INDIAN AND CAUCASIAN
DeWitt debated with himself for some time as to whether or not he ought
to speak to Jack of Porter's warning. Finally he decided that Porter's
suspicions would only anger Jack, who was intensely loyal to his
friends. He determined to keep silence until he had something more
tangible on which to found his complaint than Billy's bitter prejudice
against all Indians. He had implicit faith in Rhoda's love for
himself. If any vague interest in life could come to her through the
young Indian, he felt that he could endure his presence. In the
meantime he would guard Rhoda without cessation.
In the days that followed, Rhoda grew perceptibly weaker, and her
friends went about with aching hearts under an assumed cheerfulness of
manner that deceived Rhoda least of any one. Rhoda herself did not
complain and this of itself added a hundredfold to the pathos of the
situation. Her unfailing sweetness and patience touched the healthy,
hardy young people who were so devoted to her more than the most
justifiable impatience on her part.
Time and again Katherine saw DeWitt and Jack leave the girl's side with
tears in their eyes. But Cartwell watched the girl with inscrutable
gaze.
Rhoda still hated the desert. The very unchanging loveliness of the
days wearied her. Morning succeeded morning and noon followed noon,
with always the same soft breeze stirring the orchard, always the clear
yellow sunlight burning and dazzling her eyes, always the unvarying
monotony of bleating sheep and lowing herds and at evening the hoot of
owls. The brooding tenderness of the sky she did not see. The
throbbing of the great, quiet southern stars stirred her only with a
sense of helpless loneliness that was all but unendurable. And still,
from who knows what source, she found strength to meet the days and her
friends with that unfailing sweetness that was as poignant as the
clinging fingers of a sick child.
Jack, Katherine, DeWitt, Cartwell, all were unwearying in their effort
to amuse her. And yet for some reason. Cartwell alone was able to
rouse her listless eyes to interest. Even DeWitt found himself eagerly
watching the young Indian, less to guard Rhoda than to discover what in
the Apache so piqued his curiosity. He had to admit, however
reluctantly, that Kut-le, as he and Rhoda now called him with the
others, was a charming companion.
Neither DeWitt nor Rhoda ever before had known an Indian. Most of
their ideas of the race were founded on childhood reading of Cooper.
Kut-le was quite as cultured, quite as well-mannered and quite as
intelligent as any of their Eastern friends. But in many other
qualities he differed from them. He possessed a frank pride in himself
and his blood that might have belonged to some medieval prince who
would not take the trouble outwardly to underestimate himself. Closely
allied to this was his habit of truthfulness. This was not a blatant
bluntness that irritated the hearer but a habit of valuing persons and
things at their intrinsic worth, a habit of mental honesty as bizarre
to Rhoda and John as was the young Indian's frank pride.
His attitude toward Rhoda piqued her while it amused her. Since her
childhood, men had treated her with deference, had paid almost abject
tribute to her loveliness and bright charm. Cartwell was delightfully
considerate of her. He was uniformly courteous to her. But it was the
courtesy of _noblesse oblige_, without a trace of deference in it.
One afternoon Kut-le sat alone on the veranda with Rhoda.
"Do you know," he said, rumpling his black hair, "that I think DeWitt
has decided that I will bear watching!"
"Well," answered Rhoda idly, "and won't you?"
Kut-le chuckled.
"Would you prefer that I show the lurking savage beneath this false
shell of good manners?"
Rhoda smiled back at him.
"Of course you are an Indian, after all. It's rather too bad of you
not to live up to any of our ideals. Your manners are as nice as John
DeWitt's. I'd be quite frantic about you if you would drop them and go
on the war-path."
Kut-le threw back his head and laughed.
"Oh, you ignorant young thing! It's lucky for you--and for me--that
you have come West to grow up and complete your education! But DeWitt
needn't worry. I don't need watching yet! First, I'm going to make
you well. I know how and he doesn't. After that is done, he'd better
watch!"
Rhoda's eyebrows began to go up. Kut-le never had recalled by word or
look her outburst in the desert the morning of their first ride
together, though they had taken several since. Rhoda seldom mentioned
her illness now and her friends respected her feeling. But now Kut-le
smiled at her disapproving brows.
