CHAPTER XVII. THE MAN AND THE WOMAN FACE THE INTOLERABLE

In a couple of hours they rounded Point de Leroily, and ran for the

harbour. By hugging the quay in the channel to the left of the bar, they

were sure of getting in, though the tide was low. The boat was docile

to the lug-sail and the helm. As they were beating in they saw a large

yacht running straight across a corner of the bar for the channel. It

was Warren Gasgoyne’s Kismet.

The Kismet had put into Audierne rather than try to pass Point du Raz

at night. At Gibraltar a telegram had come telling of the painful

sensation, and the yacht was instantly headed for England; Mrs. Gasgoyne

crossing the Continent, Delia preferring to go back with her father--his

sympathy was more tender. They had seen no newspapers, and they did not

know that Gaston was at Audierne. Gasgoyne knowing, as all the world

knew, that there was a bar at the mouth of the harbour, allowed himself,

as he thought, sufficient room, but the wind had suddenly drawn ahead,

and he was obliged to keep away. Presently the yacht took the ground

with great force.

Gasgoyne put the helm hard down, but she would not obey. He tried at

once to get in his sails, but the surf was running very strong, and

presently a heavy sea broke clean over her. Then came confusion and

dismay: the flapping of the wet, half-lowered sails, and the whipping

of the slack ropes, making all effort useless. There was no chance

of her-holding. Foot by foot she was being driven towards the rocks.

Sailors stood motionless on the shore. The lifeboat would be of little

use: besides, it could not arrive for some time.

Gaston had recognised the Kismet. He turned to Andree.

“There’s danger, but perhaps we can do it. Will you go?”

She flushed.

“Have I ever been a coward, Gaston? Tell me what to do.”

“Keep the helm firm, and act instantly on my orders.”

Instead of coming round into the channel, he kept straight on past the

lighthouse towards the yacht, until he was something to seaward of her.

Then, luffing quickly, he dropped sail, let go the anchor, and unshipped

the mast, while Andree got the oars into the rowlocks. It was his idea

to dip under the yacht’s stern, but he found himself drifting alongside,

and in danger of dashing broadside on her. He got an oar and backed with

all his strength towards the stern, the anchor holding well. Then he

called to those on board to be ready to jump. Once in line with the

Kismet’s counter, he eased off the painter rapidly, and now dropped

towards the stern of the wreck.

Gaston was quite cool. He did not now think of the dramatic nature of

this meeting, apart from the physical danger. Delia also had recognised

him, and guessed who the girl was. Not to respond to Gaston’s call was

her first instinct. But then, life was sweet. Besides, she had to think

of others. Her father, too, was chiefly concerned for her safety and for

his yacht. He had almost determined to get Delia on Gaston’s boat, and

himself take the chances with the Kismet; but his sailors dissuaded him,

declaring that the chances were against succour.

The only greetings were words of warning and direction from Gaston.

Presently there was an opportunity. Gaston called sharply to Delia, and

she, standing ready, jumped. He caught her in his arms as she came. The

boat swayed as the others leaped, and he held her close meanwhile. Her

eyes closed, she shuddered and went white. When he put her down, she

covered her face with her hands, trembling. Then, suddenly she came

huddling in a heap, and burst into tears.

They slipped the painter, a sailor took Andree’s place at the helm, the

oars were got out, and they made over to the channel, grazing the bar

once or twice, by reason of the now heavy load.

Warren Gasgoyne and Gaston had not yet spoken in the way of greeting.

The former went to Delia now and said a few cheery words, but, from

behind her handkerchief, she begged him to leave her alone for a moment.

“Nerves, all nerves, Mr. Belward,” he said, turning towards Gaston.

“But, then, it was ticklish-ticklish.”

They did not shake hands. Gaston was looking at Delia, and he did not

reply.

Mr. Gasgoyne continued:

“Nasty sea coming on--afraid to try Point du Raz. Of course we didn’t

know you were here.”

He looked at Andree curiously. He was struck by the girl’s beauty and

force. But how different from Delia!

He suddenly turned, and said bluntly, in a low voice: “Belward, what

a fool--what a fool! You had it all at your feet: the best--the very

best.”

