingly and in monotonous accents
against the strand? And his own life appeared to him as aimless and
hapless as his wandering about among the rocks on the shore. Was it any
better than the mark he made on the hard sand which the next wave
washed away forever? Why was he born? why did he cause so much grief
and pain to himself and others, if it was all to end in nothing? And if
fortune really for once seems to smile, it is but for a moment; it is
but an illusion which a wicked fairy summons up from the inhospitable,
restless sea, to sink us the next instant in its unfathomable depth,
just as we fancy we are reaching the shore, with its waving palm-trees
and gorgeous palaces.
A small village which lay before Oswald was hid in the innermost
recesses of a little bay, surrounded on all sides by tall chalk cliffs,
except only a small opening towards the sea. There the water was as
smooth and silent as a pond in a garden. A few huts lay near the beach;
others followed the banks of the brook, which here fell into the sea,
after having washed its way through the deep and wide dell. Little
gardens, adorned with bright shells, were before the doors; on the
passages within, seen through the open entrance, and strewn with white
sand, nets were hanging on long poles; a couple of red-cheeked boys
were busy tarring a new boat, and before one of the larger cottages sat
three women knitting nets.
Oswald went up to them, and as they looked up with curiosity when they
heard his footstep, he asked them if he might be permitted to rest a
little there, and if they could get him a glass of water and a piece of
bread.
"Stine," said the oldest of the three women--a matron of stately
proportions, and an exceedingly good-natured, sunburnt face--to one of
the two young girls by her side, "get up and give the gentleman your
seat. Don't you see he is tired and hungry? Go into the house and bring
out what we have. Sit down, sir. You are, no doubt, a painter?"
"Why should I be a painter?" asked Oswald, taking the proffered seat.
"Well, no man in his senses would climb about in such a heat; it is
only people who are not quite right there (pointing with her forefinger
at her forehead) that do so. Well, never mind, Mr. Painter, I have had
one of your companions to stay with me here, who stayed two weeks; and
if you are as steady and orderly as he was, you may stay also with
Mother Carsten; but you must not bedaub the walls, I tell you that at
once."
Oswald could not help smiling as he saw himself thus unceremoniously
transformed into a travelling landscape painter. How? Should he accept
the harmless part which chance seemed to allot to him? He was perfectly
indifferent as to the place where he might stay; all he wanted was
solitude, and could he find deeper solitude than here in this secluded
bay, among these simple-hearted, good-natured people, who would not
mind it if he should spend half his days climbing about among the
rocks? And then he was near Berkow, from which he did not wish to go
far, since he had arranged it with Melitta, that if her absence should
be unexpectedly protracted, old Baumann would take charge of their
correspondence.
"Then you would let me stay here a few days?" he asked.
"Yes, but you must not bedaub the walls," said Mother Carsten.
"I promise I will not do that," said Oswald, smiling.
"Then you can stay as long as you choose. That is right, Stine, move
the table closer up to the gentleman; and look here, get some of the
old Cognac which Claus brought from England; pure water does no good in
this unreasonable heat."
* * * * *
Oswald had been staying nearly a week in the village, and he had never
repented for a moment his acceptance of Mother Carsten's invitation. He
enjoyed her highest favor. He had not made a line on the white-washed
walls of his little bedroom; he always had a kindly word for everybody,
even for the immensely old and almost crazy father of Mother Carsten,
who sat all day long in his easy-chair, staring at the sun and at the
sea, if his weary old eyes did not close in sleep, as was generally the
case. Mother Carsten said Oswald was as "orderly and staid" a man as
his predecessor, but that he was still less "right here,"--and the
forefinger went up to the forehead again,--than the other one. Mother
Carsten was induced to make such a strange remark by the fact that
Oswald not only did not cover the walls of his bedroom with charcoal
sketches of ships under sail, with cliffs around which the gulls were
fluttering, and with original faces of weather-beaten sailors, as his
predecessor had done, but that he did not draw or paint at all, but
simply ran about all day long on the strand, or pulled himself all
alone in a small boat so far out into the offing that they could hardly
make him out in the distance! How he could amuse himself all the time.
Mother Carsten could not divine; she would have probably thought it as
mysterious as ever if she had seen Oswald, as soon as he was alone,
draw a letter from his pocket which an old, odd-looking man had handed
to him several days before, and read it over and over again, as if he
had not long since known every word and every letter by heart. The
odd-looking old man, who rode one of those high-legged, long-necked
horses that Claus had seen in England, was, of course, no one else but
old Baumann on Brownlock. Oswald had sent him word, the day after his
arrival at the village, that he intended for the present to stay there,
and the same information had been sent to Grenwitz. The next day
already had brought him a letter from his beloved. It contained only a
few words, hastily written on the journey, just before retiring, in a
small town of Central Germany--a few words, confused and sad, but sweet
and precious, like kisses from beloved lips at the moment of wedding.
He had sent his answer back by Baumann, and was now looking daily for
another and a fuller letter with an impatience which was by no means
altogether joyous.
All minds busy with ideals are apt to complain that nothing here below
is perfectly pure, and that often as we strive to ascend into brighter
and purer regions, a painful burden of earthy matter drags us soon down
again to the eternal level.
Oswald also had frequently suffered from this difficulty; it had spoilt
many of his pleasures, it had made him dislike many good people and bad
musicians, it threatened even now to become fatal to his love. Not long
ago he had made the terrible discovery in his own heart that treachery
was lurking there when he thought it altogether filled with love. He
had excused himself, it is true, as to the scene in the bay-window at
Barnewitz, by saying: I was beside myself; I did not know what I was
doing--but can jealousy ever be an excuse for faithlessness? And then:
Was that jealousy at least perfectly dead now? Had it not blazed up
again in bright flames when he found Melitta's image behind the curtain
in the baron's room? Had he not listened to Melitta's recital with
breathless apprehension, ever fearing lest now a fact might come out
which would after all confirm his suspicions about that man--lest she
might, after all, have loved this remarkable man, perhaps without
knowing it herself? Had she not said: "I thought I loved him!" And at
the very moment when her story had reached the catastrophe which was to
explain everything, even her evident antipathy to Oldenburg at this
time--just then a message is brought of such a strange and weird nature
that it ends in upsetting Oswald's overwrought mind! It was not enough,
that he had in Baron Oldenburg a rival facing him in bodily presence;
he must now encounter, besides, a husband, or at least the ghost of a
husband, who rises from a night of insanity that has lasted seven
years, to beckon her to his dying bed--her, his beloved, his Melitta!
