XIV.

So far from embarking at once for Europe, Mrs. Lander went to that hotel

in a suburb of Boston, where she had the habit of passing the late autumn

months, in order to fortify herself for the climate of the early winter

months in the city. She was a little puzzled how to provide for

Clementina, with respect to herself, but she decided that the best thing

would be to have her sleep in a room opening out of her own, with a

folding bed in it, so that it could be used as a sort of parlor for both

of them during the day, and be within easy reach, for conversation, at

all times.

On her part, Clementina began by looking after Mrs. Lander's comforts,

large and little, like a daughter, to her own conception and to that of

Mrs. Lander, but to other eyes, like a servant. Mrs. Lander shyly shrank

from acquaintance among the other ladies, and in the absence of this, she

could not introduce Clementina, who went down to an early breakfast

alone, and sat apart with her at lunch and dinner, ministering to her in

public as she did in private. She ran back to their rooms to fetch her

shawl, or her handkerchief, or whichever drops or powders she happened to

be taking with her meals, and adjusted with closer care the hassock which

the head waiter had officially placed at her feet. They seldom sat in the

parlor where the ladies met, after dinner; they talked only to each

other; and there, as elsewhere, the girl kept her filial care of the old

woman. The question of her relation to Mrs. Lander became so pressing

among several of the guests that, after Clementina had watched over the

banisters, with throbbing heart and feet, a little dance one night which

the other girls had got up among themselves, and had fled back to her

room at the approach of one of the kindlier and bolder of them, the

landlord felt forced to learn from Mrs. Lander how Miss Claxon was to be

regarded. He managed delicately, by saying he would give the Sunday paper

she had ordered to her nurse, "Or, I beg your pardon," he added, as if he

had made a mistake. "Why, she a'n't my nuhse," Mrs. Lander explained,

simply, neither annoyed nor amused; "she's just a young lady that's

visiting me, as you may say," and this put an end to the misgiving among

the ladies. But it suggested something to Mrs. Lander, and a few days

afterwards, when they came out from Boston where they had been shopping,

and she had been lavishing a bewildering waste of gloves, hats, shoes,

capes and gowns upon Clementina, she said, "I'll tell you what. We've got

to have a maid."

"A maid?" cried the girl.

"It isn't me, or my things I want her for," said Mrs. Lander. "It's you

and these dresses of youas. I presume you could look afta them, come to

give youa mind to it; but I don't want to have you tied up to a lot of

clothes; and I presume we should find her a comfo't in moa ways than one,

both of us. I don't know what we shall want her to do, exactly; but I

guess she will, if she undastands her business, and I want you should go

in with me, to-morror, and find one. I'll speak to some of the ladies,

and find out whe's the best place to go, and we'll get the best there

is."

A lady whom Mrs. Lander spoke to entered into the affair with zeal born

of a lurking sense of the wrong she had helped do Clementina in the

common doubt whether she was not herself Mrs. Lander's maid. She offered

to go into Boston with them to an intelligence office, where you could

get nice girls of all kinds; but she ended by giving Mrs. Lander the

address, and instructions as to what she was to require in a maid. She

was chiefly to get an English maid, if at all possible, for the

qualifications would more or less naturally follow from her nationality.

There proved to be no English maid, but there was a Swedish one who had

received a rigid training in an English family living on the Continent,

and had come immediately from that service to seek her first place in

America. The manager of the office pronounced her character, as set down

in writing, faultless, and Mrs. Lander engaged her. "You want to look

afta this young lady," she said, indicating Clementina. "I can look afta

myself," but Ellida took charge of them both on the train out from Boston

with prompt intelligence.

"We got to get used to it, I guess," Mrs. Lander confided at the first

chance of whispering to Clementina.

Within a month after washing the faces and combing the hair of all her

brothers and sisters who would suffer it at her hands, Clementina's own

head was under the brush of a lady's maid, who was of as great a

discreetness in her own way as Clementina herself. She supplied the

defects of Mrs. Lander's elementary habits by simply asking if she should

get this thing and that thing for the toilet, without criticising its

absence,--and then asking whether she should get the same things for her

young lady. She appeared to let Mrs. Lander decide between having her

brushes in ivory or silver, but there was really no choice for her, and

they came in silver. She knew not only her own place, but the places of

her two ladies, and she presently had them in such training that they

were as proficient in what they might and might not do for themselves and

for each other, as if making these distinctions were the custom of their

lives.

