The promise was made, and Ombra lay down in her little white bed,
silent, no longer making a complaint. She turned her face to the wall,
and begged her mother to leave her.
‘Don’t say any more. Please take no notice. Oh! mamma, if you love me,
don’t say any more,’ she had said. ‘If I could have helped it, I would
not have told you. It was because--when I found out----’
‘Oh! Ombra, surely it was best to tell me--surely you would not have
kept this from your mother?’
‘I don’t know,’ she said. ‘If you speak of it again, I shall think it
was not for the best. Oh! mother, go away. It makes me angry to be
pitied. I can’t bear it. Let me alone. It is all over. I wish never to
speak of it more!’
‘But, Ombra----’
‘No more! Oh! mamma, why will you take such a cruel advantage? I cannot
bear any more!’
Mrs. Anderson left her child, with a sigh. She went downstairs, and
stood in the verandah, leaning on the rustic pillar to which the
honeysuckle hung. The daylight had altogether crept away, the moon was
mistress of the sky; but she no longer thought of the sky, nor of the
lovely, serene night, nor the moonlight. A sudden storm had come into
her mind. What was she to do? She was a woman not apt to take any
decided step for herself. Since her husband’s death, she had taken
counsel with her daughter on everything that passed in their life. I do
not mean to imply that she had been moved only by Ombra’s action, or was
without individual energy of her own; but those who have thought,
planned, and acted always _à deux_, find it sadly difficult to put
themselves in motion individually, without the mental support which is
natural to them. And then Mrs. Anderson had been accustomed all her life
to keep within the strict leading-strings of propriety. She had
regulated her doings by those rules of decorum, those regulations as to
what was ‘becoming,’ what ‘fitting her position,’ with which society
simplifies but limits the proceedings of her votaries. These rules
forbade any interference in such a matter as this. They forbade to her
any direct action at all in a complication so difficult. That she might
work indirectly no doubt was quite possible, and would be perfectly
legitimate--if she could; but how?
She stood leaning upon the mass of honeysuckle which breathed sweetness
all about her, with the moonlight shining calm and sweet upon her face.
The peacefullest place and moment; the most absolute repose and
quietness about her--a scene from which conflict and pain seemed
altogether shut out; and yet how much perplexity, how much vexation and
distress were there. By-and-by, however, she woke up to the fact that
she had no right to be where she was--that she ought at that moment to
be at the Rectory, keeping up appearances, and explaining rather than
adding to the mystery of her daughter’s disappearance. It was a ‘trying’
thing to do, but Mrs. Anderson all her life had maintained rigidly the
principle of keeping up appearances, and had gone through many a trying
moment in consequence. She sighed; but she went meekly upstairs, and got
the shawl which still lay on the floor, and wrapped it round her, and
went away alone, bidding old Francesca watch over Ombra. She went down
the still rural road in the moonlight, still working at her tangled
skein of thoughts. If he had but had the good sense to speak to _her_
first, in the old-fashioned way--if he would but have the good sense to
come and openly speak to her now, and give her a legitimate opening to
interfere. She walked slowly, and she started at every sound, wondering
if perhaps it might be _him_ hanging about, on the chance of seeing some
one. When at last she did see a figure approaching, her heart leaped to
her mouth; but it was not the figure she looked for. It was Mr. Sugden,
the tall curate, hanging about anxiously on the road.
‘Is Miss Anderson ill?’ he said, while he held her hand in greeting.
‘The sun has given her a headache. She has bad headaches sometimes,’ she
answered, cheerfully; ‘but it is nothing--she will be better to-morrow.
She has been so much more out doors lately, since this yachting began.’
‘That will not go on any longer,’ said the Curate, with a mixture of
regret and satisfaction. After a moment the satisfaction predominated,
and he drew a long breath, thinking to himself of all that had been, of
all that the yacht had made an end of. ‘Thank Providence!’ he added
softly; and then louder, ‘our two friends are going, or gone. A letter
was waiting them with bad news--or, at least, with news of some
description, which called them off. I wonder you did not meet them going
back to the pier. As the wind is favourable, they thought the best way
was to cross in the yacht. They did not stop even to eat anything. I am
surprised you did not meet them.’
