BETWEEN THE TWO.
Not in the Rectory drawing-room, but in a pretty little sitting-room
attached to her bed-chamber, where the temperature was regulated, and no
draughts could penetrate, reclined Mrs. Ashton. Her invalid gown sat
loosely upon her shrunken form, her delicate, lace cap shaded a fading
face. Anne sat by her side in all her loveliness, ostensibly working; but
her fingers trembled, and her face looked flushed and pained.
It was the morning after their return, and Mrs. Graves had called in to
see Mrs. Ashton--gossiping Mrs. Graves, who knew all that took place in
the parish, and a great deal of what never did take place. She had just
been telling it all unreservedly in her hard way; things that might be
said, and things that might as well have been left unsaid. She went out
leaving a whirr and a buzz behind her and an awful sickness of desolation
upon one heart.
"Give me my little writing-case, Anne," said Mrs. Ashton, waking up from
a reverie and sitting forward on her sofa.
Anne took the pretty toy from the side-table, opened it, and laid it on
the table before her mother.
"Is it nothing I can write for you, mamma?"
"No, child."
Anne bent her hot face over her work again. It had not occurred to her
that it could concern herself; and Mrs. Ashton wrote a few rapid lines:
"My Dear Percival,
"Can you spare me a five-minutes' visit? I wish to speak with you. We
go away again on Monday.
"Ever sincerely yours,
"Catherine Ashton."
She folded it, enclosed it in an envelope, and addressed it to the Earl
of Hartledon. Pushing away the writing-table, she held out the note to
her daughter.
"Seal it for me, Anne. I am tired. Let it go at once."
"Mamma!" exclaimed Anne, as her eye caught the address. "Surely you are
not writing to him! You are not asking him to come here?"
"You see that I am writing to him, Anne. And it is to ask him to come
here. My dear, you may safely leave me to act according to my own
judgment. But as to what Mrs. Graves has said, I don't believe a word
of it."
"I scarcely think I do," murmured Anne; a smile hovering on her troubled
countenance, like sunshine after rain.
Anne had the taper alight, and the wax held to it, the note ready in her
hand, when the room-door was thrown open by Mrs. Ashton's maid.
"Lord Hartledon."
He came in in a hurried manner, talking fast, making too much fuss; it
was unlike his usual quiet movements, and Mrs. Ashton noticed it. As he
shook hands with her, she held the note before him.
"See, Percival! I was writing to ask you to call upon me."
Anne had put out the light, and her hand was in Lord Hartledon's before
she well knew anything, save that her heart was beating tumultuously.
Mrs. Ashton made a place for him on the sofa, and Anne quietly left the
room.
"I should have been here earlier," he began, "but I had the steward with
me on business; it is little enough I have attended to since my brother's
death. Dear Mrs. Ashton! I grieve to hear this poor account of you. You
are indeed looking ill."
"I am so ill, Percival, that I doubt whether I shall ever be better in
this world. It is my last chance, this going away to a warmer place until
winter has passed."
He was bending towards her in earnest sympathy, all himself again; his
dark blue eyes very tender, his pleasant features full of concern as he
gazed on her face. And somehow, looking at that attractive countenance,
Mrs. Ashton's doubts went from her.
"But what I have said is to you alone," she resumed. "My husband and
children do not see the worst, and I refrain from telling them. A little
word of confidence between us, Val."
"I hope and trust you may come back cured!" he said, very fervently. "Is
it the fever that has so shattered you?"
"It is the result of it. I have never since been able to recover
strength, but have become weaker and more weak. And you know I was
in ill health before. We leave on Monday morning for Cannes."
"For Cannes?" he exclaimed.
"Yes. A place not so warm as some I might have gone to; but the doctors
say that will be all the better. It is not heat I need; only shelter from
our cold northern winds until I can get a little strength into me.
There's nothing the matter with my lungs; indeed, I don't know that
anything is the matter with me except this terrible weakness."
"I suppose Anne goes with you?"
"Oh yes. I could not go without Anne. The doctor will see us settled
there, and then he returns."
A thought crossed Lord Hartledon: how pleasant if he and Anne could have
been married, and have made this their wedding tour. He did not speak it:
Mrs. Ashton would have laughed at his haste.