"I've waited for the others to get busy," he said, "but they act
foolish. Half the trouble with you is mental. You need a boss. Now,
you don't eat enough, in spite of the eggs and beef and fruit that that
dear Mrs. Jack sets before you. See how your hands shake this minute!"
Rhoda could think of no reply sufficiently crushing for this forward
young Indian. While she was turning several over in her mind, Kut-le
went into the house and returned with a glass of milk.
"I wish you'd drink this," he said.
Rhoda's brows still were arched haughtily.
"No, thank you," she said frigidly; "I don't wish you to undertake the
care of my health."
Kut-le made no reply but held the glass steadily before her.
Involuntarily, Rhoda looked up. The young Indian was watching her with
eyes so clear, so tender, with that strange look of tragedy belying
their youth, with that something so compelling in their quiet depths,
that once more her tired pulses quickened. Rhoda looked from Kut-le
out to the twisting sand-whirls, then she took the glass of milk and
drank it. She would not have done this for any of the others and both
she and Kut-le knew it. Thereafter, he deliberately set himself to
watching her and it seemed as if he must exhaust his ingenuity devising
means for her comfort. Slowly Rhoda acquired a definite interest in
the young Indian.
"Are you really civilized, Kut-le?" she asked one afternoon when the
young man had brought a little white desert owl to her hammock for her
inspection.
Kut-le tossed the damp hair from his forehead and looked at the sweet
wistful face against the crimson pillows. For a moment Rhoda felt as
if his young strength enveloped her like the desert sun.
"Why?" he asked at last. "You said the other day that I was too much
civilized."
"I know, but--" Rhoda hesitated for words, "I'm too much civilized
myself to understand, but sometimes there's a look in your eyes that
something, I suppose it's a forgotten instinct, tells me means that you
are wild to let all this go--" she waved a thin hand toward cultivated
fields and corral--"and take to the open desert."
Kut-le said nothing for a moment, though his face lighted with joy at
her understanding. Then he turned toward the desert and Rhoda saw the
look of joy change to one so full of unutterable longing that her heart
was stirred to sudden pity. However, an instant later, he turned to
her with the old impassive expression.
"Right beneath my skin," he said, "is the Apache. Tell me, Miss Rhoda,
what's the use of it all?"
"Use?" asked Rhoda, staring at the blue sky above the peach-trees. "I
am a fit person to ask what is the use of anything! Of course,
civilization is the only thing that lives. I can't get your point of
view at all."
"Huh!" sniffed Kut-le. "It's too bad Indians don't write books! If my
people had been putting their internal mechanism on paper for a
thousand years, you'd have no more trouble getting my point of view
than I do yours."
Rhoda's face as she eyed the stern young profile was very sympathetic.
Kut-le, turning to her, surprised upon her face that rare, tender smile
for which all who knew her watched. His face flushed and his fine
hands clasped and unclasped.
"Tell me about it, Kut-le, if you can."
"I can't tell you. The desert would show you its own power if you
would give it a chance. No one can describe the call to you. I
suppose if I answered it and went back, you would call it
retrogression?"
"What would you call it?" asked Rhoda.
"I don't know. It would depend on my mood. I only know that the ache
is there." His eyes grew somber and beads of sweat appeared on his
forehead. "The ache to be there--free in the desert! To feel the hot
sun in my face as I work the trail! To sleep with the naked stars in
my face! To be-- Oh, I can't make you understand, and I'd rather you
understood than any one in the world! You could understand, if only
you were desert-taught. When you are well and strong--"
"But why don't you go back?" interrupted Rhoda.
"Because," replied Kut-le slowly, "the Indian is dying. I hope that by
living as a white, I may live. Up till recently I have worked blindly
and hopelessly, but now I see light."
"Do you?" asked Rhoda with interest. "What have you found?"
"It isn't mine yet." Kut-le looked at the girl exultantly and there
was a triumphant note in his voice. "But it shall be mine! I will
make it mine! And it is worth the sacrifice of my race."