Oswald felt as if his own mind would give way were he to follow out
this thought. He had so completely forgotten that Melitta had ever been
married, that she had ever lain in the arms of another man, it mattered
little whether she had loved him or not--that she had ever accepted his
caresses--he crushed her letter, he could have cried aloud with pain,
he felt like dashing his head against the rocky cliffs. Why this poison
in the cup of his love? Why must the pure garments of his angel be
dragged through the mire of vulgar life? Why must a foul worm have been
gnawing at the beautiful flower? And if she were only free now! But
even when the night of insanity was to be swallowed up in the night of
death, she would not be free yet. She is the mother of her child, of
his child, and this consideration, forgotten for the moment, will
resume its place in the foreground, and she will have to give me up!
And yet, why should it not be so? Can I, the enthusiast for liberty,
ever marry the aristocrat? Can I dream of intruding upon a class of men
who will ever look at me askant? No! No! Rather live like these poor
fishermen, who must earn their daily bread at the risk of their lives
in their strife with the cruel ocean.
Thus Oswald's mind was wandering restlessly about in a labyrinth of
painful doubts as he himself was wandering among the cliffs on the
lonely shore, and who knows where this constant brooding on painful
riddles might have led him in the end, if an event had not occurred
which forced him unexpectedly, and very much against his will, to
return to that society which he hated so bitterly.
CHAPTER XIII.
For when he returned on the next following day, towards evening, from a
long absence to the village, he found a carriage and two horses
standing before the door of Mother Carsten's cottage. This was so very
unusual an event in this secluded part of the world, that Oswald at
once presumed something extraordinary must have happened. Women and
children, and the few men who were not out fishing, stood staring
around the carriage and the door of the cottage. They wanted to know if
Stephen, Mother Carsten's father, was really going to die this time, or
whether the young doctor whom Mother Carsten had sent for a few hours
ago, would once more save him in spite of his fearful cough.
This was what Oswald learned when he came in their midst. They stood
there with troubled faces, and were very talkative, contrary to their
usual habit. For Father Stephen was the patriarch of the village,
honored by all, even by Oswald, who, forgetful of his incognito, at
once hastened into the house and the sitting-room. The white-haired old
man sat there pale and languid, but apparently out of danger--thanks to
the opportune assistance of Doctor Braun, who was just trying to escape
from the expressions of gratitude with which he was overwhelmed by
Mother Carsten, her daughters, and half a dozen other women.
"Welcome!" he said to Oswald, as the latter entered, "Welcome indeed,
for I have a commission for you; will you permit me to deliver it at
once, as my time is short?"
The doctor took Oswald unceremoniously by the arm and led him out of
the house.
"Pardon my impatience," he said, as they were walking down the beach
arm in arm, "but you see I am running away from the thanks of these
good people; and secondly, I look upon you, although we have, to my
regret, met only once before, as an old acquaintance, for you have been
very much in my thoughts since we met last at Mother Claus' cottage.
But now for my message! You probably do not know that the Grenwitz
family have all returned from their great journey, which I had
prescribed a few days ago."
"No!" said Oswald, very much astonished.
"How should you know it, to be sure, in this secluded village,
inhabited only by rude ichthyophagi? Enough, they are all back! The
baron--so says reliable Anna Maria had a terrible attack of fever in
Hamburg. The doctor who was called in declared it would be madness to
undertake a sea-voyage under such circumstances, and advised a return
home. Anna Maria, who had always opposed the journey, approved highly
of his advice--_bref!_ they packed the whole family, Miss Helen
included, into the old family coach, and here they are back again since
last night! Of course they sent immediately for me. I have been there
this afternoon, and when I accidentally mentioned that I would have to
come to this village, the baroness begged me to tell you that they
would be delighted at Grenwitz to see you once more within the old
walls of the chateau. I replied that it gave me very particular
pleasure to execute their commission, and that I would offer you my
carriage and my company, if you were ready to return with me--an offer
which I herewith most respectfully beg leave to repeat."
Doctor Braun said this cheerfully and with much animation, as was his
wont, fixing his gray eyes, with the bright brown stars, steadily upon
Oswald. "I am not very welcome, I see; you need not conceal it from
me!" he added.
"Not at all," replied Oswald, "I mean I know very well to distinguish
the messenger from the message, as Achilles did when they stole his
Brisaeis."
"And who is the beautiful Brisaeis they have stolen from you?" asked the
doctor.
"Solitude!" replied Oswald.
"Well, I do not blame myself much for that," said the other, laughing;
"solitude is like the perfume of poisonous plants, sweet, but
intoxicating, and in time downright fatal, even for the strongest
constitutions. Will you follow my advice? Let the fair Brisaeis go her
way unhindered, wherever she wants to go; take a seat in my carriage,
and let us drive to Grenwitz, where you will, moreover, find a girl
that will make you cry out, at first sight: Here is more than Brisaeis!"
"Miss Helen?"
"Miss Helen--also a Greek name, and one of better sound than the other.
But the sun, or rather Helios, is lowering his chariot, and my horses
are becoming impatient. You will come?"
"Certainly!" said Oswald.
* * * * *
Fifteen minutes later the carriage with the two young men was already
rolling swiftly towards Grenwitz, which was only an hour's distance
off. Oswald had been compelled to promise Mother Carsten that he would
soon come back again. Old and young had crowded around him with great
cordiality, calling Good-by, sir! after him, and thus showing that
without any effort on his part he had succeeded, during the short time
of his stay there, in winning the favor of the harmless good people in
a high degree.
The evening was extremely beautiful. The sun was hanging like a red
ball on the horizon and poured a magic light over the lonely landscape.
In the tall heather the cicadae were chirping; right and left, while
above the swallows were swiftly shooting to and fro in the clear soft
air. Oswald felt for the first time almost cheerful again, and had to
admit that the wise man by his side was right in saying that the
pleasures of solitude were paid for too dear.
"How sorry I am," he said, "that we have not been able to carry out our
intention of meeting more frequently."
"_L'homme propose et Dieu dispose_," replied Doctor Braun. "We must try
to do better hereafter. You will remain, I am told, for some time in
this neighborhood, and I also will probably not move to Grunwald as
soon as I had intended."
"You mean to settle there?"
"At least for a time. I am in competition here with an excellent man,
who has certainly far more experience than I have, but who still
suffers by the good luck I have had in some cases where I have cured my
patients, and because the world is ever running after something new,
though it may not be any better than what they had before. Two
physicians, however, is too much for this neighborhood; my colleague is
old and has to support a large family; I am young and as yet only
engaged to be married--consequently it is for me to make room for him."
"That is very generous."
"It may look so, but it is not quite so generous. I only pour out
the good water because I hope to find it still better. My future
father-in-law is one of the first physicians in Grunwald. Half of his
practice I shall certainly fall heir to when he retires, which he
contemplates doing. My future wife is at home in Grunwald, and as every
fish is most comfortable in its own little pond, and as I am, besides,
heartily tired of the company of Cyclops and Ichthyophagi--well, you
see my generosity does not go very far, after all."