Mrs. Anderson’s heart gave a leap, and then seemed to stop beating. If
she had met them, he would have spoken, and all might have been well. If
she had but started five minutes earlier, if she had walked a little
faster, if---- But now they were out of sight, out of reach, perhaps for
ever. Her vexation and disappointment were so keen that tears came to
her eyes in the darkness. Yes, in her heart she had felt sure that she
could do something, that he would speak to her, that she might be able
to speak to him; but now all was over, as Ombra said. She could not make
any reply to her companion--she was past talking; and, besides, it did
not seem to be necessary to make any effort to keep up appearances with
the Curate. Men were all obtuse; and he was not specially clever, but
rather the reverse. He never would notice, nor think that this departure
was anything to her. She walked on by his side in silence, only saying,
after awhile, ‘It is very sudden--they will be a great loss to all you
young people; and I hope it was not illness, or any trouble in the
family----’
But she did not hear what answer was made to her--she took no further
notice of him--her head began to buzz, and there was a singing in her
ears, because of the multiplicity of her thoughts. She recalled herself,
with an effort, when the Rectory doors were pushed open by her
companion, and she found herself in the midst of a large party, all
seated round the great table, all full of the news of the evening,
interspersed with inquiries about the absent.
‘Oh! have you heard what has happened? Oh! how is Ombra, Mrs. Anderson?
Oh! we are all heart-broken! What shall we do without them?’ rose the
chorus.
Mrs. Anderson smiled her smile of greeting, and put on a proper look of
concern for the loss of the Berties, and was cheerful about her
daughter. She behaved herself as a model woman in the circumstances
would behave, and she believed, and with some justice, that she had
quite succeeded. She succeeded with the greater part of the party, no
doubt; but there were two who looked at her with doubtful eyes--the
Curate, about whom she had taken no precautions; and Kate, who knew
every line of her face.
‘I hope it is not illness nor trouble in the family,’ Mrs. Anderson
repeated, allowing a look of gentle anxiety to come over her face.
‘No, I hope not,’ said Mrs. Eldridge; ‘though I am a little anxious, I
allow. But no, really I don’t think it. They would never have concealed
such a thing from us; though there was actually no time to explain. I
had gone upstairs to take off my things, and all at once there was a
cry, “The Berties are going!” “My dear boys, what is the matter?” I
said; “is there anything wrong at either of your homes? I beg of you to
let me know the worst!” And then one of them called to me from the
bottom of the stairs, that it was nothing--it was only that they must go
to meet some one--one of their young men’s engagements, I suppose. He
said they would come back; but I tell the children that is nonsense;
while they were here they might be persuaded to stay, but once gone,
they will never come back this season. Ah! I have only too much reason
to know boys’ ways.’
‘But they looked dreadfully cast down, mamma--as if they had had bad
news,’ said Lucy Eldridge, who, foreseeing the end of a great deal of
unusual liberty, felt very much cast down herself.
‘Bertie Hardwick looked as if he had seen a ghost,’ said another.
‘No, it was Bertie Eldridge,’ cried a third.
Kate looked from her end of the table at her aunt’s face, and said
nothing; and a deep red glow came upon Mr. Sugden’s cheeks. These two
young people had each formed a theory in haste, from the very few facts
they knew, and both were quite wrong; but that fact did not diminish the
energy with which they cherished each their special notion. Mrs.
Anderson, however, was imperturbable. She sat near Mrs. Eldridge, and
talked to her with easy cheerfulness about the day’s expedition, and all
that had been going on. She lamented the end of the gaiety, but
remarked, with a smile, that perhaps the girls had had enough. ‘I saw
this morning that Ombra was tired out. I wanted her not to go, but of
course it was natural she should wish to go; and the consequence is, one
of her racking headaches,’ she said.