Their hearts would both have gone out to Ellida, but Ellida kept them at

a distance with the smooth respectfulness of the iron hand in the glove

of velvet; and Clementina first learned from her to imagine the

impassable gulf between mistress and maid.

At the end of her month she gave them, out of a clear sky, a week's

warning. She professed no grievance, and was not moved by Mrs. Lander's

appeal to say what wages she wanted. She would only say that she was

going to take a place an Commonwealth Avenue, where a friend of hers was

living, and when the week was up, she went, and left her late mistresses

feeling rather blank. "I presume we shall have to get anotha," said Mrs.

Lander.

"Oh, not right away!" Clementina pleaded.

"Well, not right away," Mrs. Lander assented; and provisionally they each

took the other into her keeping, and were much freer and happier

together.

Soon after Clementina was startled one morning, as she was going in to

breakfast, by seeing Mr. Fane at the clerk's desk. He did not see her; he

was looking down at the hotel register, to compute the bill of a

departing guest; but when she passed out she found him watching for her,

with some letters.

"I didn't know you were with us," he said, with his pensive smile, "till

I found your letters here, addressed to Mrs. Lander's care; and then I

put two and two together. It only shows how small the world is, don't you

think so? I've just got back from my vacation; I prefer to take it in the

fall of the year, because it's so much pleasanter to travel, then. I

suppose you didn't know I was here?"

"No, I didn't," said Clementina. "I never dreamed of such a thing."

"To be sure; why should you?" Fane reflected. "I've been here ever since

last spring. But I'll say this, Miss Claxon, that if it's the least

unpleasant to you, or the least disagreeable, or awakens any kind of

associations--"

"Oh, no!" Clementina protested, and Fane was spared the pain of saying

what he would do if it were.

He bowed, and she said sweetly, "It's pleasant to meet any one I've seen

before. I suppose you don't know how much it's changed at Middlemount

since you we' e thea." Fane answered blankly, while he felt in his breast

pocket, Oh, he presumed so; and she added: "Ha'dly any of the same guests

came back this summer, and they had more in July than they had in August,

Mrs. Atwell said. Mr. Mahtin, the chef, is gone, and newly all the help

is different."

Fane kept feeling in one pocket and then slapped himself over the other

pockets. "No," he said, "I haven't got it with me. I must have left it in

my room. I just received a letter from Frank--Mr. Gregory, you know, I

always call him Frank--and I thought I had it with me. He was asking

about Middlemount; and I wanted to read you what he said. But I'll find

it upstairs. He's out of college, now, and he's begun his studies in the

divinity school. He's at Andover. I don't know what to make of Frank,

oftentimes," the clerk continued, confidentially. "I tell him he's a kind

of a survival, in religion; he's so aesthetic." It seemed to Fane that he

had not meant aesthetic, exactly, but he could not ask Clementina what

the word was. He went on to say, "He's a grand good fellow, Frank is, but

he don't make enough allowance for human nature. He's more like one of

those old fashioned orthodox. I go in for having a good time, so long as

you don't do anybody else any hurt."

He left her, and went to receive the commands of a lady who was leaning

over the desk, and saying severely, "My mail, if you please," and

Clementina could not wait for him to come back; she had to go to Mrs.

Lander, and get her ready for breakfast; Ellida had taught Mrs. Lander a

luxury of helplessness in which she persisted after the maid's help was

withdrawn.

Clementina went about the whole day with the wonder what Gregory had said

about Middlemount filling her mind. It must have had something to do with

her; he could not have forgotten the words he had asked her to forget.

She remembered them now with a curiosity, which had no rancor in it, to

know why he really took them back. She had never blamed him, and she had

outlived the hurt she had felt at not hearing from him. But she had never

lost the hope of hearing from him, or rather the expectation, and now she

found that she was eager for his message; she decided that it must be

something like a message, although it could not be anything direct. No

one else had come to his place in her fancy, and she was willing to try

what they would think of each other now, to measure her own obligation to

the past by a knowledge of his. There was scarcely more than this in her

heart when she allowed herself to drift near Fane's place that night,

that he might speak to her, and tell her what Gregory had said. But he

had apparently forgotten about his letter, and only wished to talk about

himself. He wished to analyze himself, to tell her what sort of person he

was. He dealt impartially with the subject; he did not spare some faults

of his; and after a week, he proposed a correspondence with her, in a

letter of carefully studied spelling, as a means of mutual improvement as

well as further acquaintance.