"Would it be indiscreet to ask you the name of your lady?"
"Not at all: Miss Roban."
"I have often had the pleasure of meeting Miss Roban in company, when I
lived in Grunwald. My worthy friend, Professor Berger, used to call her
the only swan in an enormous flock of geese."
"You lived some time in Grunwald?"
"I have but just left it, after having led a most idyllic life in the
shady, silent street of the good old town for half a year, and after
having passed through my examinations under Berger's auspices."
"But--I fear you will complain of my indiscretion--what induced you,
when you once had that bridge of the blind and the lame behind you, to
prefer the still life of a tutor in a noble family to a sphere of
action in a larger circle? You have evidently all the qualifications
for the latter, while here it is simply impossible for you to develop
your full powers?"
"What induced me?" replied Oswald; "I hardly know myself. This only I
know: I always had an innate horror of what the world calls a permanent
place; then the influence of Professor Berger, who advised me earnestly
not to tie myself down before my time, but first to wander a few years
about in the world. My present engagement actually binds me to do so,
as soon as my pupils shall have wings able to bear them abroad."
"Do you know, I fear, or rather I hope, you will not be able to carry
out the plans of your eccentric friend as far as he intended?"
"Why?"
"Because--pardon me if I am too candid--because you are here in a false
position, which must sooner or later become unbearable. Such a position
is good only for one who cannot stand on his own feet, and is compelled
to lean upon others; one who is accustomed from childhood up to
subordinate his will to that of others, or rather, one who has no will
and no opinion of his own. You are nothing of the kind. You are far too
important for these people. They annoy you, and _vice versa_. You think
the baroness, what she really is, an ambitious, proud, avaricious
person, stupid in spite of her reading; the baroness thinks you, what
you are not, an immensely conceited, supercilious fool. You live in the
same house, you eat at the same table, and yet you have no more points
of contact than if a world lay between you. You stay together because
neither of you chooses to say the word that will part you till the
moment comes when one or the other will be compelled to utter it. Am I
right?"
"I cannot deny it."
"You see! And the matter will be worse and worse."
"Why so?"
"Till now you had in this house of fools only one noble being whom you
could love and pity, that admirable boy, Bruno; now, when you return,
you will find there a second client. I fear the poor girl has been
dragged away from her idyl, at the Hamburg boarding-house, in order to
play the principal part in a family tragedy. I fear there is a terrible
tempest ready to break upon the fair head of the unfortunate girl. As I
know you, you will try to ward off the blow and you will be
disconsolate if you fail. You look at me with open eyes, and I see that
you know as good as nothing of the secrets of the family with whom you
have been living now for three months. The thing is this: Anna Maria
lives in constant fear of the death of the baron, because, as soon as
he dies, she loses not only an old husband, but also the prospect of
laying up quite a fortune out of the surplus of her revenues. That is
why Malte is of less importance to her. Nevertheless, she fears for
him also, because at his death the entail passes out of the family,
and into the hands of a younger line, of which Felix Grenwitz, an
ex-lieutenant and well-known roue, is the representative. And now comes
the deviltry: to secure her influence even after the death of the baron
and of Malte, Anna Maria has concocted a match between Miss Helen and
her excellent cousin Felix. The poor child knows nothing as yet of this
interesting project; but I fear the great Felix knows all the more. He
is coming to Grenwitz in a few days--as the baroness says, to recover
his worn-out health, far from the exciting life of the city, in the
peaceful retirement of country life. In a word, it is the usual
_misere_ of Credit and Debit, the ordinary farce in which an innocent
doll-baby is trained and prepared, and you will have the happiness to
be allowed admittance to this sublime performance."
"That shall never be," exclaimed Oswald.
"Then you will give up your place."
"I suppose I must--or----" a tempest of passion filled Oswald's soul.
He thought of unhappy Marie, who now frequently appeared to him in his
dreams, with her hands crossed on her bosom, and looking like a
martyred saint; he thought of Melitta, who had been sold by her own
father! Now the rascality was to be repeated--before his eyes.
"Never, never!" he said.
"Then you will give up your place?"
"No; at least not till I have defeated that plan in some way or
other--before I have done all in my power to defeat it!"
"But what do you think you can do? My dear friend, generosity is a
virtue which has to be examined very closely, lest the crown of the
hero, of which we dream, changes into a fool's cap! Think of the noble
knight of La Mancha, and how his knightly body was beaten and bruised
for his benevolent intentions!--And then, are you sure that the
Andromeda, whose Perseus you propose to become, really desires to be
liberated? I do not know Baron Felix--perhaps he is better than his
reputation; I never said two words to Miss Helen--perhaps she is by no
means as good and sweet as she is beautiful."
"She is so, rely upon it," cried Oswald, warmly.
"It is well for you, you are not thirty yet!" laughed the doctor.
"Why?"
"Because you know what happens to enthusiasts at that time of life,
according to Goethe? They die--on the same cross which they have been
dragging through life so far. But here we are at the gates. Will you
permit me to set you down here? I have to make a visit in the village
and this is the nearest way; if I went through the castle it would
detain one too long. Day after to-morrow I shall be in Grenwitz. I hope
your pulse will be calmer then. I told you before: Solitude is simply
poison for your system. Adieu!"
CHAPTER XIV.
It was a superb sight which the courtyard of Castle Grenwitz presented
when Oswald entered through the dark portal,--a sight well calculated
to lull a careworn heart to slumber. The red evening sun was still
lying warm on the highest tops of the magnificent linden-trees, which
led up to the portal of the chateau, and upon the lofty battlements of
the old castle; but deep shadows had fallen already upon the space
beneath the trees, the sides of the walls, and the tall grass, which
everywhere cropped out between the pavement. The crowns of the
linden-trees, which were covered with a snow of white blossoms, exhaled
a sweet perfume which filled the whole atmosphere. All around reigned
such perfect stillness that the busy hum of insects was distinctly
heard; on the brim of the basin of the headless Naiad sat a little bird
and sang to the setting sun; high up in the rose-colored air a few
swallows were still swiftly shooting to and fro, as if they could not
leave the glorious bright air for their homes below.
Slowly, almost reluctantly, Oswald approached the chateau. He felt the
charm of this evening hour, and knew that the first word spoken by man
would break it. But he met no one. The whole courtyard was deserted. He
ascended the winding staircase and went through the long passages, in
which his footsteps sounded loud, to his room. The windows were open;
the arm-chair stood in its right place; on the table, before the sofa,
stood a vase filled with fresh flowers, and the head of the Belvedere
Apollo had also been crowned with ivy. The room had been righted up by
one who knew the owner's peculiarities. Evidently Bruno had been at
work here.
