CHAPTER II

OURSELVES

It is Sunday. Through my open window a living ray of April has made

its way into my room. It has transformed the faded flowers of the

wallpaper and restored to newness the Turkey-red stuff which covers my

dressing-table.

I dress carefully, dallying to look at myself in the glass, closely and

farther away, in the fresh scent of soap. I try to make out whether my

eyes are little or big. They are the average, no doubt, but it really

seems to me that they have a tender brightness.

Then I look outside. It would seem that the town, under its misty

blankets in the hollow of the valley, is awaking later than its

inhabitants.

These I can see from up here, spreading abroad in the streets, since it

is Sunday. One does not recognize them all at once, so changed are

they by their unusual clothes;--women, ornate with color, and more

monumental than on week days; some old men, slightly straightened for

the occasion; and some very lowly people, whom only their cleanness

vaguely disguises.

The weak sunshine is dressing the red roofs and the blue roofs and the

sidewalks, and the tiny little stone setts all pressed together like

pebbles, where polished shoes are shining and squeaking. In that old

house at the corner, a house like a round lantern of shadow, gloomy old

Eudo is encrusted. It forms a comical blot, as though traced on an old

etching. A little further, Madame Piot's house bulges forth, glazed

like pottery. By the side of these uncommon dwellings one takes no

notice of the others, with their gray walls and shining curtains,

although it is of these that the town is made.

Halfway up the hill, which rises from the river bank, and opposite the

factory's plateau, appears the white geometry of the castle, and around

its pallors a tapestry of reddish foliage, and parks. Farther away,

pastures and growing crops which are part of the demesne; farther

still, among the stripes and squares of brown earth or verdant, the

cemetery, where every year so many stones spring up.

* * * * * *

We have to call at Brisbille's, my aunt and I, before Church. We are

forced to tolerate him thus, so as to get our twisted key put right. I

wait for Mame in the court, sitting on a tub by the shop, which is

lifeless to-day, and full of the scattered leavings of toil. Mame is

never ready in time. She has twice appeared on the threshold in her

fine black dress and velvet cape; then, having forgotten something, she

has gone back very quickly, like a mole. Finally, she must needs go up

to my room, to cast a last glance over it.

At last we are off, side by side. She takes my arm proudly. From time

to time she looks at me, and I at her, and her smile is an affectionate

grimace amid the sunshine.

When we have gone a little way, my aunt stops, "You go on," she says;

"I'll catch you up."

She has gone up to Apolline, the street-sweeper. The good woman, as

broad as she is long, was gaping on the edge of the causeway, her two

parallel arms feebly rowing in the air, an exile in the Sabbath

idleness, and awkwardly conscious of her absent broom.

Mame brings her along, and looking back as I walk, I hear her talking

of me, hastily, as one who confides a choking secret, while Apolline

follows, with her arms swinging far from her body, limping and

outspread like a crab.

Says Mame, "That boy's bedroom is untidy. And then, too, he uses too

many shirt-collars, and he doesn't know how to blow his nose. He

stuffs handkerchiefs into his pockets, and you find them again like

stones."

"All the same, he's a good young man," stammers the waddling street

cleanser, brandishing her broom-bereaved hands at random, and shaking

over her swollen and many-storied boots a skirt weighted round the hem

by a coat-of-mail of dry mud.

These confidences with which Mame is in the habit of breaking forth

before no matter whom get on my nerves. I call her with some

impatience. She starts at the command, comes up, and throws me a

martyr's glance.

She proceeds with her nose lowered under her black hat with green

foliage, hurt that I should thus have summoned her before everybody,

and profoundly irritated. So a persevering malice awakens again in the

depths of her, and she mutters, very low, "You spat on the window the

other day!"

But she cannot resist hooking herself again on to another interlocutor,

whose Sunday trousers are planted on the causeway, like two posts, and

his blouse as stiff as a lump of iron ore. I leave them, and go alone

into Brisbille's.

The smithy hearth befires a workshop which bristles with black objects.

In the middle of the dark bodies of implements hanging from walls and

ceiling is the metallic Brisbille, with leaden hands, his dark apron

rainbowed with file-dust,--dirty on principle, because of his ideas,

this being Sunday. He is sober, and his face still unkindled, but he

is waiting impatiently for the church-going bell to begin, so that he

may go and drink, in complete solitude.

