Mademoiselle held the royal warrant of her father's banishment in her
hand. She was pale, and her greeting of me had been timid. I stood
before her, and by the door stood Rodenard, whom I had bidden attend me.
As I had approached Lavedan that day, I had been taken with a great, an
overwhelming shame at the bargain I had driven. I had pondered, and it
had come to me that she had been right to suggest that in matters of
love what is not freely given it is not worth while to take. And out of
my shame and that conclusion had sprung a new resolve. So that nothing
might weaken it, and lest, after all, the sight of Roxalanne should
bring me so to desire her that I might be tempted to override my
purpose, I had deemed it well to have the restraint of a witness at our
last interview. To this end had I bidden Ganymede follow me into the
very salon.
She read the document to the very end, then her glance was raised
timidly again to mine, and from me it shifted to Ganymede, stiff at his
post by the door.
“This was the best that you could do, monsieur?” she asked at last.
“The very best, mademoiselle,” I answered calmly. “I do not wish to
magnify my service, but it was that or the scaffold. Madame your mother
had, unfortunately, seen the King before me, and she had prejudiced your
father's case by admitting him to be a traitor. There was a moment
when in view of that I was almost led to despair. I am glad, however,
mademoiselle, that I was so fortunate as to persuade the King to just so
much clemency.”
“And for five years, then, I shall not see my parents.” She sighed, and
her distress was very touching.
“That need not be. Though they may not come to France, it still remains
possible for you to visit them in Spain.”
“True,” she mused; “that will be something--will it not?”
“Assuredly something; under the circumstances, much.”
She sighed again, and for a moment there was silence.
“Will you not sit, monsieur?” said she at last. She was very quiet
to-day, this little maid--very quiet and very wondrously subdued.
“There is scarce the need,” I answered softly; whereupon her eyes were
raised to ask a hundred questions. “You are satisfied with my efforts,
mademoiselle?” I inquired.
“Yes, I am satisfied, monsieur.”
That was the end, I told myself, and involuntarily I also sighed. Still,
I made no shift to go.
“You are satisfied that I--that I have fulfilled what I promised?”
Her eyes were again cast down, and she took a step in the direction of
the window.
“But yes. Your promise was to save my father from the scaffold. You have
done so, and I make no doubt you have done as much to reduce the term of
his banishment as lay within your power. Yes, monsieur, I am satisfied
that your promise has been well fulfilled.”
Heigho! The resolve that I had formed in coming whispered it in my ear
that nothing remained but to withdraw and go my way. Yet not for all
that resolve--not for a hundred such resolves--could I have gone thus.
One kindly word, one kindly glance at least would I take to comfort me.
I would tell her in plain words of my purpose, and she should see that
there was still some good, some sense of honour in me, and thus should
esteem me after I was gone.
“Ganymede.” said I.
“Monseigneur?”
“Bid the men mount.”
At that she turned, wonder opening her eyes very wide, and her glance
travelled from me to Rodenard with its unspoken question. But even as
she looked at him he bowed and, turning to do my bidding, left the room.
We heard his steps pass with a jingle of spurs across the hall and out
into the courtyard. We heard his raucous voice utter a word of command,
and there was a stamping of hoofs, a cramping of harness, and all the
bustle of preparation.
“Why have you ordered your men to mount?” she asked at last.
“Because my business here is ended, and we are going.”
“Going?” said she. Her eyes were lowered now, but a frown suggested
their expression to me. “Going whither?”
“Hence,” I answered. “That for the moment is all that signifies.” I
paused to swallow something that hindered a clear utterance. Then,
“Adieu!” said I, and I abruptly put forth my hand.
Her glance met mine fearlessly, if puzzled.
“Do you mean, monsieur, that you are leaving Lavedan--thus?”
“So that I leave, what signifies the manner of my going?”
“But”--the trouble grew in her eyes; her cheeks seemed to wax paler than
they had been--“but I thought that--that we made a bargain.”
“'Sh! mademoiselle, I implore you,” I cried. “I take shame at the
memory of it. Almost as much shame as I take at the memory of that other
bargain which first brought me to Lavedan. The shame of the former one
I have wiped out--although, perchance, you think it not. I am wiping out
the shame of the latter one. It was unworthy in me, mademoiselle, but
I loved you so dearly that it seemed to me that no matter how I came by
you, I should rest content if I but won you. I have since seen the error
if it, the injustice of it. I will not take what is not freely given.
And so, farewell.”
“I see, I see,” she murmured, and ignored the hand that I held out. “I
am very glad of it, monsieur.”
I withdrew my hand sharply. I took up my hat from the chair on which I
had cast it. She might have spared me that, I thought. She need not
have professed joy. At least she might have taken my hand and parted in
kindness.
“Adieu, mademoiselle!” I said again, as stiffly as might be, and I
turned towards the door.
“Monsieur!” she called after me. I halted.
“Mademoiselle?”
She stood demurely, with eyes downcast and hands folded. “I shall be so
lonely here.”
I stood still. I seemed to stiffen. My heart gave a mad throb of hope,
then seemed to stop. What did she mean? I faced her fully once more,
and, I doubt not, I was very pale. Yet lest vanity should befool me, I
dared not act upon suspicions. And so “True, mademoiselle,” said I. “You
will be lonely. I regret it.”
As silence followed, I turned again to the door, and my hopes sank with
each step in that direction.
“Monsieur!”
Her voice arrested me upon the very threshold.
“What shall a poor girl do with this great estate upon her hands? It
will go to ruin without a man to govern it.”
“You must not attempt the task. You must employ an intendant.”
I caught something that sounded oddly like a sob. Could it be? Dieu!
could it be, after all? Yet I would not presume. I half turned again,
but her voice detained me. It came petulantly now.
“Monsieur de Bardelys, you have kept your promise nobly. Will you ask no
payment?”
“No, mademoiselle,” I answered very softly; “I can take no payment.”
Her eyes were lifted for a second. Their blue depths seemed dim. Then
they fell again.
“Oh, why will you not help me?” she burst out, to add more softly: “I
shall never be happy without you!”
“You mean?” I gasped, retracing a step, and flinging my hat in a corner.
“That I love you, Marcel--that I want you!”
“And you can forgive--you can forgive?” I cried, as I caught her.
Her answer was a laugh that bespoke her scorn of everything--of
everything save us two, of everything save our love. That and the pout
of her red lips was her answer. And if the temptation of those lips--But
there! I grow indiscreet.
Still holding her, I raised my voice.
“Ganymede!” I called.
“Monseigneur?” came his answer through the open window.
“Bid those knaves dismount and unsaddle.”
End of Project Gutenberg's Bardelys the Magnificent, by Rafael Sabatini