Armitage had to leave at half-past eight the next morning, for it was
a ten-mile drive to Truro, the nearest station, and he breakfasted
alone. Rain had fallen heavily during the night, but it had cleared
up before morning, and everything looked deliciously fresh and clean.
Ten minutes before his carriage came round Margery appeared, and they
walked together up and down the terrace until it was time for him to be
off. Margery was looking a little tired and worried, as if she had not
slept well.
"I shall have breakfast with Frank in his studio after you have
gone," she said, "so until your carriage comes we'll take a turn
out-of-doors. There is something so extraordinarily sweet about the
open air."
"Frank didn't seem to me to profit by it much last night."
Margery frowned. "I don't know what's the matter with me," she said.
"All that nonsense which Frank talked last night must have got on my
nerves. Don't you know those long, half-waking dreams one has sometimes
when one is not quite certain whether what one hears or sees is real or
not? Once last night I woke like that. I thought at first it was part
of my dream, and heard Frank talking in his sleep. 'Margery,' he said,
'that isn't me at all. This is me. Surely you know me. Do I look so
terrible?'"
"Why should he think he looked terrible?" said Jack.
"I don't know. Then he went rambling on: 'I tried to bury it, and
you would not let me tell you.' Of course, his mind must have been
running on what he said yesterday evening as we came in, for he went on
repeating, 'Don't you know me? Don't you know me?' And this morning he
got up at daybreak, and I haven't seen him since."
Margery stopped to pick a couple of rosebuds and put them in the front
of her dress. She had no hat on, and the light wind blew through her
hair with a deliciously bracing effect. She turned towards the sea,
and sniffed in the salt freshness with wide nostrils like a young
thorough-bred horse.
"If Frank would only be out-of-doors for two hours a day while he was
working, I shouldn't mind," she said; "but he sticks in his studio, and
then his digestion gets out of order, and he becomes astral. And my
mother wants us to go to the Lizard to-morrow--they've taken a house
for the summer--and spend a couple of days. I think I shall go, but yet
I don't like to leave Frank. It's no use trying to get him to come."
"But you aren't nervous, are you?" asked Jack. "I thought you were
so particularly sensible last night. Frank is awfully fantastic--he
always was; but fundamentally he's sane enough. Probably it will be
a wonderful picture--he is usually right about his pictures--and he
will be excessively nervous and irritable while he is doing it, and
refreshingly idle when it's done. That's the way he usually has."
"But it's an unhealthy way of doing things," said Margery. "I wish he
was more regular."
"The wind bloweth where it listeth," said Jack, "and it blows very
often on him. Isn't that enough?"
"Well, then, I wish I had a barometer," said she. "The hurricane comes
down without warning. But I'm not nervous--at least, I don't mean to
be. It is just one of Frank's ridiculous notions. All the same, as he
said last night, when he does do a really good portrait it has a very
definite effect on him."
"In what way? I don't understand."
"Do you remember his picture of Mr. Bracebridge? It was in the Academy
the year after his portrait of me, though it was painted first. You
know every one said it was wicked to paint a thing like that--that he
might as well have painted Mr. Bracebridge without any clothes on as
without any body on."
"Without any body on?"
"Yes; somehow--even I felt it, and I am not artistic--Frank managed
to paint his soul. I could have written an exhaustive analysis of Mr.
Bracebridge's character from that portrait."
"And the effect on Frank?"
"Mr. Bracebridge is a charming man, you know," said Margery, "but he is
really unable to tell the truth. It sounds very ridiculous, but for six
weeks Frank really became the most awful liar."
Jack stopped short.
"But the thing is absurd. In any case, what does he mean by saying that
he doesn't know what will happen when he paints himself? It seems to me
that in the case of Mr. Bracebridge, so far from Frank putting a lot
of himself into the picture, he unfortunately absorbed a lot of Mr.
Bracebridge into himself."
"Frank was quite unconscious he had become a liar," said Margery;
"but what he means is this: he put a lot of his own personality into
the picture--really the whole thing is so absurd that I am ashamed to
tell you about it--and consequently weakened himself, or, as he would
express it, emptied himself. And being in this state, Mr. Bracebridge's
little weakness impressed itself on him. That certainly happened, and
it seems to me only likely. We are all affected by any one with whom
we are much taken up, but what Frank assumes is the loss of his own
personality. That is absurd."
