CHAPTER III.

My father, M. le Duc DI SPEPSION, belonged to one of the oldest French

families. He had many old French customs, amongst others that of

brushing his bearded lips against my cheek. He was a stern man, with

a severe habit of addressing me as "_Mon fils_." Generally he

disapproved of my proceedings, which was, perhaps, not unnatural,

taking all the circumstances of the case into consideration. Why have

I mentioned him? I know not, save that even now, degraded as I am,

memories of better things sometimes steal over me like the solemn

sound of church-bells pealing in a cathedral belfry. But I have done

with home, with father, with patriotism, with claret, with walnuts,

and with all simple pleasures. _Ça va sans dire._ They talk to me

of Good, and Nature. The words are meaningless to me. Are there

realities behind these words--realities that can touch the heart of

a confirmed _marroneur_? Cold and pitiless, Nature sits aloft like a

mathematician, with his balance regulating the storm-pulses of this

troubled world. Bah! I fling myself in her teeth. I brazen it out. She

quails. For, since the accursed food passed my lips, the strength of a

million demons is in me. I am pitiless. I laugh to think of the fool

I once was in the days when I fed myself on _Baba au Rhum_, and other

innocent dishes. Now I have knowledge. I am my own good. I glance

haughtily into--[Ten rhapsodical pages omitted.--ED. _Punch_.] But

there came into my life a false priest, who was like the ghost of

a fair lost god--and because he was a fair lost, the cabmen loved

him not--and he had to die, and lie in the Morgue--the Morgue where

murdered men and women love to dwell--and thus he should discover the

Eternal Secret!

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