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It may be recorded none the less that the Prince was the next moment to

see how little any such assumption was founded. Alone with him now Mrs.

Assingham was incorruptible. “They send for Charlotte through YOU?”

“No, my dear; as you see, through the Ambassador.”

“Ah, but the Ambassador and you, for the last quarter-of-an-hour, have

been for them as one. He’s YOUR ambassador.” It may indeed be further

mentioned that the more Fanny looked at it the more she saw in it.

“They’ve connected her with you—she’s treated as your appendage.”

“Oh, my ‘appendage,’” the Prince amusedly exclaimed—“cara mia, what a

name! She’s treated, rather, say, as my ornament and my glory. And it’s

so remarkable a case for a mother-in-law that you surely can’t find

fault with it.”

“You’ve ornaments enough, it seems to me—as you’ve certainly glories

enough—without her. And she’s not the least little bit,” Mrs. Assingham

observed, “your mother-in-law. In such a matter a shade of difference is

enormous. She’s no relation to you whatever, and if she’s known in

high quarters but as going about with you, then—then—!” She failed,

however, as from positive intensity of vision. “Then, then what?” he

asked with perfect good-nature.

“She had better in such a case not be known at all.”

“But I assure you I never, just now, so much as mentioned her. Do you

suppose I asked them,” said the young man, still amused, “if they didn’t

want to see her? You surely don’t need to be shown that Charlotte speaks

for herself—that she does so above all on such an occasion as this and

looking as she does to-night. How, so looking, can she pass unnoticed?

How can she not have ‘success’? Besides,” he added as she but watched

his face, letting him say what he would, as if she wanted to see how he

would say it, “besides, there IS always the fact that we’re of the same

connection, of—what is your word?—the same ‘concern.’ We’re

certainly not, with the relation of our respective sposi, simply formal

acquaintances. We’re in the same boat”—and the Prince smiled with a

candour that added an accent to his emphasis.

Fanny Assingham was full of the special sense of his manner: it

caused her to turn for a moment’s refuge to a corner of her general

consciousness in which she could say to herself that she was glad SHE

wasn’t in love with such a man. As with Charlotte just before, she was

embarrassed by the difference between what she took in and what she

could say, what she felt and what she could show. “It only appears to

me of great importance that—now that you all seem more settled

here—Charlotte should be known, for any presentation, any further

circulation or introduction, as, in particular, her husband’s wife;

known in the least possible degree as anything else. I don’t know what

you mean by the ‘same’ boat. Charlotte is naturally in Mr. Verver’s

boat.”

“And, pray, am _I_ not in Mr. Verver’s boat too? Why, but for Mr.

Verver’s boat, I should have been by this time”—and his quick Italian

gesture, an expressive direction and motion of his forefinger, pointed

to deepest depths—“away down, down, down.” She knew of course what he

meant—how it had taken his father-in-law’s great fortune, and taken no

small slice, to surround him with an element in which, all too fatally

weighted as he had originally been, he could pecuniarily float; and with

this reminder other things came to her—how strange it was that, with

all allowance for their merit, it should befall some people to be so

inordinately valued, quoted, as they said in the stock-market, so high,

and how still stranger, perhaps, that there should be cases in which,

for some reason, one didn’t mind the so frequently marked absence in

them of the purpose really to represent their price. She was thinking,

feeling, at any rate, for herself; she was thinking that the pleasure

SHE could take in this specimen of the class didn’t suffer from his

consent to be merely made buoyant: partly because it was one of those

pleasures (he inspired them) that, by their nature, COULDN’T suffer, to

whatever proof they were put; and partly because, besides, he after all

visibly had on his conscience some sort of return for services

rendered. He was a huge expense assuredly—but it had been up to now her

conviction that his idea was to behave beautifully enough to make the

beauty well nigh an equivalent. And that he had carried out his idea,

carried it out by continuing to lead the life, to breathe the air, very

nearly to think the thoughts, that best suited his wife and her father—

this she had till lately enjoyed the comfort of so distinctly perceiving

as to have even been moved more than once, to express to him the

happiness it gave her. He had that in his favour as against other

matters; yet it discouraged her too, and rather oddly, that he should so

keep moving, and be able to show her that he moved, on the firm ground

of the truth. His acknowledgment of obligation was far from unimportant,

but she could find in his grasp of the real itself a kind of ominous

intimation. The intimation appeared to peep at her even out of his next

word, lightly as he produced it.

