"A single stream of all her soft brown hair
Poured on one side.
* * *
Half light, half shade,
She stood, a sight to make an old man young."
--_Gardener's Daughter._
Thrusting her little bare feet into her slippers, she takes up a candle
and walks softly down the stairs, past the smoking and billiard-rooms,
into the drawing-room, where the paper has been left.
All the lamps have been extinguished, leaving the apartment, which is
immense, steeped in darkness. Coming into it from the brilliantly-lighted
hall outside, with only a candle in her hand, the gloom seems even
greater, and overcomes her sight to such a degree that she has traversed
at least one-half its length before she discovers she is not its only
occupant.
Seated before a writing-table, with his hand, indeed, upon the very
blotting-book she seeks, and with only another candle similar to hers
to lend him light, sits Luttrell.
As her eyes meet his she starts, colors violently, and is for the
moment utterly abashed.
Involuntarily she glances down at the soft blue dressing-gown she
wears, over which her hair--brushed and arranged for the night--falls
in soft, rippling, gold-brown masses, and from thence to the little
naked feet that peep out shamelessly from their blue slippers.
The crimson blood rises to her face. Covered with a painful though
pretty confusion, she stands quite still, and lets her tell-tale eyes
seek the ground.
Luttrell has risen, and, without any particular design, has advanced
toward her. Perhaps the force of habit compels him to do so; perhaps
intense and not altogether welcome surprise. For the future to see her
is but to add one more pang to his intolerable regret.
"I was writing to you," he says, indicating with a slight movement of
the hand the chair on which he has been sitting, and thus breaking the
awful silence which threatens to last until next day, so mute has Molly
grown. With a delicate sense of chivalry he endeavors to appear
oblivious of her rather scanty and disconcerting--however
becoming--costume. "But as it is, perhaps I may as well say to you what
is on my mind,--if you will permit me."
"I cannot forbid your speech." Coldly.
"I will not keep you long. But"--with a slight, almost imperceptible,
glance at her dressing-gown--"perhaps you are in a hurry?"
"I am--rather." At this juncture, had they been friends, Molly would
undoubtedly have laughed. As it is, she is profoundly serious. "Still,
if it is anything important, I will hear you."
"Can I do anything for you?" asks he, hesitating, evidently fearing to
approach the desired subject.
"Nothing, thank you. I came only for a paper,--left in the
blotting-book. If you wish to speak, do so quickly, as I must go."
Then, as he still hesitates, "Why do you pause?"
"Because I fear incurring your displeasure once again; and surely the
passages between us have been bad enough already."
"Do not fear." Coldly. "It is no longer in your power to wound me."
"True. I should not have allowed that fact to escape me. Yet hear me.
It is my love urges me on."
"Your--love!" With slow and scornful disbelief.
"Yes,--mine. In spite of all that has come and gone, you know me well
enough to understand how dear you still are to me. No, you need not say
a word. I can see by your face that you will never pardon. There is no
greater curse than to love a woman who gives one but bare tolerance in
return."
"Why did you not think of all this while there was yet time?"
"One drifts--until it is too late to seek for remedies. My heaviest
misfortune lies in the fact that I cannot root you from my heart."
"A terrible misfortune, no doubt,"--with a little angry flash from her
azure eyes,--"but one that time will cure."
"Will it?" Wistfully. "Shall I indeed learn to forget you, Molly,--to
look back upon my brief but happy past as an idle dream? I hardly hope
so much."
"And would you waste all your best days," asks she, in tones that
tremble ever so little, "in thinking of me? Remember all you said,--all
you meant,--how 'thankful you were to find me out in time.'"
"And will you condemn forever because of a few words spoken in a moment
of despair and terrible disappointment?" pleads he. "I acknowledge my
fault. I was wrong; I was too hasty. I behaved like a brute, if you
will; but then I believed I had grounds for fear. When once I saw your
face, heard your voice, looked into your eyes, I knew how false my
accusations were; but it was then too late."
"Too late, indeed."
"How calmly you can say it!" with exquisite reproach. "Have five
minutes blotted out five months? Did you know all the anguish I endured
on seeing you with--Shadwell--I think you might forgive."
"I might. But I could not forget. Would I again consent to be at the
mercy of one who without a question pronounced me guilty? A thousand
times no!"
"Say at once you are glad to be rid of me," breaks he in bitterly,
stung by her persistent coldness.