Gaston answered quietly:

“It’s an awkward time for talking. The rocks will have your yacht in

half an hour.”

Gasgoyne turned towards it.

“Yes, she’ll get a raking fore and aft.” Then, he added, suddenly: “Of

course you know how we feel about our rescue. It was plucky of you.”

“Pluckier in the girl,” was the reply. “Brave enough,” the honest

rejoinder.

Gaston had an impulse to say, “Shall I thank her for you?” but he was

conscious how little right he had to be ironical with Warren Gasgoyne,

and he held his peace.

While the two were now turned away towards the Kismet, Andree came to

Delia. She did not quite know how to comfort her, but she was a woman,

and perhaps a supporting arm would do something.

“There, there,” she said, passing a hand round her shoulder, “you are

all right now. Don’t cry!”

With a gasp of horror, Delia got to her feet, but swayed, and fell

fainting--into Andree’s arms.

She awoke near the landing-place, her father beside her. Meanwhile

Andree had read the riddle. As Mr. Gasgoyne bathed Delia’s face, and

Gaston her wrists, and gave her brandy, she sat still and intent,

watching. Tears and fainting! Would she--Andree-have given way like that

in the same circumstances? No. But this girl--Delia--was of a different

order: was that it? All nerves and sentiment! At one of those lunches

in the grand world she had seen a lady burst into tears suddenly at some

one’s reference to Senegal. She herself had only cried four times,

that she remembered; when her mother died; when her father was called a

thief; when, one day, she suffered the first great shame of her life in

the mountains of Auvergne; and the night when she waked a second time to

her love for Gaston. She dared to call it love, though good Annette had

called it a mortal sin.

What was to be done? The other woman must suffer.

The man was hers--hers for ever. He had said it: for ever. Yet her heart

had a wild hunger for that something which this girl had and she had

not. But the man was hers; she had won him away from this other.

Delia came upon the quay bravely, passing through the crowd of staring

fishermen, who presently gave Gaston a guttural cheer. Three of them,

indeed, had been drinking his health. They embraced him and kissed him,

begging him to come with them for absinthe. He arranged the matter with

a couple of francs.

Then he wondered what now was to be done. He could not insult the

Gasgoynes by asking them to come to the chateau. He proposed the Hotel

de France to Mr. Gasgoyne, who assented. It was difficult to separate

here on the quay: they must all walk together to the hotel. Gaston

turned to speak to Andree, but she was gone. She had saved the

situation.

The three spoke little, and then but formally, as they walked to the

hotel. Mr. Gasgoyne said that they would leave by train for Paris the

next day, going to Douarnenez that evening. They had saved nothing from

the yacht.

Delia did not speak. She was pale, composed now. In the hotel Mr.

Gasgoyne arranged for rooms, while Gaston got some sailors together,

and, in Mr. Gasgoyne’s name, offered a price for the recovery of the

yacht or of certain things in her. Then he went into the hotel to see if

he could do anything further. The door of the sitting-room was open, and

no answer coming to his knock, he entered.

Delia was standing in the window. Against her will her father had gone

to find a doctor. Gaston would have drawn back if she had not turned

round wearily to him.

Perhaps it were well to get it over now. He came forward. She made no

motion.

“I hope you feel better?” he said. “It was a bad accident.”

“I am tired and shaken, of course,” she responded. “It was very brave of

you.”

He hesitated, then said:

“We were more fortunate than brave.”

He was determined to have Andree included. She deserved that; the wrong

to Delia was not hers.

But she answered after the manner of a woman: “The girl--ah, yes, please

thank her for us. What is her name?”

“She is known in Audierne as Madame Belward.” The girl started. Her

face had a cold, scornful pride. “The Bretons, then, have a taste for

fiction?”

“No, they speak as they are taught.”

“They understand, then, as little as I.”

How proud, how ineffaceably superior she was!

“Be ignorant for ever,” he answered quietly.

“I do not need the counsel, believe me.”

Her hand trembled, though it rested against the window-trembled with

indignation: the insult of his elopement kept beating up her throat in

spite of her.

At that moment a servant knocked, entered, and said that a parcel

had been brought for mademoiselle. It was laid upon the table.

Delia, wondering, ordered it to be opened. A bundle of clothes was

disclosed--Andree’s! Gaston recognised them, and caught his breath with

wonder and confusion.