With the gravest of faces, Kate listened. She had heard nothing of
Ombra’s headache till that moment; still, of course, the conversation
which Mrs. Anderson reported might have taken place in her absence;
but--Kate was very much disturbed in her soul, and very anxious that the
meal should come to an end.
The moon had almost disappeared when the company dispersed. Kate rushed
to her aunt, and took her hand, and whispered in her ear; but a sudden
perception of a tall figure on Mrs. Anderson’s other hand stopped her.
‘_What_ do you say, Kate?’ cried her aunt; but the question could not be
repeated. Mr. Sugden marched by their side all the way--he could not
have very well told why--in case he should be wanted, he said to
himself; but he did not even attempt to explain to himself how he could
be wanted. He felt stern, determined, ready to do anything or
everything. Kate’s presence hampered him, as his hampered her. He would
have liked to say something more distinct than he could now permit
himself to do.
‘I wish you would believe,’ he said, suddenly, bending over Mrs.
Anderson in the darkness, ‘that I am always at your service, ready to do
anything you want.’
‘You are very, very kind,’ said Mrs. Anderson, with the greatest
wonderment. ‘Indeed, I am sure I should not have hesitated to ask you,
had I been in any trouble,’ she added, gently.
But Mr. Sugden was too much in earnest to be embarrassed by the gentle
denial she made of any necessity for his help.
‘At any time, in any circumstances,’ he said, hoarsely. ‘Mrs. Anderson,
I do not say this is what I would choose--but if your daughter should
have need of a--of one who would serve her--like a brother--I do not say
it is what I would choose----’
‘My dear Mr. Sugden! you are so very good----’
‘No, not good,’ he said, anxiously--‘don’t say that--good to myself--if
you will but believe me. I would forget everything else.’
‘You may be sure, should I feel myself in need, you will be the first I
shall go to,’ said Mrs. Anderson, graciously. (‘What can he mean?--what
fancy can he have taken into his head?’ she was saying, with much
perplexity, all the time to herself.) ‘I cannot ask you to come in, Mr.
Sugden--we must keep everything quiet for Ombra; but I hope we shall see
you soon.’
And she dismissed him, accepting graciously all his indistinct and eager
offers of service. ‘He is very good; but I don’t know what he is
thinking of,’ she said rather drearily as she turned to go in. Kate was
still clinging to her, and Kate, though it was not necessary to keep up
appearances with her, had better, Mrs. Anderson thought, be kept in the
dark too, as much as was possible. ‘I am going to Ombra,’ she said.
‘Good night, my dear child. Go to bed.’
‘Auntie, stop a minute. Oh! auntie, take me into your confidence. I love
her, and you too. I will never say a word, or let any one see that I
know. Oh! Auntie--Ombra--has she gone with them?--has she--run--away?’
‘Ombra--run away!’ cried Mrs. Anderson, throwing her niece’s arm from
her. ‘Child, how dare you? Do you mean to insult both her and me?’
Kate stood abashed, drawn back to a little distance, tears coming to her
eyes.
‘I did not mean any harm,’ she said, humbly.
‘Not mean any harm! But you thought my child--my Ombra--had run away!’
‘Oh! forgive me,’ said Kate. ‘I know now how absurd it was; but--I
thought--she might be--in love. People do it--at least in books. Don’t
be angry with me, auntie. I thought so because of your face. Then what
is the matter? Oh! do tell me; no one shall ever know from me.’
Mrs. Anderson was worn out. She suffered Kate’s supporting arm to steal
round her. She leant her head upon the girl’s shoulder.
‘I can’t tell you, dear,’ she said, with a sob. ‘She has mistaken her
feelings; she is--very unhappy. You must be very, very kind and good to
her, and never let her see you know anything. Oh! Kate, my darling is
very unhappy. She thinks she has broken her heart.’
‘Then I know!’ cried Kate, stamping her foot upon the gravel, and
feeling as Mr. Sugden did. ‘Oh! I will go after them and bring them
back! It is their fault.’