"How long shall you remain away?" he asked.
"Ah, I cannot tell you. I may not live to return. If all goes well--that
is, if there should be a speedy change for the better, as the medical men
who have been attending me think there may be--I shall be back perhaps in
April or May. Val--I cannot forget the old familiar name, you see--"
"I hope you never will forget it," he warmly interposed.
"I wanted very particularly to see you. A strange report was brought
here this morning and I determined to mention it to you. You know what
an old-fashioned, direct way I have of doing things; never choosing a
roundabout road if I can take a straight one. This note was a line asking
you to call upon me," she added, taking it from her lap, where it had
been lying, and tossing it on to the table, whilst her hearer, his
conscience rising up, began to feel a very little uncomfortable. "We
heard you had proposed marriage to Lady Maude Kirton."
Lord Hartledon's face became crimson. "Who on earth could have invented
that?" cried he, having no better answer at hand.
"Mrs. Graves mentioned it to me. She was dining at Hartledon last week,
and the countess-dowager spoke about it openly."
Mrs. Ashton looked at him; and he, confused and taken aback, looked down
on the carpet, devoutly wishing himself in the remote regions he had
spoken of to Mr. Carr. Anywhere, so that he should never be seen or
recognized again.
"What am I to do?" thought he. "I wish Mother Graves was hanged!"
"You do not speak, Percival!"
"Well, I--I was wondering what could have given rise to this," he
stammered. "I believe the old dowager would like to see her daughter
mistress of Hartledon: and suppose she gave utterance to her thoughts."
"Very strange that she should!" observed Mrs. Ashton.
"I think she's a little cracked sometimes," coughed Val; and, in truth,
he now and then did think so. "I hope you have not told Anne?"
"I have told no one. And had I not felt sure it had no foundation, I
should have told the doctor, not you. But Anne was in the room when Mrs.
Graves mentioned it."
"What a blessing it would be if Mrs. Graves were out of the parish!"
exclaimed Val, hotly. "I wonder Dr. Ashton keeps Graves on, with such a
mother! No one ever had such a mischief-making tongue as hers."
"Percival, may I say something to you?" asked Mrs. Ashton, who was
devouring him with her eyes. "Your manner would almost lead me to believe
that there _is_ something in it. Tell me the truth; I can never be
anything but your friend."
"Believe one thing, dear Mrs. Ashton--that I have no intention of
marrying anyone but Anne; and I wish with all my heart and soul you'd
give her to me to-day. Shut up with those two women, the one pretty, the
other watching any chance word to turn it to her own use, I dare say the
Mrs. Graveses of the place have talked, forgetting that Maude is my
cousin. I believe I paid some attention to Maude because I was angry
at being kept out of the Rectory; but my attentions meant nothing, upon
my honour."
"Elster's folly, Val! Lady Maude may have thought they did."
"At any rate she knew of my engagement to Anne."
"Then there is nothing in it?"
"There shall be nothing in it," was the emphatic answer. "Anne was my
first love, and she will be my last. You must promise to give her to me
as soon as you return from Cannes."
"About that you must ask her father. I dare say he will do so."
Lord Hartledon rose from his seat; held Mrs. Ashton's hand between his
whilst he said his adieu, and stooped to kiss her with a son's affection.
She was a little surprised to find it was his final farewell. They were
not going to start until Monday. But Hartledon could not have risked that
cross-questioning again; rather would he have sailed away for the savage
territories at once. He went downstairs searching for Anne, and found her
in the room where you first saw her--her own. She looked up with quite an
affectation of surprise when he entered, although she had probably gone
there to await him. The best of girls are human.
"You ran away, Anne, whilst mamma and I held our conference?"
"I hope it has been satisfactory," she answered demurely, not looking up,
and wondering whether he suspected how violently her heart was beating.
"Partly so. The end was all right. Shall I tell it you?"
"The end! Yes, if you will," she replied unsuspectingly.
"The decision come to is, that a certain young friend of ours is to be
converted, with as little delay as circumstances may permit, into Lady
Hartledon."
Of course there came no answer except a succession of blushes. Anne's
work, which she had carried with her, took all her attention just then.