"Frank was like a hypnotic subject, in fact," said Jack--"at least,
they say that they give themselves up, and subject themselves to
another's will. But even then--and, like you, I think the whole thing
is nonsense--how will the painting of his own portrait affect him?"
"Like this: he puts his whole personality into it and receives nothing
in exchange; no other personality will, so to speak, feed him. Really,
he is very silly."
The sound of carriage-wheels caused them to turn in their stroll and
walk back again to the house.
"Incidentally," asked Jack, "how did he cease to be a liar?"
Margery looked at him openly and frankly.
"Oh, by painting me. I am very truthful."
"Did he absorb any other characteristic?"
"Yes; he became less fantastic for a time. You see I am very
unimaginative."
"Then you had better get him to paint another portrait of you while he
is doing this. Won't that preserve the balance?"
The fresh air and sunshine were having their legitimate effect on
Margery, and had sufficiently cancelled her troubled night. She broke
out into a light laugh.
"Oh, that would be too dreadfully complicated," she said. "Let's
see--what would happen? He would put his personality into both
portraits, and get back some of mine, and so he would cease to be
himself and become a watery reminiscence of me. It's as bad as
equations. Really, Mr. Armitage, I am beginning to think you believe in
it yourself."
"No, I don't; not a bit more than you do. Well, I must say good-bye to
Frank, and tell him not to become too astral."
Frank was standing in front of his easel with the charcoal in his
hand. He had caught a very characteristic pose of his figure with
extraordinary success, and Margery and Jack exchanged a rapid glance as
they saw it; for though they had both avowed that they did not believe
a word of "Frank's nonsense," they both felt it to be a certain relief
when they saw how brilliantly Frank had sketched it in. There was a
certain sureness about his lines that seemed to give both Bedlam and
Heaven a most satisfactory remoteness. But they both noticed that Frank
had drawn the face already and erased it, and it was only represented
by a few half-obliterated lines.
Frank did not look up when they entered, and Jack crossed the room to
him.
"I'm just off," he said, seeing that the other did not look up, "and
I've come to say good-bye. I've enjoyed my visit enormously--quite
enormously."
Frank started and winced as if he had been struck, and, looking up, saw
Armitage for the first time. He drew his hand over his eyes as if he
had just been awakened and his eyes were still heavy with sleep.
"Ah, Jack, I didn't see you. What time is it? Where are you going?"
Even as he spoke he turned to the easel again and went on drawing.
"I'm going away," said Jack. "I'm going to New Quay."
"Of course you are. Well, good-bye. Drop in and see us at any time. I'm
very busy," and he was lost in his work.
Jack laid his hand on his shoulder.
"Don't overdo it, old boy," he said. "You soon knock up, you know, if
you don't take exercise. And it won't be half so good if you slave at
it all day. Half the artistic sense is good digestion."
"No, I'll be very careful," said Frank, half to himself. "Take your
hand away, please; I'm drawing in that piece."
"I shall tell them to send breakfast in here at once, Frank," said
Margery. "I'm going to have breakfast here with you."
Frank made no reply, and the two left the room together. Armitage was
suddenly loath to go, but the carriage was at the door, and it was
obviously absurd to stop just because--because Frank had talked a great
deal of nonsense the evening before, and had made a wonderfully clever
sketch of himself, but for some reason had been dissatisfied with the
drawing of the face. Somehow that little point interested him, and he
wanted to assure himself that no significance was to be attached to it.
Besides, Frank was in better hands than his, for he left behind him
this splendidly sensible woman, a sort of apotheosis of common-sense,
in whom that rare but prosaic virtue became something keen and subtle.
She had said that she thought all this idea of Frank's about his
personality was ridiculous. Besides, she could always telegraph to New
Quay.
That obliterated face had caught Margery's attention as well as his,
and as they walked down the corridor to the front door she said:
"Did you notice that Frank had drawn in the face and then rubbed it
out?"
"Yes; I wondered if you had noticed it too."
"Why do you think he did that?" asked Margery.
