On landing from the _Venezuela_, Bob drove out to Collingham Lodge. He
knew that by this time the family were in the Adirondacks, and that with
Gull and his wife to look after him he should have the place to himself.
Now that he was known to be married he had first thought it possible to
bring Jennie there, but had decided that the big empty house might
frighten her with its loneliness. A hotel in New York was what she would
probably prefer; and with all he had to do for Teddy, it would doubtless
be most convenient for himself. He went to his old home, therefore, only
as to a base from which to make further arrangements. Having unpacked a
few things and eaten a snack of lunch, he would go to see his wife at
once.
Though he had not expected to hear from her on landing, and still less
to see her at the dock, he was faintly disappointed to receive neither
of these forms of greeting. He reminded himself that not her coldness,
but her inexperience, would account for this, and so made the more of
his anticipations for the afternoon. She had written to him while he was
away, short, noncommittal letters, betraying a mind unused to
correspondence rather than a heart opposed to it. Lack of habit, he told
himself, would for a long time to come make her seem unresponsive when
she would only be hesitating and observant.
It was the hot season at Marillo, and those houses which were not closed
were somnolent. At Collingham Lodge, Max, with his madly joyful
demonstrations, was the only expression of life. Within the house, the
shades were down, the furniture befrocked. Nevertheless, it was home,
and all the more home after the alien pageantry of the tropics and the
south. Having bathed and changed his clothes, he found pleasure in
roaming from one dim airless room to another, as if he had been absent
for a year.
It was a greater pleasure for the reason that, ever since receiving his
father's amazing cablegram, the vague antagonism he had felt for two or
three years toward his parents had given place to affection and
gratitude. They had seemingly come round after all to acknowledging his
right to be himself. The concession gave him a sense of loving them, of
loving the things that belonged to them. He strolled into their rooms,
looking about on the objects they used, as though in this way he got
some contact with their personalities.
As yet, Jennie's family hardly entered the sphere of his conceptions. He
knew she had a mother and sisters; he had seen and spoken to Teddy at
the bank. But even the knowledge that the boy was in jail for killing a
man didn't bring him or them near to him as realities. While there were
things he should do for the boy, they would not be done for him, but for
Jennie. What concerned her naturally concerned her husband; but
otherwise his father and mother came first. For this new generosity on
their part, for this opening of the arms, his heart glowed toward them,
making them sensibly his own.
He was thinking of this as he stood in his mother's room, gazing round
on the chintzy comfort he had all his life regarded with some awe. Not
since he had been a little boy had he felt so warmly toward her as now.
A note from her at Quarantine had assured him, as she had assured him
before he went to South America, that she was his mother and that in all
trials he could count on her. Counting on her, he could count on
everything, for however difficult his father might prove, she could
manage him in the end. It made everything easier for him and for Jennie,
turning an anxious outlook on life into a splendid hopefulness.
He was leaving the room to go and see if Mrs. Gull had cooked a chop for
him when he noticed, propped against the wall and near the door by which
he had come in, what looked like a picture carelessly covered with a
crimson cloth. His mother had long talked of having her portrait done;
he wondered if it could be that. He put his hand on it, and felt the
frame. It was a picture, and, if a picture, undoubtedly the portrait.
"Let's see what the old lady looks like," were the words that passed
through his mind.
With a twitch the cloth was off, and he sprang back. The start was one
of surprise. Looking for no more than the exquisite conventionality he
knew so well, this vital nudity caught his breath and made his heart
leap. It was as if he had actually come on some living pagan loveliness
seated in one of the empty rooms. Tannhäuser first beholding the goddess
in the secrecy of the Venusberg must have felt something like this
amazed tumult of the senses.
Turning from the great bay window in which he had hastily pulled up the
shades, his excitement had consciously in it a presentiment of evil. She
was so alive, and so much there on purpose!