"Can you guess her name, Anne?"
"I don't know. Is it Maude Kirton?"
He winced. "If you have been told that abominable rubbish, Anne, it is
not necessary to repeat it. It's not so pleasant a theme that you need
make a joke of it."
"Is it rubbish?" asked Anne, lifting her eyes.
"I think you ought to know that if any one does. But had anything
happened, Anne, recollect it would have been your fault. You have been
very cool to me of late. You forbid me the house for weeks and weeks; you
went away for an indefinite period without letting me know, or giving me
the chance of seeing you; and when the correspondence was at length
renewed, your letters were cold and formal--quite different from what
they used to be. It almost looks as if you wished to part from me."
Repentance was stealing over her: why had she ever doubted him?
"And now you are going away again! And although this interview may be
our last for months, you scarcely deign to give me a word or a look of
farewell."
Anne had already been terribly tried by Mrs. Graves: this was the climax:
she lost her self-control and burst into tears. Lord Hartledon was
softened at once. He took her two hands in his; he clasped her to his
heart, half devouring her face with passionate kisses. Ah, Lady Maude!
this impassioned love was never felt for you.
"You don't love her?" whispered Anne.
"Love her! I never loved but you, my best and dearest. I never shall, or
can, love another."
He spoke in all good faith; fully believing what he said; and it was
indeed true. And Anne? As though a prevision had been upon her of the
future, she remained passively in his arms sobbing hysterically, and
suffering his kisses; not drawing away from him in maiden modesty, as
was her wont. She had never clung to him like this.
"You will write to me often?" he whispered.
"Yes. Won't you come to Cannes?"
"I don't know that it will be possible, unless you remain beyond the
spring. And should that be the case, Anne, I shall pray your father and
mother that the marriage may take place there. I am going up to town next
month to take my seat in the House. It will be a busy session; and I want
to see if I can't become a useful public man. I think it would please the
doctor to find I've some stuff in me; and a man must have a laudable
object in life."
"I would rather die," murmured Anne, passionately in her turn, "than hear
again what Mrs. Graves said."
"My darling, we cannot stop people's gossip. Believe in me; I will not
fail you. Oh, Anne, I wish you were already my wife!" he aspirated
fervently, his perplexities again presenting themselves to his mind.
"The time will come," she whispered.
Lord Hartledon walked home full of loyal thought, saying to himself what
an utter idiot he had been in regard to Maude, and determined to lose no
time in getting clear of the entanglement. He sought an opportunity of
speaking to her that afternoon; he really did; but could not find it. The
dowager had taken her out to pay a visit.
Mr. Carr was as good as his word, and got down in time for dinner. One
glance at Lord Hartledon's face told him what he half expected to
see--that the word of emancipation had not yet been spoken.
"Don't blame me, Carr. I shall speak to-night before I sleep, on my word
of honour. Things have come to a crisis now; and if I wished to hold back
I could not. I would say what a fool I have been not to speak before;
only you know I'm one already."
Thomas Carr laughed.
"Mrs. Ashton has heard some tattle about Maude, and spoke to me this
afternoon. Of course I could only deny it, my face feeling on fire with
its sense of dishonour, for I don't think I ever told a deliberate lie in
my life; and--and, in short, I should like my marriage with Anne to take
place as soon as possible."
"Well, there's only one course to pursue, as I told you when I was down
before. Tell Lady Maude the candid truth, and take shame and blame to
yourself, as you deserve. Her having known of the engagement to Miss
Ashton renders your task the easier."
Very restless was Lord Hartledon until the moment came. He knew the best
time to speak to Maude would be immediately after dinner, whilst the
countess-dowager took her usual nap. There was no hesitation now; and he
speedily followed them upstairs, leaving his friend at the dinner-table.
He went up, feeling a desperate man. To those of his temperament having
to make a disagreeable communication such as this is almost as cruel as
parting with life.
No one was in the drawing-room but Lady Kirton--stretched upon a sofa and
apparently fast asleep. Val crossed the carpet with softened tread to the
adjoining rooms: small, comfortable rooms, used by the dowager in
preference to the more stately rooms below. Maude had drawn aside the
curtain and was peering out into the frosty night.