“Isn’t it rather as if we had, Charlotte and I, for bringing

us together, a benefactor in common?” And the effect, for his

interlocutress, was still further to be deepened. “I somehow feel, half

the time, as if he were her father-in-law too. It’s as if he had saved

us both—which is a fact in our lives, or at any rate in our hearts, to

make of itself a link. Don’t you remember”—he kept it up—“how, the day

she suddenly turned up for you, just before my wedding, we so frankly

and funnily talked, in her presence, of the advisability, for her, of

some good marriage?” And then as his friend’s face, in her extremity,

quite again as with Charlotte, but continued to fly the black flag of

general repudiation: “Well, we really began then, as it seems to me, the

work of placing her where she is. We were wholly right—and so was she.

That it was exactly the thing is shown by its success. We recommended

a good marriage at almost any price, so to speak, and, taking us at our

word, she has made the very best. That was really what we meant, wasn’t

it? Only—what she has got—something thoroughly good. It would be

difficult, it seems to me, for her to have anything better—once you

allow her the way it’s to be taken. Of course if you don’t allow her

that the case is different. Her offset is a certain decent freedom—

which, I judge, she’ll be quite contented with. You may say that will be

very good of her, but she strikes me as perfectly humble about it.

She proposes neither to claim it nor to use it with any sort of

retentissement. She would enjoy it, I think, quite as quietly as it

might be given. The ‘boat,’ you see”—the Prince explained it no less

considerately and lucidly—“is a good deal tied up at the dock, or

anchored, if you like, out in the stream. I have to jump out from time

to time to stretch my legs, and you’ll probably perceive, if you give it

your attention, that Charlotte really can’t help occasionally doing

the same. It isn’t even a question, sometimes, of one’s getting to the

dock—one has to take a header and splash about in the water. Call our

having remained here together to-night, call the accident of my

having put them, put our illustrious friends there, on my

companion’s track—for I grant you this as a practical result of our

combination—call the whole thing one of the harmless little plunges off

the deck, inevitable for each of us. Why not take them, when they occur,

as inevitable—and, above all, as not endangering life or limb? We

shan’t drown, we shan’t sink—at least I can answer for myself. Mrs.

Verver too, moreover—do her the justice—visibly knows how to swim.”

He could easily go on, for she didn’t interrupt him; Fanny felt now that

she wouldn’t have interrupted him for the world. She found his eloquence

precious; there was not a drop of it that she didn’t, in a manner,

catch, as it came, for immediate bottling, for future preservation. The

crystal flask of her innermost attention really received it on the spot,

and she had even already the vision of how, in the snug laboratory of

her afterthought, she should be able chemically to analyse it. There

were moments, positively, still beyond this, when, with the meeting of

their eyes, something as yet unnamable came out for her in his look,

when something strange and subtle and at variance with his words,

something that GAVE THEM AWAY, glimmered deep down, as an appeal, almost

an incredible one, to her finer comprehension. What, inconceivably,

was it like? Wasn’t it, however gross, such a rendering of anything so

occult, fairly like a quintessential wink, a hint of the possibility

of their REALLY treating their subject—of course on some better

occasion—and thereby, as well, finding it much more interesting? If

this far red spark, which might have been figured by her mind as the

head-light of an approaching train seen through the length of a tunnel,

was not, on her side, an ignis fatuus, a mere subjective phenomenon, it

twinkled there at the direct expense of what the Prince was inviting

her to understand. Meanwhile too, however, and unmistakably, the real

treatment of their subject did, at a given moment, sound. This was when

he proceeded, with just the same perfect possession of his thought—on

the manner of which he couldn’t have improved—to complete his

successful simile by another, in fact by just the supreme touch, the

touch for which it had till now been waiting. “For Mrs. Verver to be

known to people so intensely and exclusively as her husband’s wife,

something is wanted that, you know, they haven’t exactly got. He should

manage to be known—or at least to be seen—a little more as his wife’s

husband. You surely must by this time have seen for yourself that he has

his own habits and his own ways, and that he makes, more and more—as

of course he has a perfect right to do—his own discriminations. He’s so

perfect, so ideal a father, and, doubtless largely by that very fact,

a generous, a comfortable, an admirable father-in-law, that I should

really feel it base to avail myself of any standpoint whatever to

criticise him. To YOU, nevertheless, I may make just one remark; for

you’re not stupid—you always understand so blessedly what one means.”