Then a horror stole over him, like a chill that struck his bones. He
crept forward, with a stricken, fascinated stare. _It couldn't be_, he
was saying to himself; and yet--and yet--_it was_.
The bearings of this conviction didn't come to him all at once. The fact
was as much as he could deal with. She had sat and been painted like
this! His impressions were as poignant and confused as if he had seen
her struck dead. He couldn't account for it. He couldn't explain the
presence of the thing here in his mother's room.
On the lower bar of the frame he saw an inscription plate, getting down
on all fours to read it--"Life and Death: by Hubert Wray."
So Hubert had done it; Hubert had seen her in this flinging-off of
mystery. Of course!
His thought flashed back to the day when he had first made her
acquaintance. Leaning a little forward, she was sitting in this very
Byzantine chair, on this very dais, wearing a flowered dress, a
flower-wreathed Leghorn hat in her lap. Wray, in a painting smock, was
standing with the palette and brushes in his hand, making a sketch of
her more or less on the lines of a Reynolds or a Gainsborough. He had
dropped him a line telling him he had taken a studio and inviting him to
look him up. He hadn't looked him up till a week or two had gone by;
but, having once seen this girl, he did so soon again.
Of him she had taken little or no notice. When, later, he forced himself
on her attention, she made his approaches difficult. When he asked her
to marry him she had at first laughed him off, and then refused him in
so many words. But as she generally based her refusal, unconsciously,
perhaps, on the social differences between them, he wouldn't take her
"No" for an answer. If he could ignore the social differences, it seemed
to him that she could, while the advantages to her in marrying a
Collingham were evident.
"And all the while this is what the trouble was."
What he meant by _this_ was more than the picture, "Life and Death,"
though how much more he made no attempt to measure. The truth that now
emerged for him out of his memory of the winter months was that Wray
loved Jennie, that Jennie loved Wray, and that he had been a blind fool
never to have seen it. He threw himself on his mother's couch, burying
his face in the cushions.
As much as from anything else he suffered from the breakdown of his
convictions. He had been so glib on the subject of his instinct. Love
could make mistakes, he had said to Edith, but instinct couldn't. He had
been the other half of Jennie; Jennie had been the other half of him.
She couldn't be unfaithful to him, because he knew she couldn't. His
love was protecting her like a magic cloak, while she was.... The awful
shame of a man whose foolish stammerings of passion are held up to
public ridicule seemed to kill the heart in his body.
And yet, when he staggered to his feet and strode toward the obsessing
thing to pull the cloth over it again, he started back once more. The
woman with the skull had changed. She was a coarse creature now, common
and sensual. Amazement pinned him to the spot, his hands raised as if at
sight of an apparition. Then slowly, insensibly, weirdly, Jennie came
back again, though not quite the Jennie he had seen at first. This
Jennie retained the traits of the second woman--a Jennie coarsened,
common, and sensual, in spite of being exquisite, too.
He walked in and out of the other rooms on the floor, so as to clear his
mind of the suggestion. When he came back, he saw the second woman, and
the second woman only; but having moved into a new light, he found
Jennie there as before. It was like sorcery. Whether the thing had a
baleful life, or whether his perceptions were growing crazed, he
couldn't tell.
Neither could he tell what he was to do with regard to the plans he had
been making. A hotel in New York _now_....
But the immediate duties were evident. Nominally he had come back to
befriend the boy, and the boy must be befriended. To do that he must
have a knowledge of the facts. Farther than this he had been unable to
progress even by the hour, in the early afternoon, when he was limping
along Indiana Avenue.
He had telephoned his coming, and Jennie had answered in a dead voice
which could hardly be interpreted as a welcome. It was like a guilty
voice, he said to himself, though he corrected the thought instantly, to
argue in favor of emotion.