Oswald was most pleasantly surprised by this silent and yet eloquent
welcome. It was like a warm hand which kindly pressed his own,--like a
breath that whispered his name. The storm in his soul, which had been
roused by the doctor's words, had passed away, and its place was filled
by melancholy sadness.
Oswald had been sitting at the window, leaning his head on his hand.
Suddenly he thought he heard voices from the lawn on the other side of
the chateau. He recollected that it was time he should seek out the
company and speak to them. He dressed, took a carnation from the
bouquet, and went down.
As he opened the door of the sitting-room, from which the glass door
led upon the lawn, he heard the voices more distinctly, and when he had
entered the empty room, he saw a part of the company busy upon the lawn
with the favorite game of the baroness. He softly went up to the door,
and remained standing at the very spot from which Melitta on that
afternoon had seen him for the first time, when he came from under the
trees, arm in arm with Bruno.
The company consisted of the baron and the baroness, Mademoiselle
Marguerite and Mr. Timm, Malte and Bruno, and a young lady who was
turning her back to Bruno, so that he could only see the slender, lithe
figure, whose charming outlines a simple white robe set off to great
advantage, and the luxuriant, slightly curling black hair, which,
parted in the middle, was taken up behind in countless braids and
plaits, following the contour of the marvellously well-shaped head.
Oswald's eyes were attracted, as if by magic spell, by this youthful
figure who stood there motionless, without leaving the place for a
moment, and who only at regular intervals raised the arms in order to
receive the graces sent to her with unerring accuracy by her neighbor
Bruno, or to send them on to Malte, who let them as regularly drop, and
bitterly complained that Helen was throwing so badly. He added that she
only did it to spite him, and that somebody else ought to take his
place.
"Then come here, Helen," said the baroness. "You really throw too
badly."
Mother and daughter exchanged places, and Oswald could now see Helen's
face.
It was one of those faces that are never forgotten again; one of those
faces which we remember with melancholy pleasure half a century later,
as we remember a warm summer evening on which we little school-boys
were playing in a garden and the laughing of the big girls came from
the garden-house; one of those faces which smile upon us when we are
most sad, like a ray of the sun on a dismal autumnal day, which, when
all is sad and sorrowful in our hearts, make us believe once more in
poetry, and in all that is good and divine.
Oswald was standing there lost in admiration, as we remain standing in
adoration before a sublime painting. It was not the lovely oval of the
charming face; it was not the large, dark, dreamy eyes which shone
forth from under the long, black lashes with such magic light; it was
not the full, rosy lips that laughed so bewitchingly, nor the dark
carnation of her velvety complexion--it was all and everything. Who can
catch the sunbeams? Who can reduce the song of the nightingale to
notes? Who can analyze beauty? Oswald did not attempt it; he only felt
that he never had seen, and never would see anything more beautiful in
all his life, and he fancied a sweet dream he had so often dreamt was
at last fulfilled, and he had found the Blue Flower for which he had
been looking everywhere in vain.
Oswald wished to speak to the company, but he felt as if he were
chained to the ground. An inexplicable anxiety seized him, a timid
fear, as if something fearful must happen next; as if at that moment
the secret powers of Fate were deciding on his weal and woe for
life.... He would have liked to fly away to the deepest solitude.
He noticed just then that the old baron, who might have found it too
cool out of doors, had left the circle, and was coming up to the house.
He made an effort and stepped through the glass door to meet him. His
appearance was of course noticed at once, and a universal: Ah, see
there, Doctor Stein! See there, the doctor! greeted him, while Bruno,
running and leaping up to him, had embraced him long before the others
could come near to greet him.
"Why, this is charming, doctor," said the baroness, with her most
gracious smile. "We were inconsolable at the thought that we would miss
you for weeks yet, and now you are here in our midst. What do you say
to our coming back so soon? Poor Grenwitz! he was very sick. Go in,
dear Grenwitz, it is really quite cool out here. We will all go in. And
our circle has been added to in the mean time. Where is Helen?--_Helene,
viens ici, ma chere!_ Let me present my daughter Helen to you. I have
made her hope that you will be kind enough to help her in supplying
the many things she ought to have learnt and has not learnt. For you
do not know how very imperfect the education of girls in boarding-schools
is in point of science! I am sure you will admit the little one among
your pupils? _Mademoiselle, n'avez-vous pas mon fichu? Ah, le voila.
Merci bien! et dites-donc qu'on allume la lampe!_ I think we will all
go into the salon."
"Certainly," said Mr. Timm, who had been unusually quiet so far. "Hard
weeks, pleasant Sundays, work in the day-time, and a merry bowl at
night, as the old Privy Councillor says. No allusion, madam, I assure
you!"
"But you would not be sorry, I am sure, if we understood the allusion,
eh?" said the baroness, apparently determined to charm everybody
to-night.
"I would not be true to myself if I were to deny it," said Mr. Timm,
placing his hand on his heart, "and you know, madam, I hate all want of
truthfulness."
"_Eh bien_," said the baroness, "and you shall yourself select the
ingredients. Will you arrange it with mademoiselle?"
"Famous," said Mr. Timm; "madam, permit me to kiss your hand," and
after having obtained and used the permission, he drew the little
Frenchwoman aside to teach her the receipt for a famous bowl of punch.
They had been sitting perhaps for an hour in the salon, pleasantly
chatting, Mr. Timm had sung several comic songs of his own composition
with the accompaniment of the piano, and performed a few burlesque
scenes, in which he represented two or three different persons with as
many different voices,--in short, he had done all in his power to amuse
the somewhat silent company, and yet been compelled to drink his
self-brewed punch almost alone,--when the baroness proposed that they
should retire. Mr. Timm requested, as his only reward for his efforts,
the permission to kiss the ladies' hands, which was granted him very
graciously by the baroness. Miss Helen, however, refused, and told him
curtly, and slightly contracting her beautifully arched brows, that the
artist's reward was in himself. Mr. Timm began to remonstrate, but
Oswald cut the matter short by wishing everybody "Good-night!" and
leaving the room with Bruno (Malte had gone to bed before), thus
compelling Mr. Timm, who lived in the same part of the building, to
follow his example. Altogether Oswald had not treated his old friend
exactly well, and it required all the good-nature and the humility of
the latter to bear it quietly, and to continue in his usual reckless
way of talking till they had reached their rooms.
"God be thanked!" said Oswald, when he saw himself alone in his room
with Bruno, "at last we are rid of the eternal talker. And I have not
yet been able to ask your pardon, Bruno, for my coldness and
indifference at our last parting, nor to thank you for forgetting it
all like a good brother.--Was it you who prepared me such a friendly
welcome? Who put those flowers there?"
