LXXIX. THE OLD HUMAN STORY

Jervis Langdon was never able to accept his son-in-law's invitation to

the new home. His health began to fail that spring, and at the end of

March, with his physician and Mrs. Langdon, he made a trip to the South.

In a letter written at Richmond he said, “I have thrown off all care,”

and named a list of the four great interests in which he was involved.

Under “number 5,” he included “everything,” adding, “so you see how good

I am to follow the counsel of my children.” He closed: “Samuel, I love

your wife and she loves me. I think it is only fair that you should know

it, but you need not flare up. I loved her before you did, and she loved

me before she did you, and has not ceased since. I see no way but for

you to make the most of it.” He was already a very ill man, and this

cheerful letter was among the last he ever wrote.

He was absent six weeks and seemed to improve, but suffered an attack

early in May; in June his condition became critical. Clemens and his

wife were summoned to Elmira, and joined in the nursing, day and night.

Clemens surprised every one by his ability as a nurse. His delicacy and

thoughtfulness were unfailing; his original ways of doing things always

amused and interested the patient. In later years Mark Twain once said:

“How much of the nursing did I do? My main watch was from midnight

to four in the morning, nearly four hours. My other watch was a

midday watch, and I think it was nearly three hours. The two

sisters divided the remaining seventeen hours of the twenty-four

hours between them, and each of them tried generously and

persistently to swindle the other out of a part of her watch. I

went to bed early every night, and tried to get sleep enough by

midnight to fit me for my work, but it was always a failure. I went

on watch sleepy and remained miserable, sleepy, and wretched,

straight along through the four hours. I can still see myself

sitting by that bed in the melancholy stillness of the sweltering

night, mechanically waving a palm-leaf fan over the drawn, white

face of the patient. I can still recall my noddings, my fleeting

unconsciousness, when the fan would come to a standstill in my hand,

and I woke up with a start and a hideous shock. During all that

dreary time I began to watch for the dawn long before it came. When

the first faint gray showed through the window-blinds I felt as no

doubt a castaway feels when the dim threads of the looked-for ship

appear against the sky. I was well and strong, but I was a man,

afflicted with a man's infirmity--lack of endurance.”

He always dealt with himself in this unsparing way; but those who were

about him then have left a different story.

It was all without avail. Mr. Langdon rallied, and early in July there

was hope for his recovery. He failed again, and on the afternoon of the

6th of August he died. To Mrs. Clemens, delicate and greatly worn with

the anxiety and strain of watching, the blow was a crushing one. It

was the beginning of a series of disasters which would mark the entire

remaining period of their Buffalo residence.

There had been a partial plan for spending the summer in England, and a

more definite one for joining the Twichells in the Adirondacks. Both of

these projects were now abandoned. Mrs. Clemens concluded that she would

be better at home than anywhere else, and invited an old school friend,

a Miss Emma Nye, to visit her.

But the shadow of death had not been lifted from the Clemens household.

Miss Nye presently fell ill with typhoid fever. There followed another

long period of anxiety and nursing, ending with the death of the visitor

in the new home, September 29th. The young wife was now in very delicate

health; genuinely ill, in fact. The happy home had become a place of

sorrow-of troubled nights and days. Another friend came to cheer

them, and on this friend's departure Mrs. Clemens drove to the railway

station. It was a hurried trip over rough streets to catch the train.

She was prostrated on her return, and a little later, November 7, 1870,

her first child, Langdon, was prematurely born. A dangerous illness

followed, and complete recovery was long delayed. But on the 12th the

crisis seemed passed, and the new father wrote a playful letter to the

Twichells, as coming from the late arrival:

DEAR UNCLE AND AUNT,--I came into the world on the 7th inst., and

consequently am about five days old now. I have had wretched health

ever since I made my appearance... I am not corpulent, nor am

I robust in any way. At birth I only weighed four and one-half

pounds with my clothes on--and the clothes were the chief feature of

the weight, too, I am obliged to confess, but I am doing finely, all

things considered.... My little mother is very bright and

cheery, and I guess she is pretty happy, but I don't know what

about. She laughs a great deal, notwithstanding she is sick abed.

P. S.--Father says I had better write because you will be more

interested in me, just now, than in the rest of the family.

A week later Clemens, as himself, wrote:

Livy is up and the prince keeps her busy and anxious these latter

days and nights, but I am a bachelor up-stairs and don't have to

jump up and get the soothing sirup, though I would as soon do it as

not, I assure you. (Livy will be certain to read this letter.)

Tell Harmony that I do hold the baby, and do it pretty handily too,

though with occasional apprehensions that his loose head will fall

off. I don't have to quiet him; he hardly ever utters a cry. He is

always thinking about something. He is a patient, good little baby.

Further along he refers to one of his reforms:

Smoke? I always smoke from three till five on Sunday afternoons,

and in New York, the other day, I smoked a week, day and night. But

when Livy is well I smoke only those two hours on Sunday. I'm boss

of the habit now, and shall never let it boss me any more.

Originally I quit solely on Livy's account (not that I believed

there was the faintest reason in the matter, but just as I would

deprive myself of sugar in my coffee if she wished it, or quit

wearing socks if she thought them immoral), and I stick to it yet on

Livy's account, and shall always continue to do so without a pang.

But somehow it seems a pity that you quit, for Mrs. T. didn't mind

it, if I remember rightly. Ah, it is turning one's back upon a

kindly Providence to spurn away from us the good creature he sent to

make the breath of life a luxury as well as a necessity, enjoyable

as well as useful. To go quit smoking, when there ain't any

sufficient excuse for it!--why, my old boy, when they used to tell

me I would shorten my life ten years by smoking, they little knew

the devotee they were wasting their puerile words upon; they little

knew how trivial and valueless I would regard a decade that had no

smoking in it! But I won't persuade you, Twichell--I won't until I

see you again--but then we'll smoke for a week together, and then

shut off again.

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