He had spent the intervening two or three hours arguing. Jennie was a
model, and he must not be surprised if a model's work, however startling
to one who was not a model, should seem a matter of course to her. All
professions had peculiarities strange to those who didn't belong to
them, and the model's perhaps most of all. He couldn't judge; he
couldn't condemn. He must try to understand her from her own point of
view. Probably her posing in this way seemed the most natural thing in
the world to her; and, if so, he must make it seem the same to himself.
He couldn't expect her to have the hesitations and circumspections of a
girl from Marillo Park. If she was true to her own standards, it was all
he had a right to look for.
And yet there was Wray. He had long seen in Hubert a fellow whom no girl
could love "and get away with it." These were the words he had used of
his friend, and he had considered the detail none of his business. Most
men were that way, more or less, and if he himself wasn't, it was not a
moral excellence, but a trick of temperament. But that Jennie was in
danger from Wray was a thought that never occurred to him. Her innocence
and defenselessness, combined with what he had taken to be a kind of
studio code of honor, would have been enough to protect her, even had
his suspicions been roused, which they never were. He tried to smother
those suspicions even now, saying to himself that he had nothing against
her except that she had been a model--in all for which a model was ever
called upon.
He had that--and the timbre of her voice on the telephone. There was
dismay in that voice, and terror. If it wasn't a guilty voice....
But, as a matter of fact, it was a guilty voice. In an overwhelming
consciousness of guilt, Jennie had spent the whole of the ten days since
the coming of his cablegram. The man who at a distance of four or five
thousand miles could know that Teddy was in jail and act so promptly for
the good of all might be aware of anything. Having always seemed immense
and overshadowing, he became godlike now from his sheer display of
power. It was power so great that she could put forth no claim; she
could only wait humbly on his will.
As, hidden behind a curtain, she watched for his coming along the
avenue, all her thoughts were focused into speculation as to how he
would approach her. Would he be sorry for having married her? She could
only fear that he would be. She had never mistrusted his mother's
reading of his character--that he made love to girls one day and forgot
them the next--in addition to which she had involved him in this
terrible disgrace. Whatever excuse those who loved Teddy might make for
him, the fact remained that to the world he was a bank robber and a
murderer. All his kin must share in the condemnation meted out to him,
and Bob's first task as a married man must be that of defending her and
hers against public disdain. He might be as brave as a lion in doing
that, but, she reasoned, he couldn't like the necessity. He might say he
did, and yet she wouldn't be able to believe him. Even if he still cared
for her as he had cared when he went away, his marriage to her couldn't
possibly be viewed otherwise than as a misfortune; and he might not
still care for her.
She saw him as he limped round the corner at the very end of the street.
He wore a Panama hat and a white-linen suit. Luckily, Gussie and Gladys
had gone back to work and her mother was lying down. She couldn't have
borne the suspense had she not been all alone. Even Pansy's searching
eyes, as she stood with her little squat legs planted wide apart, trying
to understand this new element in the situation, were almost more than
Jennie could endure.
Bob advanced slowly, examining the numbers of the houses, many of which
were lacking. Seventeen, Fifteen, and Thirteen were, however, over their
doors, so that he was duly prepared for Eleven.
"I'll know by the first look in his eyes," she kept saying to herself,
"whether he's sorry he married me or not."
As he passed number Thirteen she got up from the arm of the big chair on
which she had been perched, and found she could hardly stand. It was all
she could do to creep into the entry and open the front door. When he
turned into the little cement strip leading up to it, she shrank back
into the shadow. He was abreast of the two hydrangea trees before he saw
her. When he did so he stood still. It seemed to her that an
unreckonable time went by before a smile stole to his lips, and when it
did it was wavering, flickering, more poignant than no smile at all.
Her inner comment was: "Yes; he's sorry. Now I know." Pride, another new
force in her character, made of her a woman with a will, as she added,
"I must help him to get out of it--somehow."
But Pansy, sensing a nimbus of good will as imperceptible to Jennie as
the pervasive scent of the summer, lilted down the steps, raised her
forepaws against his shin, and gazed up into his face adoringly.