He paused an instant, as if even this one remark might be difficult for

him should she give no sign of encouraging him to produce it. Nothing

would have induced her, however, to encourage him; she was now conscious

of having never in her life stood so still or sat, inwardly, as it were,

so tight; she felt like the horse of the adage, brought—and brought by

her own fault—to the water, but strong, for the occasion, in the one

fact that she couldn’t be forced to drink. Invited, in other words, to

understand, she held her breath for fear of showing she did, and this

for the excellent reason that she was at last fairly afraid to. It was

sharp for her, at the same time, that she was certain, in advance, of

his remark; that she heard it before it had sounded, that she

already tasted, in fine, the bitterness it would have for her special

sensibility. But her companion, from an inward and different need of his

own, was presently not deterred by her silence. “What I really don’t see

is why, from his own point of view—given, that is, his conditions, so

fortunate as they stood—he should have wished to marry at all.” There

it was then—exactly what she knew would come, and exactly, for reasons

that seemed now to thump at her heart, as distressing to her. Yet she

was resolved, meanwhile, not to suffer, as they used to say of the

martyrs, then and there; not to suffer, odiously, helplessly, in

public—which could be prevented but by her breaking off, with whatever

inconsequence; by her treating their discussion as ended and getting

away. She suddenly wanted to go home much as she had wanted, an hour

or two before, to come. She wanted to leave well behind her both her

question and the couple in whom it had, abruptly, taken such vivid

form—but it was dreadful to have the appearance of disconcerted flight.

Discussion had of itself, to her sense, become danger—such light, as

from open crevices, it let in; and the overt recognition of danger was

worse than anything else. The worst in fact came while she was thinking

how she could retreat and still not overtly recognise. Her face had

betrayed her trouble, and with that she was lost. “I’m afraid, however,”

the Prince said, “that I, for some reason, distress you—for which I beg

your pardon. We’ve always talked so well together—it has been, from

the beginning, the greatest pull for me.” Nothing so much as such a tone

could have quickened her collapse; she felt he had her now at his mercy,

and he showed, as he went on, that he knew it. “We shall talk again, all

the same, better than ever—I depend on it too much. Don’t you remember

what I told you, so definitely, one day before my marriage?—that,

moving as I did in so many ways among new things, mysteries, conditions,

expectations, assumptions different from any I had known, I looked to

you, as my original sponsor, my fairy godmother, to see me through. I

beg you to believe,” he added, “that I look to you yet.”

His very insistence had, fortunately, the next moment, affected her as

bringing her help; with which, at least, she could hold up her head to

speak. “Ah, you ARE through—you were through long ago. Or if you aren’t

you ought to be.”

“Well then, if I ought to be it’s all the more reason why you should

continue to help me. Because, very distinctly, I assure you, I’m not.

The new things or ever so many of them—are still for me new things;

the mysteries and expectations and assumptions still contain an immense

element that I’ve failed to puzzle out. As we’ve happened, so luckily,

to find ourselves again really taking hold together, you must let me, as

soon as possible, come to see you; you must give me a good, kind

hour. If you refuse it me”—and he addressed himself to her continued

reserve—“I shall feel that you deny, with a stony stare, your

responsibility.”

At this, as from a sudden shake, her reserve proved an inadequate

vessel. She could bear her own, her private reference to the weight on

her mind, but the touch of another hand made it too horribly press. “Oh,

I deny responsibility—to YOU. So far as I ever had it I’ve done with

it.”

He had been, all the while, beautifully smiling; but she made his look,

now, penetrate her again more. “As to whom then do you confess it?”

“Ah, mio caro, that’s—if to anyone—my own business!”

He continued to look at her hard. “You give me up then?”

It was what Charlotte had asked her ten minutes before, and its coming

from him so much in the same way shook her in her place. She was on the

point of replying “Do you and she agree together for what you’ll say

to me?”—but she was glad afterwards to have checked herself in time,

little as her actual answer had perhaps bettered it. “I think I don’t

know what to make of you.”

“You must receive me at least,” he said.

“Oh, please, not till I’m ready for you!”—and, though she found a laugh

for it, she had to turn away. She had never turned away from him before,

and it was quite positively for her as if she were altogether afraid of

him.

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