Through an open square, in the ponderous and dirt-shaggy glazing of the

smithy, one can see a portion of the street, and a sketch, in bright

and airy tones, of scattered people. It is like the sharply cut field

of vision in an opera-glass, in which figures are drawn and shaded, and

cross each other; where one makes out, at times, a hat bound and

befeathered, swaying as it goes; a little boy with sky-blue tie and

buttoned boots, and tubular knickers hanging round his thin, bare

calves; a couple of gossiping dames in swollen and somber petticoats,

who tack hither and thither, meet, are mutually attracted and dissolve

in conversation, like rolling drops of ink. In the foreground of this

colored cinema which goes by and passes again, Brisbille, the sinister,

is ranting away, as always. He is red and lurid, spotted with

freckles, his hair greasy, his voice husky. For a moment, while he

paces to and fro in his cage, dragging shapeless and gaping shoes

behind him, he speaks to me in a low voice, and close to my face, in

gusts. Brisbille can shout, but not talk; there must be a definite

pressure of anger before his resounding huskiness issues from his

throat.

Mame comes in. She sits on a stool to get her breath again, all the

while brandishing the twisted key which she clasps to the prayer-book

in her hand. Then she unburdens herself and begins to speak in fits

and starts of this key, of the mishap which twisted it, and of all the

multiple details which overlap each other in her head. But the

slipshod, gloomy smith's attention is suddenly attracted by the hole

which shows the street.

"The lubber!" he roars.

It is Monsieur Fontan who is passing, the wine-merchant and

café-proprietor. He is an expansive and imposing man, fat-covered, and

white as a house. He never says anything and is always alone. A great

personage he is; he makes money; he has amassed hundreds of thousands

of francs. At noon and in the evening he is not to be seen, having

dived into the room behind the shop, where he takes his meals in

solitude. The rest of the time he just sits at the receipt of custom

and says nothing. There is a hole in his counter where he slides the

money in. His house is filling with money from morning till night.

"He's a money-trap," says Mame.

"He's rich," I say.

"And when you've said that," jeers Brisbille, "you've said all there is

to say. Why, you damned snob, you're only a poor drudge, like all us

chaps, but haven't you just got the snob's ideas?"

I make a sign of impatience. It is not true, and Brisbille annoys me

with the hatred which he hurls at random, hit or miss; and all the more

because he is himself visibly impressed by the approach of this man who

is richer than the rest. The rebel opens his steely eye and relapses

into silence, like the rest of us, as the big person grows bigger.

"The Bonéas are even richer," my aunt murmurs.

Monsieur Fontan passes the open door, and we can hear the breathing of

the corpulent recluse. As soon as he has carried away the enormous

overcoat that sheathes him, like the hide of a pachyderm, and is

disappearing, Brisbille begins to roar, "What a snout! Did you see it,

eh? Did you see the jaws he swings from his ears, eh? The exact

likeness of a hog!"

Then he adds, in a burst of vulgar delight, "Luckily, we can expect

it'll all burst before long!"

He laughs alone. Mame goes and sits apart. She detests Brisbille, who

is the personification of envy, malice and coarseness. And everybody

hates this marionette, too, for his drunkenness and his forward

notions. All the same, when there is something you want him to do, you

choose Sunday morning to call, and you linger there, knowing that you

will meet others. This has become a tradition.

"They're going to cure little Antoinette," says Benoît, as he frames

himself in the doorway.

Benoît is like a newspaper. He to whom nothing ever happens only lives

to announce what is happening to others.

"I know," cries Mame, "they told me so this morning. Several people

already knew it this morning at seven. A big, famous doctor's coming

to the castle itself, for the hunting, and he only treats just the

eyes."

"Poor little angel!" sighs a woman, who has just come in.

Brisbille intervenes, rancorous and quarrelsome, "Yes, they're always

going to cure the child, so they say. Bad luck to them! Who cares

about her?"

"Everybody does!" reply two incensed women, in the same breath.

"And meanwhile," said Brisbille, viciously, "she's snuffing it." And

he chews, once more, his customary saying--pompous and foolish as the

catchword of a public meeting--"She's a victim of society!"

