THE ATTRACTION OF THE REPULSIVE

On one of the most charming of the many wonderfully picturesque little

beaches on the Pacific coast, near Monterey, is the idlest if not the

most disagreeable social group in the world. Just off the shore, farther

than a stone's-throw, lies a mass of broken rocks. The surf comes leaping

and laughing in, sending up, above the curving green breakers and crests

of foam, jets and spirals of water which flash like silver fountains in

the sunlight. These islets of rocks are the homes of the sea-lion. This

loafer of the coast congregates here by the thousand. Sometimes the rocks

are quite covered, the smooth rounded surface of the larger one

presenting the appearance at a distance of a knoll dotted with dirty

sheep. There is generally a select knot of a dozen floating about in the

still water under the lee of the rock, bobbing up their tails and

flippers very much as black driftwood might heave about in the tide.

During certain parts of the day members of this community are off fishing

in deep water; but what they like best to do is to crawl up on the rocks

and grunt and bellow, or go to sleep in the sun. Some of them lie half in

water, their tails floating and their ungainly heads wagging. These

uneasy ones are always wriggling out or plunging in. Some crawl to the

tops of the rocks and lie like gunny bags stuffed with meal, or they

repose on the broken surfaces like masses of jelly. When they are all at

home the rocks have not room for them, and they crawl on and over each

other, and lie like piles of undressed pork. In the water they are black,

but when they are dry in the sun the skin becomes a dirty light brown.

Many of them are huge fellows, with a body as big as an ox. In the water

they are repulsively graceful; on the rocks they are as ungainly as

boneless cows, or hogs that have lost their shape in prosperity. Summer

and winter (and it is almost always summer on this coast) these beasts,

which are well fitted neither for land nor water, spend their time in

absolute indolence, except when they are compelled to cruise around in

the deep water for food. They are of no use to anybody, either for their

skin or their flesh. Nothing could be more thoroughly disgusting and

uncanny than they are, and yet nothing more fascinating. One can watch

them--the irresponsible, formless lumps of intelligent flesh--for hours

without tiring. I scarcely know what the fascination is. A small seal

playing by himself near the shore, floating on and diving under the

breakers, is not so very disagreeable, especially if he comes so near

that you can see his pathetic eyes; but these brutes in this perpetual

summer resort are disgustingly attractive. Nearly everything about them,

including their voice, is repulsive. Perhaps it is the absolute idleness

of the community that makes it so interesting. To fish, to swim, to

snooze on the rocks, that is all, for ever and ever. No past, no future.

A society that lives for the laziest sort of pleasure. If they were rich,

what more could they have? Is not this the ideal of a watering-place

life?

The spectacle of this happy community ought to teach us humility and

charity in judgment. Perhaps the philosophy of its attractiveness lies

deeper than its 'dolce far niente' existence. We may never have

considered the attraction for us of the disagreeable, the positive

fascination of the uncommonly ugly. The repulsive fascination of the

loathly serpent or dragon for women can hardly be explained on

theological grounds. Some cranks have maintained that the theory of

gravitation alone does not explain the universe, that repulsion is as

necessary as attraction in our economy. This may apply to society. We are

all charmed with the luxuriance of a semi-tropical landscape, so

violently charmed that we become in time tired of its overpowering bloom

and color. But what is the charm of the wide, treeless desert, the

leagues of sand and burnt-up chaparral, the distant savage, fantastic

mountains, the dry desolation as of a world burnt out? It is not contrast

altogether. For this illimitable waste has its own charm; and again and

again, when we come to a world of vegetation, where the vision is shut in

by beauty, we shall have an irrepressible longing for these wind-swept

plains as wide as the sea, with the ashy and pink horizons. We shall long

to be weary of it all again--its vast nakedness, its shimmering heat, its

cold, star-studded nights. It seems paradoxical, but it is probably true,

that a society composed altogether of agreeable people would become a

terrible bore. We are a “kittle” lot, and hard to please for long. We

know how it is in the matter of climate. Why is it that the masses of the

human race live in the most disagreeable climates to be found on the

globe, subject to extremes of heat and cold, sudden and unprovoked

changes, frosts, fogs, malarias? In such regions they congregate, and

seem to like the vicissitudes, to like the excitement of the struggle

with the weather and the patent medicines to keep alive. They hate the

agreeable monotony of one genial day following another the year through.

They praise this monotony, all literature is full of it; people always

say they are in search of the equable climate; but they continue to live,

nevertheless, or try to live, in the least equable; and if they can find

one spot more disagreeable than another there they build a big city. If

man could make his ideal climate he would probably be dissatisfied with

it in a month. The effect of climate upon disposition and upon manners

needs to be considered some day; but we are now only trying to understand

the attractiveness of the disagreeable. There must be some reason for it;

and that would explain a social phenomenon, why there are so many

unattractive people, and why the attractive readers of these essays could

not get on without them.

The writer of this once traveled for days with an intelligent curmudgeon,

who made himself at all points as prickly as the porcupine. There was no

getting on with him. And yet when he dropped out of the party he was

sorely missed. He was more attractively repulsive than the sea-lion. It

was such a luxury to hate him. He was such a counter-irritant, such a

stimulant; such a flavor he gave to life. We are always on the lookout

for the odd, the eccentric, the whimsical. We pretend that we like the

orderly, the beautiful, the pleasant. We can find them anywhere--the

little bits of scenery that please the eye, the pleasant households, the

group of delightful people. Why travel, then? We want the abnormal, the

strong, the ugly, the unusual at least. We wish to be startled and

stirred up and repelled. And we ought to be more thankful than we are

that there are so many desolate and wearisome and fantastic places, and

so many tiresome and unattractive people in this lovely world.

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