"You are forgetting your original purpose," she says, after a slight
pause, declining to notice his last remark. "Was there not something
you wished to say to me?"
"Yes." Rousing himself with an impatient sigh. "Molly," blanching a
little, and trying to read her face, with all his heart in his
eyes,--"are you going to marry Shadwell?"
Molly colors richly (a rare thing with her), grows pale again, clasps
and unclasps her slender fingers nervously, before she makes reply. A
prompting toward mischief grows within her, together with a sense of
anger that he should dare put such a question to her under existing
circumstances.
"I cannot see by what right you put to me such a question--now," she
says, at length, haughtily. "My affairs can no longer concern you."
With an offended gleam at him from under her long lashes.
"But they do," cries he, hotly, maddened by her blush, which he has
attributed jealously to a wrong cause. "How can I see you throwing
yourself away upon a _roue_--a blackleg--without uttering a word
of warning?"
"'A _roue_--a blackleg'? Those are strong terms. What has Captain
Shadwell done to deserve them? A blackleg! How?"
"Perhaps I go too far when I say that," says Luttrell, wishing with all
his heart he knew something vile of Shadwell; "but he has gone as near
it as any man well can. You and he cannot have a thought in common.
Will you sacrifice your entire life without considering well the
consequences?"
"He is a gentleman, at all events," says Miss Massereene, slowly,
cuttingly. "He never backbites his friends. He is courteous in his
manner; and--he knows how to keep--his temper. I do not believe any of
your insinuations."
"You defend him?" cries Luttrell, vehemently. "Does that mean that you
already love him? It is impossible! In a few short weeks to forget all
the vows we interchanged, all the good days we spent at Brooklyn,
before we ever came to this accursed place! There at least you liked me
well enough,--you were willing to trust to me your life's happiness;
here!--And now you almost tell me you love this man, who is utterly
unworthy of you. Speak. Say it is not so."
"I shall tell you nothing. You have no right to ask me. What is there
to prevent my marrying whom I choose? Have you so soon forgotten that
last night you--_jilted_ me?" She speaks bitterly, and turns from
him with an unlovely laugh.
"Molly," cries the young man, in low tones, full of passion, catching
her hand, all the violent emotion he has been so painfully striving to
suppress since her entrance breaking loose now, "listen to me for one
moment. Do not kill me. My whole heart is bound up in you. You are too
young to be so cruel. Darling, I was mad when I deemed I could live
without you. I have been mad ever since that fatal hour last night.
Will you forgive me? _Will_ you?"
"Let my hand go, Mr. Luttrell," says the girl, with a dry sob. Is it
anger, or grief, or pride? "You had me once, and you would not keep me.
You shall never again have the chance of throwing me over: be assured
of that."
She draws her fingers from his burning clasp, and once more turns away,
with her eyes bent carefully upon the carpet, lest he shall notice the
tears that threaten to overflow them. She walks resolutely but slowly
past where he is standing, with folded arms, leaning against the wall,
toward the door.
Just as her fingers close on the handle she becomes aware of footsteps
on the outside coming leisurely toward her.
Instinctively she shrinks backward, casts a hasty, horrified glance at
her dressing-gown, her bare feet, her loosened hair; then, with a
movement full of confidence, mingled with fear, she hastens back to
Luttrell (who, too, has heard the disconcerting sound) and glances up
at him appealingly.
"There is somebody coming," she breathes, in a terrified whisper.
The footsteps come nearer,--nearer still; they reach the very
threshold, and then pause. Will their owner come in?
In the fear and agony and doubt of the moment, Molly lays her two white
hands upon her bosom and stands listening intently, with wide-open
gleaming eyes, too frightened to move or make any attempt at
concealment; while Luttrell, although alarmed for her, cannot withdraw
his gaze from her lovely face.
Somebody's hand steals along the door as though searching for the
handle. With renewed hope Luttrell instantly blows out both the candles
near him, reducing the room to utter darkness, and draws Molly behind
the window-curtains.
There is a breathless pause. The door opens slowly,--slowly. With a
gasp that can almost be heard, Molly puts out one hand in the darkness
and lays it heavily upon Luttrell's arm. His fingers close over it.
"Hush! not a word," whispers he.
"Oh, I am so frightened!" returns she.