Monsieur Joseph Bonéas has come into Brisbille's, and he does it

complacently, for he is not above mixing with the people of the

neighborhood. Here, too, are Monsieur Pocard, and Crillon, new shaved,

his polished skin taut and shiny, and several other people. Prominent

among them one marks the wavering head of Monsieur Mielvaque, who, in

his timidity and careful respect for custom, took his hat off as he

crossed the threshold. He is only a copying-clerk at the factory; he

wears much-used and dubious linen, and a frail and orphaned jacket

which he dons for all occasions.

Monsieur Joseph Bonéas overawes me. My eyes are attracted by his

delicate profile, the dull gloom of his morning attire, and the luster

of his black gloves, which are holding a little black rectangle,

gilt-edged.

He, too, has removed his hat. So I, in my corner discreetly remove

mine, too.

He is a young man, refined and distinguished, who impresses by his

innate elegance. Yet he is an invalid, tormented by abscesses. One

never sees him but his neck is swollen, or his wrists enlarged by a

ghastly outcrop. But the sickly body encloses bright and sane

intelligence. I admire him because he is thoughtful and full of ideas,

and can express himself faultlessly. Recently he gave me a lesson in

sociology, touching the links between the France of to-day and the

France of tradition, a lesson on our origins whose plain perspicuity

was a revelation to me. I seek his company; I strive to imitate him,

and certainly he is not aware how much influence he has over me.

All are attentive while he says that he is thinking of organizing a

young people's association in Viviers. Then he speaks to me, "The

farther I go the more I perceive that all men are afflicted with short

sight. They do not see, nor can they see, beyond the end of their

noses."

"Yes," say I.

My reply seems rather scanty, and the silence which follows repeats it

mercilessly. It seems so to him, too, no doubt, for he engages other

interlocutors, and I feel myself redden in the darkness of Brisbille's

cavern.

Crillon is arguing with Brisbille on the matter of the recent

renovation of an old hat, which they keep handing to each other and

examine ardently. Crillon is sitting, but he keeps his eyes on it.

Heart and soul he applies himself to the debate. His humble trade as a

botcher does not allow a fixed tariff, and he is all alone as he

vindicates the value of his work. With his fists he hammers the

gray-striped mealy cloth on his knees, and the hair, which grows

thickly round his big neck, gives him the nape of a wild boar.

"That felt," he complains, "I'll tell you what was the matter with it.

It was rain, heavy rain, that had drowned it. That felt, I tells you,

was only like a dirty handkerchief. What does _that_ represent--in

ebullition of steam, in gumming, and the passage of time?"

Monsieur Justin Pocard is talking to three companions, who, hat in

hand, are listening with all their ears. He is entertaining them in

his sonorous language about the great financial and industrial

combination which he has planned. A speculative thrill electrifies the

company.

"That'll brush business up!" says Crillon, in wonder, torn for a moment

from contemplation of the hat, but promptly relapsing on it.

Joseph Bonéas says to me, in an undertone,--and I am flattered,--"That

Pocard is a man of no education, but he has practical sense. That's a

big idea he's got,--at least if he sees things as I see them."

And I, I am thinking that if I were older or more influential in the

district, perhaps I should be in the Pocard scheme, which is taking

shape, and will be huge.

Meanwhile, Brisbille is scowling. An unconfessable disquiet is

accumulating in his bosom. All this gathering is detaining him at

home, and he is tormented by the desire for drink. He cannot conceal

his vinous longing, and squints darkly at the assembly. On a week day

at this hour he would already have begun to slake his thirst. He is

parched, he burns, he drags himself from group to group. The wait is

longer than he can stand.

Suddenly every one looks out to the street through the still open door.

A carriage is making its way towards the church; it has a green body

and silver lamps. The old coachman, whose great glove sways the

slender scepter of a whip, is so adorned with overlapping capes that he

suggests several men on the top of each other. The black horse is

prancing.

"He shines like a piano," says Benoît.

The Baroness is in the carriage. The blinds are drawn, so she cannot

be seen, but every one salutes the carriage.

"All slaves!" mumbles Brisbille. "Look at yourselves now, just look!

All the lot of you, as soon as a rich old woman goes by, there you are,

poking your noses into the ground, showing your bald heads, and growing

humpbacked."

"She does good," protests one of the gathering.

"Good? Ah, yes, indeed!" gurgles the evil man, writhing as though in

the grip of some one; "I call it ostentation--that's what _I_ call it."

Shoulders are shrugged, and Monsieur Joseph Bonéas, always

self-controlled, smiles.