"Why, how soon you are up!" she cried, turning at his entrance.
"I came on purpose, Maude. I want to speak to you."
"Are you well?" she asked, coming forward to the fire, and taking her
seat on a sofa. In truth, he did not look very well just then. "What is
it?"
"Maude," he answered, his fair face flushing a dark red as he plunged
into it blindfold: "I am a rogue and a fool!"
Lady Maude laughed. "Elster's folly!"
"Yes. You know all this time that we--that I--" (Val thought he should
never flounder through this first moment, and did not remain an instant
in one place as he talked)--"have been going on so foolishly, I
was--almost as good as a married man."
"Were you?" said she, quietly. "Married to whom?"
"I said as good as married, Maude. You know I have been engaged for years
to Miss Ashton; otherwise I would have _knelt_ to ask you to become my
wife, so earnestly should I desire it."
Her calm imperturbability presented a curious contrast to his agitation.
She was regarding him with an amused smile.
"And, Maude, I have come now to ask you to release me. Indeed, I--"
"What's all this about?" broke in the countess-dowager, darting upon
the conference, her face flushed and her head-dress awry. "Are you two
quarrelling?"
"Val was attempting to explain something about Miss Ashton," answered
Maude, rising from the sofa, and drawing herself up to her stately
height. "He had better do it to you instead, mamma; I don't understand
it."
She stood up by the mantelpiece, in the ray of the lustres. They fell
across her dark, smooth hair, her flushed cheeks, her exquisite features.
Her dress was of flowing white crêpe, with jet ornaments; and Lord
Hartledon, even in the midst of his perplexity, thought how beautiful she
was, and what a sad thing it was to lose her. The truth was, his senses
had been caught by the girl's beauty although his heart was elsewhere.
It is a very common case.
"The fact is, ma'am," he stammered, turning to the dowager in his
desperation, "I have been behaving very foolishly of late, and am asking
your daughter's pardon. I should have remembered my engagement to Miss
Ashton."
"Remembered your engagement to Miss Ashton!" echoed the dowager, her
voice becoming a little shrill. "What engagement?"
Lord Hartledon began to recover himself, though he looked foolish still.
With these nervous men it is the first plunge that tells; get that over
and they are brave as their fellows.
"I cannot marry two women, Lady Kirton, and I am bound to Anne."
The old dowager's voice toned down, and she pulled her black feathers
straight upon her head.
"My dear Hartledon, I don't think you know what you are talking about.
You engaged yourself to Maude some weeks ago."
"Well--but--whatever may have passed, engagement or no engagement, I
could not legally do it," returned the unhappy young man, too considerate
to say the engagement was hers, not his. "You knew I was bound to Anne,
Lady Kirton."
"Bound to a fiddlestick!" said the dowager. "Excuse my plainness,
Hartledon. When you engaged yourself to the young woman you were poor and
a nobody, and the step was perhaps excusable. Lord Hartledon is not bound
by the promises of Val Elster. All the young women in the kingdom, who
have parsons for fathers, could not oblige him to be so."
"I am bound to her in honour; and"--in love he was going to say, but let
the words die away unspoken.
"Hartledon, you are bound in honour to my daughter; you have sought her
affections, and gained them. Ah, Percival, don't you know that it is you
she has loved all along? In the days when I was worrying her about your
brother, she cared only for you. You cannot be so infamous as to desert
her."
"I wish to Heaven she had never seen me!" cried the unfortunate man,
beginning to wonder whether he could break through these trammels. "I'd
sacrifice myself willingly, if that would put things straight."
"You cannot sacrifice Maude. Look at her!" and the crafty old dowager
flourished her hand towards the fireplace, where Maude stood in all her
beauty. "A daughter of the house of Kirton cannot be taken up and cast
aside at will. What would the world say of her?"
"The world need never know."
"Not know!" shrieked the dowager; "not know! Why, her trousseau is
ordered, and some of the things have arrived. Good Heavens, Hartledon,
you dare not trifle with Maude in this way. You could never show your
face amongst men again."