His heart has begun to beat madly. To feel her so close to him,
although only through unwished-for accident, is dangerously sweet. By a
supreme effort he keeps himself from taking her in his arms and giving
her one last embrace; but honor, the hour, the situation, all alike
forbid. So he only tightens his clasp upon her hand and smothers a sigh
between his lips.
Whoever the intruder may be, he, she, or it, is without light; no
truth-compelling ray illumines the gloom; and presently, after a slight
hesitation, the door is closed again, and the footsteps go lightly,
cautiously away through the hall, leaving them once more alone in the
long, dark, ghostly drawing-room.
Molly draws her hand hurriedly away, and moving quietly from Luttrell's
side, breathes a sigh, half relief, half embarrassment; while he,
groping his way to the writing-table, finds a match, and, striking it,
throws light upon the scene again.
At the same moment Molly emerges from the curtains, with a heightened
color, and eyes, sweet but shamed, that positively refuse to meet his.
"I suppose I can trust you--to--say nothing of all this?" she murmurs,
unsteadily.
"I suppose you can." Haughtily.
His heart is still throbbing passionately; almost, he fears, each
separate beat can be heard in the oppressive stillness.
"Good-night," says Molly, slowly.
"Good-night."
Shyly, and still without meeting his gaze, she holds out her hand. He
takes it softly, reverently, and, emboldened by the gentleness of her
expression, says impulsively:
"Answer me a last question, darling,--answer me--_Are_ you going
to marry Philip?"
And she answers, also impulsively:
"No."
His face changes; hope once more shines within his blue eyes.
Involuntarily he draws up his tall, slight figure to its full height,
with a glad gesture that bespeaks returning confidence; then he glances
longingly first at Molly's downcast face, then at the small hand that
lies trembling in his own.
"May I?" he asks, and, receiving no denial, stoops and kisses it warmly
once, twice, thrice, with fervent devotion.
* * * * *
"My dear, how long you have been!" says Cecil, when at length Molly
returns to her room. "I thought you were never coming. Where have you
been?"
"In the drawing-room; and oh, Cecil! _he_ was there. And he would keep
me, asking me question after question."
"I dare say," says Cecil, looking her over. "That blue _negligee_ is
tremendously becoming. No doubt he has still a good many more questions
he would like to put to you. And you call yourself a nice, decorous,
well-behaved----"
"Don't be silly. You have yet to hear the 'decorous' and thrilling part
of my tale. Just as we were in the middle of a most animated discussion,
what do you think happened? Somebody actually came to the door and tried
to open it. In an instant Tedcastle blew out both our candles and drew
me behind the curtain."
"'"Curiouser and curiouser," said Alice.' I begin to think I'm in
Wonderland. Go on. The plot thickens; the impropriety deepens. It grows
more interesting at every word."
"The 'somebody,' whoever it was, opened the door, looked in,--fortunately
without a light, or we might have been discovered,--and----"
"You fainted, of course?" says Cecil, who is consumed with laughter.
"No, indeed," answers Molly; "I neither fainted nor screamed."
"Tut! nonsense. I think nothing of you. Such a golden opportunity
thrown away! In your place I should have been senseless in half a
minute in Tedcastle's arms."
"Forgive my stupidity. I only turned and caught hold of Teddy's arm,
and held him as though I never meant to let him go."
"Perhaps that was your secret wish, were the truth known. Molly, you
are wiser than I am. What is a paltry fainting fit to the touch of a
soft, warm hand? Go on."
"Well, the invader, when he had gazed into space, withdrew again,
leaving us to our own devices. Cecil, if we had been discovered! I in
my dressing-gown! Not all the waters of the Atlantic would have saved
me from censure. I never was so terrified. Who _could_ it have
been?"
"'Oh! 'twas I, love;
Wandering by, love,'"
declares Cecil, going off into a perfect peal of laughter. "Never,
never have I been so entertained! And so I frightened you? Well, be
comforted. I was terrified in my turn by your long absence; so much so
that, without a candle, I crept down-stairs, stole along the hall, and
looked into the drawing-room. Seeing no one, I retreated, and gained my
own room again as fast as I could. Oh, how sorry I am I did not know!
Consider your feelings had I stolen quietly toward your hiding-place
step by step! A splendid situation absolutely thrown away."
"You and Mr. Potts ought to be brother and sister, you both revel so in
the bare idea of mischief," says Molly, laughing too.
And then Cecil, declaring it is all hours, turns her out of her room,
and presently sleep falls and settles upon Herst and all its inmates.