Encouraged by that smile, I say, "There have always been rich people,

and there must be."

"Of course," trumpets Crillon, "that's one of the established thoughts

that you find in your head when you fish for 'em. But mark what I

says,--there's some that dies of envy. I'm _not_ one of them that dies

of envy."

Monsieur Mielvaque has put his hat back on his petrified head and gone

to the door. Monsieur Joseph Bonéas, also, turns his back and goes

away.

All at once Crillon cries, "There's Pétrarque!" and darts outside on

the track of a big body, which, having seen him, opens its long pair of

compasses and escapes obliquely.

"And to think," says Brisbille, with a horrible grimace, when Crillon

has disappeared, "that the scamp is a town councilor! Ah, by God!"

He foams, as a wave of anger runs through him, swaying on his feet, and

gaping at the ground. Between his fingers there is a shapeless

cigarette, damp and shaggy, which he rolls in all directions, patching

up and resticking it unceasingly.

Charged with snarls and bristling with shoulder-shrugs, the smith

rushes at his fire and pulls the bellows-chain, his yawning shoes

making him limp like Vulcan. At each pull the bellows send spouting

from the dust-filled throat of the furnace a cutting blue comet, lined

with crackling and dazzling white, and therein the man forges.

Purpling as his agitation rises, nailed to his imprisoning corner,

alone of his kind, a rebel against all the immensity of things, the man

forges.

* * * * * *

The church bell rang, and we left him there. When I was leaving I

heard Brisbille growl. No doubt I got my quietus as well. But what

can he have imagined against _me_?

We meet again, all mixed together in the Place de l'Eglise. In our

part of the town, except for a clan of workers whom one keeps one's eye

on, every one goes to church, men as well as women, as a matter of

propriety, out of gratitude to employers or lords of the manor, or by

religious conviction. Two streets open into the Place and two roads,

bordered with apple-trees, as well, so that these four ways lead town

and country to the Place.

It has the shape of a heart, and is delightful. It is shaded by a very

old tree, under which justice was formerly administered. That is why

they call it the Great Tree, although there are greater ones. In

winter it is dark, like a perforated umbrella. In summer it gives the

bright green shadow of a parasol. Beside the tree a tall crucifix

dwells in the Place forever.

The Place is swarming and undulating. Peasants from the surrounding

country, in their plain cotton caps, are waiting in the old corner of

the Rue Neuve, heaped together like eggs. These people are loaded with

provisions. At the farther end, square-paved, one picks out swarthy

outlines of the Epinal type, and faces as brightly colored as apples.

Groups of children flutter and chirrup; little girls with their dolls

play at being mothers, and little boys play at brigands. Respectable

people take their stand more ceremoniously than the common crowd, and

talk business piously.

Farther away is the road, which April's illumination adorns all along

the lines of trees with embroidery of shadow and of gold, where

bicycles tinkle and carriages rumble echoingly; and the shining

river,--those long-drawn sheets of water, whereon the sun spreads

sheets of light and scatters blinding points. Looking along the road,

on either side of its stone-hard surface, one sees the pleasant,

cultivated earth, the bits of land sewn to each other, and many-hued,

brown or green as the billiard cloth, then paling in the distance.

Here and there, on this map in colors, copses bulge forth. The

by-roads are pricked out with trees, which follow each other artlessly

and divide the infantile littleness of orchards.

This landscape holds us by the soul. It is a watercolor now (for it

rained a little last night), with its washed stones, its tiles

varnished anew, its roofs that are half slate and half light, its

shining pavements, water-jeweled in places, its delicately blue sky,

with clouds like silky paper; and between two house-fronts of yellow

ocher and tan, against the purple velvet of distant forests, there is

the neighboring steeple, which is like ours and yet different. Roundly

one's gaze embraces all the panorama, which is delightful as the

rainbow.

From the Place, then, where one feels himself so abundantly at home, we

enter the church. From the depths of this thicket of lights, the good

priest murmurs the great infinite speech to us, blesses us, embraces us

severally and altogether, like father and mother both. In the manorial

pew, the foremost of all, one glimpses the Marquis of Monthyon, who has

the air of an officer, and his mother-in-law, Baroness Grille, who is

dressed like an ordinary lady.

Emerging from church, the men go away; the women swarm out more

grudgingly and come to a standstill together; then all the buzzing

groups scatter.