A vague look of surprise crossed Rhoda's face but she spoke calmly:
"To sacrifice one's race is a serious thing. I can't think of anything
that would make that worth while. Here comes Mr. DeWitt. It must be
dinner time. John, come up and see a little desert owl at close range.
Kut-le has all the desert at his beck and call!"
Kut-le persuaded Rhoda to change the morning rides, which seemed only
to exhaust her, to the shortest of evening strolls. Nearly always
DeWitt accompanied them. Sometimes they went alone, though John was
never very far distant.
One moonlit night Kut-le and Rhoda stood alone at the corral bars. The
whole world was radiant silver moonlight on the desert, on the
undulating alfalfa; moonlight filtering through the peach-trees and
shimmering on Rhoda's drooping head as she leaned against the bars in
the weary attitude habitual to her. Kut-le stood before her, erect and
strong in his white flannels. His handsome head was thrown back a
little, as was his custom when speaking earnestly. His arms were
folded across his deep chest and he stood so still that Rhoda could see
his arms rise and fall with his breath.
"It really is great work!" he was saying eagerly. "It seems to me that
a civil engineer has tremendous opportunities to do really big things.
Some of Kipling's stories of them are bully."
"Aren't they!" answered Rhoda sympathetically.
"There is a big thing in my favor too. The whites make no
discrimination against an Indian in the professions. In fact every one
gives him a boost in passing!"
"Why shouldn't they? You have as good a brain and are as attractive as
any man of my acquaintance!"
The young man drew a quick breath.
"Do you really mean that?"
"Of course! Why shouldn't I? Isn't the moonlight uncanny on the
desert?"
But Kut-le did not heed her attempt to change the subject.
"There are unlimited opportunities for me to make good, now that the
government is putting up so many dams. I believe that I can go to the
top with any man, don't you, Miss Rhoda?"
"I do, indeed!" replied Rhoda sincerely.
"Well, then, Miss Rhoda, will you marry me?"
Rhoda raised her head in speechless amazement.
Kut-le's glowing eyes contracted.
"You are not surprised!" he exclaimed a little fiercely, "You must have
seen how it has been with me ever since you came. And you have been
so--so bully to me!"
Rhoda looked helplessly into the young man's face. She was so fragile
that she seemed but an evanescent part of the moonlight.
"But," she said slowly, "you must know that this is impossible. I
couldn't think of marrying you, Kut-le!"
There was a moment's silence. An owl called from the desert. The
night wind swept from the fragrant orchard. When he spoke again,
Kut-le's voice was husky.
"Is it because I am an Indian?"
"Yes," answered Rhoda, "partly. But I don't love you, anyhow."
"But," eagerly, "if you did love me, would my being an Indian make any
difference? Isn't my blood pure? Isn't it old?"
Rhoda stood still. The pain in Kut-le's voice was piercing through to
the shadow world in which she lived. Her voice was troubled.
"But I don't love you, so what's the use of considering the rest? If I
ever marry any one it will be John DeWitt."
"But couldn't you," insisted the tragically deep voice, "couldn't you
ever love me?"
Rhoda answered wearily. One could not, it seemed, even die in peace!
"I can't think of love or marriage any more. I am a dying woman. Let
me go into the mist, Kut-le, without a pang for our friendship, with
just the pleasant memory of your goodness to me. Surely you cannot
love me as I am!"
"I love you for the wonderful possibilities I see in you. I love you
in spite of your illness. I will make you well before I marry you.
The Indian in me has strength to make you well. And I will cherish you
as white men cherish their wives."
Rhoda raised her hand commandingly and in her voice was that boundless
vanity of the white, which is as old as the race.
"No! No! Don't speak of this again! You are an Indian but one
removed from savagery. I am a white! I couldn't think of marrying
you!" Then her tender heart failed her and her voice trembled. "But
still I am your friend, Kut-le. Truly I am your friend."
The Indian was silent so long that Rhoda was a little frightened. Then
he spoke slowly.
"Yes, you are white and I am red. But before all that, you are a woman
of exquisite possibilities and I am a man who by all of nature's laws
would make a fitting mate for you. You can love me, when you are well,
as you could love no other man. And I--dear one, I love you
passionately! I love you tenderly! I love you enough to give up my
race for you. I am an Indian, Rhoda, but first of all I am a man.