“Who has sent them?” Delia said to the servant. “They come from the

Chateau Ronan, mademoiselle.”

Delia dismissed the servant.

“The Chateau Ronan?” she asked of Gaston. “Where I am living.”

“It is not necessary to speak of this?” She flushed.

“Not at all. I will have them sent back. There is a little shop near by

where you can get what you may need.”

Andree had acted according to her lights. It was not an olive-branch,

but a touch of primitive hospitality. She was Delia’s enemy at sight,

but a woman must have linen.

Mr. Gasgoyne entered. Gaston prepared to go. “Is there anything more

that I can do?” he said, as it were, to both.

The girl replied. “Nothing at all, thank you.” They did not shake hands.

Mr. Gasgoyne could not think that all had necessarily ended. The thing

might be patched up one day yet. This affair with the dompteuse was mad

sailing, but the man might round-to suddenly and be no worse for the

escapade.

“We are going early in the morning,” he said. “We can get along all

right. Good-bye. When do you come to England?”

The reply was prompt. “In a few weeks.”

He looked at both. The girl, seeing that he was going to speak further,

bowed and left the room.

His eyes followed her. After a moment, he said firmly

“Mr. Gasgoyne, I am going to face all.”

“To live it down, Belward?”

“I am going to fight it down.”

“Well, there’s a difference. You have made a mess of things, and shocked

us all. I needn’t say what more. It’s done, and now you know what such

things mean to a good woman--and, I hope also, to the father of a good

woman.”

The man’s voice broke a little. He added:

“They used to come to swords or pistols on such points. We can’t settle

it in that way. Anyhow, you have handicapped us to-day.” Then, with

a burst of reproach, indignation, and trouble: “Great God, as if

you hadn’t been the luckiest man on earth! Delia, the estate, the

Commons--all for a dompteuse!”

“Let us say nothing more,” said Gaston, choking down wrath at the

reference to Andree, but sorrowful, and pitying Mr. Gasgoyne. Besides,

the man had a right to rail.

Soon after they parted courteously.

Gaston went to the chateau. As he came up the stone steps he met a

procession--it was the feast-day of the Virgin--of priests and people

and little children, filing up from the village and the sea, singing as

they came. He drew up to the wall, stood upon the stone seat, and took

off his hat while the procession passed. He had met the cure, first

accidentally on the shore, and afterwards in the cure’s house, finding

much in common--he had known many priests in the North, known much good

of them. The cure glanced up at him now as they passed, and a half-sad

smile crossed his face. Gaston caught it as it passed. The cure read

his case truly enough and gently enough too. In some wise hour he would

plead with Gaston for the woman’s soul and his own.

Gaston did not find Andree at the chateau. She had gone out alone

towards the sea, Annette said, by a route at the rear of the village. He

went also, but did not find her. As he came again to the quay he saw

the Kismet beating upon the rocks--the sailors had given up any idea

of saving her. He stood and watched the sea breaking over her, and

the whole scene flashed back on him. He thought how easily he could be

sentimental over the thing. But that was not his nature. He had made his

bed, but he would not lie in it--he would carry it on his back. They all

said that he had gone on the rocks. He laughed.

“I can turn that tide: I can make things come my way,” he said. “All

they want is sensation, it isn’t morals that concerns them. Well, IT

give them sensation. They expect me to hide, and drop out of the game.

Never--so help me Heaven! I’ll play it so they’ll forget this!”

He rolled and lighted a cigarette, and went again to the chateau. Dinner

was ready--had been ready for some time. He sat down, and presently

Andree came. There was a look in her face that he could not understand.

They ate their dinner quietly, not mentioning the events of the

afternoon.

Presently a telegram was brought to him. It read: “Come. My office,

Downing Street, Friday. Expect you.” It was signed “Faramond.” At the

same time came letters: from his grandfather, from Captain Maudsley. The

first was stern, imperious, reproachful.--Shame for those that took him

in and made him, a ruined reputation, a spoiled tradition: he had been

but a heathen after all! There was only left to bid him farewell, and to

enclose a cheque for two thousand pounds.