At noon the shops close. The fine ones do it unassisted; the others

close by the antics of some good man who exerts himself to carry and

fit the shutters. Then there is a great void.

After lunch I wander in the streets. In the house I am bored, and yet

outside I do not know what to do. I have no friend and no calls to

pay. I am already too big to mingle with some, and too little yet to

associate with others. The cafés and licensed shops hum, jingle and

smoke already. I do not go to cafés, on principle, and because of that

fondness for spending nothing, which my aunt has impressed on me. So,

aimless, I walk through the deserted streets, which at every corner

yawn before my feet. The hours strike and I have the impression that

they are useless, that one will do nothing with them.

I steer in the direction of the fine gardens which slope towards the

river. A little enviously I look over the walls at the tops of these

opulent enclosures, at the tips of those great branches where still

clings the soiled, out-of-fashion finery of last summer.

Far from there, and a good while after, I encounter Tudor, the clerk at

the Modern Pharmacy. He hesitates and doubts, and does not know where

to go. Every Sunday he wears the same collar, with turned down

corners, and it is becoming gloomy. Arrived where I am, he stops, as

though it occurred to him that nothing was pushing him forward. A

half-extinguished cigarette vegetates in his mouth.

He comes with me, and I take his silence in tow as far as the avenue of

plane trees. There are several figures outspaced in its level peace.

Some young girls attract my attention; they appear against the dullness

of house-fronts and against shop fronts in mourning. Some of the

charming ones are accompanied by their mothers, who look like

caricatures of them.

Tudor has left me without my noticing it.

Already, and slowly everywhere, the taverns begin to shine and cry out.

In the grayness of twilight one discerns a dark and mighty crowd,

gliding therein. In them gathers a sort of darkling storm, and flashes

emerge from them.

* * * * * *

And lo! Now the night approaches to soften the stony streets.

Along the riverside, to which I have gone down alone, listless idylls

dimly appear,--shapes sketched in crayon, which seek and join each

other. There are couples that appear and vanish, strictly avoiding the

little light that is left. Night is wiping out colors and features and

names from both sorts of strollers.

I notice a woman who waits, standing on the river bank. Her silhouette

has pearly-gray sky behind it, so that she seems to support the

darkness. I wonder what her name may be, but only discover the beauty

of her feminine stillness. Not far from that consummate caryatid,

among the black columns of the tall trees laid against the lave of the

blue, and beneath their cloudy branches, there are mystic enlacements

which move to and fro; and hardly can one distinguish the two halves of

which they are made, for the temple of night is enclosing them.

The ancient hut of a fisherman is outlined on the grassy slope. Below

it, crowding reeds rustle in the current; and where they are more

sparse they fashion concentric orbs upon the gleaming, fleeing water.

The landscape has something exotic or antique about it. You are no

matter where in the world or among the centuries. You are on some

corner of the eternal earth, where men and women are drawing near to

each other, and cling together while they wrap themselves in mystery.

* * * * * *

Dreamily I ascend again towards the sounds and the swarming of the

town. There, the Sunday evening rendezvous,--the prime concern of the

men,--is less discreet. Desire displays itself more crudely on the

pavements. Voices chatter and laughter dissolves, even through closed

doors; there are shouts and songs.

Up there one sees clearly. Faces are discovered by the harsh light of

the gas jets and its reflection from plate-glass shop windows. Antonia

goes by, surrounded by men, who bend forward and look at her with

desire amid their clamor of conversation. She saw me, and a little

sound of appeal comes from her across the escort that presses upon her.

But I turn aside and let her go by.

When she and her harness of men have disappeared, I smell in their wake

the odor of Pétrolus. He is lamp-man at the factory. Yellow, dirty,

cadaverous, red-eyed, he smells rancid, and was, perhaps, nurtured on

paraffin. He is some one washed away. You do not see him, so much as

smell him.

Other women are there. Many a Sunday have I, too, joined in all that

love-making.

* * * * * *

Among these beings who chat and take hold of each other, an isolated

woman stands like a post, and makes an empty space around her.

It is Louise Verte. She is fearfully ugly, and she was too virtuous

formerly, at a time when, so they say, she need not have been. She

regrets this, and relates it without shame, in order to be revenged on

virtue. She would like to have a lover, but no one wants her, because

of her bony face and her scraped appearance; from a sort of eczema.