"Yes----"
"And the ivy wreath around the head of Apollo?"
"Yes."
"And you put the arm-chair in its place?"
"Yes----"
"You dear, dear fellow! Come, let us both sit down in it, and now you
must tell me all about your wanderings, of the cities you have seen, of
the Cyclopes you have blinded, of the sufferings you have endured--all,
all in order, you know, as Polyphemus milks his sheep."
Oswald had thrown himself into the chair, and drawn Bruno down on his
lap. Thus they sat; the boy came close up to his only friend and began
to tell,--first describing ironically the journey; how now the baron
and now Malte had been unable to sit with their backs to the horses;
how, at last, both had taken a seat on the box, while the postilion
came into the carriage--and how much he, Bruno, had enjoyed it to see
ever new towns and villages, and at last Hamburg itself.
Then his recital assumed another tone. He described quite seriously the
impression made upon him by the city, the fine, stately houses, the
crowd in the streets, the activity in the harbor, the great basin, in
which the brilliant gas-lights were reflected, and what a superb effect
that produced, and how he had come near falling into the water, if
Helen had not held him. And when he had once mentioned Helen's name it
turned up continually, like a bright star amid dark clouds; how Helen
had wept upon leaving Hamburg; how she had dried her tears at her
mother's words: "You seem to be quite sorry to return to your parents,"
and how she had scarcely ever smiled after that during the whole
journey. For she is very proud, he added, but also very, very kind
towards all she loves, for instance, towards her father and also
towards me, although I would not pretend to say that she is fond of me.
Only this, the boy said, he knew, that one evening, when it was very
late and he very tired from the long ride, so that he could not keep
his eyes open any longer, she had sat very quietly and patiently, with
his head resting on her shoulder. He should never forget her for that;
and if ever the opportunity offered to render her any service, he only
wished it would be a matter of life and death, else it would not be
enough for him.
Thus the boy talked on, and the words fell like fiery sparks from a
house in full blaze, and his cheeks were all aglow. Oswald noticed that
the beautiful girl had made a deep impression upon the wild boy, but he
did not suspect how deep, how all-powerful this impression was, and
what a revolution this first sudden affection had produced in his
precocious and overflowing heart. He laughed at his pet's fiery
enthusiasm all the more wittily, as he shared it in no inconsiderable
degree, and Bruno, who accepted anything from Oswald, laughed too, and
laughing and joking they said "Good-night" to each other. Bruno went to
his room; Oswald sat down again in his chair.
The lamp was burning on the table before the sofa, but so dimly that
even the faint gleam of the moon, which was just rising above the
forest, could be distinctly seen in the room. A single star near the
delicate crescent shone from the nightly blue of the sky. The soft
balsamic air came in through the open window--it was so still that the
noise of the falling dew-drops could be distinctly heard. And now, as
Oswald sat and listened, he heard suddenly the sounds of a piano,
coming to him like the echo of an AEolian harp. It was evidently a most
skilful hand that produced them; first low, quite low, as if she feared
to awake night from her slumber, then very gradually louder and louder.
The accords floated slowly into a melody, and soon a soft alto voice
began to sing the song to which the melody belonged. Oswald could not
hear the words, but they seemed to be soft and sad as the air, which
spoke wondrously to the heart with its simple touching complaint.
Such music at such an hour would have charmed Oswald even if he had not
suspected who the singer was. But now that he knew there was no one
else who could sing here but the beautiful girl, before whom he had
that night bowed his soul in adoration as before an apparition from on
high, at seeing whom he had felt as if a new revelation was vouchsafed
to him--now it touched the innermost chords of his heart, and he felt
as if he must seek words to give vent to the overwhelming impression
which he could not otherwise master. He rose like a drunken man from
his seat at the window, he went to the table and wrote in wild,
incoherent words, which gradually arranged themselves and finally
assumed the shape of a sonnet. He locked it up carefully and went
back to the window. The moon and the stars were hid behind a dark
storm-cloud, which had risen behind them and now overhung that part of
the heavens. The song had ceased and the night wind alone sang in the
trees.
He closed the window and went to his couch. A heavy sleep fell upon
him, disturbed by anxious dreams. Now he was in a terrible fire, and
now he was to be torn by wild beasts; then again he felt that
indescribable anguish which seems to be a horror coming down to us from
another world, but always at the moment of greatest need an angel
appeared at his side and stretched a protecting hand over him, and this
angel bore the features of--Melitta.
CHAPTER XV.
As Oswald was looking for something among the papers on his
writing-table, on the following morning, he came upon a note, which he
had overlooked the night before. He recognized at once the handwriting,
which was as problematic as the writer, with its now bold and grand,
now scribbled and confused characters. Oldenburg wrote:--
"I have just received information which compels me to start immediately
on a distant journey, which may be extended I know not how long.
Certainly not less than a week. I write these lines to drop them at
Grenwitz, if I should not see you, which I would regret very much, as I
have much to tell you. I take our Czika with me, as the solitude does
not seem to me a safe place for her during my absence. I shall
certainly be back for the day appointed by the gypsy woman. Until then,
farewell.
"In great haste, and with still greater friendship,
"A. O."
Oswald was strangely impressed by this letter, for that divining power
which plays so prominent a part in matters of the heart, made him at
once suspect some connection between this sudden departure of Oldenburg
and Melitta's departure. Whether much that he heard about the relations
existing between the two appeared to him now in a new light since
Melitta's recital, or whether it was merely the vagueness of
Oldenburg's statement--enough, Oswald resented it as a kind of insult,
that he was continually encountering riddles in that direction. He
determined to go across to Berkow this very day, and to see if old
Baumann had a letter for him from Melitta.
Then his thoughts turned into another channel when his eye fell upon
the verses he had written the night before. He smiled now as he read
them over. "There your wretched imagination has played you another
trick," he said to himself. "You have only to hear of a pretty girl who
is to marry somebody else and not your highness, and you have a
paroxysm of pity with the girl and a paroxysm of hate against the man.
And then you have only to see the girl, and to find that she has large
bright eyes, and looks more attractive than half-grown girls generally
do, and a boy has only to tell you stories about this half-grown girl,
and you are forced to write miserable verses like these, which I
would put instantly in the fire if we were not unfortunately in the
dog-days."
But Oswald held no _auto da fe_, although the light of a candle would
have done him the same service, but put the paper away again in his
desk.
The morning greeted him so kindly from the dew-refreshed garden, that
Oswald could not resist the temptation to saunter about a little among
the flower-beds and in the shady avenues. Besides, it was early yet,
almost two hour's time, and the boys were still asleep.
