A FIRST LOSS.
After Diego's departure, Leon remained for a long time leaning on
the baggage which he had before him; the last words of his departing
friend rang in his ear like the sound of a knell; a deep sorrow, a
deadly discouragement had seized upon him, and a state of undefinable
morbidness preyed on his whole being.
A friendship like that which united him to the Vaquero is not broken
so suddenly without the heart suffering from it, and in spite of the
exceptional circumstances which had caused the separation of the two
men, Leon could not refrain from a species of remorse.
Turning over in his mind the different phases of his past existence and
those of the four last years of his life, spent in the midst of llanos
and Pampas, he asked himself whether he had not consciously exchanged
the quietude of an unclouded present for the painful agitation of a
future big with tempests.
With his eye fixed on the dark and bold outline of Diego, which was
vaguely designed on the horizon, and was gradually disappearing in
space, twenty times he was on the point of dashing forward and begging
him to return, while swearing to give up the ardent passion which
mastered him; but an invincible force nailed him to the ground, his
choking voice died away on his lips, and his courage failed him. Ere
long an impenetrable mist spread between the eyes of the young man and
his friend, who entirely disappeared.
Then Leon began cursing the fatal love which had come to torture his
heart, and the hours of the night passed away unnoticed by him, so
greatly were his thoughts concentrated in his soul.
The sky was gloomy; heavy black clouds strangely edged, and driven from
the south-west by a cold wind, coursed through the air with extreme
velocity. When, at rare intervals, the moon appeared during the short
period which separated a cloud on the horizon from the advent of
another which dashed after it, its pale and sickly rays hardly lit up
the objects on which they cast their vague light.
The scenery, plunged in darkness at each new obscuration of the moon,
was mournful and silent, and nothing could be heard but the regular
footfall of the sentry echoing on the hardened soil. All were asleep in
the camp, save the sentry and Leon, and the latter, not afraid of being
seen, gave a free course to his grief, and heavy tears fell from his
eyes.
What secret and acrid sorrows are contained in each of these drops
of burning water which trickle down a man's face. Tears! the supreme
expression of impotence and despair. Tears! the height of weakness and
despondency which brutally restore man to his place, by showing him the
vanity of his pride, and the nullity of his pretended strength.
The captain of the smugglers was still weeping when a hand was laid
on, or rather slightly touched, his shoulder. He quickly raised his
head, and with difficulty restrained a cry of surprise. Doña Maria
was standing before him, with her finger laid on her lip, in order to
recommend silence.
Half hidden by the white lace which surrounded her face, and fell in
long streamers on her shoulders, the maiden presented herself to Leon's
astonished gaze, like a celestial apparition which had come from on
high to restore him hope and courage.
"You!" he murmured, with a tenderness of expression impossible to
render.
"Speak lower," the maiden replied, and she pointed to the sentry, who
had stopped, and seemed to be spying her movements. Leon looked for
a moment at the man to whom the guard of the camp was temporarily
confided.
"Reassure yourself," he said to her; "he is the bravest and most
devoted man in my band. Stop here for a moment."
Then walking a few paces, Leon made a signal to the sentry to come to
him.
"Wilhelm," he said to him, "stop as sentry till I give you orders
myself to call one of your comrades, and look out."
"Yes, captain," the man replied, with a marked German accent; "I
understand."
"Very good," Leon replied; "begone."
The sentry retired, and Leon returned to the maiden, whose bosom was
hurriedly heaving. The captain knew Wilhelm, and that at the slightest
movement which took place in the Soto-Mayor's tent, he should be
warned. Hence he was enabled to talk freely with her whom he loved,
without fear of being surprised.
"You here so close to me!" Leon went on, seizing one of the maiden's
hands. "Oh, Doña Maria, how kind you are!"
"You are suffering," she said, as she bent on the young man a glance
in which the signs of a sympathising interest were visible; "you are
suffering, and seem to avoid and shun me, and that is why I have
resolved on asking you the cause of your sorrow."
"Oh, no! I am no longer suffering since I see you; since I hear fall
from your lips sweet words which dilate my heart with hope and joy."
"Oh, be silent!" Maria replied; "for I only wish to know the cause
of the sorrow which I have remarked, since this morning, on your
countenance."
"What! has your attention been so directed to me as to make you feel
anxious on seeing me sad and despondent?"
"Do you not know that I love you?" Maria said, with an accent of such
sublime simplicity, that Leon fancied himself the sport of a dream.
There was a moment of supreme silence, which the maiden was the first
to break.
"I know," she said, "how strange and unusual is the step which I am
now taking, and how dangerous it would be with a man whose heart was
not so noble or so great as yours; but, alas! we are at this moment in
a situation so different from all the ordinary laws of life, that I
thought I must frankly come and find you."