Children make sport of her, knowing her needs; for the disclosures of

their elders have left a stain on them. A five-year-old girl points

her tiny finger at Louise and twitters, "She wants a man."

In the Place is Véron, going about aimlessly, like a dead leaf--Véron,

who revolves, when he may, round Antonia. An ungainly man, whose tiny

head leans to the right and wears a colorless smile. He lives on a few

rents and does not work. He is good and affectionate, and sometimes he

is overcome by attacks of compassion.

Véron and Louise Verte see one another,--and each makes a détour of

avoidance. They are afraid of each other.

Here, also, on the margin of passion, is Monsieur Joseph Bonéas, very

compassionable, in spite of his intellectual superiority. Between the

turned-down brim of his hat and his swollen white kerchief,--thick as a

towel,--a mournful yellow face is stuck.

I pity these questing solitaries who are looking for themselves! I

feel compassion to see those fruitless shadows hovering there, wavering

like ghosts, these poor wayfarers, divided and incomplete.

Where am I? Facing the workmen's flats, whose countless windows stand

sharply out in their huge flat background. It is there that Marie

Tusson lives, whose father, a clerk at Messrs. Gozlan's, like myself,

is manager of the property. I steered to this place instinctively,

without confessing it to myself, brushing people and things without

mingling with them.

Marie is my cousin, and yet I hardly ever see her. We just say

good-day when we meet, and she smiles at me.

I lean against a plane tree and think of Marie. She is tall, fair,

strong and amiable, and she goes modestly clad, like a wide-hipped

Venus; her beautiful lips shine like her eyes.

To know her so near agitates me among the shadows. If she appeared

before me as she did the last time I met her; if, in the middle of the

dark, I saw the shining radiance of her face, the swaying of her

figure, traced in silken lines, and her little sister's hand in

hers,--I should tremble.

But that does not happen. The bluish, cold background only shows me

the two second-floor windows pleasantly warmed by lights, of which one

is, perhaps, she herself. But they take no sort of shape, and remain

in another world.

At last my eyes leave that constellation of windows among the trees,

that vertical and silent firmament. Then I make for my home, in this

evening which comes at the end of all the days I have lived.

* * * * * *

Little Antoinette,--how comes it that they leave her all alone like

this?--is standing in my path and holding a hand out towards me. It is

her way that she is begging for. I guide her, ask questions and

listen, leaning over her and making little steps. But she is too

little, and too lispful, and cannot explain. Carefully I lead the

child,--who sees so feebly that already she is blind in the evening, as

far as the low door of the dilapidated dwelling where she nests.

In my street, in front of his lantern-shaped house, with its

iron-grilled dormer, old Eudo is standing, darkly hooded, and pointed,

like the house.

I am a little afraid of him. Assuredly, he has not got a clean

conscience. But, however guilty, he is compassionable. I stop and

speak to him. He lifts to me out of the night of his hood a face

pallid and ruined. I speak about the weather, of approaching spring.

Heedless he hears, shapes "yes" with the tip of his lips, and says,

"It's twelve years now since my wife died; twelve years that I've been

utterly alone; twelve years that I've heard the last words she said to

me."

And the poor maniac glides farther away, hooded in his unintelligible

mourning; and certainly he does not hear me wish him good-night.

At the back of the cold downstairs room a fire has been lighted. Mame

is sitting on the stool beside it, in the glow of the flaming coal,

outstretching her hands, clinging to the warmth.

Entering, I see the bowl of her back. Her lean neck has a cracked look

and is white as a bone. Musingly, my aunt takes and holds a pair of

idle tongs. I take my seat. Mame does not like the silence in which I

wrap myself. She lets the tongs fall with a jangling shock, and then

begins vivaciously to talk to me about the people of the neighborhood.

"There's everything here. No need to go to Paris, nor even so much as

abroad. This part; it's a little world cut out on the pattern of the

others," she adds, proudly, wagging her worn-out head. "There aren't

many of them who've got the wherewithal and they're not of much

account. Puppets, if you like, yes. That's according to how one sees

it, because at bottom there's no puppets,--there's people that look

after themselves, because each of us always deserves to be happy, my

lad. And here, the same as everywhere, the two kinds of people that

there are--the discontented and the respectable; because, my lad,

what's always been always will be."

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