Oswald hastened down and went to his favorite place, the immense wall
which encircled the chateau, the garden, and the courtyard, and on
which he loved to walk under the beeches and the walnut-trees,
especially in the morning, when the red rays of the sun were peeping
through the waving branches, and the half-wild ducks were enjoying
themselves heartily on the moss-grown moat.
Oswald sauntered leisurely along, enjoying all the charming details of
the delicious morning, and giving himself up to the enjoyment all the
more heartily to-day, as the loveliness, the soft beauty that
surrounded him here on all sides contrasted very strangely with the
sombre monotony of the seacoast, which he had of late continually had
before his eyes. Now he could hardly understand how he had been so
completely overcome by his bad humor. The doctor was right: solitude is
a sweet intoxicating poison which finally kills. I must consult the
doctor frequently. A clear head, which sees men and things always in
the right light. But still he is mistaken about the proposed match
between Miss Helen and her cousin. In the first place, she is much too
young; secondly, she is too beautiful; and thirdly, I won't have it. Do
you hear, _madame la baroness_? I won't have it! You will not carry out
your nice plan, however much you may stare at me with your big and
presumptuous eyes, and draw yourself up to your full height.
It was fortunate that Oswald was not pronouncing these words grandly
and pathetically, but murmured them merely in his beard, for just as he
was turning round the corner of the walk, which a projecting shrub made
still sharper, he found himself suddenly face to face with Miss Helen.
The meeting was so surprising to both parties that the young girl
scarcely succeeded in suppressing a loud cry, and Oswald, contrary to
his habit, became exceedingly embarrassed, and hardly knew whether to
speak to the young lady or pass her with a silent bow.
Miss Helen, however, relieved him from his doubts; for she found it
quite natural that the young tutor, whose powers of conversation had
not shone forth very brightly the night before, should not have the
presence of mind to start immediately a conversation. She thought it,
therefore, quite proper to help him, by making a harmless remark about
the fine morning.
"The fine morning, I see, has brought you out too."
"Yes, the morning is really very fine."
"Delicious. Have you always had such fine weather of late?"
"Always--I mean, a few rainy days excepted."
"When one sees the sky looking so deep blue, one would be tempted to
consider bad weather a fairy fable--don't you think so?"
"Certainly."
Miss Helen probably thought the very clever conversation had lasted
quite long enough, and as they happened to have come to a place where a
narrow flight of steps led down from the wall into the garden, she
availed herself of this opportunity to end the scene in her own
interest and that of her monosyllabic companion.
"Have you any idea what time it is?"
"Half-past six."
"Already? Then I must make haste to get back to the house before mamma
finds out that I am not there."
Miss Helen nodded carelessly with her head, stepped down the steep
steps, and went slowly between the flower-beds towards the house.
"The happy know no hour," said Oswald to himself, following the slender
youthful figure with his eyes; "my meteorological observations have
evidently not made her happy, and she was less anxious to get back to
the house than to get away from me. At all events, she seems to have
time enough to gather a pretty bouquet. It is no doubt intended for me.
I have evidently made a conquest. How she looked at me with her,
wonderful eyes, half pitying, half contemptuous, as if she meant to
say: I do you a great favor if I leave you alone with your bashfulness!
She is proud, says Bruno, but how well that pride becomes her! How can
a girl with such a face, such eyes, and such hair, be anything else but
proud? It is her atmosphere, in which alone she can live, as the eagle
in the highest regions of the air. The eagle is proud, too, and no one
blames him for it.... How very beautiful she is! A superb beauty that
need not be afraid of broad daylight, and that seems to be the greater
the more costly the frame is in which it is set. A weird kind of
beauty, too, that enchains us, and transfixes us as that of the deadly
beautiful Medusa. Ah! now I know it! It is the very face of the
Grenwitz family, of which Albert spoke--divine, and yet not without its
trace of the Evil One! Feature by feature! it is Harald's face
translated into the other sex; the same demoniac eyes, the same
intoxicating feature around the full, almost exuberant lips, the same
strength in the luxuriant bluish black hair which curls high up on the
broad, firm forehead!--Gracious mamma! You are sorely mistaken if you
fancy that forehead will easily bow to your decrees! Excellent Baron
Felix, you will have to do great credit to your name as the lucky one,
if you wish to succeed here! The morning is really delightful, and one
would really be tempted to consider bad weather a fairy tale when one
sees the skies so deep blue."
Oswald had of late been so exclusively occupied with his own affairs
that he now felt the want, for a change, to interest himself in the
affairs of others. The baroness was surprised at the sympathy with
which he entered upon her ideas at table, and during a long
conversation after dinner. He actually discussed with her several
questions which she raised about his instruction: Would it not be
expedient during the hot terms to commence the lessons at seven instead
of eight? Might not the afternoon lessons be altogether omitted? Did he
think the books which Helen had so far used for her studies of History
and Literature still suitable for her? Would two lessons a week suffice
for her? and did he think the morning or the evening better for the
purpose?
The old baron also was pleasantly surprised when Oswald proved an
attentive listener to the long history of his complaints. Oswald had
always treated him with great courtesy, and he had looked upon him as a
good and amiable young man, in spite of the decided opposition of Anna
Maria and the somewhat doubtful assent of the Reverend Mr. Jager. He
was glad, therefore, to be able to express this opinion today in
harmony with Anna Maria. The journey seemed in fact to have produced a
most happy influence on the baroness. Mademoiselle Marguerite, who
certainly had the means of forming an opinion on that subject, told
Albert: "She is changed _totalement_, she me has not scolded a single
time the whole day;" whereupon the ingenuous Albert said: "Yes; I think
myself the old dragon is quite enjoyable to-day." In a word, such peace
and harmony reigned to-day at Castle Grenwitz as had not been known
there for many a year. Everybody seemed to have forgotten his reasons
for being discontented with the others. This might indeed be the result
of different causes in each case, but as the effect was very pleasing
to all, they took for good coin what everybody offered as such--of
course reserving the right to pay him back in the same coin.
Oswald had not forgotten his meeting with Miss Helen in the morning,
and, fully conscious of the impression he had then produced on the
beautiful, proud young lady, he was pleased to find more than one
opportunity during the day to make his natural advantages more
prominent. When they asked him at table to tell what had happened to
him during the absence of the family, he described his solitary life in
the fishermen's village, assuming a half-amusing, half-sentimental part
in the little drama, and taking good care to leave the romantic mystery
undisturbed, in which he concealed his stay there. Good Mother Carsten
became an heroic dame; her red-haired daughters, Stine and Line, were
changed into lovely Undines, and the old half-idiotic Father Stephen
into a wise Merlin. The chalk cliffs of the coast rose to immeasurable
heights, and the breakers thundered amid the rocks with Ossianic
majesty. The company, although feeling the exaggeration, listened
nevertheless with breathless interest, and Oswald felt, as the fairest
reward for his fantastic improvisation, that Helen's large brilliant
eyes were immovably fixed upon him during his recitals, half in wonder
and half in doubt.