It cost Clementina a good deal of trouble to answer him as she wished and

not hurt his feelings. She declined in terms she thought so cold that

they must offend him beyond the point of speaking to her again; but he

sought her out, as soon after as he could, and thanked her for her

kindness, and begged her pardon. He said he knew that she was a very busy

person, with all the lessons she was taking, and that she had no time for

carrying on a correspondence. He regretted that he could not write

French, because then the correspondence would have been good practice for

her. Clementina had begun taking French lessons, of a teacher who came

out from Boston. She lunched three times a week with her and Mrs. Lander,

and spoke the language with Clementina, whose accent she praised for its

purity; purity of accent was characteristic of all this lady's pupils;

but what was really extraordinary in Mademoiselle Claxon was her sense of

grammatical structure; she wrote the language even more perfectly than

she spoke it; but beautifully, but wonderfully; her exercises were

something marvellous.

Mrs. Lander would have liked Clementina to take all the lessons that she

heard any of the other young ladies in the hotel were taking. One of them

went in town every day, and studied drawing at an art-school, and she

wanted Clementina to do that, too. But Clementina would not do that; she

had tried often enough at home, when her brother Jim was drawing, and her

father was designing the patterns of his woodwork; she knew that she

never could do it, and the time would be wasted. She decided against

piano lessons and singing lessons, too; she did not care for either, and

she pleaded that it would be a waste to study them; but she suggested

dancing lessons, and her gift for dancing won greater praise, and perhaps

sincerer, than her accent won from Mademoiselle Blanc, though Mrs. Lander

said that she would not have believed any one could be more

complimentary. She learned the new steps and figures in all the

fashionable dances; she mastered some fancy dances, which society was

then beginning to borrow from the stage; and she gave these before Mrs.

Lander with a success which she felt herself.

"I believe I could teach dancing," she said.

"Well, you won't eve' haf to, child," returned Mrs. Lander, with an eye

on the side of the case that seldom escaped her.

In spite of his wish to respect these preoccupations, Fane could not keep

from offering Clementina attentions, which took the form of persecution

when they changed from flowers for Mrs. Lander's table to letters for

herself. He apologized for his letters whenever he met her; but at last

one of them came to her before breakfast with a special delivery stamp

from Boston. He had withdrawn to the city to write it, and he said that

if she could not make him a favorable answer, he should not come back to

Woodlake.

She had to show this letter to Mrs. Lander, who asked: "You want he

should come back?"

"No, indeed! I don't want eva to see him again."

"Well, then, I guess you'll know how to tell him so."

The girl went into her own room to write, and when she brought her answer

to show it to Mrs. Lander she found her in frowning thought. "I don't

know but you'll have to go back and write it all over again, Clementina,"

she said, "if you've told him not to come. I've been thinkin', if you

don't want to have anything to do with him, we betta go ouaselves."

"Yes," answered Clementina, "that's what I've said."

"You have? Well, the witch is in it! How came you to--"

"I just wanted to talk with you about it. But I thought maybe you'd like

to go. Or at least I should. I should like to go home, Mrs. Landa."

"Home!" retorted Mrs. Lander. "The'e's plenty of places where you can be

safe from the fella besides home, though I'll take you back the'a this

minute if you say so. But you needn't to feel wo'ked up about it."

"Oh, I'm not," said Clementina, but with a gulp which betrayed her

nervousness.

"I did think," Mrs. Lander went on, "that I should go into the Vonndome,

for December and January, but just as likely as not he'd come pesterin'

the'a, too, and I wouldn't go, now, if you was to give me the whole city

of Boston. Why shouldn't we go to Florida?"

When Mrs. Lander had once imagined the move, the nomadic impulse mounted

irresistably in her. She spoke of hotels in the South, where they could

renew the summer, and she mapped out a campaign which she put into

instant action so far as to advance upon New York.

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