Captain Maudsley called him a fool, and asked him what he meant to

do--hoped he would give up the woman at once, and come back. He owed

something to his position as Master of the Hounds--a tradition that

oughtn’t to be messed about.

There it all was: not a word about radical morality or immorality; but

the tradition of Family, the Commons, Master of the Hounds!

But there was another letter. He did not recognise the handwriting, and

the envelope had a black edge. He turned it over and over, forgetting

that Andree was watching him. Looking up, he caught her eyes, with

their strange, sad look. She guessed what was in these letters. She knew

English well enough to under stand them. He interpreted her look, and

pushed them over.

“You may read them, if you wish; but I wouldn’t, if I were you.”

She read the telegram first, and asked who “Faramond” was. Then she read

Sir William Belward’s letter, and afterwards Captain Maudsley’s.

“It has all come at once,” she said: “the girl and these! What will you

do? Give ‘the woman’ up for the honour of the Master of the Hounds?”

The tone was bitter, exasperating. Gaston was patient.

“What do you think, Andree?”

“It has only begun,” she said. “Wait, King of Ys. Read that other

letter.”

Her eyes were fascinated by the black border. He opened it with a

strange slowness. It began without any form of address, it had the

superscription of a street in Manchester Square:

If you were not in deep trouble I would not write. But because I

know that more hard things than kind will be said by others, I want

to say what is in my heart, which is quick to feel for you. I know

that you have sinned, but I pray for you every day, and I cannot

believe that God will not answer. Oh! think of the wrong that you

have done: of the wrong to the girl, to her soul’s good. Think of

that, and right the wrong in so far as you can. Oh, Gaston, my

brother, I need not explain why I write thus. My grandfather,

before he died, three weeks ago, told me that you know!--and I also

have known ever since the day you saved the boy. Ah, think of one

who would give years of her life to see you good and noble and

happy....

Then followed a deep, sincere appeal to his manhood, and afterwards a

wish that their real relations should be made known to the world if he

needed her, or if disaster came; that she might share and comfort his

life, whatever it might be. Then again:

If you love her, and she loves you, and is sorry for what she has

done, marry her and save her from everlasting shame. I am staying

with my grandfather’s cousin, the Dean of Dighbury, the father of

the boy you saved. He is very kind, and he knows all. May God

guide you aright, and may you believe that no one speaks more

truthfully to you than your sorrowful and affectionate sister,

ALICE WINGFIELD.

He put the letter down beside him, made a cigarette, and poured out some

coffee for them both. He was holding himself with a tight hand. This

letter had touched him as nothing in his life had done since his

father’s death. It had nothing of noblesse oblige, but straight

statement of wrong, as she saw it. And a sister without an open right

to the title: the mere fidelity of blood! His father had brought this

sorrowful life into the world and he had made it more sorrowful--poor

little thing--poor girl!

“What are you going to do?” asked Andree. “Do you go back--with Delia?”

He winced. Yet why should he expect of her too great refinement? She

had not had a chance, she had not the stuff for it in her veins; she had

never been taught. But behind it all was her passion--her love--for him.

“You know that’s altogether impossible!” he answered.

“She would not take you back.”

“Probably not. She has pride.”

“Pride-chat! She’d jump at the chance!”

“That sounds rude, Andree; and it is contradictory.”

“Rude! Well, I’m only a gipsy and a dompteuse!”

“Is that all, my girl?”

“That’s all, now.” Then, with a sudden change and a quick sob: “But I

may be--Oh, I can’t say it, Gaston!” She hid her face for a moment on

his shoulder. “My God!”

He got to his feet. He had not thought of that--of another besides

themselves. He had drifted. A hundred ideas ran back and forth. He went

to the window and stood looking out. Alice’s letter was still in his

fingers.

She came and touched his shoulder.

“Are you going to leave me, Gaston? What does that letter say?”

He looked at her kindly, with a protective tenderness.

“Read the letter, Andree,” he said.

She did so, at first slowly, then quickly, then over and over again.

He stood motionless in the window. She pushed the letter between his

fingers. He did not turn. “I cannot understand everything, but what she

says she means. Oh, Gaston, what a fool, what a fool you’ve been!”

After a moment, however, she threw her arms about him with animal-like

fierceness.