He had become so completely the soul of the company that they seemed
almost to resent it when he declared, directly after supper, that he
could not join them on their proposed walk through the beech forest,
because it was mail-day the next day, and he had to write several
important letters. If Oswald meant by this refusal to comply with the
well-known rule, that we must retire at the very moment when we have
made ourselves necessary to the company, then he could be well
satisfied with his success. Miss Helen, at least, condescended to ask
him downright to stay, and as he insisted, she turned so abruptly from
him that her anger was evident.
But Oswald had in this case other and better motives to keep him from
staying any longer. The bright star which had just risen above the
horizon, had not blinded him so completely that he should have
forgotten the other constellation which had looked down upon him so
long, and with such a constant, faithful, loving light. He had hoped to
find a letter yesterday already; he was afraid old Baumann might have
inquired after him the same evening on which he had left the village
with the doctor. He had told Mother Carsten, to be sure, that he was
going back to Grenwitz; but old Baumann could of course not bring him
Melitta's letter to the chateau, where it might so easily fall into
wrong hands. And yet Oswald longed anxiously for the long-expected
letter.
As soon, therefore, as he had left the company he stole away through
the garden and the big gate, which led almost immediately into the pine
forest between Grenwitz and Berkow. It was dark already under the tall
trees, with their broad overhanging branches. The wood, warmed by the
heat of the day, gave out a fragrant aroma in the cool evening. The
whole forest lay buried in almost painful stillness.
And now in this solemn evening hour, in this imposing forest temple,
the memory of Melitta overcame Oswald's heart. Her tall form, so lovely
in all its round fulness; her rich brown hair, which flowed so softly
in swelling waves from the head down upon the shoulders; her dark
affectionate eyes, her lovely playful manner,--and alas! above all, her
unspeakable goodness and love,--how clearly her image stood before his
soul! how ardently he vowed never, never to be faithless to her, the
good, the sweet, the lovely one, not even in thought, and to return
infinite love for her love, come what may!
Then he heard the hoofs of a horse on the soft ground of the silent
forest, and soon a horseman rose in the twilight, who came up at a
rapid trot. Oswald started with joyful surprise when he recognized old
Baumann on Brownlock.
"A letter? Do you have a letter?" he cried, with such vehemence that
Brownlock started aside.
"Quiet, Brownlock, be quiet!" said the old man, patting the horse's
slender neck. "Good evening, sir! I have looked for you down at the
village, but whereas I was informed that you had already yesterday gone
to Grenwitz, I was on the point of riding over there----"
"But how if you had not found me there? and under what pretext could
you gain admittance there?--But never mind--where is the letter?"
"Here," said the old man, who had in the mean time got down from his
horse, drawing quite a considerable package from the deep pocket of his
long overcoat.
"Hand it here!"
"Be patient, I pray, sir! I have thought of everything. This package,
as you may see, is well tied up and sealed, and bears the inscription:
'Herewith the kindly lent books, with many thanks. Baumann will hand
you the others as soon as I have read them,' and the signature: 'Your
most obedient, B.'--that means, of course, Bemperlein as well as
Baumann, eh?"
Old Baumann had, while he was speaking, untied the string, and taken
from one of the three books which it contained a letter, which Oswald
hastily opened and held towards the light to read. But the darkness was
too great already under the trees; he could only decipher the
signature: dearest darling.
"I cannot see," he said, sadly.
"If you had remained in the village, as you intended doing the other
day, or if you had yesterday sent word to old Baumann, you would have
been in possession of my mistress' letter before daylight was gone."
Oswald felt the reproach hid in these calmly spoken words, and he found
no difficulty to confess his wrong to Melitta's faithful servant and
friend.
"I beg your pardon," he said, "that I have given you all this trouble.
I have blamed myself all day long for my thoughtlessness, and now I am
severely punished for it, for I hold the dear letter in my hand, and
yet I cannot see how Frau von Berkow is, whether she is well, if she
has reached the town, and a thousand other things which I should like
to know, and which, no doubt, are all mentioned here"--and he tried
once more to read the letter.
"Well, well," said old Baumann, "don't trouble yourself about me; ten
miles more or less don't matter much to me or to Brownlock; and as for
the news you want to hear, I can tell you something about that,
considering that Mr. Bemperlein has sent me a letter, in which he tells
me at full length all about the journey and what has happened when they
arrived there." The old man had hung the reins over his arm and walked
by Oswald's side; the latter hastened his steps to get out of the
forest, and to reach Grenwitz and his room as soon as possible.
"My mistress--God bless her," said the old man, "accompanied by Mr.
Bemperlein, reached her destination on the third day, and without
accident Mr. Bemperlein at once communicated with Dr. Birkenhain, and
learnt that Baron Berkow was still alive, but not restored to
consciousness, and so weak that his dissolution was expected every
hour. That continued so till the day when the letter was posted, on
which day my mistress, in company with Mr. Bemperlein and----"
The old man paused and coughed.
"Well, and----?" asked Oswald, whose suspicions about Baron Oldenburg
were once more aroused.
"Well, and the doctor, of course, who else?" said the old man. "Well,
what was I going to say? You have confused me with your question, sir.
Ah, yes! In company with Mr. Bemperlein and the doctor went to see the
baron for a few minutes. He did not recognize her, and the baron was so
changed that he looked to my mistress, as she had said herself, like a
perfect stranger. He also spoke a few words, but not one could be
understood. Then they went away again, and immediately the baron had
fallen once more into a deep sleep, and the doctor said that would
probably be his condition till he died--which the Lord may bring about
very soon by his mercy, so that the poor man may be relieved of his
sufferings and my mistress may at last be able to breathe freely."
"Amen!" said Oswald.