Rhoda, will you marry me?"
A thrill, poignant, heart-stirring, beat through Rhoda's veins. For
one unspeakable moment there swept through her spirit a vision of
strength, of beauty, of gladness, too wild and sweet for words. Then
came the old sense of race distaste and she looked steadily into the
young man's face.
"I cannot marry you, Kut-le," she said.
Kut-le said nothing more. He stood staring at the far desert, his fine
face somber and with a look of determination in the contracted eyes and
firm-set lips that made Rhoda shiver, even while her heart throbbed
with pity. Tall, slender, inscrutable, as alien to her understanding
as the call of the desert wind or the moon-drenched desert haze, she
turned away and left him standing there alone.
She made her slow way to the ranch-house. Kut-le did not follow.
Rhoda went to bed at once. Yet she could not sleep, for through the
silence Kut-le's deep voice beat on her ears.
"I love you passionately! I love you tenderly! I am an Indian, but
first of all I am a man!"
The next day and for the three or four days following, Kut-le was
missing. The Newmans were worried. The ditch needed its engineer and
never before had Kut-le been known to neglect his work. Once a year he
went on a long hunt with chosen friends of his tribe, but never until
his work was finished.
Rhoda confided in no one regarding her last interview with the Indian.
She missed Kut-le, but DeWitt was frankly relieved. For the first time
since Porter's warning he relaxed his vigilance. On the fifth evening
after Kut-le's disappearance, Jack and DeWitt rode over to a
neighboring ranch. Katherine was lazy with a headache. So Rhoda took
her evening stroll alone. For once, she left the orchard and wandered
out into the open desert, moved by an uncanny desire to let the full
horror of the desert mystery sweep over her.
How long she sat on a rock, gazing into infinity, she did not know. It
seemed to her that her whole shivering, protesting body was being
absorbed into the strange radiance of the afterglow. At last she rose.
As she did so, a tall figure loomed silently before her. Rhoda was too
startled to scream. The figure was that of an Indian, naked save for
high moccasins and a magnificently decorated loin-cloth. The man
looked down at her with the smile of good fellowship that she knew so
well. It was Kut-le, standing like a young bronze god against the
faint pink of the afterglow.
"Hello!" he said nonchalantly. "I've been watching for you."
"What do you want!" gasped Rhoda. "What do you mean by coming before
me in--in--"
"You mean when I'm dressed as a chief on the warpath? Well, you said
you'd be keen about me this way; so here I am. I tried all the white
methods I knew to win you and failed. Now the only thing left is the
Indian method."
Rhoda moved uneasily.
Kut-le went on:
"As a white man I can no longer pester you. As an Indian I can steal
you and marry you."
Rhoda struggled to make him and his words seem real to her.
"You aren't going to be so absurd as to try to steal me, I hope!" she
tried to laugh.
"That's just what I'm going to do!" answered Kut-le. "If I steal as a
white would steal, I would be caught at once. If I use Apache methods,
no white on earth can catch me."
Rhoda gasped as the Indian's evident sincerity sank in on her.
"But," she pleaded, fighting for time, "you can't want to marry me by
force! Don't you know that I shall grow to loathe you?"
"No! No!" answered the Indian earnestly. "Not after I've shown you
life as I have seen it."
"Nonsense!" cried Rhoda. "Don't you realize that the whole county will
be after you by morning?"
Kut-le laughed, deliberately walked up to the girl and lifted her in
his arms as he had on the morning of their meeting. Rhoda gave one
scream and struggled frantically. He slid a hand over her lips and
tightened his hold. For a moment Rhoda lay motionless in abject fear,
then, with a muffled cry of utter helplessness, a cry that would have
driven a white man mad with pity, she slipped into unconsciousness.
Kut-le walked on for a short distance to a horse. He put Rhoda in the
saddle and fastened her there with a blanket. He slipped off the
twisted bandana that bound his short black hair, fillet wise, and tied
it carefully over Rhoda's mouth. Then with one hand steadying the
quiet shoulders, he started the horse on through the dusk.