“But I can’t give you up--I can’t.” Then, with another of those sudden

changes, she added, with a wild little laugh: “I can’t, I can’t, O

Master of the Hounds!”

There came a knock at the door. Annette entered with a letter. The

postman had not delivered it on his rounds, because the address was not

correct. It was for madame. Andree took it, started at the handwriting,

tore open the envelope, and read:

Zoug-Zoug congratulates you on the conquest of his nephew. Zoug--

Zoug’s name is not George Maur, as you knew him. Allah’s blessing,

with Zoug-Zoug’s!

What fame you’ve got now--dompteuse, and the sweet scandal!

The journalist had found out Zoug-Zoug at last, and Ian Belward had

talked with the manager of the menagerie.

Andree shuddered and put the letter in her pocket. Now she understood

why she had shrunk from Gaston that first night and those first days

in Audierne: that strange sixth sense, divination--vague, helpless

prescience. And here, suddenly, she shrank again, but with a different

thought. She hurriedly left the room and went to her chamber.

In a few moments he came to her. She was sitting upright in a chair,

looking straight before her. Her lips were bloodless, her eyes were

burning. He came and took her hands.

“What is it, Andree?” he said. “That letter, what is it?”

She looked at him steadily. “You’ll be sorry if you read it.” But she

gave it to him. He lighted a candle, put it on a little table, sat down,

and read. The shock went deep; so deep that it made no violent sign on

the surface. He spread the letter out before him. The candle showed

his face gone grey and knotted with misery. He could bear all the rest:

fight, do all that was right to the coming mother of his child; but this

made him sick and dizzy. He felt as he did when he waked up in Labrador,

with his wife’s dead lips pressed to his neck. It was strange too that

Andree was as quiet as he: no storm-misery had gone deep with her also.

“Do you care to tell me about it?” he asked.

She sat back in her chair, her hands over her eyes. Presently, still

sitting so, she spoke.

Ian Belward had painted them and their van in the hills of Auvergne, and

had persuaded her to sit for a picture. He had treated her courteously

at first. Her father was taken ill suddenly, and died. She was alone

for a few days afterwards. Ian Belward came to her. Of that miserable,

heart-rending, cruel time,--the life-sorrow of a defenceless

girl,--Gaston heard with a hard sort of coldness. The promised marriage

was a matter for the man’s mirth a week later. They came across three

young artists from Paris--Bagshot, Fancourt, and another--who camped one

night beside them. It was then she fully realised the deep shame of her

position. The next night she ran away and joined a travelling menagerie.

The rest he knew. When she had ended there was silence for a time,

broken only by one quick gasping sob from Gaston. The girl sat still as

death, her eyes on him intently.

“Poor Andree! Poor girl!” he said at last. She sighed pitifully.

“What shall we do?” she asked. He scarcely spoke above a whisper:

“There must be time to think. I will go to London.”

“You will come back?”

“Yes--in five days, if I live.”

“I believe you,” she said quietly. “You never lied to me. When you

return we will know what to do.” Her manner was strangely quiet. “A

little trading schooner goes from Douarnenez to England to-morrow

morning,” she went on. “There is a notice of it in the market-place.

That would save the journey to Paris.’”

“Yes, that will do very well. I will start for Douarnenez at once.”

“Will Jacques go too?”

“No.”

An hour later he passed Delia and her father on the road to Douarnenez.

He did not recognise them, but Delia, seeing him, shrank away in a

corner of the carriage, trembling.

Jacques had wished to go to London with Gaston, but had been denied. He

was to care for the horses. When he saw his master ride down over the

place, waving a hand back towards him, he came in and said to Andree:

“Madame, there is trouble--I do not know what. But I once said I would

never leave him, wherever he go or whatever he did. Well, I never will

leave him--or you, madame--no.”

“That is right, that is right,” she said earnestly; “you must never

leave him, Jacques. He is a good man.”

When Jacques had gone she shut herself up in her room. She was gathering

all her life into the compass of an hour. She felt but one thing: the

ruin of her happiness and Gaston’s.

“He is a good man,” she said over and over to herself. And the

other--Ian Belward? All the barbarian in her was alive.

The next morning she started for Paris, saying to Jacques and Annette

that she would return in four days.

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