"But neither dare I trifle with Anne Ashton," said Lord Hartledon,
completely broken down by the gratuitous information. He saw that the
situation was worse than even he had bargained for, and all his
irresolution began to return upon him. "If I knew what was right
to be done, I'm sure I'd do it."
"Right, did you say? Right? There cannot be a question about that. Which
is the more fitting to grace your coronet: Maude, or a country parson's
daughter?"
"I'm sure if this goes on I shall shoot myself," cried Val. "Taken to
task at the Rectory, taken to task here--shooting would be bliss to it."
"No doubt," returned the dowager. "It can't be a very pleasant position
for you. Any one but you would get out of it, and set the matter at
rest."
"I should like to know how."
"So long as you are a single man they naturally remain on the high ropes
at the Rectory, with their fine visions for Anne--"
"I wish you would understand once for all, Lady Kirton, that the Ashtons
are our equals in every way," he interrupted: "and," he added, "in worth
and goodness infinitely our superiors."
The dowager gave a sniff. "You think so, I know, Hart. Well, the only
plan to bring you peace is this: make Maude your wife. At once; without
delay."
The proposition took away Val's breath. "I could not do it, Lady Kirton.
To begin with, they'd bring an action against me for breach of promise."
"Breach of nonsense!" wrathfully returned the dowager. "Was ever such
a thing heard of yet, as a doctor of divinity bringing an action of that
nature? He'd lose his gown."
"I wish I was at the bottom of a deep well, never to come up again!"
mentally aspirated the unfortunate man.
"Will--you--marry--Maude?" demanded the dowager, with a fixed
denunciation in every word, which was as so much slow torture to her
victim.
"I wish I could. You must see for yourself, Lady Kirton, that I cannot.
Maude must see it."
"I see nothing of the sort. You are bound to her in honour."
"All I can do is to remain single to the end of my days," said Val, after
a pause. "I have been a great villain to both, and I cannot repair it to
either. The one stands in the way of the other."
"But--"
"I beg your pardon, ma'am," he interrupted, so peremptorily that the old
woman trembled for her power. "This is my final decision, and I will not
hear another word. I feel ready to hang myself, as it is. You tell me I
cannot marry any other than Maude without being a scoundrel; the same
thing precisely applies to Anne. I shall remain single."
"You will give me one promise--for Maude's sake. Not, after this, to
marry Anne Ashton."
"Why, how can I do it?" asked he, in tones of exasperation. "Don't you
see that it is impossible? I shall not see the Ashtons again, ma'am; I
would rather go a hundred miles the other way than face them."
The countess-dowager probably deemed she had said sufficient for safety;
for she went out and shut the door after her. Lord Hartledon dashed his
hair from his brow with a hasty hand, and was about to leave the room by
the other door, when Maude came up to him.
"Is this to be the end of it, Percival?"
She spoke in tones of pain, of tremulous tenderness; all her pride gone
out of her. Lord Hartledon laid his hand upon her shoulder, meeting the
dark eyes that were raised to his through tears.
"Do you indeed love me like this, Maude? Somehow I never thought it."
"I love you better than the whole world. I love you enough to give up
everything for you."
The emphasis conveyed a reproach--that he did not "give up everything"
for her. But Lord Hartledon kept his head for once.
"Heaven knows my bitter repentance. If I could repair this folly of mine
by any sacrifice on my own part, I would gladly do it. Let me go, Maude!
I have been here long enough, unless I were more worthy. I would ask you
to forgive me if I knew how to frame the petition."
She released the hand of which she had made a prisoner--released it with
a movement of petulance; and Lord Hartledon quitted the room, the words
she had just spoken beating their refrain on his brain. It did not occur
to him in his gratified vanity to remember that Anne Ashton, about whose
love there could be no doubt, never avowed it in those pretty speeches.
"Well?" said Mr. Carr, when he got back to the dining-room.
"It is not well, Carr; it is ill. There can be no release. The old
dowager won't have it."
"But surely you will not resign Miss Ashton for Lady Maude!" cried the
barrister, after a pause of amazement.
"I resign both; I see that I cannot do anything else in honour. Excuse
me, Carr, but I'd rather not say any more about it just now; I feel half
maddened."
"Elster's folly," mentally spoke Thomas Carr.