"For you see, sir," continued the old man, "my mistress has not had
much happiness all her life long, and that grieves me, for I love her
as if she were my own child, and perhaps better. For I have never had
any children myself, but I see how other fathers do with their
children, and how they are not ashamed to treat them not as fathers,
and not even as Christian men. And the father of my mistress--well, he
was my master, and I have fought through many a campaign with him, and
we ought not to speak evil of the departed--but he was a bad man, and
yet not exactly bad either, only wild and reckless, like the youngest
officer in the regiment. The madder an undertaking was, the better he
liked it, and mad deeds and bad deeds often look so much alike it is
hard to distinguish them. He meant no harm with them, however, even
when he remained as fond of ladies after his marriage as he had been
before, but he broke my mistress' heart nevertheless, and she died when
her only child was only two years old. Then there was nobody there to
take care of her but old Baumann. I took her and played with her, and
afterwards, when she grew up, I learnt to read and write with her, for
I did not know it before, and a little French, and whatever else I
could get into my old head. And then I taught her how to ride, so that
she has not her equal on horseback, and thus I grew once more young
with her, and never wanted any children of my own, for she was my
precious, darling child, although I was but a poor ignorant cavalryman,
and she a great lady of high and mighty family. And I have often
thought in my mind, if she would not have had a better life of it if
she had really been my child? For to be great and rich is all very
well, but I think, nevertheless, those whom God loves are born poor. I
should never have dreamt of selling my own blood and flesh for vile
Mammon; I should never have been on my knees before my own child,
beseeching her to marry such and such a person to save her father from
disgrace, when I knew very well she did not love him, but that he had
money enough to pay all my debts and to keep enough for her and for
him. And matters were not quite so bad yet with Baron Barnewitz. What
he had lost at play he might have won again at play, and he did win a
good deal back again, so that he often told me afterwards, when he had
taken a little too much: 'If I had known, Baumann, that I would have
such luck at faro, then the--it is an ugly word and an honest man don't
like to use it too often--then I would have given that man Berkow
something else, but not my daughter. My only consolation is, he won't
live long, and then she can marry to please her heart.' Well, my master
did not live long himself, but long enough to see with his own eyes the
mischief he had done. Then he would have given his life to undo what he
had done, but those who deal with the devil need not wonder if God
leaves them to their master. So the beautiful young lady became a
widow, and yet she was not a widow. She had money enough now, but I
think she would have been happier if she had lived under a thatched
roof with a good man, than so miserably alone in a big, lonely house,
There was Julius, to be sure; but one swallow does not make a summer,
and a child is not a family. You see, sir, that often made my heart
bleed, and when I saw my mistress wander so lonely through the garden
of an evening, I have often prayed to God to take poor Baron Berkow in
mercy up into heaven, and to let my poor mistress be happy for once in
her life, like other women who are not worthy to unloose the latchet of
her shoes. The man need not be rich, for she has enough for both, if
wealth there must be--but he ought to have a head and a heart of the
right sort, and he ought to love her better than the apple of his eye.
And if I knew such a man, and could get her such a husband, and saw her
happy by the side of such a man--then I should pray: Now, Lord, let thy
servant depart in peace!--But here we are at the gate. Well, goodnight,
sir! If you should have an answer ready to-morrow morning to the letter
of my mistress, I will wait for it, between five and six, a little
distance down the forest. My mistress would be glad, I am sure, if you
were to write soon."
"I shall be there punctually at five," said Oswald.
"Well, half an hour does not matter," said Old Baumann, mounting his
horse again. "The mail does not leave before eight o'clock, and till
then Brownlock can make the way twice. I wish you once more good-night,
sir."
The old man touched his cap, turned Brownlock round, and trotted
through the pine-trees back to Berkow.
Oswald hastened to his room without meeting anybody, as the company had
not yet returned from their promenade. With trembling hand he opened
the letter, and perused it with breathless haste, in order to read it
over and over again, as we read letters in which every word touches us
like kisses that come from lips we love.
When he sat down late at night to write his answer, he heard the same
voice singing which had produced such overflowing enthusiasm in him the
preceding night; but to-day he closed the window, for he felt that his
admiration for the beautiful girl was, after all, treason against his
love of Melitta, although he tried, of course, after the manner of men,
to silence the voice of his conscience as well as he could.
Part Third.
CHAPTER I.
Unfortunately, the next day was to give him ample occasion for
practising that wicked art.
For that very morning, as he returned from his meeting with Baumann,
who had been waiting for him in the forest at the appointed place to
take his letter, he could not deny himself the pleasure of walking
about a little in the garden. He intended only to stay a few minutes,
to walk just once around on the great wall, but he had now made the
turn twice from the great portal back again to the great portal, and
was beginning to make it for the third time, for the morning was really
delightful, and, if his eyes did not deceive him, a light dress was
shining through the trees and shrubs on the other side. Probably one of
the village girls at work in the garden. How he was surprised,
therefore, when he found soon after that it was Miss Helen! He could
not think of avoiding her. There were only a few flights of steps
leading down into the garden. There was nothing left, therefore, but to
cross his hands behind his back and to saunter slowly on, watching the
birds as they fluttered about in the branches, and the ducks below in
the moat, and to be a little surprised when he met Miss Helen precisely
at the same time and the same place as yesterday.
Miss Helen returned his bow with that calm reserve which harmonized so
well with the somewhat sombre character of her beauty, although it
seemed almost too cold and too haughty for a girl of her youthful age.
Perhaps her greeting would not have been quite so formal if Oswald had
not on purpose suppressed every trace of pleasant excitement. Then
followed a short conversation, by no means overflowing with cleverness,
on the weather, and a few indifferent questions on Oswald's part about
the promenade of last night, with short answers by Helen. Then once
more a polite and cool exchange of formal phrases. Miss Helen continued
her walk; Oswald had finished his promenade, which he "always enjoyed
between six and seven on the wall,"--a statement by no means founded on
truth,--and went back to his room. "What a pity," he said to himself,
"that such splendid beauty should hold, after all, but an ordinary
soul! What would Professor Berger say, if he saw his lovely bud
unfolded now into a dark-red rose? Would he weave another wreath of
sonnets and press it on her rich hair? Good, dear Berger, was it a
suggestion of your good or your evil angel, both of whom continually
struggle for the mastery in your great soul, to send me here into the
camp of our enemies? I was to return laden with trophies, scalps of
slain Iroquois which we were to hang up in our wigwams to feast our
eyes--what would you say if you heard of the narrow escapes your Uncas
has had from being scalped himself? But I will keep one promise: I will
not fall in love with this early praised beauty--no, and if she were as
clever as she is beautiful."
When Oswald came down to dinner he was most pleasantly surprised to
find Doctor Braun, who had come a few minutes before, and had accepted
the baroness' invitation to stay to dinner.
The doctor appeared in a larger circle to as much advantage as in
private; an easy, sociable, and refined man, who evidently had very
unusual powers of conversation and perfect self-possession. And what
was still more attractive, and really won Doctor Braun the hearts of
all, at least of all men of sense, was his real or apparent
unconsciousness of all these advantages. Nothing was evidently farther
from him than to make an exhibition of himself; on the contrary, he
took pleasure in leading others to a clearer understanding of their
views, and thus he was not less a good and patient listener than a
skilful speaker--two virtues rarely found united.