"I don't know; I suppose it didn't satisfy him."
Margery frowned.
"I don't know either. Frank is usually so rapid about the drawing. And
he always draws the face as soon as he has got a few of the lines of
the body in. Really I don't know, only I noticed it."
But just before Jack drove off an impulse prompted him to say, "Beach
Hotel, New Quay, you know. I will be sure to come if you telegraph."
"Yes, many thanks. I shall remember. It is very good of you to promise
to come at once; but I don't think it's very likely, you know, that I
shall telegraph. Good-bye."
Margery waited till the carriage disappeared between the trees, and
then went in to tell them to send breakfast to the studio at once.
And as she walked back there she allowed to herself, with her habitual
honesty, that her will was in collision with her inclinations. She had
a great gift of forcing herself to do anything which her will told her
she had better do. In dealing with other people also her will asserted
its predominance, and if it was in collision with theirs they had been
heard to remark that she was obstinate, while if it went in harness
with them they said, "Dear Margery is so firm!" and congratulated
themselves and her. And when, as on this occasion, her will was in
collision with her own inclinations, it exhibited itself in a splendid
self-control.
She felt a trifle lonely and inadequate when she saw Armitage drive
off; but, as she told herself, her sense of loneliness and inadequacy
were not due to the fact that she was frightened at being alone with
Frank and his ghostly enemies, but because she had determined to
fight those ghostly enemies; to force Frank, as far as in her lay, to
paint the portrait of himself, and finish it at all costs. This, she
persuaded herself, would be a real and final defeat of his fantastic
tendencies, his irregularity, his fits of complete laziness whenever
ideas did not beat loud at the door of his imagination. It was absurd
to sit at home and wait for the idea to call; art had to look for ideas
in all sorts of places. And it was with a fine show of justification
that she said to herself that many of his wild ideas would be routed
if she could only make him go through with this portrait, and see
him stand in front of the finished work and say, "It is all I ever
hoped it would be, and I am still a sane man." Surely if she could
help in any way to make him do that, it would be no slight cause for
self-congratulation. Genius was often bitter, but Frank was not that;
more often it was fantastic, and Frank should be fantastic no longer.
"What harm can come to him through this?" she reasoned. "I am quite
sure"--already she liked to tell herself she was quite sure--"that
he will not lose his personality, because such things do not happen.
That he will be awfully savage and silent while he is painting I fully
expect; but that does not matter. What does matter is that he should
see, when it is finished, what a goose he has been."
Breakfast had just been brought in when Margery returned to the studio,
but Frank was still working. She sat down at once and began to make
tea.
"You'd much better have your breakfast now," she said, "and go on
working afterwards; but I suppose, as usual, you will let everything
get cold and nasty. Eggs and bacon and cold grouse. I'm going to begin."
Margery helped herself to eggs and bacon, and poured out some tea; but
she had scarcely caught the flavor of her first sip when Frank suddenly
left his canvas and sat down by her.
"I'm tired," he said, "and my hand is heavy."
"It will be lighter after breakfast," said Margery, cheerfully. "Eat,
Frank."
"No, I shall eat soon. I want to sit by you and look at you. Margery
darling, what a trial it must be to have me for a husband!"
There was something very wistful and pathetic in his voice, and
Margery felt moved.
"Ah, Frank," she said, "I don't find it so."
Frank was looking at her with eager eyes, as a dog looks at his master.
He had taken up her hand, and was stroking it gently with his long,
nervous fingers. Suddenly he jumped up.
"I see, I see," he said. "I have been drawing something that wasn't me
at all. I can do it now. Margery, will you come and stand very close to
me, so that when I look in the glass I can see you too?"
Margery rose from her half-eaten breakfast, and went across the room to
where his easel was.
"So?" she said.
Frank picked up the charcoal, and began drawing rapidly. In ten minutes
he had done what he had been trying to do for the last two hours.
"There," he said, "that is your husband. And now go back to your
breakfast, Margery. I must begin to paint at once!"
Margery looked at the face he had drawn.
"Why, it is you," she said. "And, Frank, you look just as you looked
when I met you that morning on the beach at New Quay."
"That is what I mean," said Frank.