"You were right, señorita," muttered Leon, with his eyes ardently fixed
upon her.
"Let me," she continued, "express to you all the gratitude I feel to
you for your conduct, so full of self-denial and so loyal."
"Oh!" he said.
"I know all; I was an invisible hearer of your conversation; and
nothing said by you or your friend escaped my ear. I thank you from the
bottom of my heart for your devotion to our family. Alas!" she said, as
if speaking to herself, "perhaps it would have been better for you and
for us had you abandoned us."
"I will carry out, whatever may happen, the oath which I took to you,
señorita, to lead you in safety to your destination."
"But," she said, with a movement of fear, "that man, your friend, that
gloomy and stern individual, I tremble lest he may try to make us fall
into some horrible trap. I have a dark foreboding that a danger menaces
us."
"Whatever may be the danger, señorita," the young man exclaimed
passionately, "be convinced that my friend will have no share in it;
his word is sacred, and I place the most perfect confidence in him."
"Heaven grant that you are not mistaken!" she said, with a stifled sigh.
"Moreover," he continued, "whatever may happen, I shall be there,
and no one will reach you without passing over my body. I have sworn
to escort you and your family safe and sound to the end of this long
journey, and that oath I will keep, whatever may happen."
"Thanks," she murmured, with emotion, as she offered him her white and
delicate hand; "thanks, Leon--I love you!" and she disappeared light as
a shadow, leaving the young man plunged into indescribable ecstasy.
The rest of the night passed without further incident, and at daybreak
Leon, who had not slept for an instant, gave the signal for starting.
In spite of himself, the young man felt a vague terror for which he
could not account. The maiden's parting words echoed in his ear and the
presentiment which she stated that she felt, caused him a preoccupation
which he sought in vain to dissipate, by proving to himself that no
possible danger could threaten the persons whom he was escorting.
Still, before reaching the districts where any fear would become
chimerical owing to the distance from the country frequented by the
Indians, the caravan would be obliged to pass through a passage called
the Parumo de San Juan Bautista, a very difficult pass to cross, and
which, as it served as the extreme limit of the Indian border, was the
more favourable for the preparation of an ambush.
The captain wished to arrive before nightfall at this pass, in order to
reconnoitre the approaches carefully, and guard against any surprise.
But to do this speed was required. Gene Soto-Mayor asked the young man
why he raised the camp at so early an hour, but the latter without
telling him all his thoughts, managed to give him reasons which,
without being good, closed his mouth, and the caravan started. The
three ladies, carefully wrapped up in their ponchos and rebozos in
order to protect themselves from the cold, rode side by side, preceded
by General Soto-Mayor and Don Pedro Sallazar.
Leon was a few paces ahead plunged into serious reflections.
"Eh, Caballero!" Don Pedro shouted to him, "I should like, with your
permission, to ask you a question."
The captain stopped.
"A question, señor," he said; "what is it, if you please?"
"Well, I fancy it very simple; still if, unconsciously, I am guilty of
any indiscretion, I beg you beforehand to excuse me, and I authorize
your not answering me."
The young man bowed.
"Let me hear the question," he said.
"Since we have started," Don Pedro continued, "I have sought your
friend in vain, but could not find him; can he have left us, or has he
gone ahead to reconnoitre?"
"My friend, señor," the young man answered, somewhat drily, "has left
us not to return. He went away last night while you were asleep, but I
have remained, and shall not abandon you. Does this explanation suit
you, señor? Or have you any other questions to ask me?"
"Hum!" Don Pedro replied, internally offended by the way in which the
young man had answered him, and checking his horse, so as to let the
others pass.
The caravan continued its journey, and not one of those who composed
it--numbed by the cold which gradually grew more intense, and which
they had great difficulty in guarding themselves against--attempted to
stripe up even the most frivolous conversation.
The nearer the travellers came to the Parumo de San Juan Bautista,
the more nervous did the captain grow, though he could not guess the
reason; at length this anxiety became so great, that, after temporarily
entrusting the command of the troop to Wilhelm, he made a signal to
four of his adventurers to follow him; and, putting himself at their
head, he dashed his horse at the flanks of the mountain which the
travellers were ascending at the moment. As he passed Doña Maria, the
latter slightly pulled aside the rebozo that covered her face, and bent
down to him.
"Are you leaving us in that way, Leon?" she murmured, in a voice faint
as a sigh.
The young man started at the sound of the beloved voice.
"No!" he answered; "on the contrary, I am going to watch over your
safety." And dashing off, he at once disappeared among the trees.
"Heaven grant," the maiden said as she crossed herself, "that my fears
are chimerical, and that the danger which I apprehend may only exist in
my imagination."
And wrapping herself once more in her rebozo, the maiden rode pensively
on by the side of her mother and sister, who seemed not to have paid
any attention to the